Note: I know I know, I said this stuff was complete because I wouldn't be adding anything anymore, but I just didn't know where to put that and it can't stand for a oneshot so... fluff alert!
I've never thought much about Mello being a catholic and all, because you know, I'm not a believer myself so I'm really not interested in those religious questions about God, what's good, what's wrong, in the eyes of someone else than myself. I do the good that I can regardless of any heavenly reward, just because I want to.
Mello... no, I'm not about to say that he does good because he is afraid of his God, because he doesn't do good (well, he does me good but that's another topic...).
I've started to ponder about this only because somehow, his bravery is not in the pursuit of Kira, risking to get himself killed, blowing himself up that day, or almost dying by the hand of that Takada bitch. He's reckless, wild, flirting with death even more than with me. It's in the way he's so very criminal, dipping in the most illegal activities, killing people, abducting, stealing, beating, and all the wrong he does on a daily basis, including fucking me, a guy.
And yet, he still believes in his God.
That's why Mello is bravery itself. There is nothing more courageous than to know that you're heading to hell, and still be running on that path, never slowing down or trying to U-turn to repentance.
I don't believe he's going to hell, but I hope that I was bad enough, in this life, that, when I die, I'll end up where Mello is when he is dead himself, if there is really something after life.
But I am scared sometimes. God might as well just send us apart because that's our idea of our personal hell. So is there really an issue?
I don't know, but for now... he's alive, very much alive, and I am, too, and I plan on keeping it that way for as long as I can, we defeated Kira after all...
I'm not a believer, but I'm sure of one thing. With Mello by my side, heaven is a place on earth, and it's right here in his arms.