Epilogue: New Years Eve
I was never the one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again,
and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.
What is broken is broken --- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best,
than to mend it and see the broken places forever.
Mileys POV
8:03 a.m
I couldn't stop but think about what happened at Kevin's wedding. Unlike last time, Nick actually triedto get in touch with me. He called ,texted,emailed,and of course I ignored them all. I forgave him awhile ago,but I just didn't want to have to face him. Not now, not ever.
To be dead honest,I was scared. Scared of falling for him again. Breaking down,and taking him back,forgetting Liam. I couldn't let that happened. What me and Nick had was in the past,it should mean nothing to me now but it was the exact opposite. It meant everything and,it was so annoying. I couldn't move on. I mean I wanted to be his friend but I knew everyone knew he wanted more than that. I stuffed my items in a very large suitcase,packing to fly to Australia to spend New Years with Liam and his family. Knock knock.
Ugh, I ran my fingers through my hair,annoyed. I stepped over all the crap on the floor and made my way to the apartment door,only to be faced with the person I was trying to avoid the most. Before I could even open the door all the way,Nick slid through the crack that I slightly opened.
''Miley,I'm sorry,about everything. I didn't mean to make you upset about Courtney I just-..'' He took a breath before he continued.
''Were just friends Mi.'' I wanted to roll my eyes,I didn't really care for an explanation. But thought better of it. Ha,it was kinda funny that he actually thought I cared whether or not they were together.
I nodded,and began to talk. ''It doesn't matter,I'm over it. But Nick,I'm dating Liam,not you. You don't need to apologize for taking a girl to Kevin's wedding.
'' I stretched certain words to make my point clear.
''Miley,I know your with Liam. I respect that,I respect you. But you can't deny this attraction we feel. Or I feel at least.'' He looked down,disappointed.
''Nick,its not your fault. I swear,you couldn't have loved me anymore than you already did. But I also want you to move on.'' I looked down,
knowing looking at him would make this harder. But I knew he would find someone else,other than me,someone who didn't always make him want to cry.
''So what,you don't even want to be friends anymore?'' He asked,and I could tell he was frustrated.
''I don't know,Nick. I want us to be friends,but we both know its not working.''
''Miley,if you don't have the same feelings,then you should tell me now,and stop leading me on.'' That hit a nerve.
''How the heck am I leading you on!? I'm freaking dating someone! And you know what Nick your right. I don't have the same feelings.
But I do want to be friends.'' I added as an afterthought.
''You can't have it both ways Miley.'' He said,calmly.
''Why not? Why isn't being my friend not enough anymore? Isn't better to have my friendship than nothing at all!?''
Nick stepped closer to me,and I could feel his minty breath on my face.
''I want every part. I honestly wish I was Liam. I wish I could hold you,and kiss you,without being judged. I regret breaking up with you.''
''You regret us breaking up?'' I asked shocked.
''I regret hurting you,but I could never regret what we had.'' He whispered so low,but he was so close that I could hear.
''We can't work. Not together,not individually,not at all.'' I spoke quietly,and slowly.
''What are you talking about Miley? I-..'' I cut him off.
''Let me finish. It doesn't matter what happens Nick,but we can't keep doing this.I want to be your friend Nick. I rather you be happy with someone else,than waiting for someone who will never feel the same.I hope you find someone who will feel the same way you feel about them.'' I whispered.
''Me too.'' He mumbled,and all I heard was a door being shut.
My heart told me to go run after him,tell him I felt the same. My mind told me to let him go,and leave to Australia.
Guess which one I listened to.
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Nicks POV
9:55 a.m
No matter how much I wanted to deny it,I still loved Miley. I couldn't stop. But it was New Years Eve,I wasn't supposed to be upset,and thinking about Miley. I dialed Courtney's number into my blackberry,and waited for her to pick up.
''Hello?'' She answered,her voice high and perky.
''Hey,'' I said.
''What's up Nick?''
I sighed and began to tell her everything that happened with Miley.
''Please tell me your not upset about this.'' She whispered,after a long period of just me talking.
''How could I not be ,I loved her.'' It hurt to use the past tense,especially since I knew I was lying.
''Nick,your my friend so I'm going to tell you straight up. Do you honestly think she really ever loved you?'' Courtney spat the words in my ears,and it wandered through my mind.
''Why would you even say that?'' I asked.
''Don't you get it Nick,she played you. So far she's winning,but you need to do something Nick. Don't let her beat you.''
''Why do you think that..'' I said,still unsure of what to believe.
''Look at the facts Nick,you broke her heart and dated Selena. She breaks yours and runs off with Liam. Its her turn,don't let her be in control,
anywho I gotta go. Bye Nick.''
''Bye.''
I pressed the red end button and placed my phone on the desk in front of me. I thought about what Courtney said,and immediately took out my labtop. I quickly signed on to AOL,and looked for Miley's contact. I found it with no problem,and pressed compose.
It took me at least an hour and a half to write everything I needed to say.
Mileys POV
10:59 p.m
The clock was ticking down till midnight,and I was chatting and playing around with Liam and his family. My mind completely off what happened earlier with Nick until my iphone beeped. I excused myself and checked it in private. New email flashed across the screen. I pressed my finger against the word read. Message to long. Curious to what could be so long that I couldn't read it on my cell phone,I took out my Mac laptop and checked my email. It was from Nick. I clicked on the message with my mouse.
Miley,
It's getting really hard to believe I was ever on your mind. You played the game,and called the shots,you got what you WANT. I thought I should let you know that you never did care enough about me anyways. So maybe it will be best for both of us if we were nothing to each other. You were right though we can't keep doing this. It's kinda funny though,thinking you could ever be on my mind.
It took a lot for me to see,but now I know that you were lying. I'm done though, I played your games for long enough, I took all the shots.
But the hilarious thing is in the end you stilllost. You and me wasn't destiny,from the start wasn't meant to be. Nothing was ever good enough,I tried to be the one you could lean on or trust. A friend in other words,but the games have all been played Miley. And there's nothing left to say. Don't call me because you know I'll be moving on.
Just like you wanted. I didn't write this to hurt you,but now I can't help myself. I'm going my own way Miley. You were always right,I'll find someone.
I stared at the screen for a second before I muttered, ''Bullshit.'' Realizing I was still in a room with Liam and his sister. They both looked at me strangely,but ignored my sudden outburst. ''Miley,do you want to go to this Australian festival..?'' I nodded,not really paying attention to who was talking to me. ''Give me a sec to get ready.'' I replied to the email,and went to get dressed. Liam,his sister,and I all left to attend the festival.
Nicks POV
11:58 p.m
I waited,and somewhat hoped for Miley to answer back to my email,although I would never admit it. By this time,I already flew back to LA and was home with my parents,Joe,Kevin,Frankie,and Dani. I checked my email one last time to see I had a new one. Finally I thought,and eagerly clicked on it.
Dear Nick,
Everything you said was true,except you not being on my mind. Trust me,Nick your always on my mind whether I like to admit or not. You were my first true love,so maybe you can understand on how I can never forget you. You'll always be special to me,no matter what happens.
The memories we shared are things I'll remember for eternity. I can't lie and tell you I wasn't playing games because I'm not so sure myself,
what I was doing. But what I do know is,I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. I can't say that were not meant to be,or destiny. I guess we'll find out soon enough. Until then, I wanted to show you a quote I read today;
I suddenly heard my family counting down to the New Year,oblivious to the fact I was on the computer.
10,9,7,6,5,
I tried to tune them out,not really caring if the ball would drop in a matter of seconds.
True love is not how you forgive,but how you forget,not what you see but what you feel,not how you listen but how you understand,
and not how you let go but how you hold on.
3,2,1
The room was filled with cheers and laughter,I intently read the last sentence of the email
I'm holding on,Nick.
THE END
For now.
a/n: Well there you have it. It is finally finished :D This is the longest chapter I've ever written for a story.
So the epilogue didn't go how I planned it to go at all,then again my writing never goes how I plan it too :/
Oh well,so this isn't exactly the niley fluff that I promised,but at least I included some niley moments whether they were bad or good :)
Anyways,I'm not going to tell you what to expect in the sequel because I don't really know myself. But there definitely will be one.
I hope I didn't disappoint you guys,but if I did, I will gladly rewrite the epilogue and give you a cute niley ending. If you guys want.
I'll be posting my thank you's/statistics in like 30 minutes.
xoxo,Amanda