Warning: Small parts of self-harm. I will try not to make it too upsetting.
Anyway, hope you enjoy at least a little! Lol.
2/8/16
Nikkie's POV
"So he dumped me... And then just went on to become your best friend?!" I ask, totally confused, stressed, and mad over what's happened.
"You don't know the whole story!" Kat tries to explain. I don't care, though; Dakota was a jerk to me.
I run to my room and slam my door. I cry myself to sleep.
/\/\/\/\/\
It's pouring rain and I walk to the forest by our house. I see my mom.
"You wonder why Dakota doesn't like you anymore? Because you're lame, you're ugly, and no one likes you. That's why I hated you."
/\/\/\/\/\
When I wake up, that's all I remember- and it keeps repeating through my head.
I can't take it anymore. I know that's what everyone's thinking...
I go to the bathroom and see a razor.
Wait, but do I really want to do this?
~Yes.~ says the voice in my head.
"Shut up!" I quietly yell.
But maybe I do...
My thoughts are interrupted by Scott yelling for me. "Yeah?" I open the door and respond. "We're eating dinner with everyone tonight. Get ready and then we'll go before too long," he says.
"Okay," I respond.
I go back to what I was thinking. 'Yeah, I think I do want to do this...' I think.
I take the razor and not-too-harshly drag it across my arm. It doesn't affect me that much, so I do it again. "That's good," I tell myself.
I end up doing it once more.
I hurry and clean up the blood. It stings kind of bad, because I think this is the first time I've done this... Well, how should I know? I don't remember anything...
I pull down my long-sleeved hoodie shirt sleeves and walk out of the bathroom. I walk downstairs and to the couch.
"Wyatt, STOOOP!" Mitch says, annoyed by Wyatt's constant purring and jumping on all the furniture.
"Oh, hey Nikkie. Ready?" Mitch asks.
I nod, not feeling like saying anything right now.
We wait for Kat and Scott.
We get to the restaurant and I go to the bathroom.
I look in the mirror and process all my thoughts.
How could Dakota just leave me because I don't remember much?
And, how could he go straight on to become, like, Kat's best friend?
Why does everything happen to me?
Why did I have to have such a horrible past?
No one wants to be my friend...
I have these weird voices in my head, plus I'm becoming depressed.
I break down crying.
"Honey, what's wrong?" a lady at the sink next to me asks.
"Nothin," I say. She just rolls her eyes.
"Okay, obviously something's wrong. Tell me."
"I-I've just been dealing with stuff lately. My 'friend'," I air quote, "Doesn't like me anymore, there's these voices in my head, and... I'm a little depressed," I answer.
The woman puts her hand on my back. "Everything will be fine. You just have to stay positive and remember that everything happens for a reason."
Yeah, well I don't know what that reason is...
"True, that does sound like a lot's going on... And you probably didn't even tell me everything. Stay positive, it will get better." She pats my back and leaves.
Well that wasn't very helpful...
Sighing, I walk back out and go to the table, not saying much at all the rest of the night.
Kirstie's POV
As we are leaving the restaurant, I catch up with Scott in the parking lot. "Hey, Scott... Does it seem like Nikkie's been a little quiet lately?" I ask, a little concerned.
"Oh, well she's shy," he answers.
"I know, but it just seemed like something was on her mind... Like something was bothering her," I explain.
He looks at her walking behind most of the group by herself, looking down.
"Uh... Maybe," Scott realizes. "Hey, Nikkie," he calls her. She looks up. He signals her over, and she hesitates at first.
Nikkie finally caught up with us. "Everything alright?" Scott asks her.
Nikkie shrugs slowly. "Yeah."
He looks at me like he's wondering what I think.
"Yeah," she says again, and smiles. I know it's a fake smile, sadly...
"Really? I mean if you really are, then great. But, we were just wondering since you kind of sat in your own little world back there." I explain.
Nikkie shrugs again.
I'm getting worried about her.
Nikkie's POV
Okay, this is getting really annoying! WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER ANYTHING?!
I lie in my bed and watch YouTube on my phone.
As I finish a video by TheAngryGrandpaShow, I get a text from Abcde.
A~ Hey, I heard what happened with you and Dakota.
N~ :/
A~ That was really rude of him. He's fake, and you don't deserve a guy like that.
N~ Thanks.
A~ You okay?
N~ No. Really.
A~ What's going on?
N~ Everything.
A~ ...Like?
N~ Oh... Slight Depression, lack of memory, lack of friends, I'm going crazy... You know, the usual.
A~ Oh, man. I'm sorry. Got to go, I'll TTYL. 3
N~ K.
A~ Sleep good BFF!
N~ IDK.
A~ ... ? D:
I turn my phone off and cry myself to sleep.
The next morning
Why do I have freaking nightmares every single night?! Oh yeah, because I'm crazy.
Author's POV (:O!)
*Nikkie goes to school the next day and Abcde talks to her, but it doesn't help a whole lot.*
Nikkie's POV (again)
It's sad when I'm in classes that I don't have with Abcde, because I'm a loner and no one will talk to me oh, and people whisper and stare at me.
People will sometimes pass me in the halls of school and whisper to me that I'm a loner or call me worse names, but by now I'm pretty much used to it. Abcde has been trying to help me, and I really appreciate her for that, but it's not entirely working.
So now I'm pretty much a loner besides Abcde, and that's another problem.
I walk home with Abcde to her house, and I officially meet her older brother, Grayson, and younger sister, Hayden.
I sit on the swing in her backyard. I talk with her and she really keeps me from being lonely.
We talk for a while and laugh occasionally, which feels really good for me.
She looks at me, and I look back. Abcde smiles.
I do the same, only hoping that I'm not awkward.
We just stare at each other for a little while, but then Abcde smiles once again and just looks away.
What's this weird feeling?
I'm just so happy all of a sudden, thinking about Abcde and how good of a friend and cool she is. And how she comforts me, and it feels nice.
I soon have to go home, and I hug my best friend for a while, not wanting to let go. This is awesome.
I say goodbye and walk to my house, which is only about a block away.
When I get home, I go to my room and think about things.
What was that feeling I felt when I was hanging out with Abcde?
It bugs me not knowing what the feeling was.
I'm so stressed out now! And it adds to my other problems.
I stand in the middle of my room, making 2 more minor cuts.
Just then, what seems like my whole life flashes in front of my eyes. Wait, what's happening?!
I recognize multiple scenes, but they fly by so fast.
A car. It hits me, and then I see me at a hospital with Scott and Mitch standing next to me.
Wyatt.
Walking into a new house.
A field of grass and a boy that walks through a gate in a backyard.
Me fainting.
Me waking up in a house, but then the boy and his mom driving me home.
New school.
Bullies.
Kidnapping. Will.
My mom.
A boy alone in a forest.
Two people helping me get home.
My sister, Charlie.
Reuniting with Mitch and Scott.
Tour.
Kissing and watching the sunset on top of a hill.
Kat.
Being put out.
Not remembering anything, really.
Dragons aren't real.
Oh, yes they are.
Standing in my room, everything flashing.
WAIT, I remember everything now!
And then I faint.
O.O Wow. Lol. SORRY THAT WAS SO DEPRESSING!
Hmm... What could the feeling be? Eh, maybe it's just that they are best friends and that's what best friends are for. :D
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Anyway, leave a comment telling me what you think! It was a lot of fun to write this one, especially the last half. If you have any suggestions as to what should happen, let me know PLEASE! :)
Chapter obsession: Um, a voice actor from this show liked 3 of my tweets and retweeted 1...
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*Panics* OMG!
Lol. Okay, well...
Goooodbyyyyee!
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