Okay, for those of you anxious for the lemon, here it is! This is my first ever published lemon and I really hope you enjoy.

Warning: a bit of bloodplay which was kind of explained in the previous chapter.

Disclaimer: I own Aurelia.

P.s. Listen to Good Enough by Evanescence on repeat like I did while writing this and hopefully, you'll get a better feel of what i was trying to convey.

"Talking with you involves moving all of my stuff?" Aurelia asked as Chazz grabbed her pillows off her bed.

"I've made a decision." he replied, completely ignoring her question.

Aurelia grabbed her blanket off of the ground and held it in her arms. "And that would be?"

He looked up at her. "You're moving in with me."

"Didn't you get the announcement? I'm leaving the island tomorrow."

Chazz glanced up at her with a deadpan stare. "Yeah, well, we're going to talk first and then you can decide if you still want to go or not."

Aurelia stepped forward. "I've already decided."

"Without me."

"You forfeited all your rights with me when you joined that society."

Chazz stood up straight and rubbed his forehead. "I barely remember it happening." he said. He looked back over at her. "But you and I are going to talk."

Aurelia snorted. "About what?"

"About you and your secrets."

Aurelia froze.

Chazz glanced around the room once while Aurelia collected her thoughts. He grabbed her suitcase off of the floor and handed her a pillow. "Everything's packed in here right?" he asked.

Aurelia nodded numbly. He passed her and walked outside, looking back to see if she was following. Aurelia glanced inside her room again before locking the door. Chazz led her down to his expanded dorm room.

After she had made it inside, he locked both of the doors and set down her suitcase.

"If I'm free to leave after our conversation then why did you lock the doors?" she finally spoke.

"It's not like you can't open them easily." he mumbled.

She gave him a look before breathing deeply and fixing a blank stare on him. She tossed her blanket and pillow on the couch and crossed her arms. "What did you want to talk about?"

Chazz sighed and turned to face her. "First off, I'm sorry. For whatever I did while I was brainwashed."

Aurelia gave him a hard look. "You really don't remember?"

He shook his head and she looked away.

"What did I do?"

"Well firstly, you started wearing white, which in and of itself was way out of character. Then you brainwashed all of the blue dorm by defeating all of them in duels."

"I meant with us."

Aurelia sighed. "You told me I would have to die or convert. Those were the options."

"That's pretty extreme even for me."

"Yeah, for a second I thought you were just being dramatic, but you were dead serious."

Chazz stepped down the stairs. "I'm sorry. I abandoned you."

Aurelia gave him a calculating look. "What's the last thing you remember?"

He shook his head. "I was dueling Sartorius and I was about to pick a card from his hand when he asked me if I wanted to defeat Jaden. My answer was obviously yes and then I blacked out. I don't remember anything until my duel with Jaden."

"So what made you think that we needed to talk?"

"You're avoiding me Aurelia. You usually do that when you're hurt."

She "hmmed" but said nothing.

Chazz approached slowly and raised his hand to her cheek. "I'm sorry for everything." she shuddered and he brought her in closer to him. "And with everything that has happened and will probably happen, I can't promise it will never happen again." he tilted her chin up to meet her eyes. "But I'm back now and it's just the two of us here." he glanced down at her lips before capturing them in a slow kiss.

Aurelia responded before she had fully realized what happened and pressed even closer into his body. This is what her body had been waiting for. This is what she craved. His tongue glided over hers. Her mate.

No. Aurelia wrenched free and backed up so far she reached the couch. "No, I can't."

"Why not?"

"You don't understand."

"Maybe I do."

She shook her head with a wry smile. "Trust me, you don't."

"…I know Aurelia…"

She froze, staring at the ground. "You know what?"

"…everything." he dragged his foot along the carpet. "Well, almost everything."

She looked up at him desperately. "Everything about what?"

"You. You're…"

She felt the tears well up in her eyes. "Say it."

"You're not human."

She collapsed on the couch with a sob. Everything she had been holding in for the last year and a half exploded out of her. She didn't feel Chazz sit down next to her until he had her in his arms again. She breathed deeply of his scent and sighed. "I didn't want to tell you." she finally said.

"Why?" he asked, not sounding angry but she could hear the undertone of hurt in his voice.

"I was afraid. Every time we finally get something right with us and I want to tell you, something happens and I can't. Maybe that makes me a coward but I really don't care." she wiped at her eyes.

"I care." he said.

Aurelia untangled herself from him so she could look him in the eyes. "You should be disgusted by me." she said evenly then turned to look away. "I am."

"I don't think you're disgusted with yourself, I think you're afraid that everyone else is."

Aurelia swiped at her tears again angrily. "Whatever." she looked back over at him. "Who told you anyway?"

He shrugged lightly. "Aster did. Then he directed me to Dr. Shaw who filled me in some more. I have to admit that I was freaked out at first but then I remembered everything I lo-like about you and…it was kind of a no-brainer."

Aurelia completely missed his slip-up. "In between all of our fights."

"Can you blame us? You were keeping secrets because you thought I would hate you and every time I thought I had you figured out you would unleash another one. It was endless."

She curled up. "Don't remind me."

He sighed and lifted her chin towards him. "Aurelia I think it's about time that you told me everything. Or do you not care that much about me?"

Aurelia froze then wrenched herself away from the couch and faced him. "Don't you ever assume that I don't care about you! Every time you turned your back on me I broke some more inside! I actually tried to hate you for a while but I can't! I love you!"

"Then why did you hide this from me?" Chazz asked, voice slightly elevated.

"To protect you!"

"From what?"

"From me!" she deflated instantly. "From me. If I ever hurt you…I can't bear it."

Chazz stood up slowly and approached her. When he tried to reach for her she shied away but he held fast and soon had her back in his arms. For a while he just held her, allowing her to relax and cling to him again.

"You once told me that you wouldn't allow anyone to hurt me or any of your friends, but what about you? You're hurting yourself by hiding who you are. You were also hurting me by pushing me away."

She looked up suddenly. "I didn't mean to-"

"I know." he smoothed her hair back from her face. He realized, truly, then that she would never hurt him. She hated the very thought of it. "Can you trust me now, with who you are?"

"I…"

Chazz stepped back from her. "Show me." he said gently.

Aurelia wrapped her arms around herself as if self-conscious, before unwrapping them and digging into the waistband of her jeans. A long black tail emerged. Where Aster's was silver to match his hair, Aurelia's was black to match hers. It hung limply all the way to her ankles and swung gently.

Aurelia glanced up at him to see his reaction. When he had looked his fill of her tail he looked back up at her to signal her to go on.

Aurelia glanced down at her fingers and watched as her fingernails turned from human-looking to claws. Her canines elongated to show over her bottom lip and when she met Chazz's gaze, her eyes had turned as well.

Chazz breathed deeply. How could she think she wasn't beautiful anymore? She was stunning. This true side of her looked better on her than her human disguise. He stepped forward slowly and touched her cheek. Her cat-like eyes watched him warily but he grinned. "You look beautiful." he said truthfully.

Aurelia's eyes widened for a second before she closed them and melted into his hand. His other hand went to hers and brought it up to his gaze. Her claws looked dainty but he knew that while she looked dainty she definitely wasn't. He figured her claws were the same way. He kissed each knuckle of that hand. "I still think you're beautiful." he repeated.

"Chazz." she sighed his name and moved closer into him. "I'm not beautiful." she said before retracting her claws.

"I really didn't expect you to have so many self esteem issues." he said quietly as he reached for her hand again. "You…" he met her eyes, "Are beautiful and stunning and quite frankly downright cool."

She snorted and looked away. "I'm serious."

"So am I." Aurelia met his gaze again and knew immediately that he was, in fact, speaking truthfully. In his eyes, he saw her as everything he described and more. She didn't have to read his mind to know that.

Aurelia suddenly backed away from him. "You don't know what you're getting into." she whispered.

He shifted his weight to his other foot. "I know part, if not most of it." at her confused look he continued. "I talked to Dr. Shaw remember."

"He may be mated to a Shem-Miw but he is not one of us. He doesn't know what it feels like."

"Funny, he said telepathy is part of the bond. Wouldn't he have experienced something from his wife?"

She shook her head looking very much lost. "I don't know…maybe…"

"I want to be with you Aurelia. Will you let me?" Chazz said directly.

"You don't understand! This is forever, there is no undoing this."

"I thought you were hot the moment I saw you. When we first got together it was awesome and after that it just got better. You are passionate and fiery and sarcastic and kind of a bitch, but you're you! And I wouldn't change anything about that. Besides," he glanced at her from under his eyelashes. "You already said you love me."

Aurelia blanched. "When?"

"When you were screaming at me."

"To be frank I've done a lot of screaming-"

"When I asked if you cared about me."

She silently went through their conversation and realized she actually screamed it at him. That was not the way she wanted to tell him. "I can't help it." she said finally.

"It's my charm." he grinned then resumed being serious. "I get it, I do."

"No you don't. You're my mate…it's practically in my DNA to love you. I can't not love you."

Chazz glanced towards the door. "Well I want you to have a choice in this." he said as he walked toward it. "If you don't want to be with me, to do this with me, then I'll let you walk out this door right now and never bring it up again."

"What?"

"You can go on and live life however you want and I won't even talk to you if you don't want me to."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to force you into anything because of love. If it's forced, it's not love. I learned that from my brothers." he said. "But you should know that I do want this. I want to go on with you. I want to be with the woman I love."

Aurelia stared at him, frozen in shock and confusion as she registered his words.

He gave a sheepish half smile. "Did I mention I love you?"

"No, I think you left that part out."

"Oh."

Aurelia bit her lip. "Are you sure?"

"Positive." he replied. "Although if you're not sure-"

She slammed into him faster than his eye could see and crashed their lips together. He caught her drift and turned her around to push her into the guard rails above the stairs. She moaned into his mouth as he tangled his tongue with hers and he responded with a growl. She playfully nipped his lips and growled back.

He pulled back. "That's cool and sexy at the same time." he smirked.

She smirked back.

"So…what do we do now?"

She gave him a look. "Now we have sex and seal the deal."

"Right. I remember something like that in the explanation from Shaw." he said as he watched her push his jacket aside. It slid down his arms and pooled at their feet. "But I prefer making love."

She snorted and said "You are such a softy."

Under your spell again

I can't say no to you

Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hands

I can't say no to you.

Chazz braced his hands on either side of her face and slowed their kiss. She mewled in confusion.

"Chazz, what are you doing?" she breathed against his lips.

"Relax, sweetheart, we have all night."

She smiled. "I love it when you call me sweetheart." she said.

He kissed her gently again and brushed his hands up and down her sides. Her wandering fingers led to the hem of his turtleneck and the warm skin beneath. He hissed in pleasure as her fingers traced patterns on his abs. her body rocked up against his and they both moaned at the extra contact.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.

"Chazz…shirt…now." she said between kisses.

He raised his arms and she yanked his shirt over his head to join the jacket. She broke their kiss and removed her hands to look at him.

He was lean. Taller than her and mostly muscle, though she didn't know when he took the time to work out, if he did at all. She looked up at him to find him looking a bit nervous.

"You know, you were killing my self control when you were in the society." she said randomly.

He looked confused at her turn in conversation. "How so?"

"I missed your touch. It took every ounce of my self control not to join your society just so I could have you back. I almost did."

"Why?" he asked

"Because I crave your touch so much. So much that it hurts. I ache even at the thought of touching you. Even now, I can't help but want to touch so badly."

He leaned forward. "Then touch me."

Now I can't let go of this dream,

I can't breathe but I feel…

She moaned and leapt at him again. This time with her hands spread across his chest, taking in the soft feel of his skin beneath them. His chest vibrated with his moan.

"Aurelia…bedroom…now…" he managed to say between kisses. She moaned her affirmation and broke away. She tossed her shirt over her head leaving her in only her bra as she padded toward the hallway. She glanced behind her to find him staring at her back.

"Coming?" she asked.

He met her eyes. "Someday you'll tell me about those scars right?"

She softened at his obvious display of caring. "I will."

He followed her to his bedroom where she glanced around at how large it was. "Ojamas?"

He smirked and closed the door. "I told them to take a hike for a while. I'm sure your spirits are entertaining them right now."

She smirked in response. "Probably."

His body met hers as their mouths melded. His warm hands braced on either side of her stomach. She shivered as his hands traced patterns over her skin. The feel of his skin on hers made her feel so much more than she had ever felt before. Perhaps it was the fact he was her mate or maybe because she loved him but right now she didn't care. She just wanted to feel.

As one of his hands reached up to her bra she started dragging kisses down his neck. When he failed to open the clasp she sniggered and reached behind her to unclip it.

"You do realize I have no idea what I'm doing." he whispered.

She tossed her bra to the side and pressed her front to his. They both hissed at the contact. "I know." she whispered back.

The heat growing inside of her had Aurelia panting already. When his hands nervously traveled up her body to cup her breasts, she mewled in pleasure. He sighed and she shivered.

Good enough,

I feel good enough for you

He bent down and lifted her up to place her gently on the bed. "I'm not going to break." she chided him breathlessly.

"I know." he replied. "But I want to cherish you."

Their eyes met for minutes before he placed one hand on her stomach and traveled upwards from there. The feel of his warm hand on her heated skin sent her heart beating faster. His hand met her breast again but this time his mouth followed.

"Chazz!" she gasped as he laved his tongue against her left nipple. The heat inside her built to a furnace as he licked and sucked at one breast and then the other. She bucked up against him and he moaned.

Drink up sweet decadence

I can't say no to you

"Chazz please." she whimpered. The hoarse "I know" he gave her betrayed how much this was affecting him too. He popped the button of her jeans open and then the zipper before dragging them slowly down her legs, taking in every bit of her body as it was revealed to him.

"You are more beautiful than I imagined." he whispered.

Her legs made a cradle for him as he settled himself between them. The feel of his arousal through his jeans made her want him even more.

She reached for his jeans but he batted her hands away and kissed her again instead. She broke away. "Chazz if you don't get rid of your jeans right now I'm going to shred them." she tried to threaten but it came out more breathy than she had wanted.

But Chazz wasn't listening to her. In her pleasure she had reverted back to her animalistic form and he had to catch his breath again. Her cat's eyes met his and he could see her urgency in them.

And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind

I can't say no to you

When he remembered her tail, he reached for it, grasping it gently.

She howled.

He immediately let go and she mewled in confusion. "Why did you stop?"

"Did I hurt you?"

She shivered and he found himself with her tail wrapped around his hand. "No…very sensitive…so good."

He gently pet her tail with his other hand before returning that hand to her body. He traced his way down her abdomen to the edge of her panties and then back again. She bucked again and her tail tightened around his arm.

"Aurelia." he whispered in her ear. "I need my hand back."

He felt her tail reluctantly fall from his arm and with both hands, removed her panties. Finally she was bare before him.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely

Now I can't let go of this dream

Can't believe that I feel…

They could barely take it any longer. Chazz quickly rid himself of his jeans and boxers in the madness of the pleasure induced haze they were both in.

"Chazz now, please." she pleaded as she bucked up against him with nothing between them but skin.

He was completely gone to the pleasure and thrust into her without thinking first. He froze when he had realized what he did but she moaned in complaint and tried to make him move inside her.

"Aurelia you're…are you…?"

"I'm fine. Higher pain tolerance than humans remember." she undulated her hips and he grabbed them in a white knuckled grip. "Keep going." she urged.

He kissed her gently before moving forward once, then twice when she made no reaction in pain, only pleasure. He turned to nip at her neck and pushed into her again only to feel her buck up wildly and gasp.

Good enough

It's been such a long time coming but I feel good.

"There, do that again." she exclaimed. Her hips rose to meet his thrust and she cried again. Her hands scrambled for purchase on the bed and grasped the bed sheets hard in her hands. He met her hips faster and faster until she cried out again.

"Chazz now." she commanded.

"I don't want to hurt you." he said with sweat rolling down his forehead.

"Please." she whimpered. "I don't want to hurt you either but if we don't we'll never be mated. Please."

Chazz stared into her eyes until he turned to her neck and bit down right where she pointed. "Harder." she whispered. He thrust into her and bit down harder. Sweetness filled his mouth. Her nails scraped down his back, lightly so her claws wouldn't rip his skin. Chazz lifted his lips from her neck and they were stained with blood.

When he started moving, Chazz could feel the pleasure in him rise faster than before. He was feeling everything, including what she felt. It was incredible.

"Aurelia…" he whispered.

She had her head thrown back and mewled in answer.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall

Pour real life down on me

Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough

Am I good enough for you to love me too?

She scrambled for purchase when he thrust into her again. They both moaned.

He could feel she was getting close and picked up speed again. Aurelia came suddenly and clutched at him desperately and with one more thrust Chazz followed her over the edge. Aurelia nuzzled the side of his neck and bit into the skin with her fangs. Chazz hissed in discomfort but in a post orgasmic haze it was minimal.

Aurelia fell back with Chazz sprawled next to her and sighed. He had fallen asleep as soon as he lay down next to her and she felt the fatigue pulling her to follow. She could already feel the bond connecting in place. Even now if she closed her eyes she would still be able to see him in her mind's eye as clearly as she could now.

She brushed his sweaty bangs out of his face. "I love you Chazz." she whispered before fading away into sleep.

So take care what you ask of me

Cause I can't say no

Chazz awoke suddenly to wet heat engulfing his cock. Aurelia straddled him and started up a pounding rhythm, almost harsh. Chazz tried to reach up to her but she batted his hands away as she rode out an orgasm.

When she looked back down at him she was in her animalistic state and completely filled with lust. He could feel it in the back of his mind as well and knew it was coming from her. He glanced at the clock as she started to ride him again. 7am Sunday. The week had started and so had her season.

Her claws raked down his chest leaving small trails of blood in their wake. The pain was minimal and he could feel his own orgasm coming onto him but Aurelia seemed only concerned with herself in this moment. Her hips stuttered as she came again.

When he tried to reach for her again she growled and braced his hands above him on the bed so he couldn't move. Her tail swished back and forth behind her.

The third time she came his orgasm was ripped from him as well. She seemed to wait a minute calmly until they both stopped spasming before she started up that brutal rhythm again. His muscles twinged in pain. This was going to be a long week.

Okay, so I lied. It's kinda two lemons in one chapter. I tried to emphasize the difference between their first time and the times she's in heat. Did I succeed? Did I fail epically? Review and let me know.