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Lilly watched with wide eyes as Brian's lifeless body fell to the ground. She hadn't half expected Phillip to blow Brian away like that. Phillip looked at his brother's dead body not feeling one ounce of remorse for his death. He looked up to Lilly whose face still had that stoic expression. Nick stood with his eyes closed tightly murmuring something to himself. Phillip knew without looking at Nick he was praying. That's what Nick did when shit went south! He went all religious on everyone. Phillip remembered when Penny was bitten Nick was horrified when Phillip wouldn't put her down. He kept on muttering how not putting Penny down was keeping her soul from entering heaven.
"Darling…"
Phillip was pulled from his thoughts as Lilly gently touched his arm. She looked at him sweetly as she slipped her hand around his.
"Come one. I think it's time we go home. You need to get some rest."
Lilly waited a couple of moments before Phillip nodded. He looked back at the townspeople who hadn't moved from their seats. They all looked at him for some direction on what to do.
"Go on home everyone. You all can sleep in peace tonight."
Phillip waited until everyone had filed out before turning to face Lilly. He gave her a simple nod before guiding her home. Thankfully Jason had went to the apartment hours before and cleaned up the mess. He didn't want to face the thought of seeing Penny's dead body.
Andrea sat in the living room when they walked in. She had gone back early to watch Alex and Suzy. They both looked up as Phillip and Lilly walked in. Alex grinned as soon as he saw his parents and began to toddle over to them. Suzy meanwhile, sat looking at Phillip closely. She had obviously noticed something was wrong with her father and didn't make any move to go to him. Phillip sighed as he watched Suzy crawl over to Andrea before looking back at him. He felt his heart break a little more. Now his only little girl was scared of him.
Alex waddled back over to Suzy grabbing her hand and yanking her behind him. Suzy whimpered as she fell hard on the floor. Phillip shook his head before walking over and picking moving Alex away from his sister who was screaming like she had been killed.
"Alex don't drag your sister."
Phillip sighed picking Suzy up. She looked at him for a moment before pointing to his eye,
"Dada hurt?"
Phillip smiled as he kissed her head. He felt relieved when Suzy laid her head on his shoulder. Maybe she wasn't scared after all. As he looked at her that feeling of intense pain hit him again. Phillip hadn't realized how much Suzy looked like Penny at this age. The full reality of Penny's death hit him now. He would never see her again. All the work Milton had done to bring her back to a normal healthy little girl was useless now.
"Dada?'
Suzy said again. Phillip shook the morbid thoughts from his head as he looked down at his baby.
"I'm fine baby."
Lilly stepped forward with Alex in her arms,
"I'm going to put them in bed. It's way past their bed time."
Phillip reluctantly gave Suzy to her mother before walking to the window. He didn't feel like himself at all now. Now it was like he was back on autopilot mode while the dark side began to take over. He wouldn't prevent it or fight it now. If he turned 100% evil that was just fine with him.
He turned looking at his refection in the mirror. As bad as his eye hurt this did make him look a lot tougher. It got rid of that innocent boyish look his face still had to it.
"You are still good looking."
Phillip turned to see Lilly standing a few feet behind him with a gentle smile on her face. He shook his head as she walked over wrapping her arms around his shoulders.
"And you're biased."
Lilly smiled laying her head on his chest,
"Yes I am. I know what you are thinking. You're not a bad person. My Phillip is still in there somewhere."
She gently stroked her finger over his heart. Phillip's arms tightened on her holding her as tightly against him as possible.
"For you and our children only. Im done with Mr. Nice guy. Come on I've had enough of this day. You need some sleep too dear."
Lilly followed Phillip to the bedroom quietly. She wasn't for sure what Phillip had planned for Merle but she had to find a way to do something before it was too late. Lilly was also miserable over Michonne. Lilly knew that her friend wasn't tied in with Alfredo. Michonne wouldn't do that to her. All Lilly wanted to know was why Michonne was in the apartment and how she found Penny? She understood why Michonne killed her. Lilly wouldn't admit to Phillip that she agreed with Michonne on this. Penny didn't deserve to be locked in a little kennel as a ravenous monster.
Phillip lay starring at the ceiling with that familiar glare on his face. Lilly sighed as she gently ran her finer down his chest.
"What's on your mind?"
She whispered softly. Phillip didn't speak for a moment. He finally turned looking at her.
"Do you think I'm a monster for what I did to Brian?"
Lilly shook her head,
"No baby. That thought never went through my mind. You did what was right. You protected the town."
Phillip nodded still feeling angry at Brian. He couldn't believe Brian would betray him like that! Putting a bullet through Brian's Brian was the best thing he had done in days. As soon as Phillip began to feel good he was brought right back down when the thought Penny entered his mind.
"Phillip?"
Lilly's voice was soft as he sat up. He shook his head before running a hand through his hair.
"I begged her Lilly. Pleaded with her not to kill Penny. Before she died Penny looked right at me. She looked like normal Penny. It was like she was begging me to save her and I didn't. When I get a hold of Michonne all hell will break loose."
Lilly looked at her husband sadly. She didn't have the heart to tell him that Penny didn't know who he was now.
"I'm sorry you had to see that. I know it was beyond dreadful! What happened after that led to you getting hurt?"
Phillip lay back down beside Lilly not taking his eyes of the ceiling.
"We beat the living shit out of each other. I didn't see her grab that glass. I was too busy trying to choke her. Shoulda just killed her with her own sword. Watched her bleed to death...that would have been interesting!"
Lilly shivered at the coldness in his voice. She snuggled her body closer to his. Michonne knew there was bad in Phillip just like Lilly knew. Lilly wouldn't let the bad get in the way of the good man that she knew was still trapped in there somewhere.
As waited for Phillip to fall asleep Lilly tried to think of ways to help Merle. She knew good and well where he would be hidden at. Phillip's even breathing let Lilly know he was out cold. Lilly gently moved in his arms seeing of that would wake him up.
"Phillip?"
She whispered gently. When he didn't move Lilly pressed a kiss to his forehead before getting out of bed and sneaking out the door. She has to get to Merle before the morning. Phillip planned having a mock trial for Alfredo and his men. He wanted to see what the hell the mans problem was. Lilly knew that all the men would be dead before the day was over.
As she got into the building where Merle was being held Lilly felt relieved when she saw the guard was sleeping. She snuck into the room. Merle looked up as she walked in. His eyes looked wide as he stood,
"Lilly what on earth are you doin here?"
Lilly looked around carefully,
"I'm bustin you outta here. Look Merle you gotta get gone quick. Phillip is asleep now and the north gate is only being watched by that girl that's thinks she bad ass with a bow."
Merle nodded,
"Why you want to help me?"
Lilly sighed looking at Merle. She realized this was probably the last time she would ever see him.
"Because you have always been a good friend to me and I hope that if I am this far up shit creek someone would help me."
Merle smiled. He hadnt had someone care about him before so this was all new.
"Well I'd help ya anyway. Ms. Lilly it's been a slice. See ya around."
Lilly watched as he climbed out the window without another word. She took a deep breath before sprinting back home. She had to get back into Phillip's bed before he realized she was gone. All hell would break out if he knew what happened. He would probably have her killed as well. If he didn't kill her with his bare hands himself.
When she walked in the door Phillip sat on the couch looking into the fire place. Lilly felt her heart freeze as he looked him over. He sat shirtless the muscles in his chest and stomach clearly visible. He looked up at her with anger written all in his eyes.
"And where have you been?"
Lilly took a few deep breath as he stood walking toward her.
"I left my gun outside. Had to go get it. I didn't want one of those new guards thinking Santa left them a present."
She was shocked when Phillip actually started laughing.
"Yea that would be bad. You should have woken me up. I would have came with you."
Lilly smiled as Phillip quickly picked her up carrying her back into their bedroom.
"Tomorrow Lilly I may not be too nice. I just wanna give you a fair warning."
Lilly nodded snuggling back against his chest. Maybe if he wasn't the nicest of guys outside of home he would still be her Phillip at home. She could deal with that. If he would come home and be the man she fell in love with Lilly would be happy. She could deal with him being in his Governor mode outside of home as long as he could leave that at the door as soon as he got home.
"Make me forget today."
Phillip moaned as he got on top of Lilly pressing his lips to her neck. Lilly groaned pressing her hips against his body.
"Phillip you need to rest."
He shook his head pulling her legs apart,
"I want this and you now."
Lilly relented and let him make love to her. She couldn't turn him away. There was no way in hell he would let her deny him either.
When Phillip finally fell asleep Lilly lay quietly waiting to fall asleep. She found herself thinking about all the things that had gone wrong during the day. Her stepdaughter was lost. Phillip lost half of his sight and Merle was gone. She knew the next day would be difficult and she was ready to do whatever Phillip asked of her!