Soooo if you didn't notice I took down the other story. I really didn't like it to much and I felt like I could do a lot more with this story so yeah tell me what you think

I don't own Twilight

I must've blacked out for a few minutes back at the clearing because when I cracked my eyes open Alice and Sam were screaming at each other at the top of their lungs. Sam's face was bright red and he was shaking hard and Alice was growling at him. I might've told them to stop if I didn't pass right back out again. When I woke up again Paul and Sam were setting me on my bed and a few minutes later Carlisle came in. I thought getting squeezed by the Newborns was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my life untill Carlisle had to rebreak all my bones one by one. Not fun. Carlisle kept wrapping up different parts of my body, from my shoulder to my leg, and after a few minutes I started to get squirmy. Everytime he would go to puting that gauzy crap on my arms the wrapping it up it just made it hurt ten times worse than before. I can honestly say I have never felt more like crap in my entire life.

I mean the whole side of my body hurts so bad I can barely breathe. Not to mention I could hear the rest of the Pack outside. Leah was bitching about how she could've taken the Newborn and Paul kept telling her to shut up. I knew as soon as Alice came she would ask them what was going on, and if they told her I was screaming bloody murder she'd be even more worried than she already was. I mean when Carlisle told her to stay with everyone else in the clearing while he went with me she practically had a mental break down.

I closed my eyes and tried to relax even though I knew I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. I ended up just staring at the ceiling. I think I blacked out again because when I really started tring to focus again the sun was completely gone and my room was pitch black. I started thinking about what would've happened if I really had died. Not about how bad it would've hurt, but about if I made the right decisions in life. I never regretted being with Alice but sometimes I wonder if Jasper would've been better for her. And then theres the whole Bella's still in love with me thing. I feel bad for kind of ignoring her but she kind of brought it on herself. I mean if she would've staid in the car with me the first time Alice came then she would be with me and the Cullen's wouldn't be here. I heard a car pull into the driveway going way to fast to be anyone else besides my lady, and a few seconds later the door opened. Alice stared in at me for a minute but she didn't move in any closer.

"Hey." I mumbled after a minute trying to shift untill jolts of pain went up my arm and leg. I tried to wince but failed and Alice walked closer into the room. I don't know why but she looked different... sadder. I mean I know I got hurt but it's not that big of a deal. I mean sure she watched me almost die but I'm still here, so I wish she would stop looking at me like I might die at any minute. It's kinda creepy.

"Hey."

"You look like crap."

"Well you don't look to hot either." she said crossing her arms over her chest and I felt my lips tilt up. She smirked walking over to me and sitting on the edge of my bed. She brushed the hair up out of my face and I closed my eyes for half a second before I opened them. Her eyes were still golden, and she was still as gorgeous as ever but she seemed sadder than usual. I mean out of all the time I've been with her I've never seen her look so depressed. "How are you doing?"

"Really? I just got almost crushed to death and your asking me how I'm doing?"

"What do you want me to ask?"

"I dunno." I mumbled shrugging one of my shoulders and she smirked. I patted the bed beside me and she laid down and the bed barely moved. She pressed her lips against my neck softly and I closed my eyes. On the positive side, Alice was like an ice pack that you never have to put back in the freezer. She didn't move that much so she didn't hurt me, and even when she did the bed never moved. She kept brushing my hair up out of my face and trailing her fingers along my jaw. "So what went down at the clearing that you had to stay for?"

"The Volturi. It's funny how they showed up after we'd just finished fighting instead of five minutes earlier when we could've used them." she mumbled sarcastically.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. You just scared me back there." she mumbled. I didn't really know what to say. I mean I've never been the best guy with words so it's kind of difficult knowing what I'm supposed to say to her. "I would've came here sooner but I couldn't."

"I'm just glad you didn't do anything crazy like try to turn me." I said trying to laugh it off. I mean usually when I laugh she smiles or something, but instead she just started shaking. I glanced down at her and she closed her eyes.

"I tried." she whispered so quietly I thought I heard her wrong. I shifted and I swear she looked like she was about to cry. "I tried and it didn't work. When Sam saw what I was trying to do we got in a fight and I broke his arm, then Jared came at me and I accidentally snapped his spine. Things only went worse from there, but everyones okay. Jared's okay but the peace thing is pretty much over between us, and it's back to two different Packs again. And Sam told me to warn you that the treaty was still on, and that if I tried to turn you, it would mean war."

I looked away from her rolling from my back onto my side so that I was facing away from her. "Jacob." she whispered and her fingers trailed down my arm gently. Even though it felt like she was sticking needles in me wherever she touched me I didn't say anything. We already talked about this. I mean I told her I didn't even want her to try and change me, but she didi it anyways because she's selfish."Are you mad? Just say something."

"I think your selfish, and you don''t care about how anyone else feels as long as your happy at the end of the day. I mean you can be the sweetest chick on the planet but sometimes it's like you think you know whats best for me better than I do. I mean I love you and all but I'm really getting tired of you trying to make my decisions for me. Sometimes I wonder if you even listen to what I'm trying to talk to you about."

"I'm sorry what were you saying." she said smirking and I glared at her. I mean I know she was joking but now really wasn't the time, which explains why I'm the funny one in our relationship. "Sorry. I guess that wasn't funny." I gave her the look letting her know it wasn't cool before I looked away from her. I closed my eyes but I felt her touch the side of my neck. "Bella's here to see you. Do you want me to leave?"

"Just tell her I'm asleep or something. You can pretend you came to see me too and I was asleep. I know she's probably flipping out even though I'm fine, and this way if you leave with her you won't have to run home."

"So you don't want me to come back?"

"I kinda wanna be by myself for a little bit, and I really am tired. I'd ask you to come back tomorow but I think maybe we shouldn't push Sam to far, since you broke his arm and all. I don't want him to try and attack you while I can't do anything about it." I said lifting my one shoulder to shrug and she nodded slowly swallowing past the lump in her throat. I guess it wasn't very fair of me to kind of point out all her flaws then tell her to leave."But I'll call you."

"Okay." she said trying to smile as she jumped up off the bed. She leaned down and pressed her lips against my forehead softly before she pulled back. She ran her fingers over my cheek and stared down at me for a minute before she stood up. "I love you Jake."

"Love you too. Don't worry about me okay? I'll be fine, and I'll call you as soon as I wake up. Carlisle said I'll be able to move around in a few days, so I'll come down to Forks. So I'll see you then." I said and she nodded slowly walking towards the door. She pulled it open then glanced back at me and smiled. I waved at her and she left.