I step into my new college dorm and almost choke on my smoothie. Sitting on my bed was the same girl who's been on my mind since freshman year of high school. "How'd you get in here?" I ask. Rachel smiles.

"Well... I may have convinced your roommate to switch with me. I believed we were a better match." she says. I grin at the diva and sit down next to her.

"That's insane." I say. Rachel shrugs and hugs me. "How'd you get away with that?"

"I convinced the RA that Daddy is some big shot in the music industry." Rachel says, smiling evilly.

"He owns a music store." I point out. Rachel shrugs.

"So he can get a discount on a guitar. I didn't promise anything." she says. I roll my eyes. God, I love that girl. "So are you gonna be able to handle sharing a room with your best friend?" I fake a smile. If only she knew that I'm in love with her. I've been a coward for four years and let her be with Finn Hudson instead of me. Whenever we're alone, it feels as if we're dating, until she reminds me that that's not the case.

"I think I can control myself." I say. She grins.

"So how's that girl you were seeing?" Rachel asks.

"Zoe? I broke up with her."

"What? Why?" Rachel asks. I shrug. "You two were so cute together."

"I couldn't get someone else off of my mind." I say softly. She frowns.

"Brittany?" she guesses. I bite my lip just as theres a knock on the door. "Thats probably Finn. We have a date tonight." she said standing up. I frown.

"When do you think you'll be back?"

"Why? Did you need to talk?" Rachel asks, concerned. I shrug.

"We haven't hung out in awhile." I say nonchalantly. Rachel smiles. "We can hang out when you get back." I say. Rachel nods and answers the door.

"Hello Finn." she says, smiling. Finn grins and they leave.

I can't help but feel something was off with Santana earlier. Finn seems to notice this and stops walking. "What's wrong?" I ask. He raises an eyebrow.

"You're thinking about something else. What's up?" he asks. I shrug. "

Its nothing Finn. Don't worry about it." I say. Finn glares. "It's Santana. She seemed upset earlier when I mentioned our date."

"She's in love with you." Finn says. I roll my eyes.

"No she's not. Don't be stupid."

"She's loved you since high school. Don't be so naive." he yells.

"Finn-"

"And I think you love her too!" he yells. I stop in my tracks. "It's me or her, Rachel. You cant have us both."

I look up as Rachel walks into our room. She looks angry for some reason. "Are you okay?" I ask carefully. She laughs.

"No."

"Bad date?" I guess. She nods.

"Finn and I broke up." I bite my lip. Yea, I'm excited, but this is Finchel we're talking about. It's certainly not the first time I've heard that. "For real this time." It's not the first time I've heard that either.

"What happened?" I ask.

"He said that you're in love with me and that I reciprocate those feelings." she says. I raise an eyebrow.

"Wow."

"I know."

"He's right." She looks at me. "About me anyway. I love you." Rachel drops her jaw.

"Wha... How... Since when?"

"High school. Freshman year." I say. She shakes her head. "I'm sorry, but I can't help it. I get that you don't return my feelings, but he's right about me." I say walking out of the room.

I've been looking for Santana for an hour. I've tried calling her, but she shut her phone off and there's nothing I can do. I'm still not completely familiar with the campus, so I have no idea where she would go. I'm about to give up until I hear her voice. I turn the corner and see her making out with her ex-girlfriend on a bench. I drop my phone and she looks up. "What do you want?" she slurs. It's apparent she's been drinking.

"I... I can leave. I just wanted to make sure you were okay." I say softly.

"I'm fine, Rachel." she manages to say. I nod and walk away, completely crushed.

I stare after Rachel as she runs away. Disgusted with myself, I push away from Zoe and stand up. "I have to go." I say.

"Wait. Don't go." Zoe says.

"Please don't follow me." I say, walking away. I get halfway to my dorm before I trip. I feel hands on my arms picking me up.

"Where's your dorm, S?" a familiar voice asks. I turn around to see Puckerman helping me up. I point in the right direction and let him escort me.

I'm laying on my bed when I hear a knock on the door. I open it. "Noah?" he smiles at me and nods toward Santana, who he is supporting on his arm. "Come in." I say, opening the door for him. He leads her in and puts her on her bed.

"Can we talk?" he asks. I nod and follow him in the hall.

"She loves you."

"I know."

"Do you love her?" he asks. I hesitate.

"She's always on my mind." I admit. He nods. "Even when I'm with Finn."

"Talk to her." he advises before leaving. I walk back into our room and stare at the beautiful Latina.

"Santana?" I say softly. She looks up. "Why are you bleeding?" I ask.

"I tripped." she says shortly. I nod. "Why don't you love me?" she asks, suddenly looking vulnerable. I have to be honest with myself and with her.

"I do."

"Am I not good enough?"

"I do."

"Am I not pretty enough?"

"I do."

"Just tell me what it is, I'll fix it."

"Santana, I love you!" I yell. She gasps. "I love you. You can't be with Zoe because you belong with me. We belong together." I say, sitting down. She jumps forward and kisses me.

"Please be with me." she whispers.

"Absolutely." I say before kissing her.

It's been a week since Rachel and I got together and I'm ecstatic. I'm so in love with this girl it isn't even funny. Every time Finn sees us on campus, he glares at us, but then Puckerman magically appears and he backs off. I'm pretty sure Finn has a black eye. Puck's right hand is a little swollen, but I don't think Rachel has put those two together yet, so he's safe for now... Until he starts trying to get with Rachel. Then he's dead. And we all know he'll try and get my girl. "San?" I turn and smile at my beautiful girlfriend.

"What's up?" I ask, pulling her into my body.

"Finn asked me out." she says softly. I feel my arms go stiff. "Please don't freak out."

"I'm good." I lie.

"Liar." She knows me too well. "I said no. I love you, remember?" I nod.

"I love you too." I say, kissing her.

I can't help but feel guilty that Finn asked me out. Santana tells me not to feel bad, since I immediately said no, but he knows I'm with her. He makes me so mad. He just lurks around us, not saying anything (other than asking me out) and the worst part is that I have no idea what he's thinking. It honestly scares me and there's nothing I can do about it. Santana would never let him hurt me, but I worry about what he may do to Santana. I'd like to think he wouldn't resort to physically hurting her, but at this point I honestly have no idea.

"Rachel?" I turn around and see Finn behind me. "Rachel, I'm sorry I made you choose. Please give me another chance."

"She's with me, Hudson. And I don't plan on letting her go, so you may as well get used to it." Santana says from behind him. The anger in her eyes is clear as she walks to my side.

"She loves me." Finn says. I grab Santana's hand.

"No I don't. I love Santana. I don't want you." I say sharply. Santana rests her forehead on the side of my head for a moment, as if gathering strength from me before glaring up at my ex-boyfriend.

"Just leave Finn. It's over." she says, oddly calm. Surprisingly, he walls away.

"What's wrong?" I ask, curious. She shakes her head.

"He's not worth my energy, so I'm not gonna waste it on that when I could be kissing you." she says, kissing me.

"I love you."

"Love you too." she says softly.