Chapter 25 – December 24: Admissions

Draco

I lay there for a few minutes internally panicking. I had just spilled my deepest darkest secrets to none other than Harry Potter, and he has yet to say anything of it. My heart and head were in overdrive. My heart started to take precautionary measures and disconnect from emotion as quickly and efficiently as possible. The fact that I was securely wrapped in his arms barely registered in my mind as I started freaking out. He cleared his throat and I tensed for the worst. He clearly felt my body freeze up because he began rubbing his hands soothingly up my back and he pressed a gentle kiss into my hair.

"Draco. You are an insufferable prat, you're conceited and spoiled, and you have this way of grating on my nerves like no one I've ever met. I have never met someone who infuriates me the way you do. You drive me absolutely bat-shit crazy."

I could feel my heart shriveling as I took in his words. I knew I deserved them, but it didn't make them hurt less.

"But you're also the most amazing listener, you're kind and genuine, and Merlin you can be funny when you aren't being a git. You're so beautiful. Inside and out. You're a completely different person than the boy who I went to school with"

I couldn't stop the lightening I felt in my chest. My heart was practically soaring out of my ribcage.

"So you're difficult, there's no doubt about that, but somewhere along the line, everything changed. Somewhere along the line you changed. I changed. And everything I've felt about you these past few weeks changed."

He took a deep breath. I didn't dare interrupt him for fear he wasn't going to get to his final point. I could feel his heart thudding in his chest.

"Somewhere along the line, I fell in love. I fell in love with the stupid way you flip your hair when someone's annoying you. I fell in love with the infuriating way that you fight me over eating breakfast. I fell in love with the way that you let me hold you when you were scared, but always panicked after, because it was cute. I fell in love with your fears of the fiendfyre. And Merlin if I didn't fall in love with your eyes, and the fire that burns behind them. Your passion."

My heart was doing back flips. This is the moment I have dreamed of since first year.

"I fell in love with you Draco. And it's ridiculous, and scary, and yes, maybe a little Hufflepuff. But that's not going to change any time soon. I want to hold you while you sleep, and wake up to your funny morning hair. I want to wake up to your grumpy morning attitude and placate you with enough caffeine to power a small village. I want to take thousands of pictures of you and post them all over my house, and send them in Christmas cards, and maybe even for no reason at all, I want to prove to everyone who's you are. Who's I am"

Oh Merlin Harry. I want that too. So badly. Please don't be lying to me. I don't think I'd survive.

"I want to kiss you and mark you and love you. I want to have you for the rest of my life. I want to fix you and make you whole again. I want you body and soul forever Draco. Please."

I took a deep breath finally ready to tell him my side of the story. I barely registered the tears running down my face at his admission.

Harry

I was utterly spent at my admissions but I couldn't help but be terrified at his acknowledgements of it to come. What if he, after getting a feeling for me, decided I wasn't worth him anymore?

"Harry I swear to Merlin, if you ever scare me like that again I will hex you to next century."

He admonished me thoroughly and I couldn't help but smile.

"Fuck Harry. I love you. You know I love you. I've always loved you. Since day one. Even before I knew what love was I loved you. And now after all this time I'm finally getting what I want, finally getting you. And I'm never going to let go because I haven't waited this long to get what I want just to have it taken away from me. I love you through and through. Not like that Weasley. I love you for Harry. all those stupid habits you have, all those things you think that no one notices but they do, I love all of them."

This was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and the realization hit me like a ton of bricks. This was it. I knew what I had to do.

I pulled Draco off the bed and to his feet. I grabbed him tight and stared deeply into his eyes.

"Hold on ok?" I repeated myself seriously. "Whatever you do, just don't let go"

With a loud pop we disapparated and I had the familiar feeling of being sucked through a straw. With a thud I felt my feet hit the ground.

Draco

I looked around. Where on earth were we?

We stood in the sand, just meters away from the crashing surf. It was dark outside but the stars above sparkled over head. The moon was huge and round and was refracted in the water. My breath caught in my throat at the beauty of the place and again at looking at harry. The moonlight caught his hair and eyes perfectly. He was a god.

"Draco."

My heart stopped beating at the look on his face.

"I know this is going to seem, probably a little ridiculous."

I couldn't help but puzzle at that.

"More ridiculous than randomly apparating me to a beach in the middle of the night?"

He chuckled.

"That's going to seem like nothing compared to this."

I wisely shut my mouth, figuring he would come out with it uninterrupted.

"Draco. This is probably going to seem sudden but, I love you. I want you heart and soul. I want you completely and utterly. You are the most amazing person I've ever met and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. So I guess what I'm saying is…"

He sunk down to his knees in the sand and I couldn't breathe.

"Will you marry me?"

a/n:

so that's basically the end… there will be an epilogue…hope you enjoyed it : )