Love at First Sight
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Chapter 25
BPOV
The school year was speeding right along.
October
November
December
January
Where do I start? Edward told me that your human memories fade over time, so along with my scrapbook; I decided to keep a journal of this year because I want to remember as much of it as I can. So here I am, at my desk trying to recall as much as possible because I will never get everything down on paper today.
Looking back, those four months seemed like four weeks. How did four months manage to go by so quickly? With school, helping to plan the wedding, picking colleges and the activities Edward and his siblings planned to occupy me, it's a wonder I even get to sleep. Emmett and Rosalie were bored travelling alone so they stayed in Seattle. We usually met them out of town for activities so none of the people in Forks could spot them – only at school holidays, did they come into town or hung out at my house. Instead of trying to remember what happened each week, I'll do each month and write the major events. I'll go back to fill in things I missed another day.
October – Jess and Angela wanted to do a girls night out. After what happened the day we went shopping for dresses, I was not eager to go to Port Angeles again but I didn't want to isolate the few human friends I had so I decided to go. For Edward's peace of mind, Alice would come along. The girls are getting use to what they call her 'strange behavior' because she, Jasper, Edward and I sit at the same table with Mike and the gang now that Emmett and Rosalie are off to college. Edward was stressed about the outing.
"Bella, remember what happened the last time. Don't wander around on your own. I know those guys are no longer roaming the street and Alice doesn't see anything happening, but please don't do anything reckless." Edward pleaded.
"Ok, I'll stay with the girls. I'm sure Alice will call you if anything changes." I tried to assure him. I know how worried he gets when he's not personally watching over me. I wouldn't be surprised if he plans to do his own surveillance like the last time he came to my rescue.
At the last minute, Angela had to take care of her little brothers so the three of us headed off. We went to see a movie about Zombies – I wouldn't be surprised if I learned they were real. Who knew that vampires and werewolves were real? Personally I haven't seen a werewolf but the Cullens assured me that they were real and Jacob mentioned them that day on the beach.
After the movie, we were on the way to get dinner when I saw a gang hanging out next to a bar. I was immediately transported back to that horrible night when I was almost attacked. I was halfway across the street, walking slowly forward without ever making the conscious decision to move my feet. I didn't understand why, but some perverse reaction in me demanded I go up to these guys.
"Bella! You can't go in a bar!" Jess hissed.
Alice grabbed my arm. "Bella I see what you're planning. I'm not letting you cross the street. I don't think Edward would like that." She said.
"Are they going to hurt me?" I asked.
"No, I don't see anything bad happening."
"Then go keep Jess calm. Come get me if anything goes wrong." I know she was reluctant but she was handicapped. Alice had to pretend to be normal so she couldn't pick me up and take me away or drag me in the opposite direction. If she was human she couldn't physically overpower me because I was bigger than her. If she saw anything bad happening; she would distract Jess and knock me out or something like that. I continued across the street.
"Bella, stop this right now!" My muscles locked into place, froze me where I stood because it wasn't Jessica or Alice's voice that rebuked me now. It was a furious voice, a beautiful voice – soft like velvet even though it was irate. It was Edward's voice. Where did he suddenly come from? I looked around myself in shock. Did he decide to follow us after all? I didn't see him. If he wasn't here, why was I hearing his voice? I shook my head, trying to understand. I didn't see him and yet, he felt improbably close.
"Go back to Alice and Jessica," the lovely voice ordered, still angry. "You promised–nothing stupid."
I began to suspect that I was having some kind of hallucination; triggered, no doubt, by memory, the deja vu, the strange familiarity of the situation. I ran through the possibilities quickly in my head.
Option one: I was crazy. That was the layman's term for people who heard voices in their heads.
Option two: My subconscious mind was projecting what he would have said if he was here.
The wise thing would be to run away from this potentially destructive–and certainly mentally unstable–development. It would be stupid to encourage hallucinations but I was curious. The closer I got to the guys, the more I had this overpowering feeling of Edward's presence. I know he was not there physically but I could feel him as if he was right next to me. Was invisibility a vampire trait I didn't know about? I kept walking.
Finally I was right up to one of the guys. Now that I was closer–I analyzed the short, dark man's face. It was not familiar in any way. I felt a sense of relief that this was not the terrible man who had tried to hurt me almost a year ago - I know Edward said he was arrested but it was different to actually see this stranger close up; seeing with my own eyes, that this was not the same man from that night. Behind his head, I saw Edward's angry face appear.
"Hi," one of the men called his tone both confident and a bit sarcastic. He was fair-skinned and fair-haired, and he stood with the assurance of someone who thought of himself as quite good-looking. I couldn't tell whether he was or not. I was prejudiced.
"From across the street, you looked like someone I knew; sorry, my mistake." I turned to leave and the face disappeared. What could this mean? I didn't have time to ponder this further, I had to get back to Jess and Alice. I knew Jess wouldn't understand my morbid fascination with those guys and I didn't want to push Alice too much. They didn't see my Edward hallucination and I can't explain it to Alice with Jess around.
I was fascinated by this new development. I couldn't wait to tell Edward about it. We already know we could project our emotions to each other but for him to actually become a hallucination when I do something risky, that's fascinating. The girls were mad at me and I'm sure Alice is waiting to kill me but I'm not concerned about that.
"What were you thinking?" Jess snapped. "You don't know them–they could have been psychopaths!"
I shrugged, wishing she would let it go.
"Don't worry Jess; I dared her to do it. She was just showing me that she was not afraid of anything." Alice was trying to cover for me.
"You are both crazy." Jess grumbled.
"Sorry." I didn't know what else to say. I couldn't tell her about this. She already thought I was crazy.
We went to dinner, Alice acting all bubbly trying to divert Jess's attention from the incident outside the bar. By the time we finished dinner, she wasn't upset anymore. Maybe Alice could dazzle people like Edward. When she went to the bathroom, I turned to Alice. "Did you see that? Is that why you let me go up to those guys?" I asked excitedly.
"What are you talking about?" She asked.
"I saw Edward and I heard his voice telling me to stay away from those guys." I explained.
"No, I didn't see that, I realized that you were thinking about that night last year and I knew nothing bad would happen so I just let you get your crazy human reactions out of the way. Edward and Carlisle arranged to have those men arrested last year so I knew they weren't the same men. Do you think I would honestly let you put yourself in danger whether I had a vision or not? Edward would kill me if I let anything happen to you and even if he didn't, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't protect you the way Edward would." She mentioned that Jess was on her way back so we changed the conversation.
When we got to the Cullens', Edward read Alice's mind before I could explain anything to him. He started yelling at her.
"Be mad at me," I said, "it wasn't her fault."
"Don't worry, I'm just as angry with you too." He snapped.
He was pacing and ranting. Pulling his hair and threatening to lock me up until I became a vampire. If vampires could get heart attacks, I swear he would have. He was really mad at me for putting myself in danger and mad at Alice for not dragging me in the opposite direction. Wanting to know how she didn't see this happening. I know Rosalie explained how he felt about something happening to me but I didn't think that applied to this occasion so I told him so. He didn't see it my way. I tried calming him down the way I did last year. This really was déjà vu.
He took a deep breath, pinching the bridge of his nose and sighing loudly. Then he and Alice had one of their silent conversations.
"Sorry Alice. You more than anyone else, know what I'm going through."
"No problem." She said as she patted him on the chest, she shook her head and headed off to find Jasper.
For a moment he still looked so frightening. His eyes were black. I could see the effort it was taking him not to explode again.
"Edward that was nothing; it's not like I got on the back of a bike with one of those strange men. It was nothing like the last time I went to Port Angeles. It was nothing like the time I met James in the ballet studio. Alice didn't see anything bad happening or I would never have gone up to them." I reminded him.
"She could have been wrong." He muttered.
"You'll never catch me betting against Alice."
We stared at each other for a very long time. Finally, his expression softened.
"So where does that leave us?" I wondered.
He chuckled humorlessly. "I believe it's called an impasse."
I sighed. He thinks I did something dangerous and I thought it was controlled because Alice was there. Neither of us was budging.
I told him what happened, about hearing his voice and seeing his face - even though he probably already knew from reading Alice's mind. He was intrigued about my hallucination but worried at the same time.
"Please tell me you did not risk your life to see if I was following you?" he pleaded. "Tell me you didn't deliberately court danger to flush me out."
"No, at first it was all unconscious. Then I was curious to see the guy who reminded me of that night. Then when I saw your face and heard your voice, I was intrigued but I would never put myself in danger, knowing how much it would hurt you if anything happened to me." I assured him.
"I've told you before; I can't believe you're human. Your reactions are not normal human behavior." He hugged me tightly.
"Bella, I can't lose you. I can't live without you." He kissed me, a hard passionate kiss, which I returned. I was clinging to him, feeling that electricity that is always present between us. We decided talk to Carlisle when he got back from the hospital tomorrow.
That night, we had what I called makeup sex. I've heard about make up sex and wondered what it would be like but Edward and I hardly fight and sex with Edward was always out of this world anyway.
I leaned back as I remembered that night.
Edward picked me up and carried me to his room. We decided to take a shower before we went to bed. On the way to the bathroom, we started undressing each other, lightly touching and looking at each other longingly. He leaned down to kiss me, gently sucking my lips. I opened my mouth for his tongue immediately. He languidly sucked my tongue. Just that kiss made me weak. He kissed my forehead, my nose, then kissed his way along my jaw, moving back to my lips again. I kissed him greedily, my hands tangled in the hair at the back of his head, pulling him closer so I could devour his mouth. When I stopped to breathe, he kissed the top of my head then he brushed the hair away from my face, looking into my eyes.
"I love you so much." He whispered. "I'm sorry if I get overbearing at times. Please forgive me."
"I don't know what came over me. I should be asking for forgiveness too." I gently traced along his jaw before I reached up to kiss him. He deepened the kiss and I groaned as I felt his cock poking me through his jeans. I wanted him just as much as he wanted me.
He took off my shirt and tossed it carelessly on the floor. I reached up to help him remove his t-shirt. He tugged and pulled at my jeans and I felt them along with my panties being pushed down my thighs. I stepped out of them as he undid the clasp of my bra. I unsnapped his jeans. He stepped out of them along with his boxers. Now we were both naked. I looked at him, admiring his body, looking at his hard cock, wanting it in me soon. He lifted me up, setting me on the cold counter.
His hands reached for my breasts, massaging them, playing with my nipples until they were hard as rocks. He sucked one while he continued massaging and teasing the other. I groaned as pleasure raced through my body. I arched my back, pushing out my chest; silently begging him for more.
He moved down my body and I leaned back, opening my legs further for his hungry mouth. His tongue lapped at my pussy, darting up my slit and then over my clit, flicking back and forth incredibly fast, his cold breath was all over my crotch. He pulled my ass closer to the edge as he continued to devour my pussy. The more he sucked on my lips, the more he slid his tongue in and out of my pussy, the more I wanted to feel his tongue. I started to push against his face. I was grinding my pussy on his face, never wanting this exquisite feeling to end.
His hands reaching up to squeeze my breasts and I was moaning and writhing as he continued to fuck me with his tongue, pushing that tongue in and out, in and out of my wet aching pussy. I was moaning and bucking my hips.
He squeezed my breast and twisted my nipples while he moved to my clit, pushing at it with the tip of his tongue, making circles around it then sucked it into his cold mouth. I clenched my teeth to keep from screaming but I could still hear a muffled cry escape as my orgasm hit me.
He pulled me close and kissed me as he entered me in one fluid thrust. He began to pull back and thrust forward, setting a slow pace. His mouth capturing one puckered nipple in his mouth as his cock slid in and out. I wrapped my legs around him, pulling him in closer, wanting him to go faster, deeper. I wanted to feel all of him inside my hot pussy. He continued with his languid pace. Thrusting back and forth, keeping his rhythm as he suckled on my breasts.
"Please, Edward," I begged. "Please."
Giving in to my pleas, he eased up from my breasts, lifted my legs to his shoulders and he started to thrust faster, going deep and hard. I laid my back flat on the counter. He was holding my hips, pulling me into each thrust. I could feel another orgasm begin to pool in my belly. Building up force to spread out and ignite every cell in my body.
I was writhing uncontrollably under the assault of his hips, feeling his magnificent cock filling me up as he thrusts in and out of me repeatedly. The intense sensations made the fire in my body begin to spread out, heightening my passion. I removed my legs from his shoulder, wrapping it around his waist. I raised myself up to kiss him as I ran my hands over his chest. Now he was moaning against my mouth. I racked my finger nails over his back. Knowing that I couldn't break his skin but the extra stimulation heightened the sensations for him. He started going faster.
As my orgasm got closer, I was desperate for more of him. My hands were all over his chest and back, traveling over every inch of his upper body, sending sparks through my finger tips everywhere I touched him. I licked his jaw, sucked his lips and nibbled on his neck, getting his sweet taste on my tongue. I felt a shiver go through him. His cock twitched inside me. I stared into his eyes. They were black from hunger and not for my blood. He was consumed by lust. We were both close. He bent his head to my breast and bit me just above my nipple. Wave after wave of pleasure ripped through me.
He covered my mouth with his and kissed me deeply, trying to stifle my screams. My pussy muscles tightened around his cock, massaging him with each spasm. Squeezing him harder; demanding his orgasm in return. I felt him squirting deep inside me as my pussy continued to squeeze him. My orgasm seemed to last forever.
I clung to him like a wet rag. Totally spent. I felt like all the bones in my body melted. He held me for a while before carrying me to the shower. He put a foot on the edge of the tub and had me sit on it. Then he pulled down the hose and grabbed a bottle of body wash. He gently soaped me all over, using the hose to wash me off. He leaned me against the tiles as he gave himself a quick wash. He picked me up and walked out of the bath, grabbing a few towels on his way out.
He spread one towel on the bed then sat down with me on his lap. He gently dried me all over. He pulled back the covers and laid me on the cool sheets. I snuggled into the pillow as exhaustion took over. I felt him slipping something over my head; I opened my eyes to see him dressing me in one of his t-shirts. Once it was on, he wrapped the blanket around me and snuggled against me. I pressed my cheeks against his chest and inhaled deeply as I closed my eyes again and surrendered to the safety and comfort of his arms; knowing that he would always be there to take care of me.
"I love you," I mumbled as a yawned.
"Me too," he said and I felt a chuckle deep in his chest.
As oblivion washed over me, I felt him kiss the top of my head.
The next day, we went to Carlisle and told him all the strange things we've noticed since we met. We told him about my dream the first time I saw Edward, about the feelings we could project to each other, then I related what happened in Port Angeles tonight. He sat deep in thought for a while until Edward addressed him – for a vampire with all the time on his hands he was being very impatient.
"What does it mean, Carlisle?" Edward asked urgently.
Carlisle shook his head and passed his hands over his face as if he was waking up. Then he started talking in that calm reassuring voice.
"In tribal societies such as the Aborigines of Australia telepathy is accepted as a human faculty," Carlisle told us. "Some people also believe in clairvoyance. With the two of you, it seems to be a combination of the two or it could be something else entirely. It seems that the two of you are more closely linked than we realized and it's getting stronger the more time you spend with each other. You've gone from projecting feelings and ideas to this. This is more than mated vampires could do. Imagine how much stronger these feelings would get when Bella becomes a vampire."
We both stared at him, trying to understand where he was going with this.
"In the beginning, when you first met, you had that immediate connection. Your souls fused - each of you recognized your mate, even if you didn't know what was happening at the time. You both felt a strong attraction to the other and Edward was probably thinking of taking you to the meadow, so your subconscious picked up on that and manifested itself in a dream. That would explain why you saw the meadow before he took you there. I'll have to do some research on this. This is fascinating, something new to learn." He dismissed us and went to his computer and books.
Edward and I decided to wait to see what he found out. We already knew of our strange connection so we accepted this as another indication that we were made for each other.
There was a "Twilight Zone" Halloween festival at one of the hotels so Edward and his brothers all went dressed as vampires - the guys even wore fangs. Alice was Red Riding Hood, Rosalie was Snow White and I was bride of Frankenstein. Alice ordered all the costumes from the internet, specific to our measurements so everything fitted perfectly. We met Angela and her boyfriend there. She was dressed as a witch and Ben was a werewolf. Emmett thought it was hilarious. He's never spent so much time around humans – except school – so he got a kick out of being himself. He was running around telling people, "I want to suck your blood". Rosalie just shook her head like an indulgent mother while Edward and Jasper kept telling him to stop being so stupid.
November brought paintball and Thanksgiving. Jasper talked us into going paintballing. He found a park in Washington State that had what they called, a 'Special Forces' match, where your group fight against the park instructors. Jasper thought us techniques and it felt like he was a general in the army, marshaling his troops. Of course, our group won. It's a pity vampires couldn't fight in the army because his military tactics were on point. After the match, I was curious about Jasper's knowledge and experience so he promised to tell me his story when we got back to the house.
As soon as we got back and everyone cleaned up, we gathered in the living room. Esme and Carlisle joined us when they found out Jasper was going to tell me his story.
"How much do you know about me, Bella?" Jasper asked.
"Not much," I admitted.
Jasper stared at Edward, who looked up to meet his gaze.
"No," Edward answered his thought. "I'm sure you can understand why I haven't told her that story. But I suppose she needs to hear it now. I wanted her to hear everyone's story before her change and yours is the only one she hasn't heard yet."
Jasper nodded thoughtfully, and then started to roll up the arm of his ivory sweater.
I watched, curious and confused, trying to figure out what he was doing. He held his wrist under the edge of the lampshade beside him, close to the light of the naked bulb, and traced his finger across a raised crescent mark on the pale skin. Jasper's face was unreadable as he pushed the sleeve of his thin sweater higher up his arm. At first my eyes could not make sense of the texture that was layered thickly across the skin. Curved half-moons crisscrossed in a feathery pattern that was only visible, white on white as it was, because the bright glow of the lamp beside him threw the slightly raised design into relief, with shallow shadows outlining the shapes. And then I grasped that the pattern was made of individual crescents like the one on his wrist they looked like teeth marks.
I gasped, staring up at him. "Jasper, what happened to you?"
"Bites from newborn vampires repeated a thousand times." He laughed a little ruefully and brushed at his arm. "Our venom is the only thing that leaves a scar."
"Why?" I breathed in horror, feeling rude but unable to stop staring at his subtly ravaged skin.
"I didn't have quite the same . . . upbringing as my adopted siblings here. My beginning was something else entirely." His voice turned hard as he finished.
I gaped at him, appalled.
"Before I tell you my story," Jasper said, "you must understand that there are places in our world, Bella, where the life span of the never-aging is measured in weeks, and not centuries."
The others had heard this before but they were just as absorbed as I was; I could feel his eyes on my face, reading every flicker of emotion. Then he got into his story. I kept quiet, cuddled next to Edward.
He told me stories of his human life as a major in the Texas army, fighting for the Confederacy during the Civil War. He met a woman named Maria near Galveston one night. Ever the gentleman, he stopped to help her and friends. I could still hear him relating the story.
"'What is your name, soldier?' Maria asked me.
"'Major Jasper Whitlock, ma'am,' I stammered, unable to be impolite to a female, even if she was a ghost.
"'I truly hope you survive, Jasper,' she said in her gentle voice. 'I have a good feeling about you.'
"She took a step closer, and inclined her head as if she were going to kiss me. I stood frozen in place, though my instincts were screaming at me to run." Jasper paused, his face thoughtful.
"A few days later," he finally said, and I wasn't sure if he had edited his story for my sake or because he was responding to the tension that even I could feel exuding from Edward.
"I was introduced to my new life." That's when I found out they were vampires. She wanted to change humans into vampires to create an army so they would be able to destroy other covens in battle. The covens were fighting for feeding ground from the south all the way to Mexico. She used Jasper's power to control the emotions of others to control the army she was creating. She even had him destroy the newborns that were close to a year old because after the first year, a vampire loses their extra strength. This continued for a while, with more covens fighting to take over Mexico.
"All hell broke loose - and I mean that more literally than you can possibly imagine. We immortals have our histories, too, and this particular war will never be forgotten. Of course, it was not a good time to be human in Mexico, either."
I shuddered.
"When the body count reached epidemic proportions - in fact, your histories blame a disease for the population slump - the Volturi finally stepped in. The entire guard came together and sought out every newborn in the bottom half of North America. A vampire named Benito was entrenched in Puebla, building his army as quickly as he could in order to take on the prize - Mexico City. The Volturi started with him, and then moved on to the rest.
"It didn't take long before covens began to dispute again. There was a lot of bad blood, if you'll forgive the expression. Vendettas abounded. The idea of newborns was already there, and some were not able to resist. However, the Volturi had not been forgotten, and the southern covens were more careful this time. The newborns were selected from the human pool with more care, and given more training. They were used circumspectly, and the humans remained, for the most part, oblivious. Their creators gave the Volturi no reason to return.
Jasper thought he was special to Maria but as time went on, he realized that she was just using him for his special gift and his military skills. That and the emotions he constantly felt when he had to kill a vampire, made him depressed. He finally left her and wondered around on his own until he found Alice. Finding Alice was what helped him escape the horror of the life he lived before.
"Alice told me what she'd seen of Carlisle and his family. I could hardly believe that such an existence was possible. But Alice made me optimistic. So we went to find them and the rest is history as they say."
I got up and gave him a hug. "Jasper, I'm sorry you had to live through that. Thank God Alice found you."
"Yeah, she's my angel."
I couldn't imagine living the life he lived. He is so kind and loving and acts like such a gentleman all the time. This was another indication of what true unconditional love could do for you. Jasper and I are more alike than I thought. Our lives changed drastically when we met our other half. He was able to regain his humanity through Alice and I was becoming more confident and self-assured because of Edward's love.
After hearing all the stories of newborn behavior, I made Edward promise to take me somewhere far away from civilization until my newborn craze ended. I kept this in mind when we were sending out applications to colleges. Edward had already done the Ivy Leagues so he didn't care where he applied. Since I wasn't really planning to go to school but only needed the acceptance letter to show Charlie and Renee, I decided to apply to University of Alaska and a few other schools that were far away. Edward was not thrilled. He wanted me to apply to Dartmouth because he was trying to convince me to actually go to college as a human. Plus that's where Emmett and Rosalie were allegedly going to school so we could all actually attend college together. As far as he was concerned, I was smart enough to get in and he had enough money to pay my tuition. He kept reminding me that once we got married, 'what's his will be mine" so I should get used to it from now. It was a very tempting idea but I wasn't making any promises to remain human for another four years. With my luck, anything could happen to me before the four years were over.
The Cullens didn't eat but Esme insisted on making Thanksgiving dinner. Charlie and I spent the day at their house. They pretended to eat, hiding food in the napkins on their laps when he wasn't looking. After dinner, all the men went to the living room to watch football. Charlie had a great time. He has gotten over his prejudice of Emmett. In the beginning he thought he was a tough guy but the more time he spent with him, the more he relaxed – realizing that he just looks menacing but he's as harmless as a teddy bear.
Over Thanksgiving weekend, Edward decided to put up the tent in the meadow again, he wanted to enjoy it before the snow started – we've been to the meadow after my birthday but we've never used the tent since. He wanted to spend a whole night there so he bought a space heater to keep me warm incase my coat and the duvet he planned to bring there wasn't enough to keep me warm. As much as we loved hanging out with his family, we sometimes like to get time to ourselves and the meadow was not too cold yet. Most of the flowers were gone but it is still our sanctuary. He went to set up things while I did some chores. He drove to the end of the trail and I got into position for my piggy back ride. I was bundled up in a ski parker to keep me warm while he raced through the forest.
I was thinking of the last time we used the tent and I was getting aroused from the memory. I tightened my legs around him. I kissed his neck, sucking on it a little, his taste increasing my arousal. I was already wet and quivering with need so I tried to reign in my imagination. Before we got to the meadow, Edward stopped. I slid down to the ground. He backed me into a tree pressing his body into me, rubbing his erection into my stomach. The feel of his cock through his jeans made me tremble.
He was breathing just as hard as I was. He bent down to kiss me, devouring my lips and tongue.
"Bella, I can't wait till we get to the meadow. I need you now."
"Then don't wait." My pussy was dripping. My knees were weak.
He frantically undid my jeans, pulling it off, doing the same for himself. He thrust two fingers into me. He growled when he felt the juices running out of me. He lifted me, moistening his cock with my juices before and entering me with one hard thrust. He immediately started pounding into me.
"You are always so wet, always ready for me. You can't imagine how that makes me feel." He leaned in to kiss me again, hard and demanding. I responded with just as much passion.
"I love the feel of being buried deep inside your pussy. So tight and hot." I wrapped my legs around his back as he continued pounding his hard cock into me. Luckily I was wearing a parker. My back would have been torn up if he did this in the summer. Before long; we were moaning and groaning uncontrollably.
I was sucking and nibbling on his neck and shoulders, I could never get enough of his taste and I know he loves feeling my teeth on his skin. His head was thrown back and he was growling again. I could feel my orgasm building, that tingling feeling moving through me. I reveled in the feel of his cock pounding into me repeatedly. I was about to cum all over his cock. With each thrust, I was calling his name. I dug my nails into his shoulders and screamed as I came.
"You feel so good, I just can't get enough of you" He pulled out and I whimpered. I wasn't ready for him to come out of me. He put me down, handed me his jeans and turned me to face the tree.
While I was wondering what I was supposed to do with his jeans, he said, "Use that to hold onto the tree because I not done fucking you yet." I knees almost gave out. Sometimes sex with Edward was like a marathon.
Before he finished speaking, I felt his cock at my entrance. He grabbed my hips and buried his cock full tilt. I grasped from the force of his thrust. True to his word, he started fucking me hard and fast. He pounded his hard cock into me, going deeper and deeper with each thrust. He fucked me harder and harder.
With each thrust, I could feel the tree shaking – I wondered how my body could withstand the force. He's always been so careful with me before, I don't know what got into him but he was more forceful and animalistic than usual. This reminded me of the fantasy I had in Biology one day about us fucking in the forest. He held my hips tightly and was fucking me harder than ever – I'm sure he's going to leave bruises. There was nothing gentle about this. He was fucking me hard and deep and I was enjoying it.
My pussy was starting to contract around his cock. I was falling over the edge, into another orgasm. My knees gave out and he had to hold me up. My pussy was milking his cock. This time, I felt him squirting his cum deep inside me, hitting my walls. The feel intensified my orgasm, making it last longer. I was panting; my heart was beating like a humming bird's wings. Having a vampire lover with the sexual appetite of a seventeen-year old boy was incredible. I hope I don't have a heart attack before he changes me.
In a flash he fixed our clothes, picked me up, holding me like a baby and continued racing to the meadow and our nice warm tent. He cuddled with me on a duvet until I was calm enough to speak.
"Bella, are you alright? Was I too rough?" He asked anxiously.
"No, I'm fine. It was rougher than usual but I'm fine." I know he hates it when I say I'm fine but I'm still too tired to think of another word. "Not that I didn't enjoy it but what was different this time? The meadow was not that far away?"
"Remember when we went to the baseball game and I kissed you in the forest? – That's a stupid question, none of us will ever forget that day. Anyway, remember how I reacted when you deepen the kiss? Well this was similar. I had this urge to have you one way or the other. I was afraid to wait another minute. The combination of your scent, the lust I felt coming off of you and the fact that my senses are more enhanced when I'm in the forest were just too much. The monster in me wanted you one way or another. I couldn't drink your blood so the only other thing was to fuck you. This way I get to satisfy one of my urges without hurting you. I didn't want to risk it." He looked at me apologetically.
"I didn't mind meeting the monster, he didn't hurt me." I smiled, giving him a peck on his lips, letting him know that I wasn't afraid of him or what he called 'the monster'. He would have to do a lot worse than fucking me into a stupor for me to be afraid of him. He's always shown such restraint and I know that he would do whatever he has to, to keep me safe.
"You're too forgiving." He caressed my face and continued.
"I hope this feeling never ends – the monster I could live without but the insatiable feeling of always wanting you and knowing you want me too. That feeling is indescribable. After your change and you're no longer a newborn, we could do this for days and never get tired." He said nonchalantly.
I was trying to digest this information. I've had fantasies about the amount of pleasure that waited for us on the other side. Vampires never sleep or eat or used the bathroom. I was getting hot again just from the thought of all that lovemaking or wild passionate sex.
"Sorry we didn't make it here before I had my wicked way with you." He had that smirk on his face. Knowing Edward, I'm going to be enjoying the rest of the night, until I pass out from exhaustion — he doesn't have to wait to regain his strength and he doesn't need time in between orgasms before he's ready to go again.
"I don't mind, I really enjoyed it. It makes me feel good to know that I'm so irresistible." I said as I kissed him. I've discovered a whole new me. The new confident side of me started emerging after the vampire attack and I'm happy with the changes. Having a hot, beautiful lover singing my praises all day and night really worked miracles on the way I started to view myself. Before Edward, I never thought of myself as beautiful or desirable but he makes me feel that way – with both his words and actions.
I wouldn't refer to myself as the ugly duckling, more like sleeping beauty. It took my Prince Charming to open my eyes to the beauty on the inside and to make me realize that I'm beautiful on the outside too. I've always been a kind, loving person but I've downplayed this. Never giving myself credit for all the great things I do for others – for always putting the needs of my loved ones ahead of my own. He made me realize how special those characteristics are. He thinks I'm strange for a human – according to him, "I fascinate him" by being so different.
"Never doubt that. I plan to show you how irresistible you are for a long, long time." And he started kissing me again.
What a night that was. We try to find time to be with each other and on nights when Charlie had to work or on the weekends when he went fishing, we had the house to ourselves. On those occasions, we explored each other's bodies and had no inhibitions but going to the meadow always added something special to our intimate moments. I'm getting wet just thinking about those times. No other woman on earth was having as much fun exploring her sexuality as I was and there are tons of things we haven't tried yet. I think I need a shower before I continue this journal.
December – One day we were celebrating Thanksgiving and the next, it was almost Christmas. The girls planned a big shopping expedition as soon as Christmas break started. We went away for the weekend and had our spa treatment then shopped till I dropped – literally. Alice and Rosalie had to help me to a bench so I could rest. Imagine shopping with an energizer bunny on crack. That's Alice in a mall at Christmas.
Most of the things we bought had to be shipped to the house because there was no way we could transport them all unless we rented a moving van. Even with that option, by the time we got to the car, the trunk and back seat were filled with packages. I was wedged in the front seat between Alice and Rosalie.
While on our shopping trip, Alice saw a huge tree in the mall and decided to put up a tree in the house so she cleaned out the holiday section in a few stores. When we got home, she ordered the guys to get a tree that would rival the one at Rockefeller Center. By the time I got up next morning, every inch of the tree was decorated and there were dozens of gifts already scattered on the tree skirt. It didn't help that the hospital was having a Kris Cringle for the kids so we were all buying things to take to them on Christmas day so besides the gifts for family, we had an excuse to buy more things.
One day I was in my room doing my homework, when I heard a crash outside. I looked out to see Charlie dragging a tree to the house. I helped him decorate it. It was nowhere near Alice's designed tree, but it was just perfect for me and Charlie.
Just like Thanksgiving, Esme decided to cook and have Charlie over to dinner. I practically lived there now and had a separate room if I wanted to escape from Edward- like that would happen. This room was more for show. I could tell Charlie I had my own room at the Cullens and not lie. When he came over for Thanksgiving, I showed it to him and he was speechless. Esme decorated it like a room in Cinderella's Castle complete with a built in closet which Alice filled with clothes, shoes and accessories. Whenever Charlie is coming over, I leave things around like I do at his house so it doesn't look too neat. Sometimes after a long fishing weekend he would insist on picking me up so we could have some father daughter time on the drive home, instead of Edward having to bring me over. He still doesn't know that Edward came over every night.
I slept at home on Christmas Eve so Charlie and I could exchange gifts on Christmas morning. I woke up to Edward kissing me all over my face. When I opened my eyes, he wished me Merry Christmas and placed a charm on my bracelet. I sat up and looked at the beautiful Christmas tree dangling on my wrist along with the heart shaped diamond he gave me after the attack and the blue sapphire and diamond starfish charm he gave me when he kissed me goodnight on my birthday. Reminding me that sapphire was my birth stone.
He told me Charlie was coming to get me so I put on a new flannel PJ and rushed off to brush my teeth. I barely had time to give Edward a goodbye kiss before Charlie was at my door. He insisted on dragging me down to the Christmas tree like I was a little kid.
I bought him a nice fishing rod and a box of tackles. He was really excited. He gave me a new winter jacket and a gift certificate for a book store. Renee and Phil sent me sweaters and more gift cards so I could buy exactly what I wanted. After we exchanged gifts, Charlie and I made breakfast then went upstairs to shower and change. He had an early shift at the station – he and his officers were doing short shifts so everyone could have some family time today. Edward would come back in his car so we could get an early start on our celebration with his family. Charlie would meet me there later.
Shopping for the Cullens was really hard. They had everything but armed with my black shinny credit card; I was determined to find them things I know they would like. I got jewelry for all the women. What woman would complain about having too much jewelry? I gave Carlisle an old fashioned pocket watch engraved with his initials. All the younger Cullen guys got vouchers to go skiing.
Edward got another surprise. A few months ago, I told him I wanted to read his journals so I took them home with me. What he didn't know, was that I sent them to a book binding company and had them turned into a collection of hard cover books bound in leather with gold lettering. I had to bribe Alice to keep her quiet – she gets to do pick something to add to the wedding without consulting me. I hope I don't live to regret that. He was very surprised. Now if he wanted to share his journals with anyone, he doesn't have to part with them or worry about them getting soiled or damaged.
Esme and Carlisle gave me a chain with the Cullen crest as a pendent. They said it didn't make sense to wait until the wedding because I was already part of the family. I almost cried. I got more clothes and gift cards from everyone. It was a fantastic Christmas.
January – since Thanksgiving we had planned to spend Christmas with Charlie and the New Year with Renee and Phil but I thought Renee would get suspicious if Edward was sick again. Edward suggested sending them plane tickets for Christmas. That sounded like a great plan se we sent them the tickets with and made plans to meet them in Seattle to celebrate New Year' and Carlisle reserved a suite so we had enough room for everyone. Rosalie and Emmett were staying at the hotel with us so we could all send this week together.
This worked out great because Renee wanted to meet Esme again. They still spend lots of time on the phone with wedding plans. The date was set, save the date cards were sent out and Alice had already ordered the dress but they seem to find lots more to decide on. They used the time together visiting every wedding shop they could get to - making final decisions on lots of things they considered essential. Alice tagged along with them because she wanted to be involved in every decision.
Edward and I did some sightseeing. He took me to the Space Needle then we had dinner at the Sky City Restaurant. The view was spectacular. We also did the Boeing tour and a harbor cruise. It was cold, but being with Edward is always fun so I hardly noticed the temperature but ever protective and practical, he insisted that I bundle up anyway so I wouldn't get sick. Sometime we ventures out alone, at other time one or more of his siblings came with us.
One night, the younger Cullens and I went out on the town – painting the town red as Alice said. The guys rented a limo, we all got dressed up and we went to a few different clubs. Emmett seems to know all the bouncers so we got in without waiting on line. It made me wonder what Emmett and Rosalie spent their time doing in Seattle. We all had a great time.
Most of the girls at the clubs alternated between lusting over Edward, Jasper and Emmett, envying us for being so lucky or shooting daggers at us because everywhere we went, we were the center of attention - getting VIP treatment. I'm sure some of them thought the Cullens were celebrities. A few brave ones came over to introduce themselves but none of them stayed long. You didn't need to be Einstein to see that the guys only had eyes for us. They were consoled with bottles of champagne and top shelf liquor because once they returned to their groups; the guys would motion to the waiter to give them a bottle of whatever they wanted.
Phil had a friend who played for the minor league baseball team in Seattle so he got to hang out with him and catch up when mom was engrossed in wedding details. We all got together in the suite after dinner, talking about our day, watching TV or playing games - this way, my mom and Phil didn't have to wonder why the Cullens didn't eat or the Cullens didn't have to hide food like they do around Charlie.
For our New Year's celebration, Rosalie bought tickets to a Masquerade Ball at a club called Venom – how ironic was that? She even arranged fittings at an exclusive boutique for all of us. Renee was delighted to get dressed up and she loved the masks that Rosalie selected. We toasted the New Year and the Cullens pretended to take a sip of champagne. It was a beautiful night. One I hope I never forget.
That was a wonderful week. Both Renee and Phil had fun with the Cullens. Edward seemed to know every detail about all the MLB teams and players so he and Phil got along fine - Phil was hoping to make it into the big league. We made plans to meet again over Spring break. It was fun spending time with my mom again.
Whew…. just trying to get all of this on paper is exhausting. I'll have to go back to fill in more details later but at least I have a starting point. I threw my journal in my bag and started getting ready for the weekend. The guys were redeeming their vouchers from Christmas and they're taking us with them. It's Martin Luther King weekend so we have an extra day to enjoy the snow. Edward went to get his car and we'll be speeding through the night to start our next adventure early Saturday morning. I'm looking forward to becoming a snow bunny, Alice and Rosalie assured me that it will be fun even if I never hit the slopes.