Cammie POV

The car was unbearably tense. There was no music blasting, unusual for the self-proclaimed lip-sync champion like Macey. There was an overbearing force above us, Macey wanted to know my secrets and I so desperately wanted to tell her, but it's hard. I took a deep breath. Get over yourself, Cammie. You can trust her.

'Do you remember that time your parents invited us over for a barbecue but we canceled last minute and never gave a reason why?' I began

'Yeah…'

'We were at the police station. Steve had come by the house whilst my parents were out. He was drunk and threatened me. Josh was there. Josh stopped him'

'Oh, Cammie! I'm so sorry'

'I just can't believe Steve found us again. I mean we've been so careful...I phoned Josh that night, just because he understood. He knew what Steve was capable of...he knew what he nearly did. If Josh wasn't around I probably still would have phoned him...for the connection, you know? It didn't mean anything, it was just talking. I didn't want to phone him but he's always in-'

'Cam, I get it' Mackey interrupted 'You can talk to me about your dad without hesitation, sometimes without you realising it yourself. But when other people bring it up, you freeze. Don't worry about it'

'Thanks' I sank into my seat. A small portion of the weight I've been carrying lifted.

'Josh got an offer from Georgetown' I said 'that's what he wanted to talk about at lunch'

'Isn't Georgetown your dream?' Macey gave me a sidewards glance

'Yep,' I popped the p.

'So why did he apply if he knew it was your dream?' She asked. I shrugged.

'They have an amazing sports program. He got a full football scholarship'

'I'm not surprised, considering how he played today' a twist of guilt shot through me. He doesn't deserve it.

'So what about you?' Macey asked 'Have you heard from them?'

I shook my head.

'I withdrew my track scholarship'

'Why would you do that?' Macey glanced at me like I said that Chanel and Walmart were the same things.

'After dad died, I gave up running. Plus when we moved, I didn't think Roseville High would submit a team at nationals'

'You never know, you could be a Roseville High first'

'It's fine. Anyway, I don't know if I want to go to college anymore. I might go traveling. Rome seems like a good place'

'But it's your dream, Cam!'

'There are always two things in life that change; dreams and people' I turned to the window. Another secret left to go. We pulled up outside the party. It was a house belonging to one of the Roseville players, he decided to invite everyone plus the Gallagher group.

'I kissed Zach' I looked at my hands, not at Macey. Worried about what she would say. What I didn't expect was for her to start laughing.

'Thank Fuck!' She exhaled, flopping back into her seat. 'FINALLY!'

'I'm sorry, what?' I raised my eyebrows. Macey smirked

'Honey, I know about you two. I've known for a while'

'You...you have?'

'The funfair was a dead give away that you two liked each other, and then after the Ferris wheel ride, you both couldn't wipe that damn smile off of your faces. It wasn't hard for me to put two and two together' She shrugged

'So you're not mad?'

'Why would I be? I'm happy for you both'

'I mean the fact that I didn't tell you right away' I said. Macey paused for a moment.

'Yeah, I'm a little mad. But you have your reasons. And besides, you always tell me...eventually' She checked her reflection in the mirror and glossed her lips once more 'Come on its party time'

...

The party was in full swing when we arrived. There was music blaring, people dancing, girls flirting and drinks being shared.

'Do you want a drink?' Macey asked.

'No I'm good thanks'

'Fair enough'

Macey and I made our way through the crowd towards the backyard where there the majority of people seemed to have been. It just seems to be my stupid luck because the moment I stepped outside, Josh turned around, a smile on his face.

'You made it!' He tried to hug me but I dodged him.

'We were invited by the host' I tried not to roll my eyes.

'Right, well, I'm glad that you're here'

'So where's your girlfriend?' Macey interjected. I bit the inside of my cheeks. Josh looked nervous, he scratched the back of his neck.

'She's...around' He said. I tried not to glance at Macey, knowing that she'd be looking at me.

'I'm going to get a drink' Macey excused herself from the conversation. I looked at her quickly and she shot me an I'll be back really soon look.

'Camm-'

'I seriously don't want to talk to you, Josh. There's nothing to say' I turned away from Josh making my way through the crowd.

'Hey Morgan' Dillion shouted 'Wanna play?' He gestured to the beer pong they were setting up.

'I'm good thanks' I replied, turning away. Coming here was a bad idea.

'Why not? Don't tell me you're a chicken' Dillion started clucking like a chicken. People around started laughing.

'Grow up Dillion' I rolled my eyes

'Or what?' Dillion taunted 'Come on Cameron, let's do it. We'll make it...interesting'

There were a few ohhhhs from the crowd. I turned around.

'You win, I will do whatever you want' He said

'And if you win?' I was rising to the challenge, stupid but satisfying.

'You know what I want' He winked, causing a shiver to roll down my spine. I knew exactly what he wanted. The crowd was staring at me. They were a mixture of old and new faces. I had a legacy to live up to and a name to make for myself. A slippery slope on both accounts.

'Alright' I approached the table 'Best of 5' Dillion laughed

'Do you think I'm a chump, Morgan? Best to 10. Let's hope you're as good as taking alcohol as you were with painkillers'

'Ohhh' from the crowd. I put my hair into a ponytail, pulling it tight.

'Cammie, what's going on?' Macey came beside me, a look of concern present on her face.

'Move over sparkles, it's an adult's game' Dillion snapped at Macey. Macey gritted her teeth ready to snap. I placed my hand on her shoulder.

'Mace, let me do this' I whispered. She raised an eyebrow wondering if my head was screwed on right. She shook her head.

'I hope you know what you're doing' She sighed

'I hope so too' I replied. I turned back to the table and picked up the first ping pong ball. I aimed and threw. It landed in the cup. A small cheer came from the Gallagher people. Dillion took the cup and drunk it. He wiped his mouth dramatically. He then took his shot. It landed in a cup. I glanced up at him, a smirk across his face. I took my cup, drinking the liquid as it burned my throat. Game On.

...

It was neck and neck going into the last game. There were four shots left. Two each. Both of us were decidedly drunk. I was finding it harder and harder to focus on the cups. Pretty much everyone in the party was watching, the music had stopped, all focus was on the game. Dillion made his shot and the ball bounced right into the cup, not hitting the rim at all. I groaned as I swallowed yet more burning alcohol. I shook my head readying myself for the next shot.

'You know Morgan, I've missed you' Dillion said right before I was about to take my shot.

'Oh yeah, why's that?'

'I missed your hot mom' He smirked. I narrowed my eyes and took my shot, right in the cup. Dillion was beginning to sway, yet he was still composed when he threw the ball.

He made his next shot but it missed. This gave me some hope.

I took a few deep breaths, focusing on the last cup. Maybe I was wrong about Dillion being the one swaying. I was. I could feel my weight shift around. Macey was on the edge of the table, her eyes growing more and more concerned as the game ran on.

'Did you know that Josh never liked you?' Dillion said 'He always complained about you. Said you were trash. Just like your dad'

'Don't you dare talk about my father' I hissed

'Or what?' Dillion taunted 'He's dead, Cam. He never got the chance to see the kind of failure you turned out to be' He laughed 'You'll end up like him. Dead and alone' I gritted my teeth and took my shot, using all the anger in my body to fuel my movement. I waited and waited, and it sunk into the cup. I had won.

All my peers from Roseville started to congratulate me, some from Gallagher too. Dillion stared at the cup in disbelief.

'You're wrong, Dillion' I began 'I'm not going to be like my dad. I'm going to be better. I wish I could say the same for you. Now, to my wish' I clasped my hands together and slowly made my way across the table, keeping my steps as straight as possible, until I stood directly in front of Dillion. 'Stay the hell away from me. And if you don't, then remember that I know all your secrets. Now, fuck off' I hissed. Dillion stared down at me, puffing out his chest for a moment. He cursed under his breath and walked away. I sighed heavily. Another weight off my shoulder.

'You are unbelievable!' Macey was a blur in front of me. Was she proud or angry? I couldn't tell, the alcohol was making things fuzzy...and the thing is... I liked it.

'I need another drink' I said moving off (more like stumbling) towards the kitchen

'I think you've had enough' Macey placed her hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off.

'Weren't you the one to say that we needed to have fun?' I spread my arms wide open 'I'm having so much fun, Macey!' I made it into the kitchen and sloppily poured myself another drink. 'Come on' I dangled the drink under her nose 'You know you want it'

'No' Macey moved my hand

'Come on Mace, I'm celebrating! I won beer pong and dickhead Dillion is out of my life for good! Whoooo!' I glugged the drink in one go, wincing at the last. 'I want to dance' I jumped off of the kitchen island I was sitting on and pulled Macey along with me.

'Dance Macey! Like we used to in all those hotel rooms during the campaign tour!' I began to dance to the beat.

'Cam, you're drunk. It's time to go home' She tried to grab my wrist but it was my turn to pull away

'I don't want to go home' I whined 'I don't want my mom judging me on another Morgan Meltdown. Meltdown? Meltdooooooown' I giggled 'That's a funny word'

Macey pulled out her phone. Panic sliced through me. I grabbed both her wrists tightly.

'Cammie, you're hurting me' She said

'Don't call the police' I snapped 'I can't disappoint my dad again' I felt the hot flush of tears sting my eyes.

'I wasn't-' Macey took a deep breath 'I'll be back in one minute Cam. You stay here, promise?'

'Promise' I released Macey's arms. She wasn't going to call the police, good.

Macey disappeared through the house whilst I kept dancing. I don't know how long I was dancing for, but after a while, my feet began to hurt, and Macey had been gone a lot longer than a minute. I made my way through the tidal of bodies until I made it to the front yard.

The cold air hit my body, cooling me instantly. I checked my pockets realising that Macey had my phone. Great.

I sat on the little bench by the front door and closed my eyes for a moment of peace. But the universe once again doesn't allow me that.

'Guess you haven't changed that much' I opened my eyes to see Deedee leaning against the wall, her arms crossed and her eyes fiery.

'What do you mean?' I asked. Deedee rolled her eyes.

'Still the same Cameron Ann Morgan, trying to make it all about herself. You can't just function without the spotlight being on you. It's pathetic'

'You have no idea what you're talking about Deedee' I stood up, hoping to get away from her.

'Oh really? You made sure that all the boys at Gallagher knew your name, your face, and your tricks. And just now, the way you were dancing with those Roseville boys...ha! You're no quarterback, but you're definitely playing the field'

'You've been drinking' I dismissed her. I stumbled down the few stairs hoping to find Macey on my own.

'You're a slut, Cammie. You're an attention seeking whore!' Deedee shouted after me.

'Deedee!' Josh's voice emerged from the door. He looked angry and surprisingly sober. 'I think it's best if you go inside' He turned to her.

'Seriously? You're defending her? Still? After everything, she's done to you?'

'Deedee-'

'Save it' She snapped. Deedee turned to me 'You win. Again. I hope you're happy' She then turned on her heels, pushed past Josh and disappeared into the house. I wrapped my arms around me feeling very cold, and not just from the weather.

'I'm sorry about Deedee, she doesn't quite know how to handle her drink' He scratched the back of his head nervously

'Still doesn't excuse her behavior' I said, turning away. Come on, Macey.

'What did Dillion want?' Josh asked

'What?' I looked back at him

'Beer pong. Dillion said that you know what he wanted. So what was that?'

'It doesn't matter' I said.

'Yes, it does' He took a step forward 'Did you and him…'

'Oh my God!' I snapped 'You're delusional if you think I'd ever do something with him' I gagged.

'So what did he want then? Hm?'

'Pictures' I said.

'Pictures?' Josh was confused 'Pictures of what?'

'Don't act dumb, you already know where his mind goes' I scoffed

'Jesus!' Josh ran his hands through his hair 'So he's asked for pictures before?'

'Yes, multiple times, from multiple girls. But I never sent any. Unlike one of us, I valued our relationship and didn't cheat...with my best friend'

'Don't you dare bring Deedee into this' He snapped, pointing a finger at me

'Why not? You basically cheated on me whilst I was in the hospital'

'It's your fault for being there in the first place!'

'Don't you dare pin this all on me when we both know that it's only ourselves to blame. You could have stopped me, and I could have stopped myself, but we didn't. We were both selfish' I paused 'We're bad for each other Josh. It's best if we just don't talk anymore'

'Fine'

'Fine'

'Good'

'GOOD' I walked away from Josh a few feet. Somewhere in our conversation, I had sobered up. What I didn't realise was the constant walking away and stopping led to me being halfway down the block, in the dark, with no jacket, no phone, completely lost.

'Shit' I hissed. I couldn't walk back now. Josh would be there, and I'd just made a dramatic exit. I didn't want to re-enter. THINK OF THE EMBARRASSMENT!

I walked a little further until I found a bench by a residential park. I sat back against the hardwood, feeling the weight of the evening come crashing down on me.

You're an attention seeking whore!

You're a slut!

It's your fault for being there in the first place!

You'll end up like your dad. Dead and alone.

I squeezed my eyes shut tightly trying to block out all the words. But it was no use. I looked up at the moon. 1 am. Maybe 2? Everything was fuzzy...and dizzy. My eyelids were heavy, heavier than they were before. My body began to shut down on me. I laid myself down on the bench. A few minutes of sleep won't hurt me. My eyelids fluttered closed as the still sound of nature pulled me into the darkness of my dreams.

Author's note: So Macey knew all along about Cammie & Zach, and she finally told Macey some of her secrets, but when will she share the rest. The party didn't go as planned...Poor, poor Cammie. So this was a slightly longer chapter for all of you, hope you enjoy it! xxx

Smiles180: Josh had some very strong words for Cammie but I don't think that he knows about Cammie & Zach just yet. Cute Zammie is coming soon xxx

ILUVBTS: More Zammie moments are coming, next chapter especially! Hope you like this update! xxx

Zachgoodet: Yep, lot's of them. xxx

GallagherGirlsEmbassyRowFan: How do you feel knowing that Macey knew the entire time? Bless Macey for not pressuring Cam to say anything. I'm planning something very intense for when Josh finds out about Cammie. Josh's secret will come out, and when it does...oh, you don't want to be Cammie. See you next time xxx

Guest: Hey! I'm not offended by your comment at all. I would advise you though to look at the rating system on Fanfic. This story, much like all my others, is rated T which means that it's 'Suitable for teens, 13 years and older, with some violence, minor coarse language, and minor suggestive adult themes.' I'm sorry if the swearing I use is offensive to you, or the fact the characters make out, it does fit within the 'T' story guidelines and I suggest that you search stories with 'K' or 'K+' which might suit you better. Hope this helps xxx