Carmen
"Darling, darling doesn't have a problem lying to herself cause' her liquor's top shelf. It's alarming truly how charming she could be, fooling everyone saying hon she's having fun. She says you don't wanna be like me, don't wanna see all the things I seen, I'm dying, I'm dying. She says you don't wanna get this way, famous and dumb at an early age. Lying, I'm lying. The boys, the girls they all like Carmen. She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes. She laughs like God, her minds like a diamond. Audiotune lies she's still shining like lightening, white lightening. Carmen, Carmen staying up till morning, only seventeen but she walks the streets so mean. It's alarming truly how disarming you can be, eating soft ice cream, Coney Island queen. She says you don't wanna be like me, looking for fun getting high for free, I'm dying, dying. She says don't wanna get this way, street walking by night and a star by day, It's tiring, tiring. The boys, the girls, they all like Carmen. She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes. She laughs like God, her mind's like a diamond. Audiotune lies, she's still shining. Like lightning, white lightning. Baby's all dressed up with nowhere to go. That's the little story of the girl you know. Relying on the kindness of strangers. Trying cherry knots smiling, doing party favors. Put your red dress on, put your lipstick on. Sing your song, song, now the camera's on, and you're alive again."
A/N: FLASHBACK CHAPTER! (Obviously.) So thank you so much for the positive feedback last chapter, and yes I'm sorry of what happen to um *cough* Cheryl and Trunks *Cough* but of course we'll see what'll happen. Well, A/N has been long enough and I will not be keeping you from this chapter here we go. (Oh boy this is a doozy) oh and a small warning of a quite small lemon. I'm also trying to make this chapter like a letter form, like a memory, also will include some of his personal opinions from the beginning of the story wey hey. More info at the end of the chapter btw!
She will never come for me, they told me. We we're eternal, they told me. It's a shame she's ill, they told me. I'm sorry for your loss, they sobbed on her grace. Yet it was kind for them to do so, none of them knew our history. Everything we went through faded away that day. Even if she'd gotten a chance of returning to me, nothing would be the same.
Carmen Vatolli was that person you'd only meet once in your life. Practically she was lost jewel. It was freshman year when I first saw her. I thought she was the most charming, and enticing girl I've ever met. I'd be up till the shrieks of the alarm clock would echo in my head. That feeling was gone when she left, and returned when Cheryl entered my life. She was the kind of girl who made your head turn when she walked in.
I didn't know much about her, but I knew that she was vulnerable inside. I'm not one to say that, but I would occasionally find her watery eyes. I didn't know why she was like that. But it became repetitive and worried me at times. I don't exactly know why I cared since I never really had spoken to her during that time. I would always see her with some upperclassmen, normally a senior.
I would always hear others saying "Look it's the blow queen." but what would my naïve soul know about that, of course with time I learned. Sometimes it felt heartbreaking seeing her with other people because knowing she didn't even notice me became harder and harder for me to accept. In sophomore year, it became somehow harder to even cast a glance at her since all the juniors from last year now seniors would be arguing to see who'd get closer to her. Which only made it worse for me.
So I decided to take my mind off her. I began to date different girls who were just a one time thing. Yet the more I tried, the more difficult it became. To the point where it became suffocating seeing Carmen with so many men that I didn't even bother entering school. The dances were even worse for me because I actually went to torture myself. But of course I never saw her there so I would just go.
Carmen actually acknowledged my existence in the first few days of my Junior year. She would occasionally bump into me since she'd been placed in the honors classes. She would occasionally sit down next to me. Although it upset me that she was a heavy smoker. I would occasionally find her against a tree puffing out smoke trapped inside her lungs, but it worried me that she started to do it, every single day.
It wasn't until one fateful day when I was at a party and everyone passed out where I was just sitting there probably half asleep and barely sober. That's when she told me how much she'd screwed up in life.
"Trunks...I've screwed up so much," Carmen began taking in a deep breath, "I don't even think your brain is functioning properly to understand anything I'm saying," She stalled, with a soft laugh. "I mean I'm practically a prostitute now, that's not something I'd though of in eighth grade. I don't even know where I'm going anymore, I just walk the streets alone hoping some one will take me in, y'know. I sometimes have to please them to get what I need. It's tiring having to live like this." Carmen placed a hand on mine and simply fell asleep on the table. She believed I didn't hear a thing. But I heard everything. Then, I loved her even more than ever.
Carmen had ultimately granted her trust with me ever since then. I felt as if I really were someone important to her. I guess because I wasn't one that used her for her looks. But the more I saw her the more I wanted to take her there. Which personally, I found very sad. By the end of Junior year I'd become one of her only true friends. I actually lost my virginity to her on the summer after Junior Year in an abandoned shop in the corner of the street.
I wished it would have been more beautiful but it's the truth. It wasn't the best but I was glad she took my purity. After that, it was something constant each time I got better and sometimes she would end up in my arms crying, crying hard. It made me sad because when she cries, It made me depressed and I had to try to keep my sadness away from her.
I remember that one day in the summer I had her in my arms both breathing heavily with the heavy rain surrounding us I locked her under me and began to kiss her sweet spots. She would tell me to keep on and I would because I loved her and all I wanted to make her happy. I would run my fingers through her hair and she would tell me to keep it up. I would, but we couldn't finish because she simply froze and told me, "Trunks I'm sorry."
That's all she said before sitting up and getting dressed leaving the house in the eerie hours of the night. Of course, I went behind her and asked her why she was sorry. Carmen wouldn't answer she would she silently sob and hug me. All I would do is stay there because I didn't know how I was going to help her. I think she believed she was taking advantage of me playing the soft girl role. But I trusted her, I knew what hell she's been put through.
Then our final year of school began. She just came up to me that day and kissed me nothing more nothing less. She didn't even care that there were thousands of students watching. That's when she asked me to make her mine. I swore my life changed that day. I made sure no one mistreated her, no one touched her. I saw new colors of her, she wasn't so broken as before. I was so happy for her too.
Occasionally I couldn't keep myself from her and pull her here and there taking her wherever I could. Although I began to suspect things when she couldn't breathe properly from time to time. We became one yet I never did claim her, she didn't know I was saiyan either. Maybe I shouldn't have kept so many things from her. My memories could still paint out that one night I had with her.
We were sitting under the indigo night sky the full moon was glaring at us with admiration as it glistened over the pale blue lake that sat in front of us. That's when I told her something that I will never forget as long as I live.
"Why don't we just run away together... you know after we finish high school , we go to a college far away from this corrupt town and make our lives somewhere else. We'll completely forget about everything and start new, with no one holding us back."
That day we started to dream about our futures not daring to look back. We even decided what college we were going to. A few weeks after that night Carmen had pulled me out of my house. Her eyes were bloodshot-red and swelled up from the amount of tears she must have spewed. My first initiative was to ask who did this to you? Yet she wasn't injured in any way or form.
"I got my CT scan back..." Carmen had begun slowly with an empty smile. I didn't allow her to finish I just held her in my arms hushing her from wailing. I felt as if I'd broken into a million pieces when she broke the news to me it was as if everything's snatched away from me. I remember sitting by her gurney praying for a miracle to happen and I just couldn't stand it as it brought great depression into my life.
She even had to quit school and at this point I'm being homeschooled because I couldn't bear to see the other students in this state. My eyes would be bloodshot red as I wondered what I would do if she left. Carmen didn't deserve this, no one did. There is something not even the doctors or my parents knew I did. It was on the last day of her on earth. I remember her squeezing my hand with tears cascading down her cheeks. She had already done six sessions of chemo and nothing was working.
Yet she didn't give up.
Though that day she told me, "Trunks I won't lose to this disease, my cause of death will never be cancer." She wheezed out she could barely even breathe anymore. All her full features had slowly withered away as the sickness ate her very soul away. "If you love me, then you'd do this favor." She continued breathlessly. I nodded glaring closer to her. "Pull the plug." Was her last request.
I was in a state of shock. It was a plug that was giving her oxygen since she couldn't even breathe correctly. "I love you, but I can't, it'll kill you." I had warned her. But she insisted on me doing so. I slowly pulled it and kneeled close to her as she squeezed my hand. Honestly, I couldn't stop crying watching her eyes slowly shut. The last thing she told me was:
"She'll come soon, and she'll be the one you seek."
Although I didn't understand what she meant by that I just nodded and slowly I felt her hand weaken under my grasp while tears streaked my cheeks. After Carmen's funeral came along and I swore I couldn't stand being in this state. It was all just coming at me at once, the days I'd see her walk along the halls, and the boys cat-calling, those beautiful eyes and the pair of eyes I couldn't leave.
I couldn't bear to give a speech although I tried and poured everything out about how much I really loved her, a the only people who arrived were a small bunch, so it was much comfortable to talk about these kind of things. Fast forwarding towards my college years, I still thought about her, hell I never quit. Her last words was what kept me going. I met Granity she was a cute little girl at the time. She was very thin and flat-chested originally she was a red-head with blue eyes. I decided to speak with her and didn't even realize how bad I would 'fall' for this girl.
She devoured cash faster than any human I've ever met. It was diamonds, jewelry, cars, cosmetic surgery, and drugs. I felt as if my old self had been let go and I was enjoying it. I swore it felt amazing being like that made me feel on top. Although the sex became tiring. The drugs barely ever made an effect. The luxe was killing the real essence of who I tricked my self into loving every single bit of everything. I tricked myself into thinking that being with every girl possible was an essence that is life itself. Drugs would enlighten me and luxe was everything.
But after I gained control of Capsule Corp everything just became more intense. During those days was when a girl named Cheryl just waltzed into my life. Then I just lost myself. Cheryl herself felt like another Carmen the minute I set my eyes on her. But this time I was careful to not push the incorrect buttons or it may lead to...disastrous measures. Slowly I realized Granity true colors and became sick.
Cheryl just felt like a breath of fresh air for me and a challenge. Which I take on head first. I knew that on my birthday I couldn't even breathe correctly because of that girl and it all became infatuation. I knew that I was going to fall just as hard as before. At all costs I tried to avoid this but unfortunately my brain doesn't control what my heart sets on doing.
I had her right there we were finally at peace and nothing or no one could break us but
Kane and Sage...
I will get those two, with their blood in my hands.
*WARNING SUPER LONG A/N*
I AM SO SORRY FOR THESE LATE UPDATES I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE WITH THIS CHAPTER IT WAS LITERALLY SO DIFFICULT FOR ME TO WRITE GAAH! But AT LAST here is the back story of Trunks and Carmen. Very sad, I needed to stop and take a breather from time to time. WE ARE SO CLOSE TO A 100 REVIEWS OH MY GOSH COME ON LET'S JUST PUSH IT A LITTLE BIT FURTHER *i'm squealing gaah* I have some announcements! I have a poll about the future fanfiction after I finish Kiss The Rain since I'm almost done... so I want you guys to vote for what you want it's up on my profile to vote now so GO GO GO! Also if you don't mind... check out Around We Go it's my new T/OC story, quite different I must say... I'm also going to start putting up some more recs because there are some good stories out now
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