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I didn't know if it was possible but I was going to try and ignore Sev for as long as I could. What would I do if he tried to be friends again and I knew that it wasn't sincere? Would I accept him back in the hopes that I could somehow change him back to the moody Potions prodigy I knew? This whole situation was truly exhausting. I felt bad that I had let this happen right under my nose, how long had these monsters been trying to get to Sev? Had this been happening the whole time and I had been ignorant to it. Had I been too naïve to realize that so much was happening all this time.
"What are you thinking about?" Remus asked as we walked to the Great Hall for breakfast. It was sweet that he cared so much and wanted to help but he really didn't understand. Remus thought I should just give up on Sev (though he would never say it so bluntly). However, I just didn't know how to do that. How did you throw away seven years of friendship? When I had cried about how I failed my test in Potions it was Sev who had consoled me, told me that it would be alright and that he would help me. I know it might seem like that is nothing but it was something, Sev had always been there for me in the past so when it got hard was I just going to give up. I didn't think I could.
"Nothing, so do you know what your plans are for after graduation?" I asked pushing all thoughts about Sev to the back of my mind. Remus seemed to stiffen at my question, he hadn't yet talked to me about his condition but I waited patiently for the day when he felt I was ready to hear it. Sometimes I thought about just telling him that I knew, but I also knew that Remus needed to tell me himself.
"I don't know… How about you? Are you going to be a Dragon trainer?" he asked a smile finally coming forth. I laughed at his obvious joke. I don't think I could handle a job with so much threat.
"I think that I would rather grow plants" I said knowing how much I detested the subject. It wasn't that it was the worst but honestly I could think of a lot of better things to occupy my time.
"So what do you want to do?" he asked as we sat down next to the Marauders and Lily at the table. I thought for a moment while I put some food onto my plate. The Marauders seemed to take an interest in the conversation at hand and all turned their attention to us.
"I don't know" I said honestly, I suppose I should know by now but I didn't. It seemed like everyone I knew wanted to be something already and were making plans to do such but I didn't know. How I was supposed to know exactly what I wanted to do with my life and seventeen?
"I want to be an Auror, fighting dark Wizards and Witches" James said standing up and pretending to fight off evil beings. I laughed at him, though I knew that he would make a good Auror. So would Sirius, they had the knack of getting into trouble and finding a way out just the kind of qualities I thought you needed for the job.
"You're such a weirdo" I said fondly as he sat back down to eat the rest of his breakfast.
"I take offence" James said dramatically, bringing his hand to rest over where his heart was.
"You don't take offence to anything" Lily said speaking from experience of the days when she did nothing but insult him.
"Not from you" Sirius added eating his breakfast like he had said nothing at all.
"So Sirius how is Joanne doing?" I asked knowing that the Ravenclaw had just recently made a big scene about how much she hated Sirius Black.
"You know very well how that is going Theo" he said moodily stabbing his eggs. I laughed because he was right I had been the one to calm her down before she went on another rant about it. Sirius really just needed to find a decent girl who could handle him. Someone who knew how to put him in his place.
"We better get to class" Lily said always the one who was prompt to everything. I sighed because she was right, though I wouldn't mind staying at breakfast forever.
"Alright I will see you lot later" I said to James, Sirius and Peter who went their separate ways. Lily, Remus and I went our way to Potions.
"Theo" a voice behind me called once I was inside the Potions classroom. I froze, that voice belonged to none other than Severus Snape. So it had begun already, Sev was trying to become my friend again… For them.