Chapter 25 Max's POV
Dear Max-
When you held Jay in your arms this morning you were the happiest I'd ever seen you. I'll try to remember you like that forever. You're probably pretty pissed at me for disappearing like this and taking Jay with me. But I have my reasons Max and there big reasons. Bigger than us.
Yesterday night made me realize that its not just Jay who puts us in danger. Its me too. Of course if it was only Jay I would stay and you and me would protect him. But knowing Its me and Jay made me wonder what would happen if we weren't there. You wouldn't feel the need to protect me. You would be safer. The Flock would be safer.I know you may not understand what I'm doing now but you will one day. That day is just not today. I need to keep you all safe and the only way for me to do that is for me and Jay to stay far away from you.
I hope you will try to live a normal life with us gone. Max please don't be mad at me for taking Jay with me. I'm going to try and give him a normal life. I don't want you to doubt that I can take care of him. We'll be fine. I needed to get him away from all of this. I don't want to bring a child into the world we grew up in. Its to late to change this so I had to find a way to fix it. Please Max know that I am doing this because I love you and the flock and Jay. Max I love you so much but I need you to forget about me. And I know this is selfish but I need you to forget about Jay.
Don't look for me because if you find me you'll ask me to come back and I would because I can't say no to you. But you already have 4 bird kids to take care of and you also need to be their leader. You can't forget about them because of Jay, they will always be your kids and you know it. You already were a father before Jay. I can't ask you to juggle our relationship and our baby along with your relationship with the flock and your duty to them as a leader.
You probably didn't noticed how jealous Angel was this morning. He was your baby your buddy and in the course of 4 months he was replaced. I noticed. That not all I noticed. You were willing to go against the flocks wishes and needs just to keep Jay safe. You can't put him over everyone your the leader and you need to be responsible and do whats best for the flock. Until the flock is safe and me and Jay are safe I can't come back.
I hope that the day we are all safe from the school is the day we find each other again but until then this is goodbye. God dammit I'm so so so sorry Max you have no idea how heart broken I feel taking our son away from you and writing this letter. I wish I could tell you this in person but I doubt I could even start it without breaking down or having you beg me not to go. And then I would stay because like I said I can't say no to you.
I want you not to worry I'll take good care of Jay because God dammit Max I love him so much. I know I'm not the perfect mother but I've learned a lot about parenting just by watching you. Ha ha I'm gonna miss being able to just smack you awake when he cries at night. I'm gonna miss playing rock paper scissors with you for who has to change his diaper. Most of all though I'm gonna miss seeing the look you give him. The smile you give him when he cries or laughs or when he spits ups or when you're giving him a bath and he splashes you. I love that smile and if Jay could talk I think he'd say it too.
I wish you could watch him grow up but I don't want you to watch him grow up in our fucked up world. I want him to have a father but I need to give up that luxury to keep everyone safe. Hopefully this will end soon and we can be a family again. I'm sorry that can't be now. I love you Max and Jay loves you too. I'll be sure to tell him how awesome his daddy is and how much you love him. I'll love you forever and I'll wait for this world to be at peace to have you again as my lover and the father of my son. I love you Maximus Ride, Goodbye...for now. I can only hope you'll wait for me too.
- Faith
I will Faith.
I will.
Sorry I read the fault in our stars if anyone got that ending. Sorry not a long chapter but I couldn't think of a lot of stuff to put in the letter! Should I end here? JK I wont but next chapter will most likely be the last but there might be 2 more. Review! because I have such a good idea for the next chapter so unless you want a sad ending then review so that I make the next chapter.
oh and who else saw that thief start a gender bender story go yell at them and call them a thief