Hey! Sorry I couldn't update last night. I have exams to study for!
So a little bit of a spoiler, Ricky will be singing. I think for the full effect you should listen to the song when it's at that part!
The song is: Say (All I Need) by OneRepublic
Amy's P.O.V:
I glance back at Ricky. He looks up at me, and speeds up. I speed up too hoping to avoid him, but he runs fast and is quickly beside me.
"Amy, please hear me out." He says, his voice sounding broken. "You remembered one bad part, wait until you remember the good parts to judge me." I look at him, trying to decipher the mind game that he's playing with me.
I feel myself losing focus as another memory plunges into my mind. I walk into a campground with that guy Drew beside me. I remember hearing a girl giggling, and feeling suspicious. I break out of the forest to see that girl Adrienne sitting on Ricky's lap. She leans down giving him a kiss, not just a peck, but his hands cling to her waist, while hers are wrapped tightly around his neck. When they pull themselves off each other they both give me a smirk.
I feel myself coming back to reality and shake my head clearing the image. I instantly feel the tears trail down my cheeks with no sign of stopping. I close my eyes and drop my head wishing everything in my life wasn't as confusing at it seems to be.
"Amy!" Ricky says enthusiastically. "Did you have another memory? What was it this time?"
I look at him in disgust and anger. "Just my stroll back to camp with Drew." I say, trying to jog his memory.
He looks confused for a second, but then his jaw drops. He looks at me and his eyebrows crease in sadness, but I'm too far gone to feel pity. I start walking quicker and before he can follow I turn to him. "Don't even think about coming to talk to me." I growl and go up ahead.
I allow myself for the umpteenth time to breakdown.
Soon I am dragging my feet and hoping we are getting close to the cabin where help was. I look up and see Damon looking back, concern etched onto his face. He stops and waits while I tiredly drag my feet over to him. Once I catch I yawn widely and look at him through tired eyes.
"You don't look good Amy." He tells me, putting his hand on my shoulder signaling me to stop. I look at him through my drooping eyelids and feel myself shutting down. The pressure on my shoulder feels like hundreds of pounds weighing me down.
I feel my knees go weak and I fall to the ground, landing on my side. I curl up and just try to fade into the ground. I hear yelling around me, but it sounds as if it's a million miles away. I feel someone shaking my shoulder, and I want to tell them to go away, but I can't find my voice.
I open my eyes trying to see what's going on. Hovering above me is Ricky. I hover back into reality trying to process what he's saying.
"Amy, stay awake, okay? Don't fall asleep, just keep your eyes open." He says, worry filling his voice. "What are you looking for Damon?" He says, glancing to his right. I follow where he's looking and see Damon scrounging through a first-aid kit.
"I'm looking for a shot of adrenaline." He says without taking his eyes off the white box.
"A needle?" I whisper, noticing that I can barely hear myself.
Ricky looks back into my eyes. I look into his and feel the tears brimming. My fear is reflected in his and I notice he's shaking.
"Just a little one Ames, don't worry." He whispers, voice thick with tears.
"I found it!" Damon yells, rushing to kneel at my side.
I close my eyes tight in fear. I suddenly feel the pain radiate through my leg and open my eyes. I see Damon's hand wrapped around the shot of adrenaline, which is now sticking out of my leg.
"Ow." I whisper, almost inaudibly.
The guy's eyes shoot to my face, assessing my reaction. I close my eyes to block out their uncomfortable stares.
"She was supposed to stay awake! Amy! Wake up Ames!" I hear Ricky shout.
My mind starts to clear. Once again I can feel my joint and my eyes don't feel as heavy. I open my eyes and everyone lets out a breath.
"I'm okay." I croak. Everyone nods but keeps their eyes on me. "Damon, can you help me up, please?" I say quietly. He nods and practically lifts me up himself.
I stand on my feel and collapse, surprised by the pain and pressure that shoots up my legs. Ricky grabs me before anyone else has a chance. I flinch at his touch, but he keeps his hold on me. "We'll take a break for awhile. Let Amy gain her strength then we can go." Damon says.
I nod and step back from Ricky uneasily. I grab onto Damon's arm and he helps me sit down. I put my hands in the pocket of my hoodie and feel a hard object. I pull it out and find an iPod.
"Is this mine?" I ask Ricky. He nods, smiling.
"So these are songs I liked in here?" I ask him, cocking my head.
"Kind of, they are actually instrumentals that you make up songs to." He answers.
I look at him in shock. "I can do that!" I say smiling. He nods. "I want to try."
He smiles widely. "I think the docking station might be in Jackson's bag. I'll go check."
He comes back with a docking station. By now all the guys have formed a circle. They all watch Damon as he hooks up my iPod to the speaker.
"Do you want me to pick a tune?" He asks.
I nod and watch as he scrolls through the songs.
Suddenly, just like the last time an image is forced into my mind.
It's Ricky and Adrienne. Behind them is a waterfall that I feel a certain possessiveness over. Ricky's shirt has been strewn on the floor and Adrienne is in nothing but her bra and panties. Her fingers are toying with the zipper on Ricky's pants. I feel the pang of jealousy, anger and hurt.
I'm quickly forced back into reality. My gaze focuses on Ricky and I give him a cold glare. He looks at me shocked, but before he can say anything a tune comes through the speakers.
Damon said the words just come to me. I guess I haven't forgotten that ability because I start singing without hesitation about what is exactly on my mind.
Waking up from the shock, still dying from the night before
So mad I can't speak, but I keep coming back for more
Did you see me there looking back at you, did you even care?
All the things you said to me, every lie that I believed
I can't erase the memory, I remember
Cut so deep I can't forget, loving you is my regret
I thought that I was over it, but I remember I remember
I wanna shut it all out, I wish that this was all a dream, a distant memory
I try so hard to forget but it keeps coming back to me it's coming back to me
I should leave I know, but I keep looking back, but I can't let go
All the things you said to me, every lie that I believed
I can't erase the memory, I remember
Cut so deep I can't forget, loving you is my regret
I thought that I was over it, but I remember
I should've known you'd take it all away,
Shoulda known you'd break my heart again
I should just forget it all but I remember
All the things you said to me, every lie that I believed
I can't erase the memory, I remember
Cut so deep I can't forget, loving you is my regret
I thought that I was over it, but I remember, I remember
I look at their expressions to see shocked etched across everyones face. I ignore it. Singing whatever I wanted felt good. I released a breath and turned to Ricky. "I remember the waterfall." For a second he looked hopeful. "Yeah, I guess you and Adrienne had fun there." I say, rolling my eyes. I'm acting a lot braver than I felt.
He goes to say something, but his mouth just hangs. "Don't bother coming up with an excuse Ricky." I say and roll my eyes. What nobody knows is that I'm actually holding back my tears.
Jackson's P.O.V:
Adrienne is still pretty upset about falling in the water. I don't care too much, I actually hope she'll leave me alone for the rest of our time here.
I get up from the log after finishing my fish and head out into the forest to collect the wood.
Before I can actually get into the wood I hear an annoying, bratty tone yelling at me from behind. "Where are you going?" Adrienne yells over. "You aren't leaving me are you?" I hear her running over and slowly turn around.
"Yes, yes I am. I am going to go collect fire wood because you didn't collect enough to keep it going for an hour. I am going by myself so I can relax for once today, okay?" I say through gritted teeth.
"But what if a bear comes, or a mountain lion? What the hell would I do if I'm by myself?" She asks with wide eyes.
I close my eyes and pinch the bridge of my nose in frustration. "You pick up a stick, and hope for the best."
"I can't fight of a bear with a damn stick!" she yells.
I glare at her. "Hide in the tent, scream at it, run away. I don't care. Goodbye Adrienne." I say before swiftly turning and jogging away.
Ricky's P.O.V:
I don't know what I could say to Amy. Everything she remembers is stupid shit I did with Adrienne! Why in the world does every single thing that happens with her so difficult. I guess I could give up, move on and find someone else but in the back of my mind there's a feeling that Amy is worth everything I'm going through.
Everyone is sitting on the ground, contemplating what just happened. An awkward silence fills the group.
"Amy, I'm sorry." I say loudly, breaking the silence.
She gives me a cold glare.
"Guys, please help me out! What happened before Amy blacked out?" I say, looking at everyone's faces.
Drew is the first to pipe up. "Well Amy gave Adrienne a black eye." He says, giving her a grin. She returns it and blushes.
Damon is next. "Ricky told Adrienne to hit the dust." He says, and I watch as Amy's mouth pops open.
"Because he loved Amy." Sam finishes.
Amy's eyes are like saucers. She's looking at me in awe mixed with guilt.
"Ricky I-" she starts, before I cut her off.
"No Ames, don't feel bad. I was still an ass and everything you saw was me trying to make you jealous. I'm really, truly sorry."
She gives me a heart warming smile. I walk over and sit beside her, pulling her to me. "I'm sorry too." She whispers.
"It's okay." I tell her, but I do want to show you something.
She looks at me, confusion clear in her eyes. "What would that be?" she asks.
I give her a smile. "Well, I was listening to your iPod and I found a song that I really liked. I wanted to try a song for you with it."
She looked at me, her smile gleaming. Without another word I get up and go to the docking station. I quickly find the song and press play. I listen to the music and make my way towards Amy. I sit beside her and pull her into my lap. She sits there staring at me in awe. I give her one last small smile and start.
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it Better than you had it
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it
As soon as I finish, she leans over and gives me a deep, passionate kiss. I quickly return it but pull back when I hear Damon clear his throat. I watch the red rush to Amy's cheeks. She looks at the ground, but then into my eyes.
"I loved the song." She said quietly, only loud enough for me to hear. "And I love you. I won't forget." She says, before I pull her into a tight embrace.
Amy's Song is
I Remember-Shiloh