Rushing into the living room why did people insist on ringing when she was attempting to get ready? Her hair wasn't dry and she still had her make up to do. She was never got to make the early bus at this rate. Not that she was going anywhere important or was going to be late for anything but she'd stayed in bed longer than she told herself she would. Today was her only day off this week and she really needed to go into the town. Time was running out and she didn't know when she'd get another chance to get those few things she kept putting off and even if she did get the chance she highly doubted she'd have the energy. At 34 weeks she had just two more weeks until maternity leave but by then she did not fancy trying to get round the shops at that stage it was already difficult enough.. Although she wasn't sure how it was possible to get any bigger but Megan had reminded her she said that four weeks ago and lord knows how much she'd grown since then. Pulling down her jumper as she grabbed for the phone she only hoped it wasn't her mother. She couldn't be doing with her right now. She had little patience as it was.
"Hello?"
"Hello. Lisa is that you?" Lisa? Not many people called her that and very few men. Who the heck was this?At least it wasn't her mother that was something at least. Maybe if she hadn't only got up ten minutes ago she might of realized quicker...if only.
"Yes, who is this?" He could hear the worry in her voice but she obviously hadn't even considered he'd call. If she had he got the awful feeling she'd have hung up already. But he couldn't just sit in London and forget about her. As much as he tried it just wasn't him. He needed to talk to her, he wanted to be there for her and the baby. But it was going to have some job convincing her that he really did want to be there. She was definitely the most stubborn woman he'd ever dated.
"Before I tell you don't hang up on me. Listen to me first." That was all she needed to hear. This could only be one person and she finally realized who the voice belonged to. It could only be Andrew and she only wished she hadn't answered the phone. Her breathing quickens as she nearly yells down the phone at him. Just wanting to scare him off.
"Andrew! For gods sake leave me alone." Pulling her hair out of her face she just couldn't do this. Nothing he said could make her trust him again. She'd let herself trust one too many people that she shouldn't have. No one would make her do that again. It wasn't just herself she had to protect any more. She couldn't let herself feel anything for him any more. Relationships just caused pain and she'd had her fair share of that already..
"No I'm sorry but I can't just forget about you. It's my baby too you know. I have a right to be there! I want to be there." He was quickly running out of time to make her see sense. Once she'd given birth he knew that wall she was building around herself would be near impossible to break down. Lisa had always been a very wary person even before she got pregnant. She always kept him at arms length and he did get the impression she used him just for sex. Not on purpose but she never let him close enough to find out more about her or why she was the way she was. It drove him mad now but back then he wasn't looking for a serious relationship and was using her just as much as she was using him. He didn't even think about it in the slightest. As she already pointed out he was more interested in going up in his career. But everything was different now and he had to get that through to her. They'd both behaved like children and that couldn't go on. They needed to be on good terms, he'd accepted just been able to be there with her even if he wanted more than that.
"I know that! It's hard to forget! Believe me I've tried! But you picked work Andrew. Work was always more important to you! This baby is not coming second to you! I've told you this all before and your just not listening. I'm not going through this again Andrew. You just don't get it and I doubt you ever will!"
"Work does not come first Lisa! Of course the baby comes first. The baby always came first! Need I remind you it was you that finished it?! Not me. I didn't want to leave. I made that very clear but you didn't want me anywhere near you."
"Oh yeah?! Then why did you? I didn't tell you to go to London! You were going no matter what I did or said Andrew. You know that. The fact that I'm pregnant didn't even make you stop to consider staying in Holby. You didn't even talk about London with me. You told me! We were never going to work. All I did was refuse to go with you and refuse to allow you to just be a weekend dad. I'm not going through this again. I don't want to hear from you any more Andrew. If I do I will change my number! Just leave it!" With that she was gone. The line completely dead. He wasn't going to get through to her through a phone or a letter. Not a hope. He only had one more option and she wasn't going to like it.
It didn't matter how much she attempted to explain it to Andrew he just listened to what he wanted to hear. She didn't set out to finish with him that day. Of course she'd rather her child had their father in their life. Every mother wants that and she knew herself how tough not having a father could be. But the last thing she wanted was for him to constantly let the child down and she didn't see how that was not going to happen. He let her down straight away. The one time when she needed him the most, even if she didn't realize at the time, was when she found out she was pregnant and what did he do? Ran straight to London for that bloody job interview. Yes she told him to go but nothing she said would have mad a difference anyway. He didn't even come straight back he stayed and partied with his friends. She knew over that week what her life would be like and she wasn't standing up for it. It wasn't easy and hurt but she had to do the best for her child and herself. Andrew was not going to change and had already proved he hadn't changed in the months they'd been apart. The longer he took to realize that the harder it was going to be.
He didn't even consider stopping and thinking about what she'd just said, even if it was the most open she'd been and the hardest she'd tried to make him understand. Instead he just began to grab his stuff and flung it into a suitcase. There was a hotel close to where Lisa stayed that would have a room free at this time of the year. He had to go back to Holby and this time he wasn't leaving until this was all sorted. He was due a lot of time off and work was sure to understand. They did know his ex was pregnant after all, not that it was his choice to tell them. Vicky saw to that but nothing else mattered right now. He was going to step up and be there even if he wasn't welcome in the slightest.