Yeah… ended that on a cliffhanger (I literally typed "cliffhangar" just there! You know, like hangar bay… ha, ha, ha… nevermind), didn't I?
I wanted you to stew…
But I read so much fanfiction that I know what it's like to wait for a chapter, especially after a cliffhanger, and I'm soft and caring, so I'm uploading this right away (right away being 11 o' clock at night).
I also posted a oneshot based on something someone said on… I think it was Twitter, that made me really happy, so it's basically how episode nine should go.
I'm also realizing how weird I'm being with this story. Episode VIII was my favorite Star Wars movie so far, and I basically took a total of ten minutes of it and shoved the rest aside and was like "this never happened." Granted, it was my favorite ten minutes (aside from the whole Reylo-battle-thigh-touch scene, which made me fangirl so hard), but still.
I have a ton of stuff to say, I'm so sorry, it's just that I haven't posted in like, two days. I should probably explain why. Well, Christmas, for one. That took up, like, a whole day. I actually got a white Christmas, which was crazy. The snow's still there, actually. Where I live, it rarely snows. It rains a lot, but it almost never snows. And then on Christmas day we got like, an inch and a half (which caused my mom not to want to drive, which caused my grandparents to subject me to watching the 1970 movie musical "Scrooge"). But yeah, I didn't post on Christmas because I was enjoying my family, and then when I got a chance, I went on and every time I tried to upload a document, it said it couldn't process the document or whatever. So I went on the forums and blah, blah, blah and eventually found that nobody could upload documents, which made me feel better, even though I'm not one of those super prepared people who has three weeks' worth of documents prepared (for me, that would be like 63 documents, Jesus Christ, I upload like three a day), but I figured it out, so here we are.
Anyway, you're here for the Reylo, not my life story, so I let's get this show on the road.
"Ben…?"
Let's rewind to four days ago. Rey and I felt awkward about the fact that we thought one of us would have to die. The fact that we only had to spill our blood, though we didn't realize it at the time, is neither here nor there. (Rey cut her leg on a bush, I think I mentioned that, which is why this storyline works. Ben figured it out, but Rey doesn't know, so she thought the only way out was to kill Ben) We split up and helped people, even though we both knew it wouldn't do any good. Then, at some point, I passed her, saw the note in her hand, and saw a small cut on her leg. Blood was slowly trickling down her knee. And all at once, I understood. It clicked into place, like the pieces of a puzzle. I kept walking, formulating a plan, calculating. Then, I projected my body out to her, using the Force. We argued, but eventually I got her to throw my lightsaber at my Force projection. She never saw me grasp the handle of the saber to hold it in place so it looked convincing. Otherwise, it would have just fallen to the ground. She never realized the complexity. I had to hide my life force from her. I practically broke our Force bond. But not quite.
Which brings us to this moment. She gave a whole speech about me and how much she wanted to die, and at some point, I took her hand, though I remained standing, and she looked up and said my name, not expecting me (why would she be? I was dead). She's obviously surprised. But behind that, I'm obviously in trouble. I sit down and spill my whole story. When I finish, she says, "you're a genius. Obviously, I still hate you for making me grieve for four days, but you're a genius." I smile and nod, ignoring the hate comment. "I love you, Rey. I swore never to leave you."
"That's true."
"Are you still mad at me?" I sound like a child in trouble, trying to charm his parents out of it.
"Yes." She pauses. "But I'll still kiss you." And she does. We sit together in silence for a while, both thinking about the heavy question looming over us both. Eventually, Rey voices both of our concerns. "What do we do?"
"I'm not sure, babe. I'm tired of all the hiding, and the lying, and the pain involved in this goddamn relationship, but you are literally the most amazing person ever to live in the entire galaxy. I'd endure anything for you."
"Ben… we need to talk about something. We need to talk about the… other guy."
"Kylo Ren?"
"No, the Incredible Hulk! Obviously we're talking about Kylo Ren."
(Removed dialogue: "who's the Incredible Hulk?" I asked. "He won't be invented for a long time, and he'll exist in a galaxy far, far from here." Just so you know I know that that's not reasonable.)
"Okay," I replied. "What about it?"
"Ben… I can't just forgive you."
"I know."
"If I could just magically forget everything, like that-" she snaps her fingers "then I would. In a heartbeat." She snaps her fingers again, three times. "Bam! you never killed your father. Bam! you never went to the Dark Side. Bam! you never tortured Poe Dameron." Her examples almost make me laugh. "And your mother would, too. But people like Finn and Poe… you've had a serious negative impact on them. Finn… I mean, you tore him away from his family as a baby and made him into a mindless killer. And you captured Poe and tortured him for information!" I stand, and put my face in my hands with shame. "Yes, I know what I did."
"So you know why I can't just let you back in."
"Yes."
"I love you, Ben. I believe you can change. I've been fighting for you this whole goddamn time. Don't prove me wrong." I kiss her. "Rey, I just want one final chance."
"Okay." We kiss again, and for a brief time, everything is perfect.
But not really, because they still have to tell everyone in the base that Ben is back and they're okay.
And one more plot twist.
See, I was originally going to make a sequel, and that's why I kept saying "last plot twist" et. cetera, but then I realized that it wouldn't really have a conflict, so it wouldn't work as its own story, I had to incorporate it into this one.
This is actually the last plot twist. If you're disappointed that I'm almost done with this story (probably only four more chapters, max), don't be, because I'm going to keep writing Reylo. There's a lot of Reylo content to explore, and my brain is spitting out ideas faster than my hands can type. So don't worry. It's not like I'm finishing this and then immediately disappearing from the internet forever. If I did that, it would be because I was dead, and you would all know, because I'm so stupid that I would tell you exactly what I was going to do and when I was going to do it.
Um…
That's depressing.
Sidenote: you all pretty much saw the whole "Ben isn't dead" thing coming, right? I'm not imagining that?
Anyway, I love you all so much!
Love,
Allie