After a few hours Bren told everyone that they could come back to see Jonny tomorrow because she wanted to relax. Her mom and Roman's planned to get to know each other better since they were now bonded by their "precious grandson" and Bren knew she'd be in for it tomorrow when the two returned the next day. Everyone except Dean and Roman left. Why Dean was so adamant about staying she didn't know but she wasn't going to force him to leave she didn't have the strength.
"I need to go take a shower can you feed him for me?" Bren asked Roman as he followed her upstairs with an arm full of bags from their family as welcome home gifts for Bren and Jonny.
"Yeah I got him, but I wanted to know if you planned to breastfeed him at all? I'm not saying you have to or anything, but I know it's better for babies."Roman was in complete daddy-mode and it honestly looked cute on him.
"I hadn't really thought about it that much. But I did get a breast pump so I guess I'll try it out after my shower." He just stood in front of her not saying a word. But there was clearly something on his mind.
"What's up, Ro? You look like you wanna say something else." He didn't say a word he just took a step closer to her and proceeded to kiss the breath out of her. When he pulled back he pressed his forehead against hers.
"Thank you for giving me a beautiful, healthy baby boy. I don't know how I'll ever be able to thank you enough for him." He then gave her another small peck and walked out of her room closing the door behind him.
Meanwhile downstairs Dean was bonding with his godson.
"You are really cute for a kid that has more wrinkles than I do, but maybe I'm just biased because you're my godson." He let a slight chuckle slip through his lips because he knew for a fact Jonny didn't have the slightest idea what he was saying, but he was bonding with his godson damn it. "You know what now that I have your attention I just want you to know that I'm going to be your favorite uncle. There's going to be this other guy with a weird voice and even weirder hair that's going to try to convince you that he's better than me, but you'll know that nobody is better than your uncle D! When you get older don't let him talk you into CrossFit either, its a very scary thing that no sane person should do. And with you being my little buddy that means you're sane so we'll let uncle Seth know that we ain't doing no CrossFit."
Roman came down the stairs to see Dean holding Jonny as he was talking to him. He quickly took out his phone and started recording the scene because it was cute, and for future blackmail. Dean ended their conversation with a tiny fist bump, and that's when Roman made his presence known.
"He's not even a week old and you're already warning him about Seth and CrossFit? Damn Dean, give him a chance to be able to hold his head up by himself first." He chuckled as he sat next to Dean on the couch.
"Man whatever I'm just looking out for him. I wouldn't put it past Seth to say they have CrossFit for babies or something, the dude is obsessed! Anyway, how does it feel to have a son man?"
The instant smile on Roman's face was huge. "Man it's great. It's like I have the best of both worlds right now, I got my little princess and now I got little man here. The only thing I'm missing from my picture perfect life is Bren. I love the hell out of that girl, Dean. She's trying so hard to act like she doesn't have feelings for me, but I know she does, I fucking know it. I don't know if she is just trying to deny it because she has these unresolved feelings for Jey or what, but we have a son together now I'm in her life forever one way or another. I'm not trying to force her into a relationship, but I'm honestly starting to feel like I can't be without her. I feel like she's it for me. She loves Soph and Soph loves her, my family loves her. The only thing stopping us is Jey." He sighed and raked his finger through his hair. "You know something, introducing her to Jey is probably one of the biggest regrets of my life. I know at the time the shit we were doing was wrong, but I should've just kept her to myself. Then we'd be together by now."
"Well man, all I can really say is don't give up on her. I know that she had or has a lot of love for Jey because he was her first real relationship, so it's like she's clinging to him for that reason. I know she loves you too though and it's rough for her because she feels like if she's with you, she'd be hurting Jey. It still bothers her that you and Jey aren't as close as you used to be because of her too. You two were like brothers and now it's like you barely acknowledge each other when you're in the same room. She knows how close you were and it kills her that y'all aren't talking." The conversation was quickly ended when Bren came downstairs in a tank top and pajama pants.
"I'm just gonna go feed him." Bren said awkwardly avoiding eye contact with Roman. Dean and Roman watched as she picked Jonny up and walked back upstairs to feed him. She went into his nursery and sat in the rocking chair near the window as she fed him. Her precious baby boy was here and she still hadn't gotten all of her shit figured out. Listening to the conversation between Dean and Roman put somethings into perspective for her though, she'd admit that. Maybe she did just need to let Jey go, but the thought of that made her heart clinch. Jey was the first man she'd ever been in love with, maybe that was why she was holding on so tight to the thought of them being together. The saying went you never forget your first love, but did those same people have any idea how hard it would be being around that same person for the rest of their life because they got knocked up by their cousin? No, there ain't no type of saying for that!
"Hey, can I talk to you for minute?" Roman said as he leaned against the door frame. Why did it seem that every time he said those words she'd tense?
"Yeah let me lay him down first." She laid Jonny down in his crib and walked out of his room so he could sleep.
"I have somethings to say to you, but I don't necessarily know how to put it into words." Bren sat on her bed as he paced in front of her. She suddenly felt extremely nervous.
"Alright, so I don't know if I'm gonna word this right, but I'm hoping that I can get you to understand where I'm at and where I'm coming from. I need a straightforward answer from you. Why exactly aren't we together? When shit was bad and had just hit the fan I can understand that. Then I was an asshole to you for a short period of time when I believed Lina's lies. But what's stopping us now? I'm single, you're single. We both love each other, and as much as you try to deny it you know damn well that you love me too. Hell, we have Jonny now! Why can't we just try it out? When we first met we had a little thing, and it was great even though I went about it the wrong way. Let me do it right this time. Let's actually try out a relationship without me having someone on the side or you meeting someone new."
Brenda's heart was racing and she was having a hard time forming words. Here she had this gorgeous man telling her that he loved her and wanted to be in a relationship with her, but she couldn't form coherent thoughts. Did she love Roman? Absolutely! He'd given her a son of course she loved him and always would for that reason alone. She didn't even bother trying to deny the fact that she was in love with him anymore either. She'd moved past that awhile ago. But could she really open up her heart to another man? She'd never been in an actual relationship before Jey and the closest thing she'd had to it was being Roman's dirty little secret. Jey was also a huge part of the reason she didn't pursue a relationship with Roman. Those two were close their whole lives and she was the reason they barely stayed in the same vicinity. She wanted Jey and Roman to reconcile their relationship before she thought about doing anything. Her mind was telling her one thing, but her heart was saying something completely different.
"You want a straight answer, but I honestly don't think I can give you one, Ro. I feel so torn for the simple reason that, yes I do love you. But I feel like us even trying to be together would cause more issues between you and Jey. And before you say it Jey does have a lot to do with why I haven't tried to do anything about the feelings I have for you. I don't want to hurt him anymore than I already have. My main concern is your relationship with each other. I don't wanna be the reason y'all aren't speaking anymore. I hate that shit almost as much as what I did to him. You, Jey, and Jimmy were damn near brothers and now if you two are in the same room you can physically feel the tension. I can't do that to either one of y'all I love both of you too much to have your relationship be fucked up over my own selfish decisions."
"Okay I can understand that to an extent. Putting your feelings about me and Jey's relationship aside, where could we stand? Could you see us potentially in a relationship eventually?" He looked almost hopeful while waiting for her answer. When she nodded he stood up and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I'll take that answer for now, but know that I don't plan on backing down from this subject Bren. I'll be back a little later, I need to go check on Soph." He kissed her on her forehead and walked out of the room.
Roman pulled up to the house and rang the doorbell. As soon as the door opened he walked inside and sat on the couch. "We need to talk man."
"If it has anything to do with Bren I honestly don't wanna hear it. Shouldn't you be with her and the baby anyway? Why you over here? To rub it in my face?" Jey said as he sat on the opposite couch. Roman sighed and slouched against the couch.
"Jey it ain't even like that. We need to talk about this, we had squashed this whole situation before. But then we found out the paternity results and you just starting being distant all over again. You're like my brother, Jey. We gotta find some type of way to fix things between us, we're family. Bloods thicker than water and all that. I don't know of you care or not, but us not speaking is hurting Bren too. She feels horrible about our bond deteriorating the way it has."
"What you want me to do about it? You're her man now aren't you? You make her feel better. I find it funny that you get my girl and what should have been my son, but you're acting like I'm in the wrong for trying to distance myself from all of this. I'm the one that was blindsided by all this shit. I never fucked around on Bren ever and y'all over here fucking behind my back and expect me to be cool, calm and cordial when it comes to the both of you. Do I hate either one of you, nah I don't. You're family and at the end of the day it's like you said blood is thicker than water, but I'm not gonna pretend I'm not hurt over the shit y'all pulled. I see it as I'll forgive y'all one day, but I'll never forget about it. I think we'll work back to being as cool as we once were eventually, but for right now it's best for me to keep my distance."
"If it makes you feel any better we're not together, not for my lack of trying though. If it was up to me we would've been before Jonny was born, but she's always put your feelings first. As crazy as it is she loves both of us in some kind of fucked up way. She doesn't want to hurt you anymore than she already has. I know you don't want to hear it, but I really do love her Jey. I've loved her for a long ass time, in a way I wish I never would've introduced y'all because then instead of us having this tension we'd probably be chillin' over beers right now." Jey looked at him as if he was the dumbest man he'd ever come into contact with.
"So what you're telling me is that you loved Bren before you even introduced us? If that's the case you should've just said that shit! I wouldn't have said anything to Lina, I would've just kept it moving, but you let me meet her, get in a relationship with her, and be damn near close to making huge moves for our future when you were in love with her that whole time? Why would you even do that to yourself forget me for a minute. You're a dumbass for that Roman, seriously." Jey shook his head while looking at his cousin.
"You're not telling me shit I don't already know, Jey. But umm, say hypothetically me and Bren actually got together at some point down the road, would you hate us?"
"Did you really come to my house to ask me for permission to get with my ex? Is that seriously what you're doing right now? Man, I don't hate anybody that's as good of an answer as you're gonna get. I can't believe you'd ask me some dumb shit like that!"
"Alright my bad, my bad. I just needed to know just incase for future reference. I gotta get going I need to go scoop Soph up from my parents. You're still my uce, I really hope we can get past this someday soon. I love you, Uce." Roman told Jey as he held his hand out. Jey looked from his hand to his face and back again before embracing his cousin.
"It'll happen eventually. I love you too man. Let Bren know that I forgive her, but it's going to take me awhile to get used to this whole situation. You're my cousin and regardless of how I feel about y'all getting together it'll probably happen anyway. And now she's your baby's mom so she's not going anywhere. Family over everything, right? I might not think to highly of y'all for a while, but we'll all be cool like we used to be one day." That was the best Jey could give him. He'd get over it eventually, but it'd take time. They broke apart and Roman started to walk to his car, but before he could get into the car Jey called out to him.
"Aye yo Uce! Congrats on the boy!" Roman smiled and nodded his head at him. As he got into his car all he could think was that went way better than he ever expected. He knew that not only would he have his cousin back in his life, but there wouldn't be any lingering drama when he and Bren got together. He'd have his family, all of them.
It's like 3 in the morning and I don't know if any of this makes sense I just started typing and this is what happened. I'm feeling all types of sad because of Roman's situation. I'm just glad it was taken care of quickly and didn't get worse. Actually seeing him in pain in that hospital bed though... It hurt! I just hope he has a speedy recover and comes back soon because I miss him already. Now the only match I have to look forward to is The Usos vs. Goldust & Stardust (my boys better retain, tho!) I'm rambling now, my bad. Review, please!?