A/N: Here you go, y'all, so you don't have to wait too long to find out your answer. :)
"Yeah?" Fitz asked as his looked up at his wife, anxiously awaiting the answer. Was she pregnant or not? He wasn't exactly sure what they would do if she wasn't. Would they keep trying for another? Would they give up and just decide that Bellamy and Ben were going to be their last two? He wasn't even really sure what he wanted now. He didn't want to take the risk now that he was thinking about it. For Mellie to successfully carry a baby at her age, the chances were slim. But then again she had carried Teddy and the twins with nearly no problem. Nearly. Then again, she had spent the majority of her pregnancy with Ben and Bellamy in the hospital. But he decided to stop worrying, to wait until he heard what Mellie had to say first.
She sucked on her bottom lip and shook her head slightly. "No. I'm not pregnant." Mellie told him, looking at him. Fitz stood up and walked over to her, wrapping his arms around her tiny body. He kissed her forehead, holding her close to him.
"What are we going to do? Do you want to try? Or do you want to just leave it?" He asked, running his hand through her soft, messed up curls.
"I think...If you still want one, let's keep trying." Mellie told him, and Fitz nodded, kissing Mellie's lips slowly, and softly. She pulled away and looked up at him. "I know it's late...but do you want to try some tonight?"
Fitz smirked, nodding his head. "Of course I want to try tonight, Mel." He pulled her into his arms and kept kissing her, slowly undressing her. Even though earlier he had wanted their night to be full of sweat and Mellie's legs above her head, he could tell that Mellie wanted to make love, to take things slow. And he wanted to, too. If they were going to make a baby, to actually try for one, he wanted it to be like when he was first trying to get her pregnant, back when they were trying for Jerry. They hadn't tried for Karen, that was a drunken accident. Teddy was planned, but neither of them had actually wanted to touch each other. Fitz just thought about Olivia the entire time that he was inside of Mellie, which he regretted more than anything right now. And as for the twins, that was another one of their drunken accidents, as much as he hated to admit. He wanted this baby to be made out of love.
They spent their entire night wrapped in each other arms, slowly moving with each other, their bodies covered in a thin film of sweat. Mellie fell asleep around 4am, curled up in Fitz's arms. She slept next to him, her head on his chest, and Fitz's arms wrapped around her. They slept for hours, peacefully, until they woke up, and engaged in yet another round. When they finished, Fitz held his wife, kissing all over her. "Good God, Mel...you are such a beautiful woman." He whispered, and immediately, Mellie froze up.
"Fitz..." Mellie mumbled, pushing him away from her. "It's late. We have to get up." She told him, shaking her head slightly as she struggled to get out of his arms. He wouldn't allow it though, and just continued to hold her.
"Mels, what's wrong?" Fitz asked, and there was a quiet knock on the door, which made Mellie quietly thank God for that little miracle. She got up and put on her robe, Fitz following suit as he pulled on his boxers.
Mellie opened the door, and Teddy looked up at his mother, his stuffed giraffe in his hand. "Momma, yous sleep too long." Teddy told her, pouting as he held his arms around toward her. Mellie picked him up and pulled him into her arms. "Mes wanna watch Spongebobs with yous."
"You wanna watch Spongebob with me?" Mellie asked, smiling as her son nodded. "Well I would love to watch Spongebob with you. How about you go and get settled in the living room while mommy gets dressed and checks on Bells and Ben?" She kissed Teddy's cheek and he nodded as she set him down. Teddy ran off and Mellie went back into her bedroom, where Fitz was staring at her.
"Honey...what's wrong?" He asked as she came back in. Mellie just shook her head and Fitz stood up, walking toward her. "Something's wrong, Mels. What is it?" He asked, sighing as she once again ignored him.
He continued to follow her, and Mellie sighed as she turned around and looked at him. She didn't want to tell him, it was stupid, but she knew that he wouldn't leave her alone if she didn't tell him. "Fitz..." She mumbled, sighing as she looked up at him. "What you said...right before I tried to leave...it was the same thing your father said to me the night that he, the night that he forced himself on me." She sucked in a breath as she tried to fight the memories that had already filled her mind that morning. "It just took me back...and made me think about what he did to me."
"Mellie..." Fitz whispered, looking at his wife. He didn't want to touch her. He wasn't sure if she could handle that right now, and he didn't want to push her. "Baby, I'm sorry." Fitz told her, sighing quietly. "I don't know what to say other than sorry, because I know that I can't take the pain away, I know that I can't take the memories away, and that I can't keep you from thinking about it. I wish I could, but I know that I can't."
Mellie nodded, looking at him. "It's okay, Fitz. It's fine. You didn't know." She told him, frowning slightly. "Don't worry about it. I'm okay. I will be okay. I'm just gonna go take a shower and spend the day with our son, okay?"
Fitz nodded and Mellie moved closer to him. "You can kiss me, you know." She told him, and Fitz carefully draped his arms around her, kissing her gently. "I love you." Mellie whispered.
"I love you too." He kissed her forehead and dropped his arms, watching as she walked into the bathroom. Mellie took a quick shower and got dressed before going to check on the twins. They were playing on the floor with Fitz, all three of them smiling and happy. Mellie said good morning to both of her babies, and kissed Fitz once more, before going into the living room, where Teddy was sitting on the couch. He was waiting for his mother, and he grinned widely when she walked in. Mellie smiled and sat next to him, turning on Spongebob.
Teddy climbed into her lap and snuggled close to her, playing with her pearl necklace as he watched the television. Mellie rubbed his back, holding her son close as the two of them spent the entire day together, binge watching Spongebob. Teddy fell asleep in her arms after a few hours, and eventually Mellie fell asleep as well. /
Fitz came to check on them when he was on his way to go get dinner, and he smiled slightly when he saw the two of them asleep, Teddy curled up against his mother. This was a sight that he would never get used to, that wouldn't stop touching his heart until the day that he died. He loved seeing Mellie with their kids, and he especially loved seeing how close Mellie was with Teddy. The two of them were nearly inseparable, and Fitz loved that. He was so used to seeing Mellie hand off their babies to whoever would take them.
He snapped a picture before he went to eat, and he came back a while later, sitting next to both of them. He held Mellie in his arms and didn't even notice when Teddy woke up and looked at him. "My mommy." He told Fitz, pouting as he tried to push Fitz's arms off of Mellie.
Fitz chuckled slightly, running her hand through Teddy's hair. "I'm sorry buddy. I know she's yours. I'm just giving her some love while you're sleeping."
Teddy nodded. "Okays. Well mes up now so she mines again." Teddy told his father, and Fitz just smiled, nodding as he unwrapped his arms from Mellie, but kept his hand on her thigh, where Teddy couldn't see it.
Fitz watched as his son curled up closer to Mellie, putting his legs under his bottom and sucking his thumb as he laid his head on Mellie's chest. Fitz couldn't help but laugh, remembering that that was the exact position that Teddy used to always go to when he was a baby and Mellie would hold him. It was a rare occurrence, but Fitz remembered it vividly.
Mellie slowly woke up, looking at Teddy and smiling. It took her a while to notice Fitz, and she turned her head toward him, smiling slightly. "You know...I don't regret the twins. I couldn't. But...I think I would have been perfectly content with just having my Teddy Bear. I feel bad that he never really had a chance to be by himself and be the only one that had his parents' love."
Fitz nodded and looked at her. "I know. I understand." He told her, his gaze going from his wife to Teddy. "But I don't think he cares. As long as he gets his mommy's attention, he's content."
"I know he is. And believe me, I love spending time with my boy." Mellie smiled and ruffled Teddy's hair. "But don't worry. That doesn't mean that I'm changing my mind on us trying. I still want that." She laid her head on Fitz's shoulder, and he just nodded.
He wrapped his arm around Mellie, smiling as Teddy glared at him and gave him a warning stare. "Sorry, little man. You gotta share her." He told him and Teddy just nodded, snuggling back into his mother. Bellamy and Ben came running in, struggling to climb on the couch. Fitz helped them up and they curled up in between their parents, laying their heads on Mellie and Fitz's shoulders. Fitz just smiled to himself, not sure how he got so lucky to have such a great family. Of course, it would be so much better with Karen, but he couldn't change how she felt about him. So he was going to try harder with these three, and with the new baby that they were hopefully going to have. He was going to try harder with Mellie as well. He wanted to keep her happy and keep her wanting to stay with him. He couldn't lose her. Not again.