Cat, Jade and Beck walked hand in hand with each other, with Andrea walking behind them. While they had brave smiles on their faces, each one of them had their own worries hanging over them as a black, rainy cloud. Jade was looking over at Cat anxiously, pulling Cat's fingers out of her mouth every now and again and telling her to stop. She was thinking that Cat was looking increasingly nervous as they headed towards their destination. Beck was clutching Jade's hand just a little too tightly for it to seem casual. Jade looked over at him and smiled, a tight lipped grimace, trying to assure him.

They all stopped at the gate, when they finally arrived; just stood there staring at the rows of headstones, dead flowers and rotting remains of teddy bears for poor babies. Andrea gave them little pats on the back, urging them forward.

"Come on, darlings," She said comfortingly. Cat swallowed, breathing in short bursts, her chest tightening. Her face crumpled, but she didn't cry.

"Jade," She said limply, pulling her best friend weakly.

"No," Jade replied firmly, taking her hand once again. "Come on."

Cat shakily nodded her head, walking in as she pushed the creaky gates out of her way. They headed into the graveyard. Jade was fascinated, though she didn't like the cobwebs going in her hair. Cat was physically shaking, blinking rapidly. Beck was looking around, his expression uneasy.

"Cat, you okay?" Beck asked. Cat nodded, not wanting to make a fuss and they continued.

Andrea stepped out from the path, minding her step to not tread on a grave. "You know, kids, it might be a long while till we find the grave. Are you sure you want to do this?" All three nodded. "OK."

They walked, and about twenty minutes later, after getting sick of reading the graves and not having a clue if it could be Cat's mom, Jade asked, "What's her name, Cat?"

"Her name…Her name is…was, I mean, Charlotte. I don't know if it'll have that on it though….Everyone called mommy Charlie."

"Oh, alright, what shall we look for then?"

"Look for Charlotte, dear. It'll be her full name, I presume." Andre piped in.

"Alright," Jade replied. She kept looking, reading for Charlotte's and Charlie's alike.

"Look, Charlotte Valentine," Beck said, pointing to a pretty headstone, covered in purple freesias. A bunch of bright red roses sat on the still moderately fresh earth and a picture of Charlotte and Cat, with Cat's big brother and dad, sat on the earth too. Cat trailed over slowly, kneeling at the earth. Her little face looked crushed.

"Mommy…" She said, tracing the writing on the stone. She looked up to the blue sky, sighing. "I miss you," She trailed "I love you" in the dirt with her finger and kissing the gravestone. She blinked trying to understand everything. It was hard to her. She picked up the tatty photo, and stared at it. "I don't remember this." She snorted a sort of deluded laugh. "I don't remember anything. Oh, mommy. I don't remember you." She started to breakdown for the first time then, and Jade breathed out. It sounded mean, but it was a relief. Cat wasn't superhuman or something. She still wasn't crying, though.

"It's okay to cry, Cat." Jade confirmed, trying to soothe her. It didn't work and made her more upset.

"I can't cry. Don't you understand?" Cat cried, throwing her hands in the air. She knocked a flower by accident, making it fly across the grass. "I don't remember anything. Jade, I don't know anymore. I can't cry…I don't even know if I'm upset."

"Oh, Cat." Jade said, putting her arms around her. "Stop biting your nails," Jade added, pulling her hand away from her mouth once again. Cat looked up sheepishly.

"I'm sorry."

Cat turned to the grave again. "I still love you mommy. I promise. I'm sorry." She closed her eyes and put her head to the sky, as if she was praying. She whispered something inaudible to herself and smiled as she sat back down.

"I knew you'd understand, mommy."

A/N:

So, here's your update. I need to get on with my French now, so I hope you enjoy this :) Also, if you like Seddie, would you mind checking out "Terrible Things"? Thanks :)