Just a girl who is insecure
I'm still a girl who cares about her looks
Just a girl with countless scars in her heart
I'm still a girl who people think of as a monster
I'm not just a girl with no feelings
I'm not just a girl with a hot temper
I'm not just a girl with pretty looks
I'm not just a girl with dry eyes
But when people stare,
They jeer and flirt
They kiss and hit
They never see through my glassy eyes
They see me
Except they don't
They know me
But they don't know my secrets
Nowhere to be myself
Nowhere to scream,
To cry,
To hit and die
I want to leave
To runaway
To let go of my broken dreams
To exist to nothingness
The words, the molecules
That make up my body
Fizz, crumble, burn
This is me
Sometimes I imagine
I'm a girl, a beautiful girl
With feelings, where people comfort her
She's happy and free
She's in a coma right now
Dreaming, and my life is her dream
When she wakes up,
I will be that girl
My life is a dream
A dream full of pain,
Grief, happiness,
Stricken tears stuck in my throat
I will wake up
I'll be embraced with happy arms
Kissed, hugged, complimented
And…loved
Why am I not awake?
I must wake up
To wake up, I must die
I must die and to have my life
Fairytales end with a happy ending
Movies end with happiness
A song ends with one last tune
A life ends with death
Up, up, up
Climb until your legs fall off
Up, up, up
Up the stairs of death
Up, up, up
Soar with the clouds of dreams
Up, up, up
You'll find yourself when you fall
Dark, hard concrete
Mats are strewn on the roof
Up, up, up
I stand by the ledge of the building
I spread my wings, ready
People, little blots clicking and staring
A tear runs down my face,
Blazing the road for the others
Up, up, up
I'll be okay
Up, up, up
The wind whistles past my ears
Down, down down
My hair is flying
Down, down, down,
I'll wake up
~WINNER OF CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE~
Fyre and Water
IceQueenandFireQueen was about to win, but she already won a two or one ago...that didn't make sense, I , congrats Fyre and Water! I will be PMing you!
Again, I was sick and couldn't go to school. Yea, freakin' flu season. Anyways, this chapter, I wrote with well...emotion. I needed to pent all that gunky air out. I liked this chapter, actually. What did you guys think?
Also...OH MY CHICKEN BIZZLE NUGGETS! WE'RE ALMOST 300 FOLLOWERS! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH, I REALLY DO MEAN IT! I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY MORE THIS FF WILL BE, BUT LET US SEE!
I decided to keep the four-line stanzas, so YAY! to those who wanted this! Most people wanted it, and OakeX, wow, you should get her out. She or he is an awesome poet! Wooh! Poetry! (Except this is the only poetry I do)
Reviewers Replies:
OakeX Yeah, when I was writing it, it just didn't flow with me...but this was flowed really deeply into me. Anyways, thank you for your review, (you're so so sophisticated!). So, how did you think of this one? Chapter Twenty-Three
Ode to a Fangirl Thank you! And it's fine if you don't review, (actually I kind of care) wait, ignore that. Sorry, I'm so honest sometimes it hurts people. :/ Actually, I'm not that honest...wait, I'm honest right there! I don't know, lolzies Chapter Twenty-Three
IceQueenandFireQueen Sorry you couldn't win, but how was Basil for you? I hope you? Since you requested it and all...I hope you liked it! Also, do you know Luisant Etoile? She told me that you guys were PMing each other. Chapter Twenty-Three
Fyre and Water Yay! You won! Again, I really do like your name, but why do I keep on saying that?! Ugh, it must be annoying for you. Please don't judge me, because I am very cra-cra. Chapter Twenty-Three
mary Wow, a lot of people guessed Jake! What a popular guy...Anyways, I forgot to ask you, are you eleven now? I turned eleven just last year. What grade are you in? Are you like...5th of 6th? Chapter Twenty-Three
Randomauthor No, sorry. But, thank you for the review! Chapter Twenty-Three
Its A Secret XD Ya, it was a Grimm. Wilhelm Grimm, the one who reproduced and eventually had Sabrina and Daphne and Basil Grimm. Just a Grimm, Wilhelm Grimm. Chapter Twenty-Three
Curlscat Wow. You're like the second or third out of many that guessed him XD. Dang girl, you have skills. :) Chapter Twenty-Three
Guest Um...no, not older drunk Sabrina. Hmm, I never thought of it that way...anyways, thanks for the review! Chapter Twenty-Three
Guest Nope, not Uncle Jake. Chapter Twenty-Three
-AC