Chapter 25: My kind of love
I'm just watching twitter looking for news about the TCA and I read Alycia is filming in the finale of season 3 and it has given me hopes, don't kill Lexa q_q
Btw new chapter! Enjoy!
Title from My kind of love by Emeli Sande
-Excuse us for a moment.
I dragged Clarke to the same room where we had our quarrel.
-Clarke what in the name of the spirits are you doing?
-What? I was just tired of his manners, he is infuriating!
-I know Clarke, he is my father, I know him pretty well.
I sighed and moved my hand to my hair, I was so nervous. This was going anything but good.
-And because I know him, I know that he just got want he wanted.
Clarke looked at me confused.
-What do you mean? He clearly doesn't want me near you, I thought I annoyed him...
-No you didn't, he just wanted you to fight him, push you to join our clan.
-You say it like if me being a part of your people would be the worst thing on the world.
She was acting distant and mean towards me all of a sudden, I quite didn't understand it. I answered her a bit exasperated.
-That's not the point Clarke, can't you see it? Which is the only way to join my clan that you know?
-Well, I only know Octavia who joined your clan because she became Indra's second.
That's when Clarke finally realized where she was standing.
-Oh my god, he wants me to be someone else subordinate.
-You deserve to lead your people Clarke, you don't belong in a second position, serving anyone.
-Again with that Lexa, I'm not the leader of anything!
-You can deny it all you want Clarke, but deeply in your mind you know you are meant to guide your people.
Clarke looked at me, clearly irritated by our conversation.
-Maybe I don't want to lead them, not if I have to live with the pain of choosing them over everything. Let me be your second.
Clarke always being stubborn and irrational in the worse places.
-I can't do that Clarke. You know you are the only one able to be your people's leader.
-And how do you know that? You barely know me, you even left so tell me, since when do you know me so well to assume I'm the true leader to my people?
Her words hurt, I knew she didn't mean them, I knew she was under a lot of stress and pain, so I calmed myself before answering her.
-Because you are the one who put your people over your moral, over your own wellbeing. You could take all the weight of the sacrifices your people would do in order to survive; so they would live without the grief, without the guilt. Because you are exactly like me.
Clarke stayed speechless, her blue orbs lost in deep memories, swimming in her mind. I watched her carefully, fearing that I had said the wrong words.
-Okay okay I get it... I'm just like you, I can't keep running from my duty but... I also don't want to be a chicken and go out there and say that I regret to have said that I will join your clan.
She was so conflicted with herself, I only wanted to help her.
An idea then came to my mind. It was a dangerous and very important option but I knew Clarke, I believed in her so I shared it with her.
-There is actually another way so you can join our clan without having to submit to anybody else.
-I'm sensing a big but in that new way.
I breathed deeply.
-You can opt to be a link between both groups, you will only have to follow your people's rules always respecting us. But you will be independent.
-So far so good, where is the problem?
-You have to prove yourself, psychologically and physically. The elders will choose both trials.
-I, I don't know if I can do this. I'm just a girl, a girl surrounded by death and nightmares and I barely can keep your pace when we train. How am I supposed to pass two trials? I will fail-
I caught her hands and stopped her rambling.
-I believe in you Clarke, but it's time for you to believe in yourself.
Just then her eyes changed. I knew she wasn't recovered yet, I knew she had still a long journey to overcome her problems. But she got back her look, that look that only belonged to her, the look I saw in her the first time we met, the look capable of everything.
-I look like a teenager with hormone problems... Okay, I'm Clarke Griffin and I have come so far believing in my own strength and I'm going to recover it right now.
She smiled at me before approaching the door.
-I will face the trials and I will act as a link between both worlds until we reach an agreement, alliance or union.
We exited the room and found the whole room once more looking at us.
-I hope you enjoyed your conversation.
My blood boiled with rage, my father started to follow a self-destructive path long ago trying to take me with him. I wasn't going to allow him to hurt Clarke too.
But Clarke knew how to defend herself and she showed how good she was at it.
-First of all, since you are an adult I expect you to act as one; second I don't give a fuck if your life is full of hate and disdain, you have no right to come here and insult me without even knowing me. Third, my relationship with Lexa is none of your business; and last but not least, I'm going to offer my knowledge and time to act like a link between my people and yours, I will be part of your people and it will not imply a problem to the Commander if she decides to keep our relationship.
My father looked shocked, his mouth opening and closing without speaking a word.
-Now that everything is solved, feel free to go, father, we will speak with the elders tomorrow.
My father just glared at us and ran away from the room, muttering things to himself.
I let a small breath leave my lips before speaking to the crowd.
-Please continue with the celebration, we apologize for the interruption.
Everybody seemed to go back to enjoy the party while I spoke with some of them about politics and war, this time I stayed closer to Clarke. At the beginning I was nervous and tensed but as time passed and Clarke melted more and more with the people I relaxed and enjoyed the rest of the party with her.
However, I couldn't miss Ashkna's stares and how their made me extremely uncomfortable.
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After the party we came back to my home, we didn't say a word until we entered my room and I broke the silence.
-We should check on your leg and our burns.
Clark just looked at me disappointed and started to get undressed. I knew she wanted to talk but I wasn't going to push her, so I followed her.
After some minutes we both sat on the bed in our undergarments, our burns covered by the oil Kira let on my bedside. Clarke finally brought the topic.
-I think we should talk.
I nodded and waited for her to speak while I removed her leg bandages.
-I overreacted today and I should have thought about the situation before shouting at you in public.
I knelt in front of her and started to clean her wound before dressing it again while she tensed her jaw.
-Thank you, Lexa. I put you in a complicated situation like if I was a child and you still find the way to understand it and not get angry with me…
I stopped my movements and looked at her, her eyes fixed into mines.
-I acted like a coward Clarke, I should not have feared to be with you.
-Well you had your reasons but I'm not Costia, the past is the past, it doesn't have to be the same way with me, we don't let it happen again.
As she finished talking, she moved her hands to my face, touching my cheeks gently.
-I know, but it still haunts me when I think I finally escaped from its grip.
-I understand you perfectly.
She smiled sadly at me and leaned slowly until her lips brushed mine and I smiled before kissing her.
Just as I deepened the kiss, I heard murmurs behind the door and suddenly the door burst opened and the owners of the muffled voices entered the room.
-We heard from Luna all that happened and-
Octavia, Bellamy, Lincoln, Monty and Diaval suddenly burst in the room.
-Oh my God they are naked, cover Diaval and Bellamy!
Monty shouted before covering his eyes.
-What!? And what about Lincoln!?
Bellamy shouted back.
-I trust Lincoln but I definitely don't trust you!
Monty answered making his way to the door.
Octavia started to laugh uncontrollably while all the boys exited the room, Bellamy talking angrily about being a gentleman.
Clarke just stared at Octavia, jaw dropped, body stilled.
-So the discussion was clearly an excuse to angry sex.
Clarke started to throw pillows at Octavia as she finished speaking.
-Why you always manage to embarrass me! Go away!
Octavia laughed again while she dodged the pillows.
-But I was hoping I could stay and watch!
I looked amused at the situation, Octavia's laugh growing louder while Clarke's face turned redder.
When Clarke ran out of ammunition she caught a vase and I decided it was enough. I gently caught her hand and spoke to her.
-I think you don't really want to damage even more Octavia's mental health hitting her on the head with this.
I kissed her cheek and we laughed while Octavia looked at us annoyed.
-You know what? I liked you more when you were a cold hearted bitch.
Octavia said to me angrily.
-I don't think you should speak like that to your Commander Octavia…
Clarke said worried, fearing my reaction to her offending words.
-It is not a problem Clarke, I'm not offended by her words. Indra on the other hand may want to punish her for her bad manners.
Clarke smiled again while Octavia's face turned white for a brief moment before showing her irritation once again.
-Thanks for killing the mood Commander. I changed my mind, I'm not staying, go on and continue.
Clarke looked exasperated and huffed before answering Octavia.
-We were just checking our wounds Octavia jeez... We aren't even naked!
-Oh so now you call it "check the wounds". Whatever floats your boat princess. You can finish whatever you were doing and then we can talk about the trials.0
Octavia glared again at me before going out. I turned my gaze to Clarke who was still red.
-Well let's finish with your leg and we can talk with your friends.
Clarke pouted before nodding sadly.
-I really was hoping to have that angry sex Octavia mentioned. Without the angry part of course.
-Fear not my beloved partner, we shall make your wish come true after we attend our guests.
Clarke elbowed me blushing and laughing.
-You are unbelievable.
-I told you already, I try my best just for you.
You may be wondering and what happened with the 5 people who must agree to let Clarke join the grounders while Octavia only needed Indra's agreement? Well we will see in the next chapter!