a/n: so i know that i disappeared for a while but i was having major writers block with this story. then it occured to me, i love the adults and i was focusing on them way too much. so from now on i'm going to try and give you some of michelle's world as well. oh and i changed the rick shooting the school thing to him just committing suicide. i know, i know, i shouldn't mess around with things like that but i mention it in this chapter so oh well. and yes, i know that i never mentioned it in the first story. also let me know if you're still interested in this story that way if people are still interested i'll keep going. k??

oh and by the way...i have to go to to watch the episodes b/c i'm sure we're all well aware of how college's don't see the need to give us the channels we so desire, and there was a tab there with rick on it. it said 'don't know rick? catch up on the episodes' and my heart just died. how could people not know rick!?! that was one of the best seasons!!!! rick just like a catalyst for half the season...*sigh*. sorry, just had to vent (and sorry if i offended any new degrassi people), and i need to have a season 4 fix apparently. :)

Chapter 25- Deja vu

"What the hell did you do to my uncle?"

Michelle jumped a mile as her headphones were ripped out of her ears.

"Excuse you?" she asked rudely before looking up.

"That's right, excuse you," the girl replied back.

With a sigh, she looked up and her eyes grew huge. Standing there in front of her was Holly Cameron, one of the prettiest girls in school…who also was known for holding her own in a fight that she probably started. Michelle sat there staring dumbly at the girl as she crossed her arms and tried to think of who her uncle might be.

"I don't even know who your uncle is," Michelle finally replied.

"Oh I think you do. The way he said it last night, some daughter of his ex girlfriends was being a whore and punched him," she said smugly.

"Oh my God…"

"Ring a bell?"

"Well, to be honest Holly…he kind of deserved it," Michelle said carefully as the girl raised her eyebrow.

"Somehow I doubt that."

"Whatever, it's not fault that your uncle is a skeezeball that hit on me," Michelle shrugged as she stood up.

"Oh I doubt that," Holly replied as she pushed her up against the locker. "What'd you do huh? Kiss him? Offer to fuck him or something? Sean would never do that kind of stuff. Especially with someone like you," she said lowly.

"Ok first off, your uncle is fucking disgusting. Second, he probably do that with me, since he was in love with my mother," Michelle said as she stared back in her face.

"What the fuck do you know?" Holly hit a locker behind her and started to leave.

"That's it?"

"What?" she replied not turning around.

"I say he's disgusting and you're ok with that? What's wrong Holly, push a button?"

"Why don't you go home and screw your cousin; I heard it's a favorite family past time of yours," she smirked as she stalked down the hallway.

Her jaw set as her best friend came up behind her. "No offense, but Jack is kind of hot… Kidding!" she yelped as Michelle whipped around.

*~*~*

"Yo Simpson! Saw your cousin the other night."

"Where the hell did you see her?" Jack remarked as he continued to walk down the hallway.

"Work."

Jack stopped dead in the hallway. "What the hell was Michelle doing at a strip club?"

"Apparently with her father's girlfriend… I don't know. It was kind of weird. But the point of this is…she's kind of hot bro."

Jack cut his eyes at his friend. "You like my cousin? My cousin that's like my little sister?"

"Uhhh…maybe?" Tony shrugged.

"Dude she's sixteen!"

"She's hot!!"

"She's sixteen!!"

"Last time I checked, wasn't Lacey Jackson sixteen?" Tony smirked as he brought up the last girl that Jack had hooked up with.

"Ok that…was different."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. I was so fucking drunk I thought she was eighteen."

"Weeeak."

Jack sighed. "Seriously?"

His friend just shrugged. "She's gorgeous if you want the truth."

"Yeah I know," he said to his shoes.

*~*~*

"So you know how I told you about Mom's bachelorette party?"

Her friend just nodded. "Yeah how you came home and your dad was with some slut or whatever."

"Right. Well Holly's uncle was there too."

"Really? I haven't met him yet?"

Katie McCrain and Michelle had been friends since Michelle had transferred into Degrassi. The first time she went over to Michelle's Alex and Paige were there and Katie thought that when said 'Dad' that she meant Alex, which Paige found hysterical. She soon met everyone in Michelle's little family and was currently intrigued in the fact that there was a male in the mix that she didn't know about.

"Well apparently he and Dad used to be like BFF's when they went here. He took off after I was born and no one's heard from him since," she shrugged. "But what's even more like..weird, is the fact that he was in love with my mom at one point too."

"Dude your family is so weird," Katie sighed. "I wish my family was exciting."

Michelle snorted. "At least your family is stable," she muttered.

"Oh hi Michelle," Holly said snidely from behind the pair.

Michelle sighed and turned around as Holly stuck her hand out with a flyer attached to it.

"What is this?"

She shrugged with a smile, although it looked more like an evil smirk to Michelle. "Just something I thought you'd be interested in. Apparently being a douchebag runs in your family."

"What?"

In her hands was an article from about sixteen years ago that involved a suicide.

"How is this relevant?" she kinked an eyebrow.

"Isn't that your dad's name?" Katie pointed and Michelle took a deep breath.

Sure enough there was her fathers name, in print, about how the student, Rick Murray, took his own life and a large part of that was due to her father and two friends.

"So what, he just kept journals like a girl or something? I don't get it!" Michelle's voice started to rise slightly.

"Michelle? Is there a problem?" the principal asked as he walked by.

"You know my dad, what is this?" she thrust the article under Toby's nose and he sighed.

"We should talk about this in my office."

"I just want to know if it's true," she said.

He nodded. "Yes."

"Great," she snapped as she started to walk away.

"Michelle!!"

"Sorry Mr. Issacs, got class!" she waved over her shoulder.

Who the hell, besides that demon Holly Cameron, would think to look her father up and then print out his wrongdoings? And…apparently past them all over everyone's computer screens. Fantastic.

"Holly!" she said as the girl looked up.

"Yes?"

"What the fuck? What is your deal?" she asked as she pushed her.

"Excuse me? My deal? I'm not the one with a violent father. And by the way, you can get help for that you know," she said as she dropped her voice down to stage whisper and started to laugh.

"Too bad you can't get help," Michelle replied with a shrug.

"For what?" Holly cocked her head.

"For this," she replied calmly as she kneed her stomach and then pushed her head against a table.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" Ryan King yelled as he saw his friend fall to the ground. "It was a fucking joke Michelle!"

"A joke? No. The only joke around here is her," she said as she walked away.

There was no doubt about the fact that Toby would send her home, probably with an suspension if not an expulsion (because that would really make her fathers day), but it was worth it. She wasn't that thirteen-year-old girl that would run away from her problems anymore; she was here for a fight.

"That was friggen scary. But…kind of hot," a boy to her left said as she walked by and he winked at her.

"Because that was my aim," she muttered underneath her breath.

*~*~*

"Michelle, you know what you did," Toby said in a tired voice as she came into his office.

"Oh I'm aware," she said as she plopped down in a chair.

"Am I correct in assuming it was about your father?"

She shrugged. "Maybe."

"Look, I've known Jay for a while, be it not well, but I know that he wouldn't want you to do this. Not for him, not for anyone. Do you want to know the story?"

"Maybe I did this for myself Toby," she replied, dropping the formal name in private. "And trust me, I'm going to hear about the story, just from my dad."

He sighed. "So then I guess we've come to the punishment then."

"Suspension or expulsion?" she asked as she crossed her arms.

He looked at her. "Expel? I'm not going to expel you for fighting in school Michelle; if you only knew what has happened here over the years a fight is pretty small potatoes."

"Then…"

"Suspended. Three days."

"You're not going to want like an essay when I come back are you?" she winced as he looked thoughtful.

"Well originally no, but now that you mention it…"

"Can we forget that I did?" she asked hopefully.

"Since it's your first offense and you still have to go home and deal with Jay about this, I'll forget about it. Just this time though," he smiled at the girl that looked like his old friend.

"Thanks Toby. Won't happen again," she said as she got up.

"Please?" he asked and she laughed.

*~*~*

"How long do you think I could get away with not telling them?"

Jack just looked at her. "They either send home a letter or just call them. Soooo not long."

"Great," she sighed.

"Well why'd you do it then?" he asked as he took a bite of his burger.

She took the article out of her pocket and showed it to him.

"So? Jay was a bully, big deal. We all knew that Mitch."

"Yeah. Well then this bitch Holly Cameron, whose uncle is the guy that I punched yesterday by the way, started saying things like how violence runs in the family and I was whore and all that. We both remember what happened the last time someone said shit about my family."

"Hence why I get all lonely during the day now," Jack pouted and she rolled her eyes.

"Well it wasn't going to happen again. I needed to stand up for my family and not just run away. And my dad helped someone commit suicide Jack! That's just…so…"

"How can you help someone commit suicide? I mean outside of hospitals and all that. I'm pretty sure he just bullied this Rick kid and Rick couldn't take it anymore. What's the big deal?"

"What's the big deal? I'm his daughter, I'm half of him! I don't want to be like that!!" Michelle exclaimed, eyes huge.

"Then don't be. Oh and by the way, your dad's here," he said as he ate some more of his lunch.

"Hi…Dad," Michelle smiled weakly at the man that stood in front of their table with his arms crossed.

"So Toby called me."

"Told you," Jack said with his mouthful and she shot him an evil glare.

"Dad, I'm not sorry."

"What were you thinking!?!" he exploded. "You don't get into fights at school Michelle!! You go there, you learn, you leave; what is so hard about that?!"

"Well Sean's niece showed me this. Care to explain?" she asked as she shoved the article at him.

He sighed and looked at her with sad eyes. "You fought someone because of this?"

"Well she also said that you were a violent dad and douchebag must run in the family. Oh and she called me a whore. But Dad, I'm not running away this time! I'm not just going to stand there and take it. I know about your past and apparently everyone else does too. I don't need to have it thrown in my face every damn day though!! And you owe me an explanation!"

He shrugged. "Yeah I bullied him, so did Spinner and Alex. Apparently when the cops found him he wrote a letter on his computer screen saying we were the reasons why he couldn't take it anymore."

"How are you so just…non-chalant about all this?" she cried. "You made a kids life so bad that he didn't want to live anymore. Don't you feel bad at all?"

His eyes hardened. "What do you want me to say Michelle? That I never felt like shit? That I don't feel bad to this day? That I'm happy how everything turned out? I felt like shit for months after that happened!! We never meant for the kid to kill himself!! It was just teasing him, nothing fucking serious and he took it way out of proportion. Would I change it? Of course I would! But this was seventeen years ago Michelle!"

"And I'm sixteen now Dad! I don't want to be like you!!" she yelled and he stopped and stared at her, tears streaming down her face.

Instantly she regretted her words as she saw the pain on her fathers face. "You're not me Michelle. You're not your mother either. You're you. And I'll be damned if we all raised you the way we did so you could turn out to be another version of me. Next time you decide to punch someone at school, think of what you just said," he said quietly as he stood up and walked out of the diner.

"Woah, Mitch-"

"Can't you just let me cry for once?" she interrupted him as she put her head on the table.