Title: The DiNozzo Diaries: The Execution Of All Things
Author: rekkidbraka
Rating: T
Pairings: Tony D. and Ziva D.
Category: Romance; Angst
Disclaimer: No infringement intended.
Spoilers: None
Summary: Tony's most private thoughts and desires revealed, chapter by chapter
-------------------- The DiNozzo Diaries: The Execution Of All Things ---------------------
I thought I was dreaming again.
That her voice -- it wasn't real.
Her hands touching me... all over my body... I was imagining all of it.
I really thought it couldn't be happening.
But then... she was... on me...
I was... inside...
And all of it -- everything -- came back to me... from when we were lovers.
I didn't want ... it ... to happen.
I didn't ... want ... her ...
I couldn't ... move...
Couldn't ... say no... speak... see...
Couldn't ...stop ... it... her... on me...
She forced... made... me...
And it ... just ... it... happened.
Like... like... it used to...
Couldn't ... stop...
No... control...
I ... I ... didn't want ... it ...
... didn't want it ... to be Jeanne ...
Didn't ... want ... sex... but ...
She... she... wouldn't... STOP... all NIGHT ...
Tried not to... FEEL ... her...
Not ... to... lose... control...
Couldn't... stop... myself...
She... kept ... pushing...
So ... hard ...
I ... couldn't ...
I ... lost ...
Had... to... let ... go...
Nightmare... wouldn't ... end...*sob*
I wanted...
Wanted... it ...
... to be you, Ziva... *sob*
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"Would you like to hear the details? Of my night with him? It was amazing. Seeing him again... ALL of him... Naked... Vulnerable... Excited..."
"I would much prefer another lashing. The sting of the whip is far less painful than your incessant chatter."
*laughs* "He couldn't get enough of me. It was as if we'd never been apart."
"Your underlings were too heavy-handed with their guns. He obviously awoke with some form of amnesia."
"You don't want to believe he STILL loves ME. I understand. But... what he couldn't say with words? His BODY told me... in NO uncertain terms."
"Perhaps you misunderstood. Tony's communication skills have never been impressive."
"YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH, YOU BITCH! YOU MURDERED ARI! YOU TOOK HIM FROM ME! AND NOW YOU'RE GOING TO SEE HOW IT FEELS TO LOSE THE MAN YOU LOVE!!! YOU'LL NEVER HAVE TONY -- I'LL SEE YOU DEAD AND IN HELL BEFORE YOU DO!!! I'LL NEVER GIVE HIM TO YOU!!! NEVER!!!"
*laughs* "Tony has NEVER been yours to give."
"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP!!! YOU... DON'T... KNOW... ANYTHING!!!"
"And yes... We will someday see one another in Hell..."
"I ... SAID... SHUT... UP!!!!"
"But it will be I who sees YOU dead first... Jeanne."
*laughs*