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Bina W.
Ch26
Coming Home
This is a flashback scene she is having as Chakotay is holding her and the chemical abortion box.
Admiral Janeway was in her office, sipping her third cup of coffee when her door buzzed. She almost choked on her drink. Part of her hoped it would be her old friend, but the other part of her was afraid. She pushed the key that would announce her presence to whoever was outside her door.
"Come in."
She was pleasantly surprised to see Harry Kim. As she gestured for him to sit on her couch, she affectionately squeezed his shoulder. He smiled up at her.
"Shall I get you something to drink or eat?"
He smiled again but shook his head... By that time she had drained her third cup a poured her fourth. She sat down next to him. "So what do I owe the pleasure of this visit, Harry?"
She saw the hesitation in his eyes. "How are your folks?"
Harry nodded as he looked at her. "They're fine."
"Libby?"
He answered her with a Cheshire cat grin. "We are engaged and want you to marry us, Admiral."
She put down her cup of coffee and gave him a hug. He returned the gesture.
When they had released her, she said; "Surely you can call me Kathryn? I'm not your commanding officer anymore."
He smiled. "I'll try."
"Have you set a date?"
He shook his head.
Her eyes were sparkling for his happiness. There was an awkward pause that rarely happened. "What is it?"
He smiled, but couldn't quite meet her eyes.
"Harry, you can tell me anything. You know it will stay between us. I take it is not 'fleet related?"
He got up and started to pace, then he looked up at her. "I think you need to get over Commander Chakotay."
She sat down hard on the couch and looked at him.
He forced himself to look straight at her, showing no emotion.
"Did he put you up to this?"
Harry shook his head.
"Is this what you came here for?
"Kathryn, yes, it was, sadly." He folded his hands in his lap.
"He is ready to date."
Her breath caught inside her for a moment. "He is dating? Who is the lucky girl?"
Harry evaded that question. "I think you should go on a date, without him."
"It has been a long time, Harry."
"Kathryn, we all are thankful, grateful and words cannot appreciate how proud we all are of you. But you have been sacrificing for others for way too long. We all love and respect you and want to see you happy." He looked at her intensely. "We want you to be as happy as B'Elanna and Tom are. You deserve to have a child."
She was trying to keep on her Captain's mask and was failing.
"Harry spoke very softly to her. "You are a very nurturing person. You have so much to love to give. It is a shame and should be criminal to not have someone to share that with."
Tears began rolling down her face.
"I did not come here to make you cry." As he watched the tears come from her eyes, his face crumbled.
He heard her whimper "Chakotay."
"It did not work out did it Kathryn?"
"No, no it didn't. He waited seven years, and things are not what we had so hoped they would be between the two of us. I am sorry to burden you, Harry."
He stroked the small of her back. "As you said, the crew is family, and I am here for you." It hurt him so much to hear the heart wracking sobs from her, especially over Chakotay.
"We all wanted things to work out Kathryn, between the two of you. Life has not been fair to you in some respects. Justin died, Mark moved on after he thought you had died and married someone else."
"We had help, but Chakotay and I are the command team from Voyager. We did the impossible. We brought her home. How could things not work out? I can't believe this."
Harry gently put her head on his shoulder and let her cry herself to sleep.