Anything written between the page break lines and stars has been written by the brilliant bduefbfsy who helped me because I'm terrible at writing smut. Enjoy.

Chapter 25

SPOV

I spent the rest of the night fantasising about the night Ash and I are bound to have before we move to LA. Her abs, her arms, legs, abs and, wait I thought about her abs already. God I should build a shrine or something to her abs I could spend all day looking at them.

"Hey Spency."

I would run my hands over every inch of her body, followed by my tongue finally meeting her lips with mine as I...

"SPENCER!"

I looked up to find Jess glaring at me with a... Grin? Scary looking sometimes that girl.

"Jessica?" I asked innocently.

"You've been standing there not replacing that bottle for god knows how long! Care to tell me what had you sooo spaced?" She smirked in that irritating 'I just got laid' way.

I scrunched one side of my nose and squinted my eyes so I could sneer at her light-heartedly.

"You want me to guess instead? Fine." She said putting her finger to her chin as if in deep thought.

I tried to keep my face straight as I changed the bottle out for the new one and calmly walked through the back door to throw the old one in the recycling. Jess followed me so I threw her a tired but amused look over my shoulder. She just winked at me and stroked her imaginary beard with her forefinger and thumb, the wicked glint in her eye that had my nerves on edge.

I spun around to go back the bar but stopped short as a found Jess all up in my face.

I scrambled for a way out but she had me cornered. Damn.

"You know what I think Spence?" Jess said looking serious.

I shook my head slowly, the corner of mouth quirking upwards giving my amusement away.

"I think you should..." She paused for dramatic effect.

"What Jess?" I asked curious to hear her assessment.

"Get the fuck laid!" She told me before breaking into laughter at the dumbfounded look I'm sure is on my face.

"What? How? Why?" I stumbled out.

"You're wound tighter than a three day clock and you practically reek of frustration Spence." She said sweetly.

"Says the person who just got some." Not my best comeback.

"Exactly my little undersexed chicken," I'm sure Nat fucked up her brain. "I know when someone needs to get some and you and I are those people, at least one of is anyway." She finished.

"Speaking of getting some, you and Nat eh?" I wiggled my eyebrows at her trying to distract her.

"Mature Spence, that's private." Mission accomplished.

"Never was before?" I pushed.

"I know but this is... Different somehow." She said slowly.

"Aaaaaw Jessie's in lurve." I teased expecting a response; I was surprised when Jess remained silent.

"Jess, you alright?" I asked when her face went pale.

"Um, I, Oh god oh god oh god." She put her head in her hands worrying me.

"Jess hey what's wrong?" I pulled her hands away from her eyes so I could look at her.

"Spence?" Jess looked into my eyes and I saw fear and happiness swirling around, fighting for position.

"Yeah."

"I think I'm in love." I laughed out loud with relief pulling her into a hug.

"Oh Jessie, you scared me for a sec there." I mumbled into her hair.

I realised that she was squeezing me far too hard for a normal hug, then I heard her sniffle and she began to shake.

Wracking my brain for the reason she would be so upset about something so magical I started when I thought about Jess's love history.

I pulled her away from my body despite her efforts to cling on and forced her to meet my eyes with hers.

"Jess don't just listen to me when I say this okay, you need to hear me." My voice cracked as I watched the fear win out through the tears.

"You cannot give up on love because it might..." I couldn't continue and a tear ran down my face unchecked.

"But, what if... What if something happens again? I'm a curse Spence." Her broken voice shocked me out of my melancholy.

"Jess do you love me? As a friend?" I asked and she nodded straight away.

"Nothing bad has ever happened to me and its still love, you are not a curse Jess. You are a blessing to me, Nat and everyone else that is lucky enough to receive your love. Shit happens and I am so unbelievably sorry that those things happened to you Jess. But you can't live your life away from the woman you love just because of the past you'll hurt yourself and her." I ran out of steam feeling completely drained.

My best friends eyes slowly closed and she took several deep breaths before meeting my gaze once more. When she did I could see the strength I knew she possessed shining through.

"I love her." She told me with a stiff smile.

"Nat?" I asked and she chuckled darkly.

"No Ashley obviously." My bestie is back.

"Oh Jess what are you going to tell Nat?" I carried it on watching as she visibly perked up.

"That I love her." Her whole face lit up at the thought and I'm sure mine did too.

"That's great Jess, just make sure you're near a bed or something." I said jokingly.

"Speaking of beds." She said smiling at me, I brought this on myself this time.

"You and Ash should find one already." She said slyly.

"Jess we're..."

"Or a sofa."

"Jess..."

"Or a wall."

"Seriously."

"Hell the bar would do for you guys right now I think." She said thoughtfully.

"Are you done?" I asked impatiently.

"I think so."

"Good, as I was saying. I'm planning to jump her bones at the next available opportunity." I said bluntly.

Jess looked at me blanking before laughing so hard she had to clutch her side to support herself.

"How is this funny?" I asked my face warming up.

"It. I. You." She tried to talk but had no breath whatsoever.

"Jeeess this would be our first time in years I what if I'm not good enough she's a friggin' rockstar." I said agitated.

"Okay Spencer it's not the thought that was funny, just how you said it she has the same look on her face when she's eyeing you every second she can." Jess explained and I let out a breath.

"Still." I started looking around frantically.

Jess put her hands on my shoulders and shook me gently.

"Spencer she loves you and she wants to fuck you, so chill." Jess tried to calm me down.

"What if we rush it too much and regret it?" I voiced my worries to my understanding friend.

"Look Nat and I just fucked up against a wall for our first time and it was still perfect even if it wasn't gentle or all mushy. You and Ash should just do whatever your lust tells you to then later on you can probably control yourselves a little better and make lurve." She tried to come off as dreamy but I don't think she pulled it off.

"So you're saying I should jump her get all the frustration out then we can go slow later?" I checked.

"Exactly." She said with a flourish.

"There is a lot of frustration." I agreed.

"I know it oozes off the both of you, Kyla agrees." I nodded then did a double take as I registered her words.

"You and Kyla?" I questioned.

"Talk? Yep all the time about you two love doves." She said.

"I think its love birds Jess." I laughed.

"Doves are birds." She looked confused.

"But the saying is birds."

"Yeah so I substituted a bird in there, god Spence creative license." She said exasperated.

"That's so obvious I see it now so I can say things like 'I have a femur to pick with you' or 'my knight in shitty armour.'" I raised my eyebrows sarcastically.

"You think you're so funny." She hit back.

"Because I am." I said smugly.

"Sure sure so you can take your hilarious ass and lock up tonight so I can go put phase two of our plan into action." She said.

"Our what?" I asked confused.

"You know fuck her brains out then make love to her, that plan." She said as though it was obvious.

"Right," I clicked my fingers. "That plan, good luck." I hugged her again.

"You too Spence, I love you, you know, not as deep or as much as I love Ash but it's there." She shook with laughter.

"You make me feel so special, I love you too." I shook my head over her shoulder and reluctantly let go.

Jess began to walk away then turned slightly and caught my eye quickly.

"Clean my bar after Spence." She said cryptically.

"Yeah I always do boss no worries." I replied.

I watched my best friend leave through the building and shook myself before going back to my post; this is going to be a long night still.

APOV

I had to head over to the studio to finalise some paperwork for recording my album in LA later than planned giving me time to spend with Spencer after our move.

Walking into the reception the usual buzz of excitement hit me as I fed off the atmosphere in this place. It's only a small studio building but they work 24 hours a day seven days a week and they only make original music, my previous label hated me recording here because they would never go techno or put any old shit into my albums, I loved them for that.

"Hey Jonny." I said to the young guy manning the desk.

"Ash lovely to see you again, Kyla's running late so you can wait in the conference room." He told me quickly while picking up the phone to answer yet another call.

I sent him a smile as I made my way through the building into the conference room. It's not huge but the setting is warm and non-threatening like some negotiation tables.

Usually I'm say between my lawyer and Kyla at a clinical glass table squinting to see the people way over the other side. I've learnt to wear long sleeves because trying to peel cold and bare skin off the surface is a serious problem.

This table is made of wood and the chairs can spin and all sorts of fun stuff, yes I'm a child.

I sat down in highest chair and pulled the lever to send me hissing towards the ground. I laughed to myself thinking about how Spence and I used to have races to see who could reach the bottom first. Recently every time I think about Spencer the butterflies are accompanied by shocks all over my body at the thought of any part of hers.

Her legs, her ass, her face, her shoulders, her hair and now I'm uncomfortably turned on again. I have so many things I want to do to her but I can't help but think I might let the desire overtake everything and she'll regret it if I'm so rushed.

She used to like it rough (dirty talk especially) just as much as when we took it slow but I'm not sure what the protocol is for lovers who've been apart for so long. I'll have to ask Ky, she is the person most likely to not laugh at me for my nerves.

I thought back to mine and Spencer's first time, it was slow and tender, she was so nervous and I was not much help despite my extra experience. We helped each other but this time is different, we both have experience but now she has way more and I'm supposed to be a rockstar.

I crossed my arms and used them as a pillow on the table helplessly picturing every sexual encounter I want to happen with Spencer. I am so screwed.

"Ash?" I groaned from my place buried in my own arms at Kyla.

"Are you sick?" She sounded worried as she sat next to me and I felt her rub my back soothingly.

"No." I whined pathetically.

"What's wrong then?" She asked trying to coax me out of my bundle.

I lifted myself into a sitting position and examined my hands on the table.

"I want to have sex." I said.

"With Spencer?" She asked and I just laughed.

"Of course, but I don't know how to go about it." I admitted.

"Um Ash, you've done it before?" She tried but I just sighed.

"I know but every time I think about making love to her, it turns into a rough fantasy type thing in my mind and I'm not so sure if I can hold back enough. It's been so long." I hung my head.

"Oh Ash it's been too long your probably just horny." She explained patiently.

"Ya think." I turned to look at her and I could see her holding back her laughter.

"Ash," She giggled. "You are in love it doesn't matter how it happens, she'll love it either way I'm sure, and in fact she's probably in the same boat."

"You have a point." I said thoughtfully. Spencer was nearly always the one to initiate our encounters in public places and such, so she's probably worse.

"Just let it happen, I can feel the sexual tension from here." She said.

I laughed and shook my head at her feeling much more comfortable now that I realised Spencer may even be worse than me right now, I saw her pitch black eyes earlier she is hot for me.

The meeting went by in blur to me and I signed where Kyla told me to. Lost in my cloud of lust I vaguely heard Kyla say goodbye to the exec as I imagined taking Spencer up against the wall of this room.

"Ash!" Kyla broke me out of my cloud with a smirk.

"Hmmm?" Was my intelligent reply as Spencer's legs wrapped around me in my mind.

She opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by her phone.

I huffed as she answered it. I briefly wondered who was calling so late before Spencer thoughts took over again; I shivered in anticipation of the real thing.

"Hi how are you?"

"Yeah I'm good, what's up?"

"Oh really?" My head snapped up, this sounded interesting.

"She's the same; pupils are like saucers I tell you." I sneered at her when she winked at me.

"I'll let her know, yeah. You too Jess. Bye." Kyla finished up as I leapt out of my seat desperate to know what that was about.

"Well?" I begged.

"Jess tells me that Spencer is how do I put this?.. Going crazy with thoughts of you and her in compromising positions." She said.

"Really?" I said excited at the prospect of confirmation of her feelings.

"Really really so hop in taxi and go get your girl, it's almost 2am and Jess said she's left her alone to lock up." I heard Kyla's laughter as it followed my sprinting form out of the building.

Even if we're not ready and nothing happens, I want to see my girl.

SPOV

Left losing up the bar for Jess again I suppose I do live here anyway. I stood at the bar wiping off the counter. It was always so tranquil seeing a place like this so quiet. So still. Only hours ago it was buzzing with patrons, the music was drowning people in a sea of emotion, and you could smell the sex in the air.

The bar was just as beautiful still. I ducked behind the bar placing glasses back on their shelves. The bell over the door jingled, but of course silly me after ushering the last of the drunken patrons out. I left the door unlocked.

"Sorry we're closed!"

"Aw gee can't you make an exception for a celebrity?"

I knew that voice. I knew the smirked attached to that voice. Standing up so quickly I got a head rush I most certainly met the infamous smirk of Ashley Davies.

"Well hello beautiful. I was hoping I'd find you here."

"Ash." I felt the wave of school girl blushing coming on. I've never experienced anything else like this with anyone else.

She just smiles. I seem to have run out of words. She does that to me. I find myself too busy studying her beauty and what I want to do with it that I'm scrambling for words.

"Spence?"

I stopped fantasizing.

"Sorry…"

She just smiles that little half smile, damn, I've got to get a hold of myself.
"Want to help me close up?"

She smiles again and I melt.

"Of course, Spence." I'm pretty sure my stomach just did a summersault. No one said my name as sweetly as Ashley does.

APOV

She's wiping down the bar and I'm mopping off the floors. I can't look away. I haven't moved my mop one bit. I've just been watching her. The way her hair falls across her shoulders, the way her head cocked to the side on occasion when noticing something new etched into the bar. She stands up and I realize I've just watched her clean the whole bar and I have cleaned maybe a foot of space. Oh crap. God, I quietly move a few meters away from where I've been glued. And begin to furiously mop the floors of the bar.

SPOV

I look and up and find Ashley mopping the floor. She thinks I don't know, but she hasn't been working for the past half hour. I could feel Ashley's eyes on me from miles away. The way she stares so intently, it burns through me. Ashley's afraid to look up at me, like if she looks up I'll know what she spent the last half an hour doing. I walk around her and she continues to mop. Jumping up on the empty stage it echoes as I land on my butt. My legs dangling over the edge.

"Hey." I call out softly to her.

She turns and smiles. An Ashley smile, not the Ashley Davies smirk she puts on as a show of how confident she is. I pat the empty spot next to me, again the hollow wooden stage echoes. She smiles props the mop against a table and shuffles over.

Her hands go in her pockets, both of them shoved in there like she's a 15 year old boy. If anyone studied her long enough they would know that's a telltale sign of Ashley Davies being nervous. I find it amazing how I can still read her like a book after all these years. She hops up next to me, taking her hands out and placing those delicate musical fingers on the cold stage. She turns to look at me and her brown eyes are burning into me. A strange feeling takes over me. I haven't felt it in years. A tingle, a spark just from a look. I gaze directly in her brown eyes and the desire I feel overpowers me. Before I know it the words push past my lips in a silent breath. A whisper. I barely feel the heat of the words on my lips.

"Kiss me."

APOV
Never were there any words sweeter in the history of humankind then hearing Spencer say that. I lean forwards and Spencer's eyes are already shut and waiting. Delicately I place my hand on her leg. Suddenly she's like the most delicate flower of all. The slightest sudden movement could jostle her and cause a petal to fall. Her breathing changes slightly in response to my hand resting on her thigh.

I scoot closer and find my hand now carefully cupping her face. Pulling her chin forwards slightly I bring our lips together. We hold the light feathery kiss and my eyes flutter shut. We kiss for a while, just close mouth kisses. Sweet. Innocent. Meaningful. She breaks away first.

"Ash. I miss-I miss your…the way you…" she's struggling for the words.

SPOV

Ashley's hand on my leg made me want nothing more than to feel her touch me again. How do I put it delicately? I wanted her to feel me, to show me, to love me. What could I say though? Thankfully I didn't need to say a word. With broken fragments Ashley seemed to know. She pulled my face closer each kiss more intense than the last. I felt her tongue caress my lip softly. Once I grant her entrance she softly cups my head and lowers me down on the stage. One hand is gently moving down my neck towards my shoulder. The other one has begun to softly move up and down my thigh.

It's electric and I want nothing more than to feel her body on top of mine. And she does just that. She pushes back lightly and I comply lowering myself. I feel her arm move to cradle my neck as she lowers me softly, our lips never parting. Her other arm is now squeezing my leg and its sending shivers down my spine, and waves of arousal to my core.

Gently she manages to slip between my legs and she pauses and looks at me. She not so sure of herself anymore. I see the question in her eyes. Was I sure I wanted to do this. To be honest I didn't know the answer myself. My heart and brain didn't seem to belong to the same body. So I listened to my desire. My hands reached up and cupped her cheek softly. Her skin felt so soft under my palms. She followed my hands as I guided her back towards me and our lips met again. She relaxed into the kiss and my confidence pours into her like warm liquid.

APOV

She pulled me into a kiss and it ignites a spark in me. There's no question that she may not want me. She wants me and I want her. I cradle her back in my palms and deepen the kiss. My other hand is resting on her thigh and I can't help but drag my nails along her leg. I feel her shudder, and her hand has moved to the back of my head and I feel her grip tighten slightly.

I feel for the hem of her shirt and she arches her back. I pull up her shirt and it falls to the floor. I trace my fingers lightly along her stomach and she inhales sharply. She pulls me down again and our lips meet. She traces her fingers on my back and I shiver. She pulls at my shirt and it drops on the stage next to hers. I feel her warm skin upon my torso as I lay her down again. I trace my fingers just under her bra. I can feel the desire radiating off her body. And as I lean down again to capture her lips I feel wrap her arms around me and roll us over.

SPOV

Screw this. 6 years, 6 years of not having her. I am too impatient for this. I flip us over and she looks at me shocked but I also see the desire in her eyes growing. I lean in and breathe deeply, moaning lightly in her ear. Her fingers tighten at my thighs. Her hand is tracing down my spine and with a flick of her fingers my bra slips down my arms.

She notices my urgency and complies. We're shedding clothes fast. Our hands become frantic, our kisses messy. I feel her hands unzip my jeans and immediately mine go to hers. We're suddenly naked and her bare body is all over mine. I feel the fire burning and I want nothing but for her to touch me. She can tell by the way my hips move trying to make any contact possible. Finally neither of us can wait. We're done teasing. It was as if our minds worked as one and we both made the decision.

APOV

I see her eyes turn that beautiful dark sea water blue. She pushes me down and before I know it our clothes are piled recklessly to the side and she's on top of me naked. She bends down and captures my lips. I feel myself hold onto her and intensify the kiss. I roll us over and my hand shoots to her breast. They always fit so perfectly into my hands. I feel her moan into my mouth.

Moving down I bring my lips to her nipples and brush lightly at them before slowly tracing my tongue over one. She shivers. My other hand busies itself on her other nipple, I trace it, flick it, swirl it. My tongue gives the other nipple the same treatment and she grabs onto my back. I rock myself gently against her pushing against her wetness and she moans deeply. She whispers a soft plea.

SPOV

"Please"

I can't help but whisper frantically in her ear. I hadn't felt this flame in years, and she was taking it much too slowly. She complies and I feel her hand delicately tracing down my leg and she dips into my need. I'm so wet I barely even feel her fingers but I most definitely feel them when they make contact with my clit.

I hold onto her and rock but she won't give me relief. I'm just about ready to reach down and do it myself when I feel her fingers circling my clit ever so lightly. I'm pretty sure this is what it feels like to fall into heaven. To teeter on the edge and see both worlds. The teasing glimpse of heaven but the reality of falling back to earth too close for comfort.

Ashley continued her circles, by now I've just melted into a puddle of incoherence. And I'm really hoping that whatever my mouth is trying to say is telling Ashley to do whatever's right. Whatever would make me feel the best. Ash always knew. I see her smirk at the state of me. But I can't think clearly enough to think of anything in my defence.

Finally now I can barely take it, she begins to put pressure on my clit and I think I may have exploded. I'm gasping for air it feels so good. I grab her body and pull her impossibly closer to me. My fingernails telling her I need her. She's quickened her pace and I feel myself nearing my orgasm. I slam my eyes shut and feel myself whisper frantically to her, "Fuck Ash, I'm so close."

And she stops.

APOV

I can't help but smile a little when I see the adorable disappointment etched in her face; her mouth open in a silent scream her nails drawing blood in my shoulders. Not that she was going to be left for long. I can't help but smirk as my slide my body down. I'm pretty sure she knows exactly what I'm doing because she spreads herself open for me and I loop my arms around her legs pulling her close to me. God, I've missed this.

SPOV

I feel her tongue on me and I lace my fingers firmly into her hair. I think I'm being really fucking loud, but I can't seem to care right now. She's hitting the perfect spot and I feel my orgasm building more intense than before. I'm pretty sure I'm leaving angry red marks on her back. She starts moving faster and I'm shaking now. She reaches up and begins to play with my nipples and I am pushed even closer to the edge. I feel it starting and grab for the stage my fingernails scraping uselessly on it for my dear life.

APOV

She's getting louder and I can feel her trembling beneath me. I speed up and put more pressure on her. She shakes violently and I know she's about to come. She starts moaning loudly and I feel her body tense up. I don't stop and she keeps screaming until I feel her body relax. She jolts and pulls me away from her and breathlessly whispers that she's too sensitive.

I can feel how wet I've gotten. Nothing gets me wet the way Spencer's moans do. I lay down next to her watching as she pants heavily. And before I know it she's on top of me. I can feel her shaking on top of me, and she's still breathing heavily.

"Spence don't you need to recover?"

"No, I need to fuck you." That got my attention.

Her voice is low and I feel my wetness intensify. She kisses me hungrily and I feel her hand slip down to my need. I shudder when she runs a finger through my lips.

"Ash baby you're so wet." She smiling at me. A sexy smile that only makes me wetter.

SPOV

My finger practically glides she's so wet. I bring the digit to my lips and taste her. She moans when I close my mouth over my finger. Fuck she tastes so damn good. 6 years I haven't tasted heaven like this. My hand goes back down to her hot centre and I tease her clit. She moans into my ear and it sends shivers down my back.

"Baby what do you want me to do?" I look into her eyes, the lust in them is overbearing.

"Eat me out baby. I want to feel your tongue on me. Make me cum." Her eyes burn holes into me with every word. I'm temporarily paralyzed by the hotness of this and when I finally feel my mind start working I realize I'm still staring into her darkening eyes. What the hell am I still doing up here?

I slide my body down hers. Making stops to tease her. One hand over her breast while I kneaded it. I hear her moan lightly. I bring my mouth to her nipple and snake my tongue out to flick it ever so slightly and she holds my head against her chest. I bring it into my mouth and swirl my tongue around it as I pull a drawn out moan from her lips. I pull away hands tracing down her stomach leaving butterfly kisses on my way down. I finally reach my destination.

I can feel the eagerness radiating off of her. I am so beyond teasing. Dipping down I delicately collect her juices. She shivers when my tongue comes close to her clit but I pull back before I come into contact. We can't have that can we? I pull back and taste her, breathe lightly across her need and she twitches ever so slightly. Having had enough I dive in greedily taking her clit in my mouth swirling my tongue around in. She jolts violently and gasps and I feel her hands grip my hair.

APOV

I tug harshly on her hair, and I think I hear her gasp in pain. I can't help it though; she is now sucking on my clit. I manage to loosen my hands from her hair to avoid hurting her again. She's still sucking on my clit and it has been so long since I've felt this aroused I can already feel my orgasm building.

She continues to suck on my clit and flick it with her tongue randomly. I'm so close, I can hear the blood rushing in my ears already. Then I feel two fingers enter me and curl up. Stars explode behind my eyelids as I slam my eyes shut. I think I'm screaming.

SPOV

"FUUCCCCK!" She screams as she cums all over my hand, I keep sucking as I draw out her orgasm. She's frozen. She's so beautiful. I finally feel her body sag down as she breathes heavily. I slowly lick up her cum careful to not hit her sensitive areas.

When I'm done she's finally regulated her breathing. I crawl back up to her, only now realizing that we're still on the stage and I pray Jess doesn't come waltzing in anytime soon. She's done it before. Leaving her phone, leaving her keys. I've dealt with my fair nights of Jess walking into my bar and waking me up from my slumber upstairs. Upstairs brilliant, with that realization I grabbed Ashley's hand.

APOV

She's dragging me across the bar. I'm still getting aftershocks and am half naked.

"Spence where are we going?" I asked breathlessly.

"Somewhere more private." She replied. She turned back to me sporting a sexy smile, "So we can continue this Ash?" She looks at me expectantly.

Well I can't say no to that.

Well this story is nearly at its end but I've started my new one and that'll be up soon.

Hope you all had a good Christmas and New Year whether or not you celebrate either. Thank you for your support I feel priviledged that you chose to read my story. Let me know what you think xxx