Dancing in the rain

by Linneagb

Years after the New Directions were discharged Blaine Hummel- Anderson is back. In searching for a new job he gets one at the library at wmhis and decides to get the glee club back. He knows that even with Sue gone it won't be easy but shame on the one who gives up because after all- life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass but learning how to dance in the rain. SYOC closed

25. Take a chance

Hi guys. You know what? I've become a whole year older since the last chapter! Pretty well done in a few weeks' times don't you think? Anyway, it was my birthday just a few weeks ago. YAY FOR ME!

Oh and I decided to delete all the clothes' and rooms' and outfits' edits. (Except the ones with prom outfits) don't ask me why though… Anyway… if you (who have got polyvore) want to make an edit with clothes or outfits or room for your character it's up to you. And if you do I'll save them down on my laptop and use them. So… well… That's kind of it. Here comes the chapter with preparing for sectionals. Oh and since I deleted so many of them. The ones who are left are put in one and the same polyvore- collection again.

There are no new polyvores added to the collection. But I added Mady's shark costume to her edit.

Lea-Marie POV

Hello soldiers. For the next three weeks we will be rehearsing song suggestions for sectionals. Sectionals will be held December the fifteenth here at McKinley in the auditorium. The rest about it with the themes and the teams we are competing against I will tell you when we meet. We'll have one meeting every day from Monday to Friday this week and next week, then the Monday to Wednesday the week that sectionals is. So, see you at four P.M. In the choir room today. And I've got a special surprise for you today.

For the competition we will have one solo, one duet and one group number. I want you all to play song suggestions but I will choose the ones I think suit best for sectionals. I can't wait to see what you've all got.

-Mr. Blaine.

I just sighed and put my phone back into the side pocket of my bag. What could get worse than a teacher having a surprise? Well, a librarian having a surprise. And honestly I couldn't care any less about it. I had bigger problems to worry about.

I threw the shoulder strap of my back over my shoulder and walked down the stairs to the second floor of the house that had now been- except for mine and dad's also Marion's for a few months. But still boxes with Marion's things stood everywhere because obviously she was 'too tired from the pregnancy and work and everything' to do anything about it. And dad had barely even looked at me since Marion moved in.

"Dad." I knocked on the door to their bedroom and it wasn't many seconds before I heard footsteps too heavy to be Marion's and dad came out still in his pyjamas and his hairs standing in all possible directions. "Can I have some money for lunch?" Dad rubbed his eyes and drowsily looked to his clock. God he even slept with that thing.

"Are you leaving already?" I nodded, I was planning on going to the 7- eleven around the corner to buy what I would have for meals today (Since the school cafeteria's food was just… eurgh! And I couldn't even look at that lunch lady without getting nauseas.) And then go to the pool and swim for a bit before my first class started. "Okay, hold on a minute I'll get my wallet." Dad disappeared into his room and came out picking some bills out of his wallet. And I just held my hand out. "Okay fine. I'm too tired to fight. But it's for lunch and nothing else." He pulled up the rest of the cash out. "Goodnight… morning. Whatever."

"Thanks daddy." Before he had went back to his bed I reached up and slightly touched his cheek with my lips. "And it's just going to go for getting something to eat. I promise you." Dad nodded tiredly and closed the door behind him and I could hear him falling onto the bed and his loud snoring starting right away before I turned and ran down the stairs to the ground floor and out onto the road. The 7- eleven was just around the corner so I went there first without taking the car, and picked up two full- grain baguettes with chicken curry, two bottles of diet coke and ten packages of my all- time favorite. Reese's butter cups.

"All of these and one big coke Slurpee." I went over to the cashier. Well-I said it would go to meals- just not what kind of meals! "And a bag." I put up a plastic bag as well and paid. And without thanking put all of it and left the store sipping on that Slurpee. Until I at last turned the motor on again and went to the school to get a couple of laps swam before school started.

"So. Here comes the sectional outfits." Later that day we were gathered in the choir room and Mr. Blaine and his husband Kurt who hadn't been with us since the auditions came into the room pushing a big cart with bags of clothes. "I hope and I think you're all going to like them." Mr. Blaine looked lovingly to his husband who was almost jumping with excitement. "Nobody opens the bags before everyone's got theirs. So… Christie. I know you and you are there." He went over to Christie and handed her bag. "Blaine. There are name tags on all of the bags you help me."

"How could you even afford all of this? I hope it wasn't for the money you were going to use for Christmas presents." Mr. Blaine smirked a bit and handed one bag to Dakota and another to Daniel.

"I have an eye for bargains. And no, I will still have money to buy you very, very big and very, very good Christmas presents." Kurt had an annoying tone in his voice. It was probably meant to make Blaine even more impatient to get to open his presents on Christmas day. "Lea- Marie?" I looked up, "Lea- Marie… Oh, you're the last one of the girls so I could have guessed." He handed it to me while Blaine handed the very last one to Jasper. "Okay guys. Now open them."

"Do we have to wear a pink tie?"

"It looks like something someone would wear in like the 1950's."

"Ehrm. How am I going to get into this dress? And pink? Pink flower? In my hair? Could you make it any worse?"

"How exactly were you thinking?"

"I love it"

"I CAN'T GET THIS STUPID ZIPPER UP"

"Okay guys. Keagan, yes. Pink tie. But take one for the team. Come on, Martina… Well, I can't exactly protest against that but I still think it works. Sharon, if you let Kurt help you he'll sow it up in whatever way that it takes but believe me Kurt can manage. About the pink flower in your red hair don't worry about it. Christie, let's talk about that when we get home. Dakota YAY. Finally someone who likes it and Lea- Marie." Mr. Blaine sighed again and pushed my hand away, then easily as if he was cutting through melted butter he pulled the zipper down and let go of it to go back down onto the floor while I could see the white dress with black polka dots with white tights and a pink flower hair- clip.

"Martina's right." I agreed after glancing over it a few times. "And I hate pink."

"I love it too."

Daniel agreed with Dakota, and actually. With seeing his eyes sparkle in that way when he smiled I could feel my heart beating. Damn it Daniel Vincent! Why wouldn't he just see me? Why couldn't he look at me like I looked at him? Just once if forever was too much to ask about. No by the way… I wanted Daniel Vincent to be mine. And I wanted him to be mine forever!

"And here are the shoes. Ehrm…" Kurt and Blaine lifted each converse- box from the cart and read the names written upon them. "Christie… Martina… Daniel…" And on it went, one by one until Jasper was handed the very last box. "Okay then, and open them." I could tell some of the people in the room were very nervous after the mostly fiasco with the dress. But the shoes were just common, black converse- quite boring if you'd ask me.

"So." Mr. Blaine started talking and jumped up onto the piano like he always did. "The theme for this year of competitions…" Blaine waited and kept silent to keep the suspense. "…Is what the glee club means. You might be kind of confused but… someone say… what this glee club means to you or what you get through the glee club or whatever?"

It was silent for a moment. And then Dakota spoke, followed by Benjamin, then Mady who had seemed unusually quiet this rehearsal, and at last Christie.

"…Singing and dancing I guess…"

"…Friends…"

"…All of the ones in this glee club are my friends too…"

"…My friends too. Even though you're all kind of annoying…"

Mr. Blaine sighed at Christie's comment. But I just silently agreed with her. Not the being friends part- none of the people in here were my friends. And still they weren't kind of annoying they were all really annoying. At least Mady wouldn't ask every time she was here when her dad would come home. And Benjamin wasn't being a crybaby over the fact that he didn't know how to tell her Mr. Heedie wouldn't come home. And those two parts had been so annoying each time they occurred it was probably a miracle I hadn't exploded there and then.

I hadn't even been a part of the glee club if it wasn't for that that it would somehow give me a chance to shine. And there was no way Finn's army would make it without me even though I knew they all hated me anyways. There was no way for me to not have noticed that!

"Oh well." Mr. Blaine laid an arm around Kurt's shoulders when he climbed up right by his husband. And so interrupted my thoughts "Whatever you think about the glee club and what you get from it. Think of a song for it and preform it. Don't be afraid to think outside the box. Anyway, I have to go now. Christie come on. … Come on! Faster. As soon as we leave you at the hospital with Carole I'm so going on a date…" He turned to Kurt and didn't seem to mind about us others when they kissed. "…With my very favorite person…" They kissed again. "…In the whole wide world." They kissed yet another time before they moved away from each other.

I grabbed my bag, okay. Homosexual- okay. But you don't have to stand like that in front of me! That if anything grossed me out. I left the room, but still my minds were working hard to find a song that would suit the theme… hold on a minute…

…If glee club was going to give me a chance to shine!

Almost right away I was thinking about a song that I had used to watch when I was little. I had looked it up on YouTube not too long ago and turned out my childhood's favorite series wasn't too much favorite anymore. But the theme song was still great. And since everyone in glee club hated me anyway. It couldn't get any better by singing a song about pretty much breaking out of your shell and having an attitude do worse?

And if there was something I would never do it was showing anybody that I was weak. And yeah, that was pretty much what the song was about. And that thought stick- and what would the glee club need more than an attitude and to show the rest of the school and the world that we were something for sectionals. This song would for certain be the perfect one for sectionals, because after all. Who could do this job better than me- myself and I?

"I've got a song." I said, before Mr. Blaine had even greeted us coming into the choir room on Tuesday afternoon November the twenty eighth. It had taken me the whole term, but I was finally going first- at least without a fight. "And I'd like to do it now." Mr. Blaine seemed like he wanted to say something about it. "But just nodded and waved towards the open floor for me to get out there and before anyone had had the time to go before me I asked everyone to come with me to the auditorium and well there I plugged my phone into the speakers and waited for the moment where I'd start singing.

"I've got an attitude…"

I tried to concentrate fully on the lyrics and the choreography I had made to give myself even more attitude. But I couldn't fail to notice the look on Benjamin's face. That smirk… And that look in those so very, very blue eyes. It was as if he agreed with me that the song would suit me… But it was in another way, and I didn't like it.

I shook the feeling off and just continued. Who was Horrid Heedie to tell me what I could or could not do, say or sing anyway? Sure, I had told his sister their dad was dead. But someone had to do it since he wouldn't take the freaking chance! And I know that if no one would have told me when mum died then I would have hated it!

I had to do it anyway. And there and then I decided to take the chance again, and do the performance exactly like I wanted. I had been wearing a jacket over the crop shirt and the jeans. Now I just threw it off and lifted my hands in the air- if they wanted a performance. Then they were so getting one!

"I'm not so sure this would be the right number for sectionals." When I turned back, grabbed my phone and threw my jacket over one shoulder. "The song was good but… it just didn't feel right. I can see your point though. So maybe another time… Have anyone else got a song." I peered slightly towards Mr. Blaine in annoyance, if that wasn't good enough than what the hell did he want? I was just on my way to say something when Benjamin interrupted my thoughts.

"If I were you I'd stay very, very low." I just glared at him and waited while Sharon went up on the stage and sang her suggestion with only Kayla's piano to. And whatever her thought was with this song- oh no! There was no way I would give everyone yet another reasons to call us freaks! No way, no freaking way! Especially not with the pregnant girl singing.

Oh, and it was a shitty song.

"I don't know Sharon." Blaine sighed and leaned back in his chair. "It's a great song and I get what you mean it just doesn't feel like that song. So, I will write all songs on a list and consider them but it's unlikely we'd choose this one." Mr. Blaine sighed again. "Christie, if you want to catch a ride with me home today we need to go now. I haven't slept barely anything tonight and I need to go home before I can still keep my eyes open." Mr. Blaine stood up, grabbed his bag and yawned. "Glee club finished for today." He started walking up the stairs, but we could all hear what he mumbled just a second later.

"What if someone could just take a chance on some random song, and then we would have the right one? Scratch that. I just want to find the right songs for sectionals."

Harry POV

"MARY." My triplet brother Larry shouted and then stepped up and started jumping on her bed while shouting to wake her up. "MARY. MARY. MARY. MARY. MARY" He continued. Even though Mary had already moaned, turned AND thrown her pillow at him. Well as good as she could in his face from her drowsy state. "MARY. MARY. MARY." He jumped down from Mary's bed and even though he couldn't jump in the lower bunk of our bunk bed that was mine. He leaned in and grabbed my pyjama shirt and started shaking me up and down towards the mattress.

"HARRY, HARRY, HARRY, HARRY, HARRY." Before he'd had the time to shout my name a sixth time I sat up so quickly he was more or less forced to let go of my shirt and fell backwards. "Okay. It's not a very good thing you're smarter than me Harold!" He laid a hand on Mary's bed and pushed himself up. "Uh- oh. Dad!"

When Larry heard footsteps in the hallway, too heavy to be our petite mum he almost flew up the ladder to his bed and sat while I laid down again and pulled my covers over me so it would look like I had barely been awake. I would understood if that made me a coward. But when I saw Mary had done the exact same thing it felt kind of better. And I had just pulled it over when I heard the door handle being pushed down and into the room came not dad- but our big brother Thomas Jr. AKA Tom.

"Don't worry." He told us after closing the door. "It's just me. And dad is still in bed so…" He lowered his voice for dad not to hear and continued. "He wants me to go off and give each and every one of you a slap for waking him up. But since he's not here anyway I don't have to. So I'll slap towards this." He patted on the board between the bunks in mine and Larrry's bed. "And you shout as if it hurt. Okay? Okay, Harry, you first." He hit with his palm towards the wooden and I moaned like I usually would when it was for real. "Mary, you're next." Tom did it again and Mary screamed. "And Larry, you don't have to do anything." Tom hit his hand towards the wood, Larry stayed silent like he always did. Even if dad or Tom would hit never as hard. "Okay. Oh, hey mum." While Tom pretended to hit Larry mum had come into the room with our lunch boxes and she reached up while Tom leaned down so mum could kiss his cheek as thanks for not actually hitting us.

"So." Mum held up a bag she was holding on. "I'd suggest you get out of bed and out of the house before Thomas is up." I nodded quickly and Mary seemed to be thinking the same while we rushed to the bathroom at the same time and I was the one that had to wait outside the door until Mary was done. But what wouldn't I do for my sister!

"Okay, here they are." Once I came back mum pulled out my lunch box from the bag. "Lunch box that looks like a book for you Harry. You got sandwiches with eggs and sausage- your favorite! And some grapes" She held it to me. "And… A lunch box that looks like bacon for you sir." She handed the second box to Larry. "Don't eat it yet. It's for lunch. You got blt's" Larry raised an eyebrow. "Without the T of course. And with an apple" With that Larry nodded gratefully. "And… a boring, plain, purple box."

"It's not boring mum. It's the only way to be socially accepted without silly lunch boxes!" I just shook my head, and I should have guessed that Larry was going to comment on it in his very own little way. And that was not only because we were identical I knew that.

"Who wants to be socially accepted when you could be socially retarded?"

"Lawrence!" Larry would know mum was serious when she used his full name. "You know I don't want to hear that R- word in my house. And you can't be retarded. Retarded is only a word and no one could be only a word." Larry only grimaced while mum handed the box to Mary. "You got a few pieces of some vegetarian sushi I tried to make." Mary smiled from ear to ear. "I know your father doesn't want to accept it. But I will do what I can for you to be able to eat like you want. You also have a banana. And…" She reached down her bag again. "…Why on earth did I have triplets?" She pulled up a package of juice boxes and reached them to me so I could pull them apart. "They're all orange, one for you each. And… since it's Friday, almost Christmas and you have all done so very well this semester. One special little treat." She pulled up three small Pringles boxes and then handed them out. "Do you guys have to wear the same clothes?" I looked to Harry, then we both looked back to mum who looked down on our feet- Larry's feet was several sizes bigger than mine and many people used it to tell us apart.

"So… You're Harry." I nodded. "Sour cream and onion for you. Salt and vinegar for Mary and Cheddar cheese for Larry. Now, I'd suggest you leave." I, Larry and Mary all grabbed our bags and pushed down our lunches in then. Then I and Larry got on either side of mum and Mary in front of her and then I and Larry kissed each of her cheeks and Mary her forehead- you just learnt your ways to save time when you were a triplet. "Oh." Mum wiped of her cheek. "Thanks guys. How did I get so lucky I had three? Well four with Tom." We could all hear dad get out of bed. "Off you go." Mary ran out of the room first, then I, and as I came running I could hear dad come through the hallway. And he walked into our bedroom before I had gotten the chance to stand up for Larry.

I and Mary stopped in the stairs, and could hear dad's voice. Muffled so to the point we couldn't hear what he said, but we could hear the loud sound when dad's palm met Larry's cheek and mum trying to break it off.

"No, Thomas. No. Stop it." Then a bang and mum's voice went louder and higher for screaming to Larry. "RUN, LARRY RUN." Next thing Larry came running out. But caring (and thoughtless) as he was he was pulling onto mum's hand and didn't let go until we were all outside. And Larry handed mum his bus pass.

"I don't care if it's against the rules. I need to get to school so I can't exactly give you a ride to your job on my bike. Oh come on mum. I don't need that bus pass anyway." Mum just handed the pass back to him. Stating she had her own. "Fine then." He put it in his pocket and then smiled goofily towards mum. "I love you more than bacon." Mum shook her head slightly and then reached up and slightly kissed his cheek. "Come on mum, we gotta go before dad comes back." Larry grabbed his bike, while Mary grabbed hers and as usual I planned to just sit on the back of Larry or Mary's. Even though the first part of the way we walked for mum to catch up.

"Okay, today's Friday. And it's almost Christmas. Can't you at least try to get some work done today?" Larry only glared down at mum- he was the class clown and it always seemed like he got very little done during the several hours a day five days a week we were in school. "I know. Love you more than sausage. All of you." By the first crossroad mum went in one direction and I swung a leg over the back of Mary's bike. It was a big risk as the roads were getting slippery for the winter- but who wouldn't take that shot to keep up with their triplet siblings? Not me at least.

"Hey, guys. Look at this." Just as we came into the school Larry stopped by the bulletin board. "It seems to be something about the glee club. Can you read it Mary?" Mary nodded, we three were the only ones who knew about Larry's trouble with reading. So she just gently pushed him to the side and read.

"Sectionals for glee clubs will be held here on McKinley. Friday at six PM in two weeks. They need a drummer. And someone who will do something on the stage in the pause while the judges do theirs so the audience won't go all bored and crazy… Larry? Oh no, don't even think about it. You know I don't like singing in front of people"

"You sing in front of us!" Larry just stated the obvious. "And wouldn't it be cool if we stood on a stage and did the cup song." I and Mary both shook our heads. "Oh come on guys. Give it a shot! Please, where's your sense of adventure?"

I and Mary glanced at each other. I wasn't so sure about this and it seemed like Mary was with me. But fact remained that Larry would always find a way to get what he wanted. And even though I had planned never to give in at this point. In the afternoon we stood in the choir room in front of the glee club with each plastic cup and Mary introduced us.

"Well, I'm Mary and these are my triplet brothers Harry and Larry." Mr. Blaine raised an eyebrow. "Well, are real names are Marianne, Harold and Lawrence. But don't ever call one of us by our real name! Understand?" Talking straight to Mr. Blaine just laughed and shook his head. "And we like the cup song. So we will be…" With that I and the boys sat down on the floor and Larry pulled up the cups from his bag and handed one each to me and Harry. "…doing that one, right here, right now. And hopefully also in the pause at sectionals."

I fingered with my cup already before we started the song. I had never really sung in front of anyone except for Mary and Larry before. And as we started the clapping, lifting and putting down the cups I was certain I would do it wrong several times but somehow got on the right track again. And then Mary started singing, we must have sung this song at least a million times before. But this almost felt like the first time it all just went right and just clicked. Until the last clap and Mr. Blaine stood up and scratched his neck in a way I just knew meant that we wouldn't get to do this on sectionals. And now it actually made me quite sad. I had sort of gotten used to the thought that we might get to do it and it felt like a fun thing to do.

"Triplets!" He shoved his hands in his pockets and glanced over the three of us. "I will say this right out… You were… AWESOME!" I couldn't help but smile, and Larry was wearing a from ear to ear kind of smile while Mary seemed a bit nervous with me. "This is just awesome. And you've got it and yes, who is this?" I turned to where he turned and saw a small group of three. All very short, one boy who was a good bit shorter than the others, one boy with Inlines, and one girl with slightly tanned skin and a bag that read 'my diabetes kit' "I recognize Pete and Jude but… I don't think we've ever talked before." Before Mr. Blaine had the chance to say anything else the short boy had greeted a tall boy in the glee club with a 'hey moron' and the tall boy got a return with 'hi you nuthead' I just shook my head- It wasn't too unusual I, Larry and Mary talked to each other like that anyway. So I had been through it too many times to care.

"Well." The girl said. "My name is Wil. Wilhelmina Hughes actually but don't mind about that- it's Wil. With one L and nothing else. And I saw that you needed a drummer."

"And didn't think she's got enough on her plate already." The boy with the Inlines continued. "Seriously Wil, you're in like a thousand different sports and clubs already. How are you going to have time for glee club as well?" Wil just gave him a meaning look. "Top priority? Well, then let's hope you're better at drumming than you are at singing." Wil just stuck her tongue out at him and Mr. Blaine snapped his fingers into a rhythm. Wil started playing- surprisingly well, and even though he changed his rhythm Wil always seemed to find it.

"Well." Mr. Blaine showed her to stop hitting the drumsticks towards the drums at last. "I think we've got a ma… woman for the job. Let's try you in action. Jude, Pete, triplets. Sit down. Finn's army. Get up." He started handing papers out to the members of the glee club. "I thought this song would suit the theme. But I'm not sure. So I want to see you all in action. And from the top!"

The song started with Lea- Marie Hale starting to sing. Followed by the tall guy who had called Jude a nuthead. I thought it was pretty good, and like Mr. Blaine had thought it would suit the theme for the competitions this year. But I just had a feeling. And couldn't put words on it until Mr. Blaine seemed hesitant and then said the exact same thing that I had been feeling.

"I honestly don't know." Mr. Blaine scratched his head through his thick, curly hair. "It's a good song and yeah, it represents what a glee club is all about… It just…. It still doesn't feel like we've found the right song." He put his head in his hands. "I just… I just have a feeling that when we've found the right song it will just click…. And no… this song just didn't click at all. Anyway, triplets. You don't have to do anything but to rehearse on your own and then show up about an hour before sectionals actually starts on December the fifteenth. But Wil, the glee club now rehearse every day from Monday to Friday next week, and from Monday to Wednesday the week for sectionals so we can well… sort of rest our voices that Thursday. But I'd like for you to come to as many as you can of those. And you have Facebook right?" Wil nodded. "Someone will invite you to the Finn's army group and I'll write what times we'll meet. So… I guess that's it for this week. Have a nice weekend everyone."

And with that, I left the auditorium with my sister and brother. And even though I was mostly scared and nervous out of my mind I had a smile on my lips. I was ready to stand on the stage and do this. I was ready to take this chance.

Benjamin POV

"Bye guys." I had tried to keep my mouth shut during the whole rehearsal. Knowing exactly how hyper I was I could probably throw just anything and everything out of me. "I'm sorry I didn't say anything but Jas, you were great. Christie you were great too and Daniel I'm sorry Mr. Blaine didn't think they were the right songs because you were great. And I'm very hyper today so if I start talking like this. You know as fast as I am talking right now because I am talking very fast. So I am going to stop now before I tell you something I wouldn't tell otherwise."

"Benjie." Mr. Blaine came over to me with his phone in his hand. "Kurt have finished that shark costume for Mady. Can you two come over today already and check if it fits so we can change it a bit if it doesn't?" I nodded. "Mady goes to Saint Peter's right?" I nodded. "Can you go and get her and wait outside and I'll give Chris a ride to the hospital and then come and pick you up on the way home?" I nodded. "Thanks."

For a moment I was so confused and hyper I only stood still on one spot and looked around. Then I remembered I was going to get Mady and then go over to the Hudson- Hummel- Anderson- Kyemohr house and so I finally walked away. But when I left the room I still heard Christie a kind of confused question.

"What the heck is up with him?"

What was up with me today was the fact that I was super speeded because of the side effects of Ritalin- the meds I used to take because I had ADHD. They usually weren't this bad but this morning I had accidentally gotten a double dose- don't ask me how but that's what happened when your mum would help you to remember the meds for the first time in years and I was so drowsy when she helped me I didn't remember her doing that until she asked me if I did after breakfast- and after I had taken them by breakfast like I usually did.

"Did you make all of those wristbands for next Friday Mads?" Mr. Blaine asked and Mady nodded happily and held up her bag to show him she had it there while we walked up the driveway to the house. "Awesome, I'll check them out in a minute. But first we try out that shark costume." Mady was so excited she was more jumping than walking up the porch and through the hallway.

"Hello Benjamin. Hello Mady." Carole was standing in the kitchen fixing with something that looked like something for dinner when we came and was the first one to greet us after coming inside. "Hi Blaine. Did you get those breads I needed?" Blaine held up a pack of some bread buns and threw them on the table towards Carole.

"I fixed it during my lunch break. And before you say anything, yes I drove Christie to the hospital. But she wasn't too happy about it and said she could take the bus. She really hates people caring for her like this." Mr. Blaine just shook his head. "Weird girl that is! Oh well, Kurt had finished that shark costume for Mady and… oh here he is." Kurt came into the room and nodded to me and Mady with the costume in his arms. "Can I see it, can I see it, can I see it?" Mr. Blaine was jumping up and down like an excited little kid when Kurt held the costume up. "Oh that's so perfect. Here Mady. Let's try it on. You can sit down if you want Benji. I nodded and sat down on the kitchen coach and tried to act like nothing. When in fact the hyperactivity had run off. And been replaced by a headache from hell.

"Look Benjie." Mady had pulled the shark costume over her T shirt and jeans not a minute later and that's how excited she was and how fast she got it on. "I'm a big and scary shark roar. Roar." She walked around pretending to roar, I actually wasn't too sure that's what sharks did… but whatever made her happy!

"Dinner's almost ready." Carole told us not two minutes later. "Benjamin, Mady. I made for you too. Nuh- uh. No protests. Here is more than enough for all of us and I do know your habits with dinner. What are you thinking about Ben? Oh… No furry creature greeting you? Burt is with her at the vet's. She had eaten some whatever. Don't worry about it, she'll be more fine than Burt's wallet" I laughed slightly and then sighed and pushed my hand down my pocket to find my wallet and pay her. "Don't even think about it Benjamin!" I smiled, and my eyes filled up with tears. Not of sorrow, not of relief… I guess of gratefulness. And the knowledge that there was no one in the world that had better friends than me. I wasn't usually this emotional though- stupid Ritalin! Stupid side effects!

"So can I see those wristbands you made Mads?" Mr. Blaine asked while I leaned my elbow against the table and my head in my hand. Mady happily nodded. "Oh, they have got name tags attached to them. We'll pull those off once everyone's got theirs. Did you measure around their wrists to get the right sizes?" Mady nodded. "Okay," Mr. Blaine poured all of the wristbands down onto the table. "Oh these are perfect." He seemed to search for some special. "Hey Carole, look at this." He held one- a lot bigger than the other in in one hand and an a lot smaller up in the other. "This is the smallest and the biggest. Quite some difference between Daniel and Christie's wrists are there?" Carole just smiled, and I had a feeling that while Mr. Blaine found it quite funny- she didn't.

"So… This is today's dinner." Carole put some bowls with some soup with bread as bowls in them. "I haven't tried this before. I hope you like cheese and broccoli soup." Mady grabbed her spoon and started eating happily. Was there one thing that girl didn't eat? Nope! Probably not. I just took the spoon and then sat and stared down into the bread and the soup. Not that it didn't sound good- I loved soup, I loved broccoli… Just not food, just not right now.

"What's the matter Ben?" Carole seemed distressed. "Don't you like soup or anything?"

"No, it's fine." I squeezed the handle of my spoon with a shaky hand (Tics were another side effect. "I love soup. Eating anything and everything seemed to just be in the family." I patted Mady's back and tried to ignore the headache pounding behind my forehead. Although before I had had the time to say any other random lousy excuse to why I was so tense and wasn't eating Mady had told them the truth. Probably because she knew that I wouldn't tell them myself.

"Ben accidentally took a double dose of his meds today. And now he's got a headache that makes it feel like his head is going to explode and his stomach makes it feel like he's going to throw up." I glared at Mady- she knew me way too well but couldn't she just shut up every once in a while?

"Oh honey, that's no good."

"I don't think you told us by the way." I forced myself to take a spoon of the soup and change the subject. And once I had the first spoon in my mouth it turned and I felt how hungry I was while turned to Mr. Blaine. "How come you decided on a shark for Finn's army's mascot?" Mr. Blaine had his mouth full of soup and almost spit it all out trying to answer me. "You can swallow before you answer" He looked weirdly at me. "Sorry, with Mady, stating things like that is just a habit." Mr. Blaine cleared his float and wiped the soup of his whole chin before he answered.

"Shark was Finn's favorite animal. And from time to time he was somewhat obsessed with them. He nagged me and so many others for weeks to watch movies like Sharknado or Jaws with him. So, when I knew that Mady couldn't be a part of our numbers in the competitions I wanted her to have some part and thought she could be our mascot dressed up as some whatever animal and…. It just seemed pretty clear and that's the whole story. Sorry, I'm just babbling. You only asked for the first part." I waved it off- loads of things bothered me, but people talking wasn't one of them! Not even a day like this!

"I can tell you're not feeling well Ben." Carole told me when I was getting ready to leave. "I know you don't want to but I promise you it's not a bother. Why don't you let us take Mady for tonight? You look like you can barely stand on your feet you poor thing." I raised after taking my shoe on and looked up at her. Normally I would have answered her no. I didn't want to be a bother. But her promise sounded truthful and honestly she was right and I took one step forward and then embraced her. Carole seemed kind of tense- mostly as if she wasn't ready for it to happen but so she relaxed a bit and embraced me back. And it was the first time anyone had ever hugged me like that.

I tried to keep my hands from shaking- it got worse during feelings like this and I shoved them in my pockets to cover it. And what was it with those mothers when they always knew what you wanted and needed, but couldn't ask for.

"Do you want me to come outside and walk a bit of the way with you if it means that you will make it the whole way home?" I forced the lump down my throat and nodded. "Okay, I'LL BE BACK IN A MINUTE." She grabbed her jacket and her shoes and we walked in silence the first few hundred meters. Even though the urge to just break and tell her exactly everything…. Maybe the only thing it would take was for her to know exactly what to say. And I would break and tell her everything- yes, everything.

"You know Ben." She said as we started drawing close to my house. "I'm a mother. I had one son. Now I have one angel, and two men I consider my son- Kurt and Blaine. Through the nineteen years I had Finn with me I dealt with exactly every feeling and every outburst you could possibly imagine. So if you need to shout or cry or talk or anything else then… You know where I am. And it doesn't matter if it's in the middle of the night or Christmas eve. Just give me a call or anything and I'll be right there." I nodded and wanted to thank her, but I didn't dare to open my mouth for another several seconds in fear of just breaking down.

"I take care of everyone"

I wasn't too sure where it came from, but suddenly I just took the chance and said exactly what I felt. And that was after Carole actually had known exactly what to say. In all its simple words.

"What do you mean honey?"

"What I'm saying. I take care of everyone. I take care of Mady because dad is gone and mum works. When dad was alive and came home high as a house. I'd sit up all night and make sure he stayed on his side so in case he threw up so he wouldn't choke and die. When mum have been raped- again. I sit and hold her hand while she takes a pregnancy test and if it shows positive then I sit next to her while she's doing an abortion. Holding her hand and telling her that it's okay. And no one would expect her to do anything else- again! I do football, and glee club and before every practice or rehearsal or practice I need to pick up Mady from school. God I can't believe I just told you all of this. God, you must hate me now." I put my head in my hands.

"I don't hate you Benjamin. Why would I hate you?"

I didn't answer that, she and everybody else probably had loads of reasons to hate me. But now when I thought about it I couldn't think of one single- except that I'd been with my mum to get an abortion four times and for many people that was far from okay.

"This is my house. "I stopped before turning into my driveway. "I've got to go and make sure Brady eats. He's in college so he's always got some major tests coming up and he forgets sometimes." Carole raised an eyebrow- oh now she understood what I had said first! "See ya!" Before she had the chance to say something else I hurried up the driveway. But was stopped when she talked again.

"You are there for everyone Ben. But then who is there for you when you need?"

I stopped, but forced myself to continue up the driveway and up the porch. Pulled a pack of lunchables out of the cupboard and threw them into Brady's room onto his mixed living room (Oh well, he's room was mixed living room and bedroom, kitchen we shared, and then there was only a bathroom for him) table and desk so he'd have something to eat. Before I felt a pounding worse than ever in my head and I turned to my own bedroom and mostly fell onto my bed.

But well there I couldn't sleep. The medicines were still in my body and would stay for another while. Therefore, I couldn't sleep.

Stupid ADHD, stupid medicines, stupid drowsiness that makes you forget, STUPID SIDE EFFECTS!

Suddenly I just broke, and knowing Brady was too busy with his things to notice, mum was at work and Mady at Burt and Carole's I stopped fighting and let my tears first slowly, then quicker and quicker started to drip from my eyes, to my cheek and so dripped down on my British- flag- printed pillow case.

At last, as the medicine's work started wearing out for the afternoon and evening I went really tired. And with the headache after being way too hyperactive earlier still pounding beneath my forehead and temples still pounding I drifted off to sleep. I'd probably wake up at four in the morning falling asleep now, but I couldn't bother to stay awake.

"Hey." Mr. Blaine greeted me when I came through the hallway with Mady's hand in mine towards the choir room the next day. "So, we are at… what? Thursday, December the seventh. Wow, it's like…. September, October, November, December…" Mr. Blaine counted on his fingers. "I put up the flyer Monday September the eleventh so in four days it will be three months since it all started. For you, I had planned it for a few days before at Wednesday the sixth. Anyway, how are you today? Have those side effects given up yet?"

I stood still for a moment- well as still as I could, with every step that I took my body would tremble from one side to the other and it got clearer when I stood still. Mr. Blaine only glanced at me up and down.

"How did you even manage to…" I shushed on him while we walked into the choir room where everybody else were so they wouldn't hear. I wasn't so sure if I wanted to tell exactly everyone that I was disabled just yet. "Oh well…" I went to sit down and Mady sat down next to me and lifted her feet up on to sit Indian style. "…Hello soldiers. How many have got songs today?"

"I have a song." Four people said at first and raised their hands. "Oh…" They all continued and then laughed and in some way continued together. "Who should go first?" Martina, Esme, Bradon and Keagan all glanced to each other. And only Bradon and Keagan continued and gestured towards the open floor. "Ladies first."

"Then Keagan should go first." Lea- Marie stated before anyone else had had the chance to say anything else. "Shouldn't you, Princess?" Keagan's eyes went dark, he hated any of those stupid nicknames. And I could see him clenching his hands hard around the fabric in his jeans not to snap back at Lea, while he turned to Esme.

"Miss Montague?" He gestured towards the room. And Esme nodded and handed some sheet music to Kayla before Kayla started playing, and when Esme started singing I recognized the song and noticed Mady's big smile next to me. She loves all of those series on Disney Channel, including the intro songs and this was probably her second favorite- I didn't do it came right after good luck Charlie on her top list. And she loved Esme's version of the intro I could tell. Even though Esme was singing a slow ballad version of it, and I knew that when people did this Mady was just waiting for it to go upbeat again. But it never did and it ended just as slow in the beat as it had begun.

"That was really good Esme" Mr. Blaine clapped his hands when Esme finished her song and collected the sheet music when she saw Mr. Blaine was wearing the same expression as he had so far every time someone had suggested a song during the first week and a half to find one solo, one duet and one group number for our sectionals songlist.

"But I don't think that it's the right song." He scratched the top of his head and grimaced slightly. "I'm sorry. Well. Martina you go next." Mr. Blaine gestured while Martina gave Mr. Dom the sheet music, and when he started playing with the electric guitar I recognized the song and next to me Mady lit up.

"I LOVE THIS SONG. I LOVE THIS SHOW" I showed her to be quiet, but she still got onto her feet and started dancing and Martina ran over to her, took Mady's hands and pulled her down from the audience and while Martina sung Mady sang along and danced around the floor. And my smile wouldn't have faded if I tried to make it.

It wasn't a surprise or a secret that now when Mady had known for a while why it was that dad wouldn't come home she would still be sad every once in a while but I would tell her stuff like that daddy could still see her and was always with her and yada, yada and all that jazz. And most of the time she was just like she had always been with talking to anybody and everybody and being happy and eating all the sweet things I could afford and yeah… Just being Mady. But still it felt like this was the last puzzle piece to seeing her happy again while she had the brightest smile on her lips and jumped and span around and danced around the older girl in front of all of us. Although it was probably needless to say that Lea- Marie was the only one whose smile wasn't as big as Mady's in the room. And just as the song ended we all got on our feet and cheered, along with Mr. Blaine who had just an as big smile as everybody else. And I thought that finally he might have found the right song for sectionals.

"That was great guys." Mr. Blaine stated (Well, it was just truthful) "Yay Mady. You did so well." While Mady came to sit next to me again Mr. Blaine held out his hand to high- five her. "But… I still don't think it's the right song for sectionals." Mr. Blaine slumped back into his chair and sounded quite given up when he gestured and spoke again. "Keagan you go next." Keagan nodded, and told that he would do his song without any instruments before he walked downwards and faced the audience.

"And if anyone breathes a word to anyone that I like good luck Charlie!" Martina stated and there were some spread sounds of laughter in the room. "It's totally a guilty pleasure. Come on, we've all got them!"

"Well… Both Martina and Esme did intro songs from Disney shows so…" Keagan started. "I thought I'd just continue with the tradition. So here's a song that I and Jasper did during duet week and I thought it would suit the theme for songs during sectionals. And it's the theme song to… what? Girl meets world I believe." He started snapping his fingers into a rhythm and sang through the song, Keagan was a great singer and everything. But still that given up expression never left Mr. Blaine and he sighed when Keagan had finished his song as if he had the whole world's sorrows on his shoulders.

"No, I don't know I guess… Take on the world is one of my favorite songs but… it's still just not right." Mr. Blaine sighed. "Bradon? Have you got a song from one of those new Disney songs too?" Bradon shook his head, borrowed one of the guitars and jumped up to sit on the piano when he realized the guitar didn't have a shoulder strap and that made it hard to stand up and play.

"No, this isn't a song from one of those new Disney shows. I'm not a too big fan of those and like the old classics best like Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck better. I really do like boy meets world and girl meets world though but like Martina said… if anyone breathes a word about it to anybody not in this room." He gestured. "But this song… I don't remember it's either in Stuart Little 2 or it was kind of… interfered by that movie to write the song. Either way it's on some CD for it… And I really like the song so…" He played a chord on the guitar. "Here we go."

It didn't take more than the first line of the song before I realized that this was the same song that Jasper had done earlier in the semester. I had remembered it when he mentioned Stuart Little, but wasn't that kind of Jasper's song? Oh well… it would show and Jasper was a nice guy either way so he probably wouldn't mind.

And I was right

"Isn't that kind of Jasper's song?" The last chord had barely rung out when Martina asked the question. "I remember he was doing it earlier. And I always considered it… his!" Bradon seemed to remember and before anyone else had had the time to say anything, neither Jasper Bradon remembered and apologized.

"I'm so sorry Jasper. Marti's right and I totally forgot but that is totally your song and if anyone should do the song for sectionals it's you. I am so, so sorry I would have asked you to do it but I totally forgot. I thought I had heard the song somewhere before!"

"It's fine Bradon. It isn't my song. Anyone here can sing whatever song they want. And no Bradon. If this song ends up the solo for sectionals you should sing it. You're a much better singer than I am and… Hold on a minute. Mr. Blaine? What do you think?"

"I think…" Mr. Blaine hesitated and I had to suppress a sigh. Whether it was Bradon or Jasper singing it seemed like this wasn't the right song neither. "…I think that Jasper is very good at singing. And you Jazz should take a chance and actually give it a try some time. But Bradon did that song very good so if everyone's okay with it I think it should be Bradon's solo because we have gotten ourselves the SOLO number for SECTIONALS. WOHO. And I know someone asked me if I thought that we had a chance of winning… And the thing is… We're competing against Vocal Adrenaline. And on my time you know when dinosaurs walked around, Vocal Adrenaline won nationals every year… But… I'm not saying we won't have a chance. Because I think we have an as big chance as big as anybody else. But even if we don't. I took the chance to set up this glee club and you have all given me so much and more than any trophy could ever do. So come on guys." He got out on the floor and held his hands out. "Circle." We all got down to. "Okay, take a chance on three."

"ONE" We all shouted together. "TWO, THREE. TAKE A CHANCE"

Christie POV

"But don't you get it? I can't wear these? My legs are like huge. And I'm not saying that because I'm like those usual super- skinny girls that say they're fat when they haven't got single piece of fat on their body. My legs are filled with fluid and THEY'RE FREAKING HUGE. Why do you think I wear very lose jeans and too big sweatpants at all times? Why do you think I wear long sleeved shirts even when it's way too warm? It's because I am FREAKING ILL. And I have FREAKING SYMPTOMS. AND NOW you want me to wear a sleeveless dress and TIGHTS? ARE YOU NUTS?"

It usually wasn't like me to just shout and ramble like this. But the fact that no one ever listened to me was just making me so freaking angry. And now, three days before sectionals when I already had freaking told them that I would never get into that freaking dress or those freaking tights. They handed the freaking clothes back to me and it was still a freaking sleeveless dress and freaking tights. It was probably a good thing Aunt Carole was working night and didn't hear all of this. I wouldn't have wanted her to worry for all in the world because she just went so fussing then and that was annoying if anything.

"Chris, calm down." Blaine tried and I finally silent. "Look, I know you don't want to wear a tights but no one will concentrate on your legs and it will look really weird if everyone are wearing the same except for one and we might lose points over that. Sorry, also now it's kind of too late to do anything about just… Take a chance and take one for the team."

"And also," Kurt continued. "I'm in charge of the makeup so I can use some on your arms and cover up those dark spots. It might not cover them fully but enough for no one to be able to see it from the audience. And about the choose I've found some shoes that looks exactly like the others with the laces and everything but are in kind of stretch so we've already got that covered."

"UGH!" At last I had to realize I couldn't protest against what they said. Even though I really didn't want to wear these clothes. "FINE!" I threw the clothes for sectionals on the bench in the hallway and when the tights fell down onto the floor Alice ran up to check it. "GOD" I pushed her away with all of the power that I could, enough for me to kneel down and lift the tights up again. "Get away you dumb dog."

It almost seemed as Alice could understand what I called her because she looked up at me with a kind of offended- looking brown eyes and so turned around and walked into the kitchen while I span around and grabbed my anorak and pulled it over my head.

"Where are you going Chris?"

"Out. And don't you dare follow me." I walked out into the cold evening air. Considering it was December the tenth it was actually too cold to go outside without gloves or cap but of course I had forgotten it and I pulled my hood up and shoved my hand into the pockets on the anorak. Which only made me realize I'd forgotten my phone as well.

But I didn't turn around, and just continued towards the cemetery. Although the worst part was that I couldn't walk there without having to walk by the crosswalk where Finn had been hit by a car and killed.

The driver who had hit Finn we had never gotten to know who it was, he had just hit Finn. And driven off, and there was one witness who had seen it happen and called an ambulance but she had never caught a glimpse of the driver. As she had just concentrated on calling an ambulance as fast as possible. But still as fast as possible wasn't fast enough. And Finn had died in the ambulance- he had never even gotten to the hospital.

Coming to the crosswalk that was just a block away from the cemetery I hurried through it as fast as I could. But still made sure to look out for cars before I crossed the road… If Finn had only done the same that night! Then after what felt like hours to cross that short part. It was over for this time and I walked down the road, through another block and then through the gates to the cemetery.

Finn's stone was right under a tree in a corner. In the spring, summer and later in the fall Carole would make sure there were almost at least three types of flowers at all times. But now in the winter it wasn't much when everything was frozen, and the only things that stood there except for his headstone was a stone dove on top of the stone, and a candlelight down on the ground. I would have lit it up but I hadn't thought of bringing any matches with me. And it was snowing sleet so it wouldn't last for long anyway.

"I wish you were here Finn."

The symptoms of this stupid renal were making themselves heard again and I was so dizzy it was a miracle I didn't throw up all over that stone… but still I was so dizzy I couldn't turn around and move. And I just needed to close my eyes… just for a second… just for a second.

And so, I felt myself falling and let myself be surrounded by a safe darkness. That took me away from this very, very harmful world. And closer to Finn.

"Christie? Christie? Come on kid, wake up." I turned my head slightly and pressed my eyes shut when someone woke me up and shook my shoulder. "Come on. I can see you're awake. Can you just open your eyes for me? Please?" He shook me again, and even though I knew I had heard that voice somewhere before and I should know who it belonged to it all just seemed too blurry- and it didn't get any better by opening my eyes and I could see Burt through all of that blur. Burt- oh that was who that voice belonged to!

And then quite quickly but still way too slow the blur started getting clearer and after blinking a few times I was brought back to reality and I could both see and hear Burt taking a deep, relieved breath when I was fully back to reality and felt exactly everything. The cold, wet ground against my back and the back of my legs, the nauseated feeling creeping up my throat. Smell of grass that had died for the winter and after shave from Burt's jacket over me. Even though it fell off me when I pushed myself up and Burt gently pushed me back towards the ground again.

"Just lay still for a minute. Oh… Here." Burt had held an arm under my back already before and now changing his position pushed me upwards in such a sudden and fast move I couldn't fight the wave of nausea and chucked up all over Burt's jacket. "Whoa, it's okay kid. I'd a thousand rather have that all over my jacket then all over a grave. I can't get it off you just yet though."

Burt pushed himself up on both feet and walked up with me in his arms to his car where I was finally let down onto my own feet but he still opened the door for me and ripped his jacket off me- and I could finally breathe again without being at risk of chucking up again of the smell only. And I couldn't fail to notice how he stressed around the car to throw his jacket (inside out) in the back, and then get into the driver's seat while I hadn't even gotten the door closed on my side yet.

"I…" Burt hesitated when he stopped for a person walking across the road by that freaking crosswalk. "Would appreciate if you don't mention what happened tonight to Carole. If you do she might or might not ever go to work again to always keep an eye on you and I don't want that and I don't think you want that either so." Burt could finally start driving again. "Have we got a deal? You don't tell Carole and I… whatever you want. Do you want a certain book? Or movie or something?" I sighed at him and shook my head. Right now I just wanted to sleep since for once I didn't have restless legs syndrome.

"You don't have to give me anything. We've got a deal. I wasn't going to tell her anything. She'd never let me out of the house again. And I hate her fussing." Burt sighed slightly, but I could hear he tried to suppress it. And despite what I had told him. When I came home that day a pocket copy of the book Marley and me laid on my desk. And it hadn't been there when I left for school earlier. With a note that stated he was going to give it to me earlier and he hoped I didn't mind it was Kurt's old copy.

I had always thought that days and nights passing was a kind of funny thing. When I went to bed at night I never knew if I was going to fall asleep or if those restless legs would keep me up tonight again, when waking up in the morning I wouldn't have any idea of what would happen before I went to bed again the same night. But whatever it was I had expected walking into the choir room the day after I had been to Finn's grave. It was really not the conversation between me and Keagan after I had been fingering with the pager that would start beeping when the hospital would have a new kidney with me. And him asking why on earth it took so much time for them to get one.

"Well. I had a kidney from a person who wasn't a match with my blood type because with today's technology and care and everything it usually works. But my body started kind of pushing it away so it didn't work and since then it's been like this. And I've been on dialysis three times a week since I was…. Seven I think. And now they've found out that if I'm ever going to have a new kidney it needs to be an exact match but then I also have the rarest blood type and I'd been taken off that list and yeah… That's the whole story."

I usually wouldn't tell people the whole story like this but Keagan always wanted to know more about anything and everything. Usually I just thought it was annoying but saying it all right out like that actually felt quite good, and if I didn't he'd just pull the rest out of me anyway.

"AB Rh + is your blood type then right?"

I hadn't exactly been ready for someone to answer to that- or even to know what I would have as blood type that would mean it was the rarest one and unfortunately the one that I'd need someone that had the exact same as me to have their kidney. But Daniel did and seeing him sitting turned around and facing me I was so surprised I couldn't find the right words to answer him with for several seconds.

"Do you want to know something?" Daniel's voice had taken a tone that I didn't quite recognize. "It's the same as me. And I've known for months because you said something about it passing by and I have known since I was six what I had… Do you want to know why I do that? Why they took the tests to check what type I was?"

I didn't really want to. But Daniel had turned to me and there was something in his eyes too that I didn't recognize. And it was like he had been just holding everything inside of him for God knows how much time and now he was just breaking right in front of me. Like Finn used to… And not even I was evil enough to stop that.

"I knew a person. She was dying, of renal. And they took the tests to check if I could give her my kidney." I went all cold, of renal? "And I couldn't save her… But I could save you. And ever since I found out… well everything I've… I just never found the right moment to tell you. I know more things need to match as well but… It would be worth a try, wouldn't it?"

"NO." I almost shouted sternly. "No, I am not taking a kidney from a living person and I am not taking it from you. No way, I'm not doing it. End of story." I silent and looked down on my hands as if they suddenly had gone very interesting. Well, that was before Daniel got onto his feet and turned to me fully. And then almost exploded.

"Damn it Christie! Why do you have to be so freaking PROUD!" If there had been one pair of eyes that wasn't turned to him before- they all were now. "And this might be your only freaking CHANCE. Now isn't that worth swallowing that FREAKING PRIDE? No, of course not! Because you're Christie. And then you're going to die JUST like her. And you're not even trying to take the chance to do anything about it."

Daniel silent when he seemed to realize what he had just said and he pulled his hands in a distressed move and left them towards the back of his head. "I- I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that." It was only a mumble, and with that Daniel turned around after what felt like hours and burst out of the room slamming the door after him.

All of the people in the room seemed stunned for several seconds. Had he just? Had Daniel just? Daniel Vincent? No, not a freaking chance that Daniel could just explode like that but I had just seen it myself and damn it he just exploded and hit the very weakest spot of them all. I knew I was going to die if I didn't get a new kidney like yesterday.

But I wasn't taking the chance to take a kidney from a living person. And especially not anyone I would see as good as every day afterwards. If anything went wrong… Or if anything didn't go wrong! No! I was just not doing it.

"I'll go after him." It had been silent for several seconds when Martina at last stood up and made us all- or at least me flinch with suddenly making her voice heard. "I'm sure he's fine. Don't you dare gossip about him." With that, Martina left the room in the same direction as Daniel. And it went silent again.

"Chris." Blaine turned to me. "I think you should reconsider what Daniel just said." I only glared at him and tried to act like I didn't care. "At least think about it." Mr. Blaine slumped down on a chair in front of me. "Maybe… Maybe after all of that it would just be better if we skipped the rehearsal today. Christie I need to speak to you more about this when we get home." I continued just glaring at him. "Yes, Seth?"

"Actually Mr. Blaine… I was thinking that I… could maybe suggest and play a song today. If it's okay with everybody of course." Blaine and Seth both glanced dup at me and I just waved it off showing that I couldn't have cared any less. "Oh well… What do you say Mr. Blaine?" Blaine hesitated still looking at me, and then at last turned to Seth.

"Go for it Seth."

"Well… Now this song seems even more accurate." I glared at his back while he moved towards the middle of the room taking the right grip of his guitar. "But well, I'll just get on." He grabbed his guitar and hit a few tabs before he started singing. And even though I tried to not seem like I wasn't touched by the lyrics. But that was easier said than done. And thinking about that there wasn't a chance that there was someone who knew what it was like like the song was about and feeling it so clearly with the lyrics of the song, I had to fight the tears away.

Because not a chance I was showing myself weak in front of all of these people. Not a freaking chance!

"That was really good Seth." Seth had barely had a second extra to finish the song when Blaine jumped on his face. "So… You know we've already got a solo number for the Friday? Well… What if I tell you I think we've got our duet?" The smile on Seth's face was undeniable. "Awesome. So I want you to be one half of that duet Seth. Who would like to do it along with him?"

I didn't actually listen much to who wanted to be the other half of Seth's duet. But lifted one foot onto the chair and sat the rest of the rehearsal leaning my chin against my knee and tried to keep the thoughts about Daniel away from my head. And so Blaine talked to the whole group again, and suddenly that part wasn't so hard anymore.

"So, all we need now is a group number. And I understand if you don't want to do this since most of you never knew him but… I don't think any of you or I myself know or realize how much Finn had a part in why I decided to put up the glee club. So I would like to make the group number a chance… for us to do a song for him."

So, this chapter was loads of drama. Wasn't it? They were preparing for sectionals which will be in the next chapter but seemed to have trouble finding the right songs and Lea is still very spoiled and still hates her future stepmum and her little brother or sister. We meet the triplets Harry, Mary and Larry for the first time in person. They are obviously abused by their dad and older brother and only one of three is sure if they should take care of the singing and playing the cup song on sectionals. Then they have a bit of more trouble finding the right songs. Benjamin had a double dose of his meds and loads and loads of side effects. He also has ADHD, and takes care of everybody, and he more or less broke in front of Carole but still barely let her see his feelings. He still loves Mady to bits and she is the very most important part of his life. And then they have a bit of more trouble to find a song, then they found a song and it seems like Bradon will do the song that have earlier only been done by Jasper. Christie misses Finn, and her renal is getting worse and worse and she is only getting sicker. Then it comes out Daniel knows someone who died of what she is going through right now and could maybe give her one of his kidneys. But she refuses, then Seth will be one half of the couple that are doing a duet for sectionals. But they still haven't find their group number song, but Mr. Blaine wants to do for sectionals in which they will be wearing clothes that not everybody likes and Mady will be dressed up as a shark as their mascot.

Playlist
Lea-Marie- Someday- Keisha White
Sharon- Freak- Molly Sandén
Larry/ Harry/ Mary- The cup song- Anna Kendrick
Group- Sing- My chemical romance
Esme- Times of our lives- Olivia Holt
Martina/ Mady- Hang in there baby- Bridgit Mendler
Keagan- Take on the world- Sabrina Carpenter feat. Rowan Blanchard
Bradon- Count on me- Billy Gilman
Seth- Pray for you- The Swon brothers

The series mentioned in Lea-Marie part as the series that her song is theme to is the story of Tracy Beaker. It's a British series that is totally AWESOME! As well as the two spin- off's Tracy Beaker returns and the dumping ground. Anyway, if someone wants to watch it all of the episodes were on YouTube the last time I checked. And if you like Tv- series. You should totally look it up!

Harry and Larry are identical and portrayed by Greyson Chance. Harry is written by me and x snow-pony x. Mary is portrayed by Kay Panabaker and written by me and GleeJunkie007. Their big brother and parents are written by me. Tom is portrayed by James Bartlett. Thomas by Tom Everett Scott, and Jane by Maura Tierney (With long hair and as a nurse in the ER- series as Abby) Wil is a mix up by some different characters I had sent in (check the next A/N) and is portrayed by Rowan Blanchard. Jude and Pete are written between me and GleeJunkie007. Jude is portrayed by Daniel Seavey and Pete by Hayden Byerly. Mr. Hale (Lea's dad) is portrayed by Mark Ruffalo. And Marion who is mentioned in the chapter is portrayed by Rachel Blanchard. Mr. Jonas and Mr. Dom are portrayed by Shawn and Aaron Ashmore and Kayla is portrayed by Kira Kosarin. Mady is portrayed by Sarah Grace Morris.

Kayla used to be portrayed by Phoebe Tonkin but I realized then she'd be portrayer for two characters in the story.

And if anyone wonders, making shark Finn's favorite animal was a tribute to Cory Monteith, as his last tweet was about the sharknado.

I'd like to thank yonna9queen, Lorelai Sofia Petrova, x snow- pony x and GleeJunkie007 for sending in their pieces for Wil's character. I mixed all of these up and added a bit by myself and Wil's character was created. So thank you to you all.

So, next up is sectionals. And I do believe that will be a pretty short chapter so it might not be too long until you hear from me again. It will however be loads of surprises squeezed into a one chapter. And some of them, you wouldn't even believe. So when it comes up. I hope you're gonna like it.

Random fact

What Mrs. Jane Collins says about that retarded is only a word and no one could be just a word is actually from a book I like (One child by Torey Hayden. I'd suggest that if you like reading you go read it) I'm not sure the word was retarded there as I've only read it in Swedish. But either way I love that quote, and just had to use it at that point.