Thank you guys! Here is another chapter!
Rydel's POV
I was hoping that Melanie would learn how to walk. Maybe just a little bit, but I wanted to hear some good news. But something was't right. They came back, and
put few smiles on their faces occasionally, but it seemed like something had gone wrong. I didn't know what happened. Melanie didn't have any supper. Ross had very
little to eat which is pretty unusual for him. We went to our bus at the end of the day, and Ross did help Mel, but with no emotion at all. She didn't do anything either.
She went to bed early, and I didn't even have a chance to talk to her. It was awful, I felt miserable, and I kept wandering what happened. Perhaps they fallen out?
Or maybe Melanie's situation is getting worse? I don't know what is going on, but it is just so depressing. I hope it will be okay soon.
Melanie's POV
We didn't talk to each other much. The thing is, it was a bit akward and I couldn't bring the subject up. I just felt really sad. I felt like it was my fault, but I
couldn't help wishing he said something. That he said something that day. That day after we had the 'fight'. The problem is that it wasn't even a fight, we just
kind of left it, and it didn't look like Ross was going to bother to get it back the way it used to be. It hurt. I badly wanted him. I couldn't sleep and I couldn't eat,
it was horrible. I knew I shouldnt' have said anything that stupid, I should have acted like it was okay. I can't help but think that I'm a horrible person,
annoying everyone around me. It was like that the next day, and then the next. This morning was the third night I spent alone. It was increadibely cold. Whenever
I looked up at Ross, he would try to smile or just give up and look down. Something that happened yesterday scared me. We were alone, and he tried to say something.
He started saying 'Mel..' I looked up at him, and then he just gave up. He said
'I love you, but I can't keep going like this.' Then he saw tears in my eyes, and he hugged me. I thought it would be okay, but it wasnt. When we let go, he added
'I'm sorry, I really don't know what is happening.'
'I think that's it. But it's probably better for you. At least you don't have to put up with the girl that can't walk.' I said in a shaky voice.
'And if you loved me then you would fight for us' I wispered but I'm not sure he heard. Thats what scared me. He most probably heard but didn't deny it. Why?
I don't know what he was thinking. It was possible that he did love me, but unlikely. I just can't believe it. Was it just a stupid crush? I definitely still love him
and my heart is broken. This is a serious thing and I don't think I can put up with it. I just can't believe it. I think Riker was right- everything was so fast,
so perfect. Ross was a perfect boy, he seemed like the perfect for me. We both loved each other, or at least I though we did. Maybe he didn't actually love me.
He never had a serious girlfriend, apart from Megan. How could he be sure when he really is in love? Few cute words and kisses don't fix everything. I was just
upset, I didn't know what to do about the tour. I just want to get out of here so I don't have to see him again. But then I need to see him. He doesn't put a smile
on my face anymore, but without him I feel even worse. I just can't believe how come everything crushed because of my stupid leg. I can't beileive it all. I just want
to wake up one morning and discover it was a bad dream. That everything is perfect again. But how can it be? He is the one I'm in love with. How could his
feelings change so fast? I do trust Ross, i know he had feelings for me. The thing that scares me the most is what will happen next. Our friendship is ruined.
It is never going to come back. We will never be able to talk like best friends again. How can everything change so much in one moment? My leg. The men. I hate
them. I just want to go back in time. But then, who knows how things would turn out. Maybe I wouldn't get together with Ross at all. And I don't think I would
prefer to live a healthy life without ever being with him, hugging him the way we hugged, feeling the feelings I felt and kissing him, than living this life,
with a heart break. At least I lived my dream for a week or two. I thought signing…
This morinng everyone went to the beach and I stayed at the bus, and played guitar. Just random songs. Then I went back to bed. I said I was sick. I only felt bad
because mum stayed with me. She didn't like the beaches that much but I felt bad for making her miss out. She was quietly reading magazines at the same time as
I was in bed, sleeping. Well, I wasn't exacly sleeping because I had my eyes wide open and no matter how hard I tired, I couldn't sleep. At lunch time, Stormie
called my mum and said that they were goong out for lunch. Mum stayed with me and we had something by the TV.
'Melanie, tell me what happened between you and Ross. I know you are not ill.' She said and I stared at her in shock.
'How do you know?' I asked.
'I know you too well. Come here and tell me everything.' She said. I smiled although I didn't feel like smiling at all. I felt like crying. We hugged and I explained
everything.
'I don't know what happened. We were just upset because I couldn't walk I guess. And then I kind of brang the subject up. I just felt miserable and wanted to talk.
I kept saying things I hate about me and saying sorry and things like that. And I guess Im too boring for him. He gets bored of me saying that over and over again.
I thought he was not saying it isn't true because he hated me for these things but now I think that it's because I keep acting depressed. All the time. It started
with my leg. Then people wouldn't leave us alone. And the leg again. And then the fans. Yesterday morning and the day before was time when it was all okay. We were
close and believed that everything will be fine. My birthday was nice too. Then suddenly I had to try walking and it did't work very well. And then my mood went down,
I started to do the thing I kept doing for ages now; saying how I hate myself, how much I don't deserve them, how much they wish I never came and etc. And I guess
he got bored. He said it's all too much to worry about and that we wanted to slow down. And then I said that I bet he wants to escape from me. At the end of our
conversation there was silence. He didn't deny any of it mum. I messed up. And he was angry with me mum. He was never angry at me before… ' I said in between
sobs. Mum patted my back and talked to me. She said some of the things I wanted to hear from Ross. But it didn't seem like I would hear them.
Ross' POV
I was still angry. Not at Melanie but at myself. Everytime I tried to fix it, I felt too confused about my feelings that I ended up saying I loved her but I
didn't want to be with her.. Well not exacly but that's what she could have understood. And how come is that even possible? If you love someone than you want to be
with them. I do love her! Do I want to be with her? Yes. I just want everything to be easy. I can't let being a bit dissapointed about her leg, but it's not her fault
and I know that she needs me, so why the heck can't I just tell her how I feel, and then everything would be usual. But it's not that easy. I'm angry, I made a fool
out of myself. What if she says she is angry at me? I know she is upset, and I feel so terrible I just hate myself for that. I don't know what to do. I know I need
to talk to her eventually and before it's too late. Yes Ross.. It just came up to your mind. And it is the truth. You can't live without her. How could you
upset her so much. And why don't you talk to her now? Because I'm eating lunch. But I need to see her quick. And begg her for another chance. I'm such an idiot.
The truth is than it was her leg that made me so unsure. I kept denying it but it did make me feel insecure and I was freaking out a bit. I mean, Melanie needs to walk,
she needs to. She doesn't deserve me right? I should let her down easy, and make her happier.
Melanie's POV
I thought it couldn't get worst, but it did. Later that day, after we had dinner all together, Ross was especially angry at everybody. I stayed silent and nibbled
on my food. After the dinner, everyone went out but Rydel said she would stay with me. I ended up telling her everything.
'Ross must be so upset.' She said.
'Why do you think so?' I asked her.
'He is always angry when something upsets him. And I didn't see him that moody in a long time.' She said and hugged me.
'It will be okay, every couple has these problems. You just can't ignore it. Make the first step. What if Ross isn't brave enought to do it himself?' She said.
'Rydel, I can't. He hates me. I will make a fool of myself.'
'For goodness' sake, he loves you Mel. He just feels bad. He is my brother, I know Ross, trust me.'
'I care badly but I feel like he doens't. Like he just can't be bothered. Nothing can change that. It wasn't meant to be.' I said.
'Mel! Please, stop it. How can you say that your love is not worth fighting?!' She said.
'I want to fight for it. I miss him terribly Rydel. But maybe he doesn't miss me?' I asked.
'As much as I love you, you are talking nonsence.' She said. 'Im going to talk to him.' She said.
'No please Rydel, don't!' I said. She rolled her eyes and answered. 'If you don't make up in time I will have to do so. ' She said. At least I had things to think about.
Ross' POV
I don't know what happened. I wanted to tell her everything, but I saw her laughing away with Riker and it kind of scared me. I'm scared that she doensn't
need me anymore. But then she was pretty upset during dinner. I know what do do, why am I not doing it? I want to fight for us, if there is any hope left.
I still feel like such a jerk not denying any of the things she said. I feel a fool for being angry. We were at the beach but Melanie and Rydel stayed in the bus. She didn't want to see me lately. Maybe she doesn't love me anymore? But I need to know for sure. I kept worrying about it.
I had to speak to her about it. Why is everything so complicated? I thought everything would be fine but it isn't. Her leg isn't healing. And I don't think it will
get better. But I still want to be with her. It was a bit of a shock for me, the whole situation. I wanted to make sure I knew what I'm doing. I was thinking about myself
wanting to step back and relax, think. But I left her with her problem alone. Thats not what I wanted to do. That was the last thing I wanted to do.
'Mum, I'm going back to the bus.' I said.
'No, Ross, don't go back yet, let girls talk alone.' Mum said. They didn't need to talk at all, but I didn't want to go and inturrupt them. But I had to…
'Ross, don't go there, think about everything. If you go back now, you will have to stay with her. Even if her leg wont heal.' Dad said. I was furious. Furious at dad.
Thats strange, how could he say that?
'I am not leaving her ever. I don't care if she can walk or not. I love her dad!' I shouted, and I heard my parents saying something, telling me to come back, but I ran
away, to the bus. I heard boys, but I didn't look back. I was too angry. I was determited. It hit me then. No matter how insecure this girl' situation made me
feel, no matter how worried or scared it made me feel.. I had no choice. I had to go there and tell her it all. This is my last chance. I'm not going to blow
it. She still loves me, doesn't she? I hope so. I don't want to loose her. As my best friend or as my girlfried, and so far I'm terible because i managed to
loose both in less than a day. I ran into the bus, and my eyes softened. There she was. I stopped in my tracks when I realised that she was playing a song, I
didn't hear before. I stood and listened.
Oh oh oh, there's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away?
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Don't run away
Promise you'll stay Dark Side Kelly Clarkson (It works perfectly doesn't it?)