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Chapter 25- Tears and trouble

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Bella's pro-

In less than 5 minutes I am at Annabel's grave, starring at the patch of dirt where some grass has started to grow

I sink to my knees in front of her grave; my knees could no longer hold me.

"Hey Annabel" I say quietly.

"I'm... I'm sorry I haven't visited much, I miss you so much and I hate that you were… killed, it all just seems like a dream, I still can't believe it, just like Winter and my family"

"I'm in love Annabel with Sam, he is so kind, so understand, handsome and brave, I know you wanted me to be happy with him, I'm his imprint, his soul mate, he is like a god and I'm just plain…. He saw my scars as well on my breasts, I told him I was raped and he wasn't… disgusted like I thought he would be. He was angry but not at me" the wind picks up and blows my hair out of my face "at that… vampire, I wish you were here, it's my fault, I should have never left you alone… you got beaten, raped and killed because of me. When you died it felt like new wounds were being opened and my old ones open but Sam is repairing them but I will have to live the rest of my life knowing I was the reason my mother, father…. Twin were killed, the reason why Winter was killed and the reason why you are dead, I don't want Sam to end up like this, I don't want any of you to be dead" I take a deep breath, tears flowing down my face "I.. I told Sam and the others a bit about Winter, I got into a fight with Jared's imprint, she told me to 'open up' but it seems like everyone I open up to ends up dying"

"I'm not over grieving for my family when Winter died… and when you died I was and still is swallowed in guilt…. Do you think it is time to forgive my brothers? I just don't know if I'm ready yet but I know in order to heal I will need to forgive them but I can't just yet. You don't deserve this and I wish I could go back in time to save you and Winter and my parents and...S…Scarlett but I know it's impossible. I love you Annabel, I will never forget you" I say, trying not to let the sobs take over.

(3 hours later)

I don't know how long I have been here but I know Sam is getting worried, I lay a rose on her grave and say my goodbyes and walk back to my car and drive home, to my Sam.

(5 minutes later)

I park my car and walk to the front door, opening it with my key; I walk in and hear shouting.

"I don't give a fuck, go and find her"

"Find who?" I ask as I walk into the kitchen, all the pack but Jacob, Jared and Paul (they have patrol) run over to me and hug me.

"Guys…. Human needs to... breathe" I say and they all let go and Sam walks over to me and hugs me.

"Where were you Baby Bells, you were gone for more than 3 hours" he whispers into my ear, hugging me to near death.

"Went to see Annabel's grave" I say to him, staring at him with a tear or two, Sam holds my face with both of his hands and with his thumb wipes away the tears.

"Are you ok?" he asks me, I nod and lean into his chest, feeling safe with his arms around me.

"Never leave again Bella, we were starving, still are" Quil says and Leah hits him over the head.

"Bitch Leah" Quil says.

"Hey Quil?" I say.

"Yeah?"

"No food for you unless you say sorry to Leah" I say sweetly, his mouth drops and Sam chuckles.

"I'm sorry Leah, so sorry, please Bella don't take away you heavenly food" I laugh at nod and slide out of Sam's arms and get straight to work, cooking food for a small army.

(30 minutes later)

30 minutes later the food I have cooked is all gone in less than 10 minutes. I start to get off Sam's lap to clean the dishes when Sam pulled me back into his lap.

"Leah and Seth do the dishes"

"Sam no, I'll do them"

"No Bella Sam it right, you cook for all of us and we can at least do the dishes" Seth says, the pack all nod.

"But I like doing the dishes" I mumble, of course with their super wolf hearing they heard me and laughed.

"Really?" Sam whispers into my ear, low enough so they wouldn't hear plus they were wrapped up in their own conventions.

"Cos I am feeling you lying threw the bound" he whispers and starts sucking on my neck.

"Sam baby, you need to stop, the pack is here" I say, being as quiet as I can, I could barely hear myself.

I hear a bang and jump in Sam's arms, I turn around and see Jared staring at me and Sam, rage written all over his face, Paul right behind him, rage on his face as well.

"Get your hands off my sister now Sam" Jared growls out, I see red and jump out of Sam's lap.

"You don't get to tell me what to do anymore Jared, I'm his imprint, get over it" I yell at him.

"Bells-" I cut him off.

"You don't get to call me that, you're not my brother" he looks in pain, I feel a stab of guilt but I know I need to get this off my chest "A brother doesn't abandoned their sister, a brother doesn't send them all the way to a fucking boarding school in England, a brother doesn't not talk to them to make sure there ok, I know we were a happy close family Jared but that night you went out was one of the worst nights ever, he came into our house Jared, a place where we were meant to be safe! He tied us up and made S…Scarlett and I watch as he slowly killed our mother and father, all the way though it they were begging for him to let us go but you want to know what he did, he laughed and gave the final blow that ended our parents pain, Scarlett" I choke out her name "and I were gaged but somehow you could barely hear out sobs and pleas, he untied Scarlett and she let out the biggest scream ever and still NO ONE HEARD! He hit her so hard you could hear the bones break in her jaw, he laughed and started to kick and hit her, she went through that pain for more than half an hour but back then it felt like days, he killed her and drank her dry…." I take a deep breath, tears once again falling down my face "he looked at me with her blood still on his lips, he smiled and told me he was only after me but wanted to make me watch as he took out our family, he had been watching me for months, my blood smelled like no other before" I laugh bitterly "he untied me, he cut me, he hit me, he kicked me, he beat me, he tortured in ways that would make some of the most evilest people in the world cry with fear and puke and then for the end part he raped me, HE RAPED ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN! He felt like weeks when only it was over 3 hours, he mentally and physical scarred me, not only a mental but physical way of remembering him he said, he had a knife and cut me on my breasts and back, before he left saying he would be back one day, he will come back for me, it kills me every second of the day, not only did he take away most of our family but he took my innocence away, I only ever had Scarlett as my friend, our souls were entwisted together, I lost my twin and you lost your sister, we both lost our parents and I just want to kill myself because it's my fault, my fault he went after our family my fault he killed Winter and my fault that Annabel is now lying in a fresh grave, it's all my fault and all I wanted was my brothers, I wouldn't have cared if it was one fucking call phone, I just needed to know that you didn't blame me, I needed to know if you were alright and I missed Paul, someone who I thought was my brother… I can't forgive you know, it'll take a while but I just wished you two had the balls to call me, one fucking phone call was all I was asking" I yell, my voice breaking at the end because I had yelled so much.

"Bella I am so sorry" Paul and Jared say at the same time, somewhere during my yelling Sam had wrapped him warm, safe arms around me, I turn, facing his chest and cry on his bare chest, everything is quite but my sobbing, Sam picks me up and sits my down on his lap in the lounge room.

(15 minutes)

I managed to stop crying, I look up and see everyone has gone.

"I need to stop crying" I say, look up at Sam.

"Baby Bells if anyone has the right to cry it's you, don't be ashamed" I nod and he wipes away my tears.

"Do you want to watch a movie?" he asks me, I smile and nod.

"I'll make some popcorn" I say and go to the kitchen.

(5 minutes later)

I walk back into the lounge room with a big bowl of popcorn, I cuddle up to Sam and see the movie playing is X-Man 1 (love that movie, Huge Jackman is hot).

(Lemon alert)

Third person view

Feeling of arms wrap around her waist, her nipples hardened when she felt his lips press gently onto her neck. She felt her pulse speed up as she slowly turned to face him, her breath ragged as she pushed her head forward, stopping when her lips were inches from his. Her cheeks went hot again as he slid his had up her side, moving it up to her cheek to wipe the tear away.

Her eyes closed as his lips gently brushed against hers, she felt her knees go weak as soon as their lips met. She leaned against him as they kissed, her hands sliding up to his shoulders as she held herself up. After what felt like hours he pulled his head back. She opened her eyes in disappointment at the loss of his lips. She could still feel his lips lingering on hers as she moved one of her hands from his shoulder, pressing her fingers to her lips while she was hungry for more.

She pressed her body to his, her lips pressing into his again as she kissed him passionately. She wrapped her arms around his neck and moaned softly, feeling him lift her shirt up as one of his hands slid under the fabric up to her breast. She shivered when he placed her on the window sill and pressed her exposed skin onto the glass, continuing to let their tongues dance as she wrapped her legs around his waist. Her hands slid down his shirt to the buttons, blindly fumbling to open it.

Bells groaned when he pulled his head away again, her eyes following his hands as he helped her undo the buttons. She moved her hands down his shoulders while his shirt fell to the floor, her hands then moved to his stomach as her fingertips gently traced over his abs. She smiled at him as she pushed her hips into his, gasping softly as she felt Sam's growing erection.

She lifted her arms some as he started to remove her shirt, goose bumps forming on her newly exposed skin as the cold from the window hit her, his lips slowly traveling down her neck with soft kisses as he moved down to her breasts. She inhaled deeply as his hands slid to her back to remove the clasp of her lacy bra, letting it slide down to the ground as he caught one of her nipples in his mouth. She pushed her chest out towards him when his hand cupped her other breast, his fingers working her hardened bud as his teeth gently grazed over her nipple. She moaned as she placed one of her hands on the back of his head, squirming some as he worked her nipples skilfully with his mouth and fingers.

She whimpered softly as he moved away again, keeping her hand on the back of his head as she looked into his eyes. "Why'd you move away?" she asked as she moved her hands back to his chest.

His hands slid to her hips as he gripped them lightly, his eyes taking in her beauty before he replied, "Because I want to look at you. You're gorgeous, I love you so much Baby Bells"

"I love you so much too Sam" she says with a smile on her face.

She dropped her legs from his waist as she stood up, pushing his back against the wall as she kissed his neck a few times, Bella kissing her way down Sam's chest. Her tongue brushed across his abs as she settled onto her knees on the wooden floor, looking up at him as her hands moved to undo his jeans. She let her index fingers hook into the waistband of his jeans as she slowly pulled them down his legs, her lips moving to the head of his cock as she kissed it lightly.

She slid her hand up his leg, her fingers wrapping around the shaft of his throbbing member as she moved her hand back and forth at a slow, steady pace. She flicked her tongue across his tip gently, hearing him moan as she caught the pre-cum oozing out from his head. She let her tongue move in small circles around as her lips engulfed him, sliding him deeply down her throat before slowly pulling back. She closed her eyes in enjoyment, her hand moving at the same rhythm with her mouth as she sped up her pace some. 'Oh,' she thought as he gently placed his hand on the back of her head, 'he tastes so good.'

She knew he was enjoying her mouth working him by the sounds he made, his body tensing every time she sucked him harder. She heard him groan as he pulled her head from his cock, looking up at him in confusion before he said "Not yet… I want you to cum first."

Bella stood up then, sliding her arms around his neck as she pulled his head down and kissed him softly. Sam's built arms wrapped around her small frame, gently running his fingers over her skin as he did so. His hands then slid down to her ass, gripping it tightly as he picked her up from the ground, her legs wrapping around his waist as she tightened her grip around his neck. She pushed her hips against his as he walked up the stairs to his room, moaning some as he massaged her ass.

Once they reached his bedroom, she dropped her legs from his waist and loosened her arms, kissing his neck softly as he slid his hands down the front of her jeans tugging them playfully. She moved back some as he slid her jeans down her legs, her eyes fixated on him as she stepped out of them. She smiled as he guided her to the foot of his bed, sitting on the edge before he gently pushed her shoulders so she was lying down. She lifted her hips some as his thumbs hooked into her panties, sitting up on her elbows as he pulled her panties down her legs. She bit her lip gently as his fingers lightly teased her dripping pussy, her legs twitching slightly as he found her clit.

"Mmm," he said as he slid his index finger into her slowly, "you're so wet." His lips gently pressed onto her hairless mound as his finger moved in and out of her at a slow and steady pace.

She'd laid back down as she started moaning quietly, her eyes closing as he licked her slit. She gasped as his tongue flicked over her sensitive bud, spreading her legs more as she tilted her head back. Her breath became more rapid as his lips formed a seal over her clit, his tongue quickly flicking over it as he started to suck gently. She moved her hand to the back of his head as her fingers clutched in his hair softly, gently pulling him closer to her as he slid a second finger into her pussy.

She started to squirm as he thrust his fingers into her faster, her legs shaking slightly as a delicious heat formed in the pit of her stomach. She moaned loudly as the pressure of his tongue increased, her legs shaking more as the heat spread to the rest of her body. Her back arched then as a wave of pleasure crashed down on her, her breath catching in her throat as she heard her pulse ringing in her ears. She faintly heard him groan as he removed his fingers from her pussy, his tongue gliding over her slit as he licked up all of her juices.

She moved her hand away from his head and opened her eyes slightly as she caught her breath, smiling lustily.

She watched him as he stood, moving her body up the bed as he crawled in after her. She placed one of her hands on the back of his head, pulling him down to her as she kissed him passionately. Her tongue slid slowly into his mouth as it searched for his, tasting her juices on him as she moaned against his lips. He slowly lowered down onto his elbows as he pressed his body into hers, his arms supporting his weight as he deepened the kiss. She started to slowly grind her hips into his as his cock teased at her opening, eliciting a groan from him as she felt him shiver slightly.

He pulled his head back from their passionate kiss, his breath as rapid as hers as he looked her in the eyes. She gasped as he slowly began to slide his cock into her until he was hilt deep, feeling him pause as her pussy adjusted to his thickness. She moaned some as he gently started to move his hips back and forth at a steady pace, her walls grabbing his cock, pulling him deeper inside of her as it made her want him more. She squirmed some as he sped up his pace, moving her hips at the same rhythm as him as her hands slid down his sides.

She gripped her fingers onto his waist tightly, making sure his cock stayed inside of her as her legs locked around his gently. She rolled onto her side before pulling his legs under her, moving him until she was on top. At first, she pressed herself tightly into his lap, revelling in the way he filled her so completely. She let her fingertips trace over the hard planes of his stomach as she slowly started to rock her hips back and forth. He groaned softly as the walls of her pussy convulsed around him, his hands sliding up her legs to her waist as a tremor of delight ran through her.

She lifted herself up with her knees as her palms rested on his chest, her hips moving in small circles as the tip of his cock teased at her opening before slowly lowering herself again. She repeated that a few times before he sat up, his grip tightening around her waist as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Their lips connected again with a soul searing kiss as he helped move her up and down the length of him. Moans emanated from them both as they sped up their movements, her breath short pants of air as her clit brushed against his pelvic bone. She pushed his shoulders down, switching her position as they continued to kiss, their tongues entwining as his cock hit her g-spot.

She pulled her head back as her eyes shut tight, loudly moaning his name as she heard his moans beneath her. Her back arched fully as she scratched at the skin of his chest, small marks forming where her nails were as her second mind-numbing orgasm hit her. She let out a grunt as her back hit the bed again, her legs wrapping around his waist as he claimed the top position. Her heart felt like it was beating out of her chest as he thrust in and out of her in quick, short movements, the walls of her pussy convulsing around him in time with her pulse as she felt the first stream of his semen shoot deep within her. Her pussy milked every last drop of his cum out of him as they came down from their pleasure induced high, lowering her legs as he lay down, turning to face him as she placed her head lightly on his chest.

Her arm slipped around his waist as she cuddled in close to him, smiling softly at him as he pulled the blanket around them both.

She fell asleep in the arms of the man she loved, knowing that it was where she wanted to be for as long as she could.

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