BOOO!
scared ya didn't i :p
right since a few of you read Unhuman Nature but don't read Hurt but not broken, i'll just copy the same lil speech i gave a few days ago as to where i have been. thanks to you all for being so supportive.
Okay, so I know some of you are pissed at me for not updating for so long but I was kinda out of it for a while.
Not long after my last update, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was only 23 at the time and a single mother of 2 with no support around me, so you can imagine the shock I got when I found out. I was a mess.
Anyway, it threw me in a spin for a while and while I tried to write to take my mind off things, it just didn't work.
Since then, I have had a double mastectomy and numerous other surgeries and I am extremely happy to be able to tell you all that I have beat cancer!
Some of you already know this and I would like to thank each and everyone of you who sent me messages and well wishes.
Those of you who sent me rude messages thinking I had just abandoned my stories, well... I forgive you.
I've recently started writing again. Can't promise it will be any good, but stick with me till I get my mojo back.
I'll also post a few things I wrote not long ago while trying to get back into writing. Got a finished Bella/Felix story an a one shot Bella/Caius that I'll be putting up soon
Paul
"Bella?" I asked as her eyes swam out of focus.
I heard all the air huff out of her lungs just before she crumpled to the floor.
"shit!….." I grabbed her and pulled her gently onto my lap "I ask you to marry me and you faint?" I chuckled.
I stroked back her hair from her face. The moonlight made her skin glow.
So beautiful.
The ring box was still in my hand. I shifted slightly and slipped it in my pocket.
The owl hooted behind us.
"Bellaaa" I cooed "you are kinda damaging my ego here….wake your cute butt up so you can say yes."
After ten minutes, I was getting worried.
"Bella!" I said a little sharper, shaking her shoulders slightly.
Her breathing and pulse were even. She looked like she was asleep.
I stood up and held her bridal style.
I jogged through the trees back to the beach and to where doctor leech was.
"Doc!" I called as I raced to his side.
Everyone stopped and stared before rushing over.
"what the hell happened?" asked Jake
"move back, give me some room please" the Doctor asked.
Most moved back slightly.
"she passed out" I told them.
The vamp doctor lifted her eye-lids and checked her vitals. ''was she in distress when she passed out?'' he asked ''scared or upset?''
I shook my head ''no we were... I was...''
''oh move aside, amateurs'' doctor Tinkerbell said sounding smug.
The vamp looked a little pissed. ''please, I know you mean well, but Bella needs my help right now. I am a doctor''
''so am I. Now shift your sparkly ass so I can wake her up'' Ash replied ''she's going to be really embarrassed as it is without you making a fuss over her''
doctor Cullen moved aside and frowned down at the younger cockier man.
''whats wrong with her?'' I asked him nervously.
''basically you shocked the shit out of her and she got a little overwhelmed'' Ash grinned ''and three.. two.. one..'' he touched her fore-head with his finger and she opened her eyes.
She looked round at everyone surrounding her and groaned, closing her eyes ''I fucking fainted!''
''Bella, honey? You okay?'' I asked, reaching out and stroking her arm.
''nothing to see here people, go back to your food and booze'' Ash said shooing both vampires and pack away.
My respect for him grew as he tried to give us a little privacy.
''Bella?'' I said again when she didn't answer.
''I'm sorry'' she said, sitting up and removing her hands from her face ''I cant believe I fainted! I am such a freak!''
''in all fairness, I did kinda spring it on you'' I chuckled, taking her hand in mine and kissing her knuckles.
''but it was so beautiful,'' she smiled ''it was perfect and... oh god, Paul yes!''
''yes?'' I asked. Did she mean...
''Yes!'' she cried happily as she threw herself into my arms and kissed me.
YES!
I kissed her like there was no tomorrow. The whole world disappeared around us. There was only me, her and our love.
She was going to be my wife! Mrs Isabella Jenkinson. Fuck I loved the sound of that!
''come on guys, the suspense is killing me'' Jared chuckled ''whats going on?''
Bella and I broke the kiss and I threw a can of soda at the little prick for interrupting us.
''idiot!'' Emily said and whacked him with a towel.
''I asked Bella to marry me and she said yes... eventually'' I grinned down at her.
Pulling out the box, I slipped the ring out and on to her finger. Perfect fit.
Her cheeks turned pink and we were immediately surrounded by people of all kinds, hugging us and congratulating us.
''Bella!'' Angela cried happily ''you're engaged! To a werewolf!''
''I know!'' Bella giggled back. I loved seeing her so happy.
''what about you?'' she asked Angela ''has Jared..?''
''he told me everything'' Angela grinned ''soul-mates. Can you believe it! Well obviously since you have your own, but damn. I feel like I am going to wake up and this all be some dream. I have liked him since I met him you know''
''I know'' Bella grinned and hugged her friend ''I'm so glad you are a wolf girl like me. You me and Emily are going to have so much fun!''
''welcome to Whipped-ville, boys!'' Sam called loudly ''its a damn good place to live''
we all laughed. It was crazy. All of us like this getting along.
There were four vamps here, Emmett, Rosalie, the doc and his wife. Two fairy-boys, five shape-shifters, one soon to be shape-shifter, and three human imprints.
''I have to call Kayla!'' Bella grinned up at me as she pulled out her mobile.
I smiled down at her and kissed her lips softly.
No matter what this red-headed leech would throw at us, we would get through it.
I pulled Bella onto my lap.
I couldn't wait to rub it in Edward the ass-knot's face that Bella had agreed to be my wife.
This would be good.
Bella
the phone rang three times before it was answered ''Bella? Is everything ok?'' Kayla asked.
''Paul proposed!'' I told her happily. I felt his arms wrap around my waist and him smile against my back.
''what! Seriously! Oh my god! What did you say?'' Kayla cried.
''I said yes of course'' I laughed ''did you expect anything else?''
''well knowing my brother, he could have fucked up in some way in the few hours since I saw you'' she giggled.
''thanks for the vote of confidence sis!'' Paul called out.
''I'm so happy for you guys! can I come over? I wanna celebrate with you''
''of course'' I grinned ''I would love that. Are you bringing Izzy?''
''no, I can call her granny. She lives close by and is always saying she wants to have her over night. I'll be there soon. And congratulations! Both of you''
''thanks sis'' Paul grinned and kissed my cheek.
''thank you'' I replied before ending the call.
''wanna call charlie?'' Paul asked.
''I think that might be a conversation to have face to face, don't you think?'' I asked, turning to head to see him better.
''you just wanna see me get shot, don't you'' he pouted.
I laughed and kissed his jaw ''I don't think so. Charlie loves you''
''I know'' he grinned smugly ''my life is fucking awesome right now''
''why? Found a new stick to play with?'' Alice said with a grin as the rest of the Cullen's arrived.
It was so strange to see them here on first beach.
''funny'' Paul replied ''no actually, I was just talking about how good things are now that Bella has agreed to be my wife'' he said the last part while staring right at Edward.
Shit this wasn't going to be good.
''you cant be serious!'' Edward growled.
I felt my eyes roll in annoyance ''Edward, I love Paul I love him. This isn't some silly little fling. I love him and want to marry him''
everyone was silent and still waiting for Edwards reply.
''Bella, a few weeks ago you loved me and wanted to marry me. Forgive me for thinking that you might just change your mind by next Tuesday''
that fucking prick!
Paul growled and glared at Edward. I could feel the tremors rolling through his hot body behind me but I rubbed my hands down his for-arms.
''a lot can happen in a few weeks. Trust me. And for the record, I have never wanted to marry you Edward. Never. The thought never eve crossed my mind, no matter how many times you begged me. What I felt for you is nowhere near what I feel for Paul''
Edward just stood there blinking at me looking hurt ''Bella.. please..''
''please what Edward!'' I got to my feet now and stood in-front of him ''we are over. Done. You made that decision remember? And I cant even begin to tell you how glad I am that you did. I finally feel whole. I belong somewhere, Edward. I belong here, with Paul He loves me and I love him. Stop this and just be happy for me why don't you. You said you wanted me to be happy and grow old. Have babies. I can have all of that and more with Paul''
Edwards jaw clenched. He was such a stubborn mother-fucker!
''the things he had you do though Bella'' he growled ''he took your virginity on a sofa I your fathers front room. He had sex with you in a gym closet at our school for Christ sakes! He's vile and doesn't deserve you''
''god! I wanted him to!'' I cried ''that's how we were at the start. We fought and we fucked. That was our thing. I would watch him when he argued with me and I had never wanted anyone as much as I wanted him. I always want him and I will always want him!''
hot arms slid around my waist and soft kisses pressed to my shoulder ''I'll always want you too, baby''
I leaned back into his chest and looked up at Edward ''no one said you have to like it, but you sure as shit have to deal with it. You can either be my friend, or not be in my life at all''
''well said!'' Ash grinned appearing beside Edward.
Edward jumped back in shock, so did the rest of the Cullen's
''what the fuck?'' jasper asked ''how the hell did you do that?''
Ash tapped his nose ''skill my sparkly friend''
''guys! Hello, I'm here!'' I heard Kayla call from just up the beach ''wheres my new sister? I need to hug her''
I laughed and ran up to meet her.
''AAAAAGHH THERE SHE IS!'' she screamed and threw her arms around me ''welcome to the family, sister!''
''thank you, thank you. I'm so happy!'' I giggled. ''though when he first asked me I totally passed out in shock!''
Kayla laughed and linked her arm through mine as we walked back towards the party.
''hey guys'' she smiled when we got closer.
''everyone who doesn't know her, this is my sister, Kayla'' Paul said as she hugged and kissed him.
''look who's all grown up and getting married! Yes he is!'' she cooed, pinching Paul's cheeks.
''Bella, help me baby!'' he cried, trying to dodge her while laughing.
''sorry hot stuff, you're on your own this time'' I winked.
We all turned when we heard tires screeching up on the road by Paul's house.
''human'' I heard jasper say.
''asshole'' Paul corrected.
We watched as a guy came towards us looking pissed ''what the fuck, Kayla?'' he said angrily ''you drop Iz off at my mothers and do a runner to come hand out with... whoever the fuck this lot is. I told you we were having a talk tonight''
what a dick.
''and I told you, I don't have anything to say'' Kayla replied ''my brother just got engaged so if you don't mind, this is a private party''
the man laughed harshly ''who the fuck would be dumb enough to say yes to that waste of space?''
ass-hole say what?
Paul looked pissed and stepped forward but Kayla stopped him.
The mans eyes ran over the female Cullen's before Angela and Emily. Finally they rested on me and he raised one eyebrow ''now why would a fine young thing like you want a messed up little fucker like him? Did he knock you up or something?''
''that's enough, Craig!'' Kayla said angrily ''you are ruining everyone's night. Just go home''
Sam and Jared were holding Paul back now.
''I don't think so'' her ex smiled ''see, until I get half of that money, I aint going nowhere and you can forget about me signing those damn divorce papers honey''
''Craig, just go. You have no business here. I'll talk to you tomorrow'' Kayla sighed. She looked so embarrassed.
''like I said, I don't think so''
''well I do'' Ash said suddenly, coming to stand beside Kayla
''who's this joker?'' Craig asked with a laugh ''been fucking cheating on me have you? Fucking slut. Should have known. That little brat doesn't even look like me. Bet the bitch isn't even mi...''
he didn't get a chance to finish before Ash's fist slammed into his face. I heard his teeth crack and flinched. I reached out and took Kayla's hand as Ash punched her ex again.
The fucker deserved it.
Blood poured from Craig's mouth and I saw all the vamps take a step back.
Ash clicked his fingers and they all relaxed. ''I cant smell the blood any-more'' Esme whispered to Rosalie who nodded and said she couldn't either.
Craig spat into his hands and I saw white teeth mingled with the blood.
I wanted to gag. Blood always had that effect on me.
''you stupid mother-fucker!'' Craig said angrily, though he looked scared and he was talking funny. ''you knocked my fucking teeth out!''
Ash smiled and wrapped his right arm around Kayla's shoulders ''I know. shouldn't have called Kayla a slut and you definitely shouldn't have said a bad word against that sweet little girl. You are going to go now and you are never going to interfere in their lives again, do you understand?''
Craig looked pissed but answered ''yes''
''good. Now apologize to Kayla for all the shit you have put her through then go''
''I'm sorry Kayla I shouldn't have done any of that to you. The cheating, the stealing, the lying. I'm sorry. I'll go now'' he turned and walked back up the beach without another word.
Everyone was silent.
Ash was fucking bad ass!
''looks like he wont be eating solids for a while'' Jacob laughed breaking the silence ''nice one man'' he nodded to Ash before walking back towards the food.
Kayla looked up at Ash then back at me.
Something suddenly clicked in my head.
I turned to face Nathan so fast my neck hurt ''puck, you sky mother-fucker. You knew! You said something earlier about buying Craig baby food. How did you know?''
''Paul man, calm down, he's gone'' Sam said behind me.
''yeah, and I'm fucking going after him. Now let me go!'' Paul growled.
''did you just growl?'' Kayla asked.
I moved over and wrapped my arms around Paul's middle and pressed kisses to his chest. He immediately began to calm down and the wolves released him and he wrapped his arms around me tightly.
''and you?'' I heard Kayla saying ''aren't you the Cullen's? I thought the elders banned your family or some shit. And I heard you too, Nathan. You said I should buy my ex some puree and now he has his teeth knocked out... What the fuck is going on here?''
uh oh. Looks like Kayla is about to be on the in crowd too.
Not too much happening in this chapter, but its a start. please review and i'm off to write something else. i'll also post a one shot i wrote not too long ago.
Rose :)