Chapter 24
The first thing that Ichigo noticed was how terribly warm he was. He felt like a fire had engulfed him. Burning his skin and boiling his blood. Next was that he couldn't move. His body refused to move and pain radiated from every joint within his body. Muscles tightened painfully and twitched beneath the scarred skin. Cracking open an eye, blurred and fuzzy blobs meet his vision. Dark shapes moved low to the ground, prowling around his defenseless body. His muscles tightened in caution and apprehension. Ichigo would move if he had to. He was not going to die here. He had things to do.
A weight shifted in his lap, applying pressure to his protesting joints. Ichigo sucked in a sharp breath of pain. His chest protesting the sudden movement. The weight moved again, this time off of his lap, giving relief to his hurting kneecaps. He looked to his right and came face to face with striking gold eyes staring into his own. The image of Shiro's eyes coming to the front of his mind. Not moving a muscle, he blinked slowly, trying to focus on the shape in front of him. Vaguely wondering if it was Shiro.
Ichigo's eyesight evened out and revealed a wolf, not Shiro, right before his eyes. The wolf was as black as ink and not a spot of white or grey fur upon him. Barely visible against the dark background. It was large, but sleek and muscled with the promise of death lingering just beneath the skin. Ichigo vaguely recalled what had happened before he entered his inner world.
Could this be the same wolf?
"Did you stay with me the entire time?" Ichigo whispered, his voice harsh from disuse and throat parched. His own disbelief clearly heard. At the sound of his voice, the wolf flicked his dark ears, stretched forward and touched Ichigo's chin with his cold nose. Ichigo blinked again. His mind struggling to comprehend the wolf's behavior. Extremely friendly behavior.
Sitting back on its haunches, the dark creature stared at him incisively. Almost daring him to move. Not like he could really. He was in too much pain to really try without hurting himself more.
High pitched snarls and barks broke him from his staring contest. Turning to the noise, a pair of wolf pups wrestled with each other, tumbling and turning in the long grass. Their baby teeth glinting in the dark. Enjoying their game so much, they failed to notice where they were going. The larger grey pup chased after the smaller brown one, nipping at their heels. Both of them crashed and tumbled over Ichigo's lap and onto the leafy ground on the other side. Forcing him to release a hissing breath through clenched teeth.
The puppies continued their roughhousing, ignorant of the pain they caused Ichigo. Goldeyes watched amused, safe from their position away from the playing pups. Stiffly moving his hands, bones popping and groaning in protest, Ichigo struggled to get himself propped up against the tree better. Every part of him refused to move. Bones creaked and protested movement while muscles twitched painfully beneath burning skin.
Ichigo was leaning heavily against the ancient tree, fingertips holding tightly to the rough bark, trying to keep himself upright. His once great stamina lost. The exertion leaving him breathless and tired. He sighed. This was not what he expected when he woke up.
The Old Man did warn him that this might happen. They did use a lot of his energy or so they said. However, right now he believes it and feels it.
"Ichigo!" A voice called his name. Looking around, he spotted a quickly approaching figure. He could see who he thought was Shin. The voice sounded the same and there was that same jade green reiatsu that outlined the boy. The boy had black ruffled hair and bright blue eyes. A bright smile adorned his face as he quickly raced up the hill. Ichigo gave a small smile back. He was relieved to 'see' a familiar figure, but he wished Shin didn't have to see him like this. Weak and helpless.
Shin stopped just at the edge of the bare area underneath the tree, his smile slipping. He glanced nervously at the wolves that lounged around the base of the tree, creating a barrier between Shin and Ichigo. Sliding a little down the tree, Ichigo attempted to catch himself. His hands going out to the sides, slipping in the leafy foliage scattered around him. Sticks and rocks poking his palms. Shin moved despite the wall of predators before him. Weaving his way through the lazily watching creatures, Shin eased Ichigo back up onto the base of the tree, stopping him from falling over like an idiot. The gold eyed wolf, eased up to his side and lay down beside him with his back facing the tree. His eyes watching the shadowed clearing before him.
"What are you doing here Shin?" Ichigo questioned. Shin huffed in exasperation at his question and rolled his eyes. He moved around, clearing any sharp rocks or twigs around Ichigo and began his pacing afterward. If the frown on Shin's face was any indication, Ichigo had an idea about what was going to happen. It happened wherever he was, no matter the time or place. Mostly said by his friends.
"Taking care of you, Ichigo. You can never do things the easy way, can you? Do you know how worried everyone is? Sora has hardly slept since he discovered you were gone. Tadashi has been put on leave because he was determined to wait for you until the point of collapse. All of the staff is on edge. And don't get me started on Kameko and Ran." Shin's reiatsu sparked and the jade color darkened in anger. A small hand ran through black hair in a frustrated manner. Slim brows furrowed in anger and worry. Ichigo followed Shin's movements, soaking up everything now that he could see. The rising sun behind Shin accented his posture and showed a powerful aura and future figure, despite the scolding. The future leader of the Shiba Clan.
"What's wrong with them?" Ichigo asked concerned. Guilt tore at his gut. He didn't mean for anyone to be upset at his disappearance. He was hoping to slip away without any fuss over him. Shin threw his hands up in the air, clearly frustrated, and began pacing faster, causing a few of the wolves to look at them before resuming their slumber. He continued his rant at Ichigo.
"Kameko has been upset and crying since you left that night. Ran has hardly gotten any sleep because of it, and it's putting a lot of stress on her and her baby. And Kameko refuses anyone else to care for her, so Ran has to do it all by herself. So this is all your fault Ichigo." Shin gave a huff, sat down and fell onto his back staring at the lightening sky above them as stars vanished with the coming of dawn. More relaxed now that he was able to vent his frustrations. Something that Ichigo could understand. He knew the feeling all too well. Sometimes things previously bottled up can't truly be contained. Even when he didn't want anyone to know. They always found a way of leaking out.
Ichigo ran his own calloused hand through long locks of orange, which were surprisingly untangled. Giving a sigh, he apologized to Shin. Who raised a hand and quickly waved it off.
"It's not your fault. I'm just relieved that you are awake. I'm sorry for taking my frustrations out on you. I just felt helpless, you know, not being able to help anyone because you were gone. I also kept where you were a secret even though I really wanted to tell someone, especially father, but I knew that wouldn't have helped you." Ichigo closed his eyes and smiled. His respect for Shin growing. Even so young, Shin understood that some things needed to be done alone.
He knew that feeling too. Helplessness. That was what he has felt since the final year of the war. Maybe he could change that.
"With time Kingy. With time." Shiro said sleepily, obviously struggling to remain awake. All of his energy spent.
"Go to sleep Shiro. I'll be fine until you wake up." Ichigo mentally told his spirit. There was a slight grumble of resistance from Shiro before it faded into silence and the connection to the spirit became fuzzy and muted, signaling that he had fallen asleep. Zangetsu was in the same position also. Ichigo's attention turned back to Shin.
"Thank you, Shin." Said boy gave a happy puff of air, his black bangs moving with his breath.
"Your welcome Ichigo." There was a quiet lull as each person enjoyed the moment before Shin spoke again. "So how long do you want to stay out here?"
Opening his eyes, Ichigo watched as Shin sat up and looked at him with curiosity and worry in his blue eyes. His blue eyes darting everywhere that he might be hurt, scanning for any signs of injury.
"Until I can move. My arms and legs are not moving the way I want them to. I haven't seemed to have moved in a while. You might need to help me to the house." Shin perked up from his lazy slouch. Eyes alight with hope and hands clenched onto his pants. It reminded Ichigo of a hopeful puppy.
"Does that mean that you are going to stay with the clan? You are not going to leave permanently this time?" He asked eagerly. Ichigo smiled at him warmly, contentment blooming in his chest. This was his world now and there was nothing that he could do about it. Besides if the others were here they would be mad at him for moping. Rukia would have definitely kicked his ass for it. And quite a few others as well.
"I'm not leaving, not for anything in the world." He told the boy.
"Promise?"
"I promise." With a serious nod from Shin, Ichigo watched as he reverted back to a child as he leaped up whooping for joy, startling all of the wolves except for the one at his side. Shin did some happy dance in the background yelling his praises to kami-sama, as the wolf beside him shifted and looked at him with one eye. Ichigo raised a questioning orange brow at the creature. Whom stared at him for a moment and they gave an almost disappointed sigh at Ichigo before looking back over the hill.
Shin came back and sat down facing him, and began excitedly talking to him. He talked about all the trouble the staff has gotten into, about how it was his birthday today (December 7) and that Ichigo waking up was the best present ever, about his friend Masashi and that his own birthday is coming up soon, and about Shin's struggles to find the best present for his friend.
Ichigo sat there listening to Shin chatter away as the hours ticked by and the sun rose up high in the sky. He sat there contently, enjoying the peace of just being there with the sun warming them and chasing away the night's chill. The wolves around them dozed, happy with just sleeping the day away. A few would get up and disappear into the surrounding forest, but return not long after. Their muzzles wet and dripping with water droplets.
Pain in his limbs subsided to a dull ache and allowed him some movement. He could wriggle his toes and flex his fingers. That's something at least. Maybe he could completely move in another day or so. Although he did not wish to spend another night outside if he didn't have to.
Ichigo kept an eye on the rising sun, watching to make sure that they would have enough time to make it back to the house before dark. When there was a pause in Shin's one-sided conversation, Ichigo attempted to stand. His feet unsteady underneath him. Joints protesting at the sudden movement. Ichigo swayed where he stood, feeling lighted headed as blood rushed down from his head. Shin, his mouth open to start talking again, quickly leaping to his feet to help, not the least bit angry at being interrupted.
"Are we going back already?" Ichigo looked at the young boy beside him. A gentle breeze shifted their hair and ruffled their clothes. However, it held the sharp hint of chill and the encroaching fall and winter months. The leaves on the trees were changing too. Spots of orange, brown, red and gold littered green.
"Do you not want to go back?" Ichigo asked Shin. His body is partially supported by the tree and the other half by Shin. Dulled pain brought back to full force. Ichigo painfully moved to pick up Zangetsu from where he'd fallen from his lap, but Shin held him back and picked up the ebony blade for him. Ichigo itched to take the blade back. He never liked it whenever someone touched Zangetsu.
"It's not that I don't want to go back, but…" Shin stared at the blade in his hand as if it could tell him the answer.
"But?" Ichigo prompted. Shin sighed and dropped his left arm to his side, Ichigo's blade still in hand.
"It's just that…" Shin grappled for the right words to say, "I don't know, wanted to talk with you alone some more, I guess. You hardly got any time to yourself before. Someone was always around making sure you were comfortable." Shin's voice got quieter. "But I could tell you were never comfortable with being waited on and normally didn't talk with anyone. Sure you would talk to Yuko, Hikaru, Katsumi, Akemi, Shizuka, and Sora, but you wouldn't talk to anyone else unless the person talked first. And once we get back you won't get any time to yourself at all. People will constantly watch and make sure that you are still on the estate." Shin seemed to come to a realization and groaned, pressing the back of his left hand over his eyes, the chain clinking as the blade followed.
"And the worst part is that father will practically imprison you within the estate once he finds out you had left. He is so going to ground me. I won't be able to leave the house for a month, at the least! I won't be able to play with Masashi."
Ichigo had to prevent himself from outright laughing, resorting himself to quiet chuckles. He leaned further onto Shin, needing his help to stay upright as he shook with laughter. His torso stinging at the repeated movement. He covered his eyes before he could look at Shin's shocked face any longer and send him into another fit of laughter. He stood there for a good minute just laughing.
Getting himself under control, Ichigo sighed and felt lighter than he has ever felt before. Almost as if he could float away. Shin complaining about something so mundane was like a breath of fresh air and so very freeing. That innocence not tainted by war and pain.
"I don't know what you are laughing about. You are going to be stuck on the estate too." Shin pouted at being laughed at. Ichigo leaned down and rested his forehead on the crown of Shin's head, closing his eyes.
"That's okay. We can suffer together. We can talk about as many things as you want as we go through our imprisonments. How does that sound?" Shin shifted and Ichigo lifted his head to look at him. Shin was staring up at him, his eyes crinkled at the corners and a big goofy grin on his face. Obviously overjoyed at the prospect of having time with him.
"That would be great." With that they set off to the manor, Shin mostly supporting Ichigo. They were at the tree line when there was a yip behind them, stopping them from moving forward. Looking back, the whole pack of wolves stood there looking at them from the crest of the hill. The knee-high grass swaying around them. Ichigo went to raise his hand to beckon them to him but stopped.
"Do you mind if they come?" Ichigo asked, looking down at Shin. Said boy shrugged as best as he could while not overbalancing them both and send them crashing to the forest floor.
"I don't mind. They were with you before I was. I say they can go where ever they want." Taking that as permission, the wolves bounded forward and down the hill. The black wolf sidled up to Ichigo's side while the others bound ahead, weaving in and out of the foliage along the path. The pups excitedly tumbling along behind them. Ichigo smirked and turned back to the trail. His bare feet not making a single sound despite all of the fallen leaves and twigs.
"Let's go home."
Ichigo and Shin stepped into the 'proper' gardens around the manor. Not a second later, a guard spotted them and sent the whole household into an uproar. Sora came rushing out of the house with nearly every staff member on his heels, but all of them stopped within five feet of Ichigo. All just silently watching and waiting to help. A look of nervousness on every face.
Of course, with a black wolf at his side and more on his heels, anyone would be nervous to approach. Who he assumed was Sora was looking him over trying to see what was wrong with him. His silver hair mused and deep sky blue eyes scanning him. Eyes filled with concern and wishing to be of some help.
"Ichigo-san." Yeah, this was Sora, no doubt about it.
"Come here Sora. I need your help." Ichigo quietly spoke and beckoned tiredly with his right hand. The gold eyed wolf drew back from his right side and Sora took the wolf's place. His hands coming up to help Shin support Ichigo. He gave a small smile at Sora in thanks. Too tired to talk anymore. Sora dispersed the awaiting staff, telling them to go ahead and prepare everything Ichigo would need. Clean clothes, futon, food, tea, hot water for a bath and so on. The staff scrambled away to do as Sora said, excited and happy to help. They reminded Ichigo of chickens with their heads cut off. Running around frantically over each other.
With Sora's help, they quickly made it to the manor and to Ichigo's room. The black wolf following at his heels. The others remained in the garden, sniffing and settling down to sleep the rest of the day away.
There in the middle of his room was a fresh navy blue futon and a set of clothes were there waiting for him. Looking around Ichigo got to see what his room looked like. To the left of him was the door to the adjoining bath. And along that wall was a chest of drawers and wardrobe. Both of them made with dark oak wood beautifully polished. To his right, the only piece of furniture was a rack for his blade. Also made of that dark oak. The walls were a calming beige with painted bamboo in pale green. Right across from him was the sliding shoji doors that lead into the inner manor garden. One was open, giving him a view of the sunny day and carefully tended flowers beyond the wood walkway. The wolf had moved into the room, looked around then settled itself down on the walkway outside.
Sora speaking drew his attention back to the present.
"I have him, Shin. You can let go now." Ichigo watched as Shin reluctantly withdrew from his left side. Shin was looking at him almost as if asking permission. Unfortunately, he didn't know what. "Shin you can put the blade on the rack. I'm going to help Ichigo with the bath."
Ichigo grimaced and looked at nothing in particular, and just avoided looking at either of the people in the room. He hated that he couldn't do much right now. He could hardly walk or lift his arms. Shin moved out of the corner of his eye towards the blade rack. Sora picked up the beige yukata and pants and the white under layers. He moved Ichigo towards the bath. Ichigo sighed and went along. He was too tired to fight and a warm bath sounded great.
Akihiko looked at his ever-growing pile of paperwork. Outside his office, he could hear excited chatter and the sound of rushing feet. Akihiko raised an eyebrow and stared at the door.
What could get the staff this excited?
Akihiko thought about what day it was, and immediately perked up. It was Shin's birthday. Akihiko wondered if Shin was back from wherever it was that he disappeared to and the staff were preparing for the celebration tonight. It was the only explanation for their excited attitudes. Especially with how they have been acting the last two weeks. All of them have been out of it. Most of them refuse to talk and silently continue working.
Akihiko sighed and ran a hand through his dark hair. He might as well go see how the celebration preparations are coming along. Standing up, Akihiko stretched and made his way out of his office. He scanned for Sora's reiatsu and surprisingly found it in Ichigo's room. Shin was in there as well. His hope and worry rose. Was he going to be able to see Ichigo today? Is that the reason why the staff was so excited because Ichigo has come out of his room? Was he sick? Is he okay? Why was Shin in his room?
All of those unanswered questions spurred him to walk faster until he was running at a dead sprint through the hallways. Staff leaped out of his way, amused smiles on their faces. They clearly knew something that he did not.
Akihiko slid to a stop outside of Ichigo's room, grasped the door handle and slide the door open. He should have knocked, but he was too excited to care. He spotted Sora pull out a navy blue haori decorated with silver star constellations. The door to his left slid open and revealed a clean Shin about to dry his hair with a beige towel. Apparently spotting him, Shin stopped dead in his tracks and dropped his towel with a shocked and horrified look on his face. Sora looked at Shin then turned and spotted him standing there in the doorway. Blinking in mild surprise, Sora turned to Shin, who was still standing there frozen. Not once looking away from Akihiko.
"Shin," Sora called, attempting to get his son's attention. When he didn't respond, he called his name again. This time getting Shin to look away from him and give Sora his attention. "Why don't you go sit outside on the walkway. I'll handle your father." Shin nodded, robotically picked up his towel and moved to Sora. Almost to hide from Akihiko's view.
"Here take this to him," Sora said handing Shin the navy haori. Quickly taking the haori, Shin dashed to the garden doors opening it enough to slip through and then shutting it again, preventing Akihiko from seeing out. Angry at not knowing what was going on and that Ichigo was not in the room, Akihiko turned to Sora for answers. Crossing his arms, he waited for Sora to give him an explanation. Obviously seeing his rising ire, Sora sighed and hid his hands within the folds of his robes, standing with perfect posture and grace.
"Akihiko-sama, what can I do for you?" Akihiko felt his eyebrow twitch. The blatant disrespect and disregard in Sora's voice further angering him. Where was his explanation? Where the hell is Ichigo? And why was Shin taking a bath in Ichigo's room?
"You can tell me what's going on here." He ground out through clenched teeth.
"Ichigo-sama has returned to the manor," Sora stated with a straight face. All the while Akihiko's own mind ground to a halt. His anger completely forgotten. What? When did Ichigo leave? Why didn't he know about this? Did someone go with Ichigo?
"When?" It was the only thing that his mind could supply even with all the questions running through his head.
"Two weeks ago." So Ichigo had been gone the entire time? Why? Why did he leave?
"Why?" Sora shook his head. That was all he needed to know that Sora didn't have an answer to that question. Ichigo had been gone for two weeks. All by himself. With no one there with him. To protect him.
"Where did he go?" Sora shook his head again that he did not know. Looking down, Akihiko tried to think of where Ichigo could have gone. Did he go back to that horrible place that nearly killed him? His worry skyrocketed and panic began to set in. Is he okay? Is he hurt?
"Only Shin knows." Akihiko's head shot up and he blinked at the answer, not expecting that. Shin? Why would Shin know? He then remembered that one of the guards had told him that Shin was leaving before the sun had broken over the horizon and returning to the manor long after the sun had set. Guards attempted to follow him, but Shin had lost them quickly. Shin was going to see Ichigo. That was the only conclusion that Akihiko could come up with. But why didn't Shin tell anyone about Ichigo? His confusion and worry mixing with his previously forgotten anger. Angry at being left in the dark despite being the clan head. Angry that Shin did not trust him.
"Why didn't Shin tell us that Ichigo was gone? Why didn't he tell us where he was?" His voice becoming louder. All the stress, worry, and anger from the last two weeks bubbling over.
"Do not entirely blame your son. Part of it was my doing. I knew that Ichigo had left the manor and to prevent you and all the other staff from panicking, I prevented anyone from entering Ichigo's room. Having everyone believe that Ichigo wished to be alone and remain in his room was for the best. Thank you for not ordering the guard to stand down and enter Ichigo's room. I don't know how Shin found out, but he did. And he found Ichigo. I also don't know why Shin didn't tell us about Ichigo or where he was." Akihiko frowned. He could understand Sora's way of thinking and he knew that the staff would have caused an uproar, drawing attention to the clan. It would also reflect badly on the clan if one of its heirs suddenly ran away. He could not afford to put everyone in danger after what he did with Yamamoto. Akihiko is currently treading on thin ice. One wrong move and it could be over for the clan.
Akihiko sighed and covered his eyes with his hand. He really needed some sake. He was honestly getting too old for this. Maybe he should just retire.
"I understand Sora. Can I see them?" Sora gave him a scrutinizing look, deciding if Akihiko was being honest. Eventually, he nodded and moved to slide open the garden door.
There on the walkway was Ichigo. He was wearing a beige yukata with that navy haori over it. His brilliant orange hair braided and shining brightly in the sunlight. Ichigo was sitting there cross-legged with Shin kneeling in front of him and was drying his son's black hair. There was a small content smile on his face. His honey brown eyes glanced at him before quickly returning to Shin's hunched over figure.
"Good afternoon Akihiko-san." Sighing, he sat down diagonally to both Ichigo and Shin. Sora stood in the background, watching in case anything happened. Scratching the back of his head uncomfortably, he watched Ichigo's scarred but slender calloused fingers nimbly work on combing and drying Shin's hair.
"Where were you Ichigo? Why did you leave?" Akihiko whispered almost unconsciously. He couldn't speak any louder because of how happy Ichigo looked. He didn't want to ruin it and make Ichigo unhappy. It was so rare to see him like this. That content smile turned into a frown. Ichigo's fingers twitched in Shin's hair minutely before continuing their job. He noticed and Shin noticed too because he looked up from his lap to look at Ichigo through his dark bangs. His dark blue eyes filled with fear. Akihiko hated to see his son so afraid.
"I'm sorry Akihiko-san," Ichigo said sadly. Those three words held so much meaning to Akihiko. He understood that Ichigo wouldn't tell him. He was apologizing for not answering, for worrying everyone and anything else he believed he had done. That was the one thing he had figured out about Ichigo. He didn't want to inconvenience anyone by telling them his troubles. Just like Kirinji had said, Ichigo will suffer everything silently no matter what.
Sighing again, Akihiko waved it off. He was willing to let Ichigo have his secrets. He only hoped that in time Ichigo will trust him enough to speak of his troubles.
"It's fine. But what I want to know is if you are going to stay, for good?" Akihiko tried not to sound angry or exasperated. Judging by Ichigo's expression, he didn't do a good job. And Shin was finally looking at him, sort of. He was glancing nervously in between himself and Ichigo.
Ichigo pulled the towel from Shin's head and let it drape around his son's shoulders. His black hair dried but tussled. His hands dropping heavily into his lap, almost as if he had run out of energy to continue holding them up. Shin was watching Ichigo carefully, his eyes following Ichigo's hands, before giving the redhead a strained thankful smile.
"Of course, I promised Shin. That is only if you will have me. I won't stay if I am not wanted." Akihiko almost sagged with relief. He was so happy that Ichigo was actually going to stay this time. Shin seemed to feel the same. A bright smile adorned his face, his blue eyes alight with happiness. All that happiness directed at Ichigo.
"Yes, I want you to stay. You are a part of this familyYourand nothing will change that. I am just glad that you are back." Akihiko stood and stretched. His arms going above his head. "Now we have a party to attend at. It's Shin's birthday today. I imagine he told you already Ichigo." Ichigo nodded in confirmation. Akihiko turned to leave.
"I want to celebrate here with Ichigo. I don't want a big party." Akihiko stopped and turned to face Shin. It was the first thing he had said since Akihiko had arrived. He opened his mouth to speak, but Ichigo beat him to it.
"Shin. Everyone prepared this wonderful party for you, it would be rude not to go." Ichigo scolded the younger boy, almost like a parent or older brother. It made Akihiko's heart swell with the hope that Ichigo would really become apart of his family permanently.
"No! I want to stay here. I want to eat dinner here with you. You just got back, I won't leave you alone." Shin protested. Ichigo gave an understanding yet exasperated smile. A look he had seen on Ran and his wife so many times. How many times did Ichigo have to give that look to someone else before he showed up here half dead? How many people did he lose?
"I know you do, but I'm not going anywhere. Go to your party, I'll be here when you get back. Besides Yoshi will be with me." Akihiko raised an eyebrow.
"Yoshi?" Akihiko questioned. As if summoned by saying the name a black, gold-eyed wolf lazily sauntered up, hopped up onto the walkway with ease and lied down beside Ichigo on his right side, the one closest to the gardens. Akihiko pointed at the wolf and turned to Sora. "Question. Why does Ichigo have a wolf? Especially one that does not act like it."
Sora shrugged but answered anyways.
"All I know is that it came back with Ichigo, along with several others. They're all further in the garden. Yoshi is the only one who has remained at Ichigo's side." Akihiko turned to look back at the odd sight before him. Shin was still trying to protest at going to the party, but Ichigo was having none of it. Ichigo was looking at the wolf and scratching it behind its ears while quietly arguing with Shin.
"Shin please go. I want you to have a good time and make happy memories." Ichigo pleaded with Shin. It was the final straw. Shin slumped and consented to go to the party. If only to make Ichigo happy. Ichigo smiled. "Thank you, Shin."
Shin grumbled but got up and left for the party. Sora turned to Ichigo.
"I'll stop by with dinner after the party."
"Why not get him dinner at the party? You are coming to the celebration, right Ichigo? " Akihiko questioned, confused at Sora's negligence to feed Ichigo. Ichigo shook his head, the orange braid whipping around behind him.
"I'm not. Besides, knowing Shin, he won't eat anything at the party. That way he could come eat dinner with me. Isn't that right Sora?" Sora smiled at the knowing look Ichigo sent him.
"I believe so, Ichigo-sama." Ichigo shifted so he could look at Akihiko from the corner of his eye. His honey brown eyes alight with mischief and amusement. A look that he had never seen before in Ichigo's eyes.
"Don't you have somewhere to be Akihiko-san?" Akihiko rolled his eyes and turned.
"Yes, I do. Fine, you don't need to come to the party, but I will send a healer to look at you. I want to make sure you are completely okay. By the way Ichigo, you are grounded till I say otherwise." A huff behind him was all that he got in reply. It was all he needed though to have a large smile break out on his face. Today was a good day after all.
Ichigo was relaxing on the walkway, a tray of tea on his left and Yoshi leaning against his right thigh. His left leg dangled off the walkway, his toes brushing the dark grass and his right foot tucked underneath him. The warm haori encompassing his shoulders.
Ichigo didn't know why but Shin wanted to name him Yoshi. It was an easy name to remember though so it's not like he was complaining about it. And just like his namesake, he's as silent as a ghost. Running his hand through the wolf's black fur, he revealed in the softness of it and the comfort having a constant physical presence beside him. Ichigo didn't know why but he connected with animals more easily. Maybe it was because they don't have expectations of people and accepted despite their flaws. Whatever it was, Ichigo was not taking Yoshi for granted.
Yoshi gave a happy content sigh and relaxed further under his hand.
Ichigo just relaxed and watched the gardeners work their magic, his pain almost completely forgotten. Only reminding him when he moved to reach for his tea. He watched as the sun dipped lower in the sky and transformed into a sunset. Lighting up the sky in reds, purples, and blues. He enjoyed everything that he laid eyes on. Thanking that his eyesight had been returned to him. He was in a dark place emotionally without them.
The door behind him slammed open and Shin rushed to his side, nearly knocking over the teapot in the process. Ichigo caught him by the elbow before that happened and pulled him down onto the walkway beside him. A large grin adorned the boy's face. Sora followed not long after with a large tray in his hands.
"Did you enjoy your party?" Shin gave a nod, his head bobbing up and down quickly.
"Yeah, I just wish that you were there, but I know that you don't like being around a lot of people. So it's okay, I get to hang out with you now." Shin moved the tea tray and splayed out on his stomach, stretching out on the wooden walkway. He gave a big sigh and almost melted into a puddle. Ichigo motioned for Sora to put the food on his right side and shooed Yoshi onto the grass. Yoshi reluctantly moved but did as asked. Ichigo gave him a piece of chicken as thanks.
Sora joined them on the other side of the food tray. He sat there with perfect posture and his hands hidden within the folds of his robes. A more at ease expression on his face. He probably did not get to relax very often.
"Nice night, isn't it?" Ichigo asked Sora and looked at the man from the corner of his eye. Sora hummed in reply and looked up at the quickly setting sun and stars beginning to appear. Crickets begin their evening song as birds settled in for the night. Fireflies began their dances giving the garden a whole different light.
"It's beautiful," Sora answered. His voice soft and calm.
"Hey, Ichigo." Ichigo turned to look at Shin, giving him his full attention. "Can I bring Kameko in here? I know that she really wants to see you."
"No need." With an angry huff, Ran entered the room with a wriggling, excited Kameko in her arms. The young girl was staring at Ichigo, her arms waving about and begging for Ichigo. Swiftly crossing the room, Ran deposited the babbling girl into Ichigo's arms. Kameko snatched up his braid as fast as she could, waving and tugging on it. A bright toothless grin on her face. She had honey brown hair and jade green eyes.
Ichigo watched her amuse herself for a moment before looking at Ran, taking in her features. Plain brown hair and chocolate brown eyes, slender shoulders and high cheekbones. She had a delicate build, almost noble in appearance. Ichigo was happy for Sora for having such a beautiful fiancee.
Ran moved and sat beside Sora, leaning heavily against him. She let out a tired sigh and nuzzled under Sora's chin.
"Peace at last." Ran mumbled something else, causing Sora to laugh and his arm to wrap around her shoulder tighter. Ichigo raised an eyebrow but did not question what had been said. Instead, he turned to Shin.
"Did you enjoy your party, Shin?" He asked. Shin only hummed in reply, his eyelids drooping closed, tired from all of the excitement today. He moved to rest his head on his arms, further entrapping himself onto the path towards sleep. Ichigo smiled at Shin then turned to indulge Kameko's begging for his attention. Holding her in his left arm, he let her play and nibble with his right hand, covering his fingers in drool.
Curious about the new additions, Yoshi stood from his spot beside Ichigo's barefoot, hidden partially underneath the walkway. He gave a large yawn, showing off stark white fangs and pink tongue, startling Ran. Sora reassured her and calmed her fears that Yoshi would not hurt them. Taking more interest in what Ichigo had in his hands, Yoshi moved and sniffed at Kameko with his cold nose, causing her to giggle and smack his nose away. Yoshi sneezed and shook his head at the sudden hit, gave one last look and promptly retreated to where he was lying before. Away from the wiggling child and safe from flying limbs and potential pain.
Ichigo chuckled at Yoshi's retreat, amused at how he wanted nothing to do with Kameko. Ichigo knew strong people who were absolutely terrified of dealing with children and apparently Yoshi was the same. Ran gave a tired yawn, catching Ichigo's attention. Turning his head slightly to look at her, Ichigo noticed the dark circles underneath her eyes and that she was really pale. Shin did mention that she had very little sleep since he had left two weeks ago. This was probably the first time that she has been able to relax.
"You look tired Ran. Why don't you and Sora go to bed? I'll look after Kameko." Ichigo offered the couple.
"Yeah. I do look tired, don't I? I think…" Ran stopped short, her head shooting up and twisting around. Her brown eyes wide and round in surprise. "Did you just say…?" Ran scrambled to stand, knocking into Sora as she did. Using his shoulder to steady herself and to pull herself upwards. Quickly moving around the dinner tray, she fell to her knees beside him and painfully yanked his face towards her. Her small calloused hands holding his face firmly.
"Ow, Ran!" Ichigo protested and so did his neck. Ran's eyes roamed his face then landed on his eyes, starting with shock and surprise. Her mouth falling open into a small surprised oh. Sora was watching in the background, confused and getting ready to pull Ran off of him.
"Can you see me?" Ran asked in a hesitant whisper, almost afraid of what she would hear. Afraid to get her hopes up on what was said to be improbable. Sora heard her and so did Shin. Both of them immediately turned to look at Ichigo also. Neither having noticed before.
"I can see you Ran, and you look exhausted," Ichigo answered. He watched as Ran struggled to comprehend how is it that he could see. Her brown eyes roaming and searching his face for the answer. An answer he, unfortunately, could not give her, not now, and probably not ever.
"How?" Ran whispered, her hands still clutching the sides of his face and painfully twisting his neck. Ichigo closed his eyes and gave a small shake of his head. He didn't answer, not wanting to lie to her. He hated lying to others, especially those that have done so much for him. Opening his eyes, Ichigo watched as Ran visibly deflated. Her small hands sliding off his face and landing in her lap. Behind Ran, Sora gave a sigh and stood up, coming to stand beside his fiancé. Placing his hand comforting on her shoulders, he leaned down to look her in the eye.
"He doesn't have to tell us how it happened Ran. Let's just be glad that he can see again, okay?" Ran gave a soft bob of her head and a strained smile, clearly unhappy about Ichigo not trusting them enough to give them an answer. Sora gently nudged Ran into standing. "Let's go to bed Ran. Ichigo will look after Kameko for us. Besides you need to rest. It's not healthy for the baby or for you to be so stressed."
Ichigo watched as Ran instinctively placed her hands on her lower abdomen where the child's silver reiatsu sat. A protective instinct all mothers had at one point. Ichigo's heart sat heavily in his chest at the thought and how much it reminded him of his own mother. Of Rukia and Orihime and their struggle to protect their children from the horror of that world. His arm clutched Kameko tighter to his chest, instinctively moving to protect her from his very own memories. His very own history that no one will ever know. Should never know. His history that will never come to pass.
A nudge to his left thigh brought him out of his dark musings. Glancing to his left, Ichigo looked to see Shin sagely watching him with his brilliant blue eyes. Eyes that understood him like no ten year old should. Giving a small amused and grateful smile, Ichigo poked Shin back with his toes from his right foot that rested underneath his left thigh. Shin snorted and rolled his eyes and went back to his dozing.
Turning back to Sora and Ran, Ichigo bid them a good night. The moon began rising in the navy sky, illuminating the garden below and turning Yoshi's dark fur a bright silver, giving him an ethereal glow. Kameko fell asleep quickly, and Shin continued to doze without completely falling asleep. The meal brought to them was light and Ichigo was able to finish it with some prodding at Shin to eat also.
"Ichigo," Shin spoke, his voice muffled because of his arms. Ichigo hummed in recognition. "What about Tadashi? What are you going to say to him?"
He sighed, glanced at the child in his arms before staring out into the garden. He didn't know how to feel about Tadashi. It was too complicated. Ichigo wished it was back to just being him going to school. His twin sisters and father always there when he got home. Before he ever became a Shinigami. He missed that simple life, but now it will never be. He was here in this moment and there was no going back. There is no retreat.
"I'm not sure Shin. I expected that to happen in the meeting, but it stings that I am still not fully trusted. That whatever trust I have gained can be broken so easily by another's words."
Out of the corner of his eye, Ichigo could see and sense Shin staring at him. A deep look of concentration and understanding plainly visible on his features. A stretch of silence filled the air. Not going to ignore how Shin was burning holes into the side of his head, Ichigo turned to look at him. Those piercing blue eyes startling. A weight slid off of his shoulders for a moment. A sense of relief at the company that knew exactly what to do and say to him.
Shifting all of Kameko's weight onto his right arm, Ichigo hesitantly ran his fingers through the midnight colored strands of hair. Shin relaxing immediately under his gentle touch.
"When did you grow up so fast? There is no need for you to force yourself to grow up. Okay?" Ichigo asked mournfully, looking at the boy beside him. Whose eyes drooped with sleepiness and he replied with a small hum. Shin wiggled where he lay, leaning against Ichigo's thigh. His head shifted but did not dislodge Ichigo's fingers, to lie back on his arms folded underneath him.
"I grew up so I could help you. You protected my little sister despite being our guest, was practically forced into being a family member by my father and people are trying to hurt you because of it." Shin gave a discontented sigh and continued, "I know that you have been hurt before you came here. That whatever you went through was so horrible that you mistrust everything around you. I just want to help you at least feel happy here at my home. At our home, Ichigo." Ichigo gave a small wistful smile at Shin when the boy glanced at him. No one has ever spoken to him in that way. To make sure that he was comfortable despite everything else. War threw any semblance of comfort out the window, and Ichigo had not seen it for a long time.
Ichigo remained silent and just continued to run his fingers through Shin's hair for a moment. He just enjoyed the peace given to him. Shin had practically fallen asleep beside him. His breathing evening out, indicating his slip into slumber. Ichigo was awed at how trusting both of Akihiko and his children were to him. Not just them, but the entire Shiba family as well. He would never be able to repay his debt to this wonderful family.
The lazy paths of fireflies danced the wildly tamed Shiba garden. The sharp chill in his lungs reminded him of the time of the year. Winter is coming and Ichigo could tell it was going to be an extremely cold one. Not too far off, the sound of playing wolf pups could be heard. Snarls and yips background noise to the calm of the gardens.
A set of footsteps sounded behind him. His hand moved from Shin's hair and ghosted down to protectively rest against the boy's back. Shin stirred at the movement but did not awaken. Ichigo wished that he had kept his blade with him so he could have a longer reach, but he would fight with his hands if he had to. Ichigo lifted his left leg, freeing his right that was trapped underneath, giving him the necessary space to stand. Turning his head, so he could watch the door behind him, the set of footsteps suddenly doubled. His left hand twitched in apprehension and surprise. His shoulders then sagged as he recognized the second person's reiatsu. It was Akihiko.
There was a knock on his bedroom door. Still watching from his place on the walkway, Ichigo called for them to come in. The door opened and revealed Akihiko and a young man standing nervously behind him. Giving him a dazzling bright smile despite the late hour, Akihiko crossed the room and onto the walkway in a few quick strides. Blue eyes flickered down to Shin, over to Kameko clutched closely to him, and then back to Ichigo's face. Akihiko gave a sympathetic smile but did not say anything.
"Ichigo-san, I am here to make sure that you are unhurt." The young man spoke softly, his eyes looking everywhere but at Ichigo. His nervousness apparent. Ichigo sighed in resignation. Akihiko gave him a hard glance, silently telling that he had to go along with it, no arguments.
Standing without a sound, Ichigo handed Kameko over to her father without waking her. The loss of support from Ichigo caused Shin to shift and wake from his light slumber. His head snapping up, hazy blue eyes wide and searching.
"Ichigo what's going on?" Shin questioned, his eyes landing on his father and the young healer.
"It's alright Shin. I'm sorry that I woke you. Akihiko just brought the healer to check on me." Ichigo assured the boy. Shin sat up an turned to watch. The young healer slowly stepped closer to him, his hands shaking at his sides. "There is no need to be nervous. If Akihiko had chosen you to heal me, then I shall trust you." Ichigo said to the healer. The young man's breath hitched in surprise before his whole body relaxed and his eyes gained a determined glint. Taking Ichigo's hand in his own, the healer began to move the joints, noticing the stiffness and the twitches beneath the skin. The healer gave a contemplative frown, his brow furrowing in concern. His slim fingers deftly moving over the wrist and moving up to Ichigo's elbow. By this time, all the movement brought the pain back to Ichigo's joints and a small pained frown rested on his face.
The young healer stopped his probing and looked at him. His eyes full of understanding and knowledge to heal. The young man softly grasped Ichigo's tender elbow and elicited a minute flinch despite being careful.
"Ichigo-san I suggest that you sit down. You really should not be standing from what I have seen so far." Ichigo resisted the healer's attempt to get him to sit down.
"I'm perfectly fine," Ichigo stated. A disapproving frown marred the young healer's face.
"You are not fine Ichigo-san. Your joints are swollen and stiff. The muscles are overstimulated and overstretched. You are in quite a lot if pain and should be resting." The healer said sharply. His dark brown eyes bearing down on him. Ichigo looked at Akihiko to see what he thought. A worried frown also played on the man's features.
"Sit down Ichigo. Actually, go to sleep. You need your rest." Akihiko commanded. His eyes sharp and commanding. Daring Ichigo to oppose him. Sighing, Ichigo ran a hand through his hair in agitation.
"Alright. You should be going to bed as well." Ichigo acquiesced. He went to take Kameko from Akihiko, but the man just took a step back.
"I'll take care of Kameko. You really need to rest Ichigo." Akihiko insisted. Ichigo stopped his pursuit of Kameko and stood there awkwardly, his arms falling to his sides. The healer lectured Ichigo that it was important for him to stay off of his feet and to rest as much as possible. That he should really let his assistant do most of his duties in caring for him. His frown probably showed his displeasure at having others slave around him as he himself did nothing, but Ichigo said nothing, else the healer will lengthen his rant. With a final goodnight and subtle threat to check on him, the healer slipped away.
Giving a tired sigh, Ichigo turned to Akihiko who had been watching on in amusement. With a small chuckle, Akihiko also bid him a goodnight and retired to bed. Shin still sat in the same spot, just watching everything and taking all the information in. A disheartened look in his eyes.
"Why didn't you tell me that you were in pain?" Shin asked grimly.
"There was no need for you to know. I've had worse. I just didn't want you to worry." Ichigo explained.
"That's not a good enough reason to hide your pain. I would have made you rest earlier. Sora, Ran and my father would have too! You don't have to be strong all the time. You can trust us here at the manor." Shin retorted loudly, his eyes beginning to glisten with tears. Ichigo looked at Shin ruefully. He held out his arms and beckoned Shin to him. Standing, Shin collided into him, wrapping his arms around Ichigo's waist. Leaning down, Ichigo held Shin tightly to comfort the boy. Just like he did to his sisters.
"I'm sorry. I wish I had a better reason for you, but that is the only one I have." Ichigo murmured into Shin's hair. Shin shook his head.
"It's not your fault. It's just who you are." Shin mumbled into Ichigo's robes. His little hands tightening into the fabric. Ichigo smiled appreciatively at Shin. This boy was a wonder. How he managed to say the right things to him was a mystery. Ichigo straightened his spine and led them into the room, leaving the garden door open wide enough for Yoshi to slip in and out at his leisure. Sora had sneakily placed a small futon beside his own. Probably knowing that Shin was going to stick to his side like glue.
"Come on. Let's go to bed, otherwise, you are going to be grumpy tomorrow." Shin hummed in agreement, sidled over to his futon, and crawled inside. His head hit the pillow and he was out like a light. Giving a tired sigh, Ichigo sat on top of the futon. There was no way he was going to be sleeping tonight or any night after. All he would have is nightmares, and if he was being honest with himself, he was also afraid. Afraid to face them and his failure as a protector. It was his job to protect and he failed exponentially. Running a hand through his orange hair, Ichigo attempted to distract himself from that line of thought.
The clatter of nails on wood drew his attention to the garden doors. Yoshi trotted in, his black mane littered with dust and leaves. The wolf sneezed, unintentionally shaking leaves from his fur and causing Ichigo to give a soft chuckle in amusement. Panting, Yoshi plopped himself down beside Ichigo and relaxed with a groan. Rolling his eyes, Ichigo set about removing leaves and swiping dirt from Yoshi, who leaned closer to Ichigo. Soaking up the warmth from his constant companion, Ichigo watched the night as the moon bathed everything in light.
"Thanks for the company." He whispered gratefully into the night air.
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