I did originally plan to end this story but in my heart it's not at the end, I have to finish BellaDee's story so on we must continue!

If I have learned anything in this life it is that you can never make any decision without some regret. I sit here with a ring on my finger but a pain in my heart. I have one who loves me but yet I feel uneasy almost dazed with confusion. My future with him is secure he is already talking about wedding dates and plans yet I can't commit...not fully. The doubts that are running circles in my mind will not leave me nor give me a moment's peace. Am I making the right decision? Is it just my nerves getting the best of me or is it the famous cold feet that everyone talks about with wedding? Why can't I shake it? Over the past few days Rob has told anyone and everyone, the paparazzi, his family and mine that we are getting married. While I love his enthusiasm I wanted to hold onto our news for a bit before going public but it's too late. It is blasted across face book, all over the internet and every one of the gossip magazines. The stories range from Rob is back with his True Love to Movie Star's Wedding is Back on with Different Girl. Clare and I have been buying copies of each one and as I read them I wonder if he is reading them too. I mention that to Clare and she stops reading to stare at me, "You wonder if who is reading them? Obviously your fiancée is the one feeding them to the press."

Sighing deeply I finally have to admit to myself that it is him that I wonder about. I think about him all the time wondering what the hell happened between us. I toss the magazine in my hand aside and bring my hands to cover my face as I flop back on the bed. "Sis please don't ask me that."

"Bella, answer me, you are thinking about the other Rob aren't you?"

I uncover my face so I can turn to look at her, "you answer my question first, do you believe in love at first sight?"

"Yes I do but didn't you have that with both of them?"

Sighing in frustration I take a deep breath in trying not to growl at her, "don't answer a question with a question sis. The first one was more lust at first sight."

Clare's face suddenly changes to a look of deep concern as she grabs my left hand pointing at my ring, "Bella, think about this. What are you doing?"

"Clare, I don't know. I do love him but..." I choke and just stop talking closing my eyes.

"But what? You need to figure it out before you make a big mistake."

"I know that, at the time it seemed right. I do love him, he is my first love but now I wonder if I am in love with him anymore. I keep having these crazy intense dreams."

She flops on the bed next to me just as my cell phone goes off. I cringe its Rob's ringtone. Can he hear me talking about him? Can he feel my doubts? I pick up the phone and reject the call sending it to voicemail only to look up to see Clare giving me a strange look. "Bella that little move of yours just spoke volumes. You don't want to talk to your fiancée?"

"No I don't want to talk to him right now; I am in a weird mood. Clare these dreams, they seem so real and so vivid and I can't forget him or them."

"You want to tell me about them?"

I nod and then already feel tears in my eyes. I wipe them away and wrap my arms around myself. "Whenever I close my eyes I see his face, I hear him calling my name like he is trying to reach me but he can't. I don't know why he can't. Clare they vary but I see him like he is hurt or there is something he didn't want me to know that was the reason he didn't contact me again." I sigh and stare at her, "I am probably not making any sense but in my dreams it's like there was a reason beyond his control why he did not contact me or come here like we had planned."

"Bella it's been a while since spring break and I thought you two broke up right after spring break?"

I nod to her and then whisper, "but it didn't feel over, have you ever had that? He told me that he couldn't do this and he was sorry then nothing."

"You mean to tell me that he never contacted you again?"

"That is exactly what I mean, I tried to reach him but the number doesn't work and the emails don't either. I don't know any other way to reach him."

Clare sits up straighter suddenly, "wait this freak out started the other day when Mom wanted you to nail down a time to get a wedding dress didn't it? Is that when the dreams started too?"

I shake my head no and then pull nervously at my hair. "The serious doubts started then, I just think of getting married and I can't breathe but the dreams started right after we got home but they are growing more and more intense lately. I can't sleep now for fear what I will see. I feel like I am losing my mind what if I am making the wrong choice?"

"Okay Bella calm down. I think this is what we need to do; you need to talk to Rob and slow down wedding plans while I track down your other Rob for you. Mr. CallMe Maybe is a stunt guy for Rob; he is stalked like a celebrity too. There has to be a way to contact him then you two can clear the air between you once and for all."

"You don't think I have tried that? My emails get returned unable to be delivered and my texts won't go through. That is the only way I know to reach him."

"Bella you focus on you and slowing down planning. Let me see what I can find out, you might have overlooked something. Just let me help you okay?"

I nod through tears and reach to grab my laptop to give her the email and number I have when my cell goes off again. It's Rob again but this time I take the call. I talk to him quietly while my laptop loads, he wants me to come over and spend the night. I sigh deeply wishing that I had some excuse but I don't. How do you tell your fiancée that you don't want to spend the night with him because you are trying to track down the other guy in your heart? I tell him that I will be right over and hang up the phone. I quickly give Clare his email and phone number before I grab some clothes and head off to Rob's place.

Walking out of the house I put my head down and move fast, ever since Rob announced our engagement I have my own "fan club". They stalk my house and call my name trying to get me to look their way. I hate this so much, gone are the days when I feel like a normal person. I don't like having a camera flash in my face every damn time I walk outside. Today my nerves are getting the best of me so I flip them off as I drive away. On my way to Rob's I am suddenly feeling like I can't breathe. My chest hurts for no reason and I am by a park so I pull over and get out of my truck just walking. I end up in the woods behind the park where I just sink to the ground, I still feel weird but now it's just an uneasy feeling that I can't explain. I pull out my cell phone and bring up my email, I don't know why but I have to do this and do it right now. I pull up the email address that I have for my other Rob, the one haunting my dreams and pulling at my heart. I sigh and start to type, Rob, you may never get this message but I have to get some things off my chest. I know that our time together was short and maybe it did not mean as much to you as it did to me but I can't seem to forget you. I think about you all the time and I just know in my heart that I still love you; a part of me will always love you. I remember like it was yesterday the first time I saw you, when we bumped into each other's world. When you said you couldn't do this, I was upset but then when I tried to message you back to talk and it wouldn't let me through I went little nuts. I have been that way since, that made me feel lost and I am not proud of myself. I ran back to what was safe and he asked me to marry him. I have to stop and put the phone down as the tears blur my vision. I breathe in deep and wipe my eyes then pick up the phone to finish it. I need to talk to you; I keep having all these dreams and thoughts about you. It's like something is wrong, I can feel it and I can't help you. I can't marry him until we talk; I need to know that you are alright so if you do get this please respond. Love, Bella I hit send and wipe the tears away. My phone buzzes making me jump but it's just a text from Rob checking on me. I text him back and jump up to go back to my truck. I drive to his place and park in back.

The night passes slowly as we have dinner and watch a movie; I am half asleep when my phone goes off. I pick it up rubbing my eyes and see that Rob is passed out lying behind me on the couch. As I lean over to grab my cell I bump it on the table making the screen turn on. I see it's my email that went off and I stare at it…..OH MY GOD! Trying to read it I fall off the couch and land with a hard thud waking up Rob. He stares at me with sleepy confused eyes while I just lie there staring at my phone.