KATHERINE'S POV
DEAR DIARY,
Kamden gave me this book a week ago telling me that maybe it will help me sort out my scrambled thoughts. Well here goes:
Stefan and I have been spending small amounts of time together lately. All I can think about these days is how to make him see that I will do anything for him. I love him so much it hurts and it's driving me nuts. I'm sitting here trying not to cry, odd for me I know. But it doesn't seem like there is anything else for me to do. I want to tell him how sorry I am for all that I have done to him. I even feel the need to apologize to Damon and Elena. There has been so much that I have done that I'm sorry for but I can't find the words to say it. I wish I could ask somone for help but they are only tolerating me because this is Elijah's house and they have no choice. This is totally making my depression worse so I will try again later.
KP
KAMDEN'S POV
I was going room to room collecting sheets for laundry as that is my chore this week, when I got to Katherine's room. I heard her sniffling like she was crying. So I knocked on the door, I heard her say come in and I entered and closed the door. She was sitting on her bed looking really sad. "What's wrong?" I asked. She didn't respond she just shook her head. "Come on Katherine, you cannot tell me there is nothing wrong with a long face like that. Tell me...Please" I replied. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes,"Why do you care?" she asked. I was surprised at first but then I realized that she had always been a cold hearted bitch to everyone and now she realizes that it came back and bit her in the ass. "Listen no one is perfect and we all make mistakes. I gather that you feel lonely right now. The only way to do something about that is to get up go to the others and tell them what's going on and that you want to be a part of the group. They may be suspious at first but the more you show them you mean it, the more they will believe it. Trust me it's not as hard as it sounds." With that I got up smiling at her shocked face and left her there to think about it.
STEFAN'S POV
I have been sad and depressed for too long. I need to do something with someone, I wonder what Katherine is doing right now. She has been much better company lately. She has decided to show the woman she hides from everyone. I realize now that I have not been fair to her, so I'm going to ask her to hang out with me tonight. I got up off my bed and headed to her room. When I got there the door was open, so I went in to ask her to hang out. I looked around and didn't see her, so I checked her bathroom. Not in there either. Where did she go? As I was about to leave, I saw a little red book on her bed. I thought she stole my journal so I picked it up and opened it. To my surprise it wasn't my journal but hers. Normally I'm not the type to read other people private things but I couldn't help myself. It took my ten minutes to read the entry that was there and I was in total shock. I had no idea that she felt that way! I put the book back were I found it and was about to leave when I saw Damon standing in the doorway. "How long have you been standing there?" I asked him annoyed he was spying on me. "Long enough to see you reading something that doesn't belong to you. Wow Stef I never took you as the snooping type." He replied with his signature smirk. I ignored him and pushed past him on my way down the hall. I stopped and turned to see him still looking at me. "Just so you know she has a lot to say to you and Elena but is afarid to. You two may want to talk to her." I said as I turned on my heel and walked away. I'm going to find Katherine and talk with her.
DAMON'S POV
Katherine has a lot to say, is that right. Well I have noticed that she is as depressed as Elena these days. I guess I can talk to her but right now she will have to make due with Stefan as Kamden, Jeremy, Elena and I have a spell to do with Bonnie and Emily. I was so happy last night when Kam approached Elena and I about the spell she found and the others willingness to help. Bonnie told us to meet them in the back living room at 6 tonight. It is 5:30 now so I don't have time to chase down Katherine right now. Anyway I'm sure that is what Stefan planned on doing. So for now I'm gonna find Elena to get ready.
KATHERINE'S POV
Sitting on the on the dock with my feet in water is rather soothing. I am trying hard not to think about what is going on. I hear footsteps coming toward me so I turned and saw Stefan with a smile on his face. He is increadibly sexy with that smile of his. I can't help the smile that spreads across mine as he gets closer and winks at me. "Hello beautiful what are you up too?" he says grinning now. I giggled and looked at him with a smile. "Why are you in such a good mood?" I asked. "I decided that it was time to come out of my depression and I would like for you to help me with that, if you want." he said hesitating at the end. Wow I'm so excited I can't speak, so I just nod happily. His face brightens even more he is so adorable when he's happy like this. "I need to say some stuff first, if that's alright?" I asked. He nods sitting down next to me, taking off his shoes and putting his feet in the water like me.
Looking at the water I start at the beginning,"I always wanted to tell you back in 1864 it was you. You that I fell for and wanted to be with forever. I didn't know then how exactly to show that. I was a different person then, it was all about me and being the center of attention. I was spineless then, when my life was threatened I always ran and didn't think about it. I am so sorry for what I did to you and Damon back then. I destroyed your realationship with him not to mention both of your lives. I was so selfish and I have no excuse for it." I took a breath to continue and looked at him. I saw him thinking about what it was like then and I could not help but feel sad again.
"As time went by I realized that you were lost to me and I couldn't cope with that so I became the selfish, cold hearted bitch that I had been pretending to be. It became who I was and I ran with it. That led me to act the way I did when I found out about my doppelganger. I was so jealous that she could have what I could not. That made me hate her and everyone else. I did and said nasty mean things to make myself feel better. I'm so sorry Stefan. So very very sorry and if you give me one last chance I will spend eternity making it up to you." I finished tearing up. I struggled not to cry as he put his arms around me and hugged me. "Katherine you are by no means perfect but then no one is. I don't know that the past will ever be completely forgotten but I am wiilling to help you move on. If you are willing to help me move on." He whispered. I nodded into he chest and hugged him tighter.
We sat there for a long time in each others arm, awhile later we heard someone calling our names. The voice was getting closer and when it was right behind us we turned and saw Elena and Damon hand in hand. "Little bro, Katherine." Damon said. Elena poked him and nodded at me. "Ok so I haven't been nice to you lately and I'm sorry. We were wondering if the two of you would like to have dinner and movie night with us?" He said in a small voice. Stefan and I looked at each other and nod. "Sure that sounds like fun, when?" I said. Meet us in the little dinning room at 8." Elena said with a bright smile. "Okay see you then" I said with a small nod. Elena smiled and pulled Damon back up the dock. I felt happy and confused by the change both brothers are showing toward me. But this is what I wanted right? Stefan looked at his watch the showed it to me. 6:45 so I had a little longer to sit here in his arms before we had to get ready. He must have been thinking the same thing because he wrapped his arms around me and stared off into the distance with a content smile.