The Wall- The Trial
The trial will come some day. Some day while we smile and laugh, while we shout
and cry, while we live and smile, we will die.
Will it be quick? An explsion, a vampire attack, a car crash?
Will it be slow? Killed off one by one with disease and old age as our foes?
Will we die as martyrs for our cause?
~ Good morning, The Worm, Your Honour, ~
~ The Crown will plainly show, ~
~ The prisoner who now stands before you, ~
~ Was caught red-handed showing feelings. ~
~ Showing feelings of an almost human nature. ~
~ This will not do. ~
What about the afterlife? Heaven or Hell? Some place where no monsters live and
you live in bliss forever? Or a heavenly battleground where we defend good
forever?
Or maybe a trial.
~ Call the schoolmaster! ~
A place where we would be tried for our crimes in life, in the hope that be
would recive eternal salvation. Or eternal damnation.
~ I always said he'd come to no good, ~
~ In the end, Your Honour. ~
~ If they'd let me have my way, ~
~ I could have flayed him into shape. ~
~ But my hands were tied. ~
~ The bleeding hearts and artists, ~
~ Let him get away with murder. ~
~ Let me hammer him today. ~
Our teachers, our parents, our loves, our friends and our victumes testifing
against us. Or for us.
I'm not sure on that yet.
I don't know if I ever will be.
~ Crazy. ~
~ Toys in the attic, I am crazy. ~
~ Truly gone fishing. ~
~ They must have taken my marbles away. ~
~ Crazy. ~
~ (Toys in the attic, he is crazy.) ~
What can I plead?
Guilty?
Innocent?
Or maybe we'll just plead insanity.....
~ You little shit, you're in it now. ~
~ I hope they throw away the key. ~
~ You should've talked to me more often than you did. ~
~ But no! You had to go your own way. ~
~ Have you broken any homes up lately? ~
~ Just five minutes, Worm, Your Honour, ~
~ Him and me alone. ~
Would I be able to just sit there at my table, listening to the insults, watching
as those who I thought were my friends sell me down the river for a chance at a
heaven i'll never see.
Would I do the same?
~ Baaaaaabe! ~
~ Come to Mother, baby. ~
~ Let me hold you in my arms. ~
~ M'Lord, I never meant for him to get in any trouble. ~
~ Why'd he ever have to leave me? ~
~ Worm, Your Honour, let me take him home. ~
Could I testify against anyone of my friends? Against my soulmate?
I don't know.
Gods help me. Maybe I would.
~ Crazy. ~
~ Over the rainbow, I am crazy. ~
~ Bars in the window. ~
~ There must have been a door there in the wall. ~
~ For when I came in. ~
~ Crazy. ~
~ (Over the rainbow, he is crazy.) ~
When death comes, I'd like to promise that we'd be together. That we'd have
children and grandchildren and even great-grandchildren. That we would be
happyly married, that we would face death with our head held high and smiles of
delight on our faces.
But I can't. I can't even promise to protect you.
~ The evidence before the court is incontrovertible. ~
~ There's no need for the jury to retire. ~
~ In all my years of judging I have never heard before, ~
~ Of someone more deserving of the full penalty of the law. ~
~ The way you made them suffer, ~
~ Your exquisite wife and mother, ~
~ Fills me with the urge to defecate! ~
~ (No, Judge, the jury! ) ~
~ Since, my friend, you have revealed your deepest fear, ~
~ I sentence you to be exposed before your peers. ~
~ Tear down the wall! ~
We all have a wall build around us. A wall that hides our emotions from each
other. The things we really feel and think. I lets us work with people that we
don't like. Lets us love without destroying it. Keeps us sane.
Death will bring that wall down.
And then we will see inside us all.
I don't want to see.
I don't want to know if Willow loves me. I don't want to know if Xander resents
me for treating him like I did. I don't want to know if Angel could ever forgive
himself for what he did to me. I won't. I don't want to know if Buffy still hates
me for all the times I lied to her. If Anya would kill us all if she could. I
don't want to see what Spike would do if he was free from the chip. I don't want
to know what Giles thinks of me. I want to stay inside the wall.
Please, let me stay inside the wall.
Disclamer: I don't own the Wall. I don't own Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I only
have the peices of my shattered illsions and my scraps of sanity.
The trial will come some day. Some day while we smile and laugh, while we shout
and cry, while we live and smile, we will die.
Will it be quick? An explsion, a vampire attack, a car crash?
Will it be slow? Killed off one by one with disease and old age as our foes?
Will we die as martyrs for our cause?
~ Good morning, The Worm, Your Honour, ~
~ The Crown will plainly show, ~
~ The prisoner who now stands before you, ~
~ Was caught red-handed showing feelings. ~
~ Showing feelings of an almost human nature. ~
~ This will not do. ~
What about the afterlife? Heaven or Hell? Some place where no monsters live and
you live in bliss forever? Or a heavenly battleground where we defend good
forever?
Or maybe a trial.
~ Call the schoolmaster! ~
A place where we would be tried for our crimes in life, in the hope that be
would recive eternal salvation. Or eternal damnation.
~ I always said he'd come to no good, ~
~ In the end, Your Honour. ~
~ If they'd let me have my way, ~
~ I could have flayed him into shape. ~
~ But my hands were tied. ~
~ The bleeding hearts and artists, ~
~ Let him get away with murder. ~
~ Let me hammer him today. ~
Our teachers, our parents, our loves, our friends and our victumes testifing
against us. Or for us.
I'm not sure on that yet.
I don't know if I ever will be.
~ Crazy. ~
~ Toys in the attic, I am crazy. ~
~ Truly gone fishing. ~
~ They must have taken my marbles away. ~
~ Crazy. ~
~ (Toys in the attic, he is crazy.) ~
What can I plead?
Guilty?
Innocent?
Or maybe we'll just plead insanity.....
~ You little shit, you're in it now. ~
~ I hope they throw away the key. ~
~ You should've talked to me more often than you did. ~
~ But no! You had to go your own way. ~
~ Have you broken any homes up lately? ~
~ Just five minutes, Worm, Your Honour, ~
~ Him and me alone. ~
Would I be able to just sit there at my table, listening to the insults, watching
as those who I thought were my friends sell me down the river for a chance at a
heaven i'll never see.
Would I do the same?
~ Baaaaaabe! ~
~ Come to Mother, baby. ~
~ Let me hold you in my arms. ~
~ M'Lord, I never meant for him to get in any trouble. ~
~ Why'd he ever have to leave me? ~
~ Worm, Your Honour, let me take him home. ~
Could I testify against anyone of my friends? Against my soulmate?
I don't know.
Gods help me. Maybe I would.
~ Crazy. ~
~ Over the rainbow, I am crazy. ~
~ Bars in the window. ~
~ There must have been a door there in the wall. ~
~ For when I came in. ~
~ Crazy. ~
~ (Over the rainbow, he is crazy.) ~
When death comes, I'd like to promise that we'd be together. That we'd have
children and grandchildren and even great-grandchildren. That we would be
happyly married, that we would face death with our head held high and smiles of
delight on our faces.
But I can't. I can't even promise to protect you.
~ The evidence before the court is incontrovertible. ~
~ There's no need for the jury to retire. ~
~ In all my years of judging I have never heard before, ~
~ Of someone more deserving of the full penalty of the law. ~
~ The way you made them suffer, ~
~ Your exquisite wife and mother, ~
~ Fills me with the urge to defecate! ~
~ (No, Judge, the jury! ) ~
~ Since, my friend, you have revealed your deepest fear, ~
~ I sentence you to be exposed before your peers. ~
~ Tear down the wall! ~
We all have a wall build around us. A wall that hides our emotions from each
other. The things we really feel and think. I lets us work with people that we
don't like. Lets us love without destroying it. Keeps us sane.
Death will bring that wall down.
And then we will see inside us all.
I don't want to see.
I don't want to know if Willow loves me. I don't want to know if Xander resents
me for treating him like I did. I don't want to know if Angel could ever forgive
himself for what he did to me. I won't. I don't want to know if Buffy still hates
me for all the times I lied to her. If Anya would kill us all if she could. I
don't want to see what Spike would do if he was free from the chip. I don't want
to know what Giles thinks of me. I want to stay inside the wall.
Please, let me stay inside the wall.
Disclamer: I don't own the Wall. I don't own Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I only
have the peices of my shattered illsions and my scraps of sanity.