Amu's P.O.V
I was angry. I was sad. I was confused. Lost. Dazed. Happy. Sad. Lonely. All these feelings swum through me as I picked up the paint brush and dipped in it the perfectly Azure colored paint.
My crazily decorated room was covered in tarps to shield it away from the permanent paint, and I was currently standing on a latter, my brush nearly touching the boring white ceiling.
I took a deep breath, and let the brush take over.
I swirled the paint, putting it in the exact place I wanted it, but not really knowing what I wanted to paint. My mind was free and no longer was it my will what it would turn out to be. It was the brushes.
I released all the pent up feelings that were swirling through my chest. Because of last night. Because of Ikuto. Because I was denying what I had wanted so badly in the first place.
A mixture of the art flowing out of me, and the music flowing into me, made my eyes shut and focus on what happened last night….
Flashback
I watched Yaya disappear behind the back of the building, and I knew she needed to do this on her own. I could see it in his eyes that he wanted her more then anything, but I knew that something was holding him back. It was keeping him from what he truly desired. And what he desired was her.
Taking a deep breath, I went over to the concession stand to get a drink. The whole Angels' Delight ordeal had been sorted out, well, somewhat. While Kukai was trying to get it, Ikuto stole both of them, and disappeared.
So really, no one won.
Anyways, I got a cold drink of pink lemonade and observed the party. Everyone was happy and enjoying themselves and that was what I wanted for my pack. Their happiness was mine.
The music suddenly turned slow, and couples gathered together, dancing slowly in the company of each others arms. Mates stared at each other with so much love that it seemed like in that very moment, nothing could get in the way.
Something I had always envied. Something I did envy. They had something that I never could have.
I watched them dance until I felt a light tap on my shoulder. Immediately, I turned, hoping it was Ikuto, but I was somewhat disappointed to see Yoru standing there instead. I shouldn't be disappointed, I should be glad! It's not Ikuto! Yeah…it's not Ikuto…
"May I have this dance?" he asked me, holding out his hand with a devilish smirk on his face. I take it, smiling lightly, and let him lead me to the dance floor. He takes one hand, while the other comes to rest on my waist, ever so lightly.
We slowly move in sync to the music in a comfortable silence.
"You look beautiful tonight," he says, smiling with an expression on his face I can't quite name. I give him a big smile.
"Thanks. You know the girls; they won't let me go out without looking at least half way decent."
"You always look more then half way decent, no matter what you wear," he says, a light blush coming onto his cheeks. I laugh lightly, feeling a little warm in the cheeks myself.
It's silent again.
"Yoru, do you ever wonder about your mate?" I ask him. His eyes darken ever so slightly, but I blamed it on the lighting.
"Of course I do, I think about it every day." he says.
"Why don't you go out and look for her?" I ask. He looks at me, I mean, really looks at me for quite some time. He opens him mouth, closes it, and then opens it again.
"Look, Amu-" he starts, before he is cut off by someone yanking me away, gently, and whisking me away.
"Hey!" I yell as I see who it is. He just completely ignores me and takes me to the edge of the woods, where you can see the party, but can't be easily seen. I see Yoru looking around, but unable to follow our scent with all the people around. He then disappears into the crowd.
"Your not allowed to dance with others," Ikuto murmurs into my ear as he stands right beside me. My wolf perks up at the close contact. His breath against my ear, his heartbeat close enough for me to hear it, and his scent surrounding me.
"I can do what I want," I say defiantly, like a spoiled child.
"You can't. Your mine." he says, his lips almost touching my ear. He spins me around, and holds me tightly against him, both hands securely on my waist, holding me tightly, yet softly. Im so pressed up against him that my hands are on his chest, his strong heartbeat against my tiny hand.
It's so overwhelming. Im so engulfed by him. His scent, his touch, his love that radiates off him.
"Im my own person," I reply weakly. My cheeks are flaming. He chuckles softly, and grips me tighter. It's silent for quite some time. I relax in his arms, my hands sliding up until they are loosely resting on his shoulders. Im reminded that I am an absolute dwarf compared to him. But his body was still perfectly fit for mine.
Another slow song started, and he started swaying with me. A smile creeped up on my face and my arms shifted so they were loosely around his neck.
He rested his face against the top of my head and inhaled my scent, smiling into my hair.
"I could stay like this forever," he said softly, and I didn't know whether it was to me or to himself.
'I could too,' my wolf purred, loving this close of contact with him. Loving absolutely every second of it. I wanted to tell him that I wanted to too, but the words were caught in my throat and my own pride kept me from saying it.
He stopped swaying in backed away half a step, leaning down so our foreheads were together, but he was still higher up then me. I examined him, seeing that his cheeks were more red then usual.
"I wish this moment wouldn't end. I wish that you wouldn't come back to your senses for once and break the connection that you know that both of us have." he whispers, so softly, and so sweetly into my ear.
"I wish that I could love you."
It wasn't until the second the words escaped my lips that I realized what I had done. He looked down at me with sharpness, a pure intensity, almost power radiating from him.
"Nothing is stopping you." he said, before crashing his lips against mine. I don't know if maybe it was daze that he put me in, or maybe the pure longing I wanted for it to happen every time I saw him, but I kissed back.
I kissed back the loneliness. Kissed back the rejected love. Kissed back with every fiber of hope in my body.
And he took that loneliness, and that rejected love, and that hope and turned it into adoration, and acceptance, and love. He wordlessly told me what words themselves couldn't say.
I felt love, pure love for the first time in a long time.
In such a long time.
Ikuto pulled back, holding me so tightly in his arms that I felt like nothing would ever be able to touch me.
Then the reality of the whole situation came crashing in like it usually does. Slowly, I pulled back. But this time was different from the others.
I wouldn't reject him. I knew I couldn't at this point. He knew that I couldn't. He knew ME.
I stare up into his Azure colored eyes and see an intense love. A love I don't want to kill anymore.
"Prove it to me, Ikuto," I say, knowing that he knows what I mean. "Prove it to me your not the asshole that rejected me," I say.
And before a word comes out of his mouth, I kiss it.
"And hurry, I might get sick of waiting," I say.
Then I just turn and walk away.
End of Flashback
I was scared. Not scared, terrified out of my mind is more like it. Scared that he would break my heart again. Scared that he would break me again.
I was scared of the love I knew we could have.
I open my eyes and see what I had painted. It was clashing forces between black and Azure with hints of pink in both. A heart was formed out of both them, but it was delicate and cracked.
And both forces could break it if they weren't careful.
We had a lot of things ahead of us. I had to see if Ikuto and I really had a chance. I had to see how the relationships would end up or if they were doomed to fail. I had to see what would happen to my pack. To the packs around us. To my new found family. I had a lot of things that I needed to find out. To discover and to protect.
And I needed to know if I could do it on my own.
I lay on my tarp covered bed, staring at my newly painted ceiling, until my eyes closed and I was whisked away to another place.
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Midori's P.O.V
"Yes, Im fine, Tsumugu. No I haven't had another episode. I have been taking my pills. I have also been listening to my doctor! Stop treating me like a child!" I say into the phone as I talk to my mate.
It has been hard with him away, and I feel bad that the first time I talk to him I end up snapping at him. He doesn't deserve that. It's just so hard when he isn't around. I feel so lost, and so lonely. I don't sleep very well, and im never hungry.
Which just makes my doctor worry.
Which just makes my mate worry.
It's just a chain effect.
'Im sorry, darling, I just want to know that you are okay. I miss you terribly,' he says softly over the phone.
My heart practically melts.
"I miss you too," I say sweetly. "When will you be home?" I ask.
He is silent.
"I don't know yet. Actually, I was thinking you should come down with Ami to where im at. You would like it," he says. There is something hidden in his voice and I don't like it one bit.
"Tsumugu, you never let me come with you, why is this place different?" I ask suspiciously.
"It is a very safe place. It's in the middle of no where, really so it's secure. Very well hidden too," he says.
"I see, well, we will have to see. I think I need to go to bed, I will talk to you tomorrow, my love," I say sweetly.
"I love you," he says.
"I love you too, bye," I say, pushing the red end button.
What would make this place so safe?
Why did he seem so hesitant about it?
What is my husband hiding from me?
Secrets buried
10 feet deep
Always hindering
From restful sleep….
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