A/N: Chapter is rated M for Mature Content. I've never got this explicate before, so this is not intended for younger readers or someone that is disturbed by sex with a mutant turtle. You've been warned.

Alexandra watched the passing of trees as the old, familiar Farm House came into view. She dragged her index finger tip slowly back and forth over her bottom lip as her eyes scanned the large empty area. Dead, brown grass covered the lawn with small spots of snow from an early fall. Casey looked over at his sister in the passenger seat of their dad's old blue fifty six mustang.

"How ya holdin' up Pip?" He asked softly as the Battle Shell pulled up behind them.

"Tired." She sighed softly opening the door and stepping out onto the moist gravel. Tugging her father's leather jacket tighter around her body she looked over her shoulder as Raphael got out of the back of the Battle Shell followed by his brothers. Hayley and April got out of the front seats as they both pulled their jackets closer against themselves.

Alex walked straight towards the house walking inside, not waiting for anyone as Casey sighed closing his door shut and grabbing both of their bags.

"How she doin'?" Raph asked taking Alex's bag from his best friend as Casey shook his head with a sigh.

"She barely talked the whole way here. I dun know what's goin' on wit 'er." He said as Raph sighed nodding his head.

Hayley reached into the back grabbing her bag and moving it to the ground as she pulled forward April's and hung it over her shoulder. She reached down for hers and furrowed her brow noticing it was gone. Looking around quickly she saw Leonardo had took it along with his own and tossed Mikey's his. She arched a brow for leaning against the bumper of the truck and crossed her arms over her chest. Clearing her throat loud enough for him to turn his head, along with Mikey she smiled.

"Can I um, help you with that?" She asked as he smiled for a moment.

"I got it." He said walking towards the house.

Alexandra kept her arms tightly wrapped around her body, looking around the large opened living room. Dust covers over the sofa and old chairs pushed aside with a bookshelf on the far wall. Stepping inside she walked through the nearly empty room into the kitchen. She heard the old screen door bounce off its wooden frame as a huff and the sound of bags falling onto the hardwood floor made itself known in the other room. She looked over her shoulder noticing the larger turtle leaning against the kitchen's doorway.

"Babe…" He said softly as she sighed and turned towards him, her arms still wrapped around her. "You ok? Case said you barely talked durin' tha…"

"I had nothin' to say." She shrugged avoiding eye contact. He leaned off the wall walking off to her as she looked up at him for a moment. "What?"

"Wanna go for a walk?"

"Nah, it's cold and…"

"Lets go." He said grabbing her hand. She furrowed her brow about to pull her hand away as his grip only tightened around her hand.

"Hey where are you two…" Leonardo started as Raphael cut him off without a second glance.

"For a walk." He called back as Leo sighed looking towards Hayley as she followed him into the house.

"We should cut up some fire wood." Leo said as Donnie and Casey nodded.

"I'll help with the food!" Mikey said grabbing the grocery bags from April and jogging up the stairs and into the house. April smiled following the eager turtle as Hayley watched with a smile turning back towards Leo. Casey and Donnie exchanged glances before walking towards the back of the house.

"So um…be careful with that axe." She said patting his shoulder before taking a step backwards up the stairs. He smirked a little taking her hand in his before she pulled away. She stepped down the step as he pulled her body closer to his. "So it's alright to kiss you?" She asked softly as he smirked leaning down towards her face and capturing her lips with his own. "Good." She responded, licking her lips and opening her eyes on his.

"Go inside, it's cold." He said as she smiled and nodded. She turned to go up the stairs as he turned her back towards him letting their lips meet once more. She smiled at him as they pulled away and separated from one another.

Leonardo turned towards the barn to find his brother and Casey with a growing smile on his face.

Raphael and Alexandra walked in silence as she held her father's jacket closer around her cold body. Wind whistled through the trees and made her shiver as Raph looked over at her. He tugged her body to his, keeping his large arm around her shoulders. She sighed putting her hand inside his on her shoulder as she raised her eyes to him.

"I'm sorry babe, I've just been…" She sighed running a hand through her raven hair before pulling out of his arm and turning to face him. "This is all my fault. I mean if I never came back and just stayed…"

"Don't you dare finish that." He said narrowing his eyes and pointing a finger at her as she shook her head.

"Well, its true!" She said as he growled softly.

"No it's not Al! You came back for a reason, this is all happenin' for a reason! You comin' back is the best thing to happen to his family for a long time!"

"Best thing to happen for you Raph! Not the rest of 'em. Not Casey and his broken legs and ribs, not April for her shop that keeps gettin' threatenin' notes on her windows. Not you guys for havin' to save my sorry ass each time I try and fuckin' fight for myself!" Her yelled.

"So it's just me then? This is only good for me? It has nothin' to do with our whole relationship since you been back? It's meant jack shit to ya?" He yelled back as she let out a aggravated scream, pushing her hair back from her face that blew in from the cold wind.

"No! How many times do I hafta tell ya that I love ya?! I can't speak any other language so I don't know what ya want from me!"

"You got a good way of showin' it." He said, his voice dripping with vicious sarcasm as she shook her head placing her hands on her hips.

"This isn't 'bout me anymore remember?" She said matching his tone as he rolled his eyes.

"Well right now it is because you haven't said two words to anyone since ya little outburst with the table."

"I haven't needed to say anythin'." She said in a slight shrug.

"Why the fuck can't you talk to me?" He asked as she met his eyes slowly.

"I do." She shrugged again.

"Not enough." He said lowly, walking past her and up ahead of the path. She watched him for a moment before sighing and trying to catch up with him.

Dinner was cooked and eaten in mostly silence as Hayley and April helped clean up the dishes. Splinter and the turtles made their way outside for a training session as Alexandra watched from the steps.

She kept her father's jacket on her all day, with each in take of breath the smell of him seemed to diminish. She kept it tugged tightly around her body as the cool night wind rolled through the leaves. Looking up towards the starlit sky, she closed her eyes for a moment trying to swallow down her tears.

"Ya know he's up there don't ya?" She heard her brother's familiar gruff voice say from beside her as she brought her head back down and over towards him. He handed her a beer as she took it with the sleeve still covering her hand.

"Who is?" She asked arching a brow and taking a swig of her stale beer.

"Dad." Casey said looking up. "He's always gonna be there Pip." He said softly looking along the twinkling sky. "You don't ever have to feel like ya alone, or you ain't good enough. He didn't make us like that. Mah didn't make us like that. We are what we are, and no matter what mah says or how bad shit gets, he's smilin' up there and he's goddamn proud of you." He brought his gaze back down to hers as tears glistened in her bright blue eyes. He smirked for a moment tucking her raven hair behind her ear. "No one here is any less proud Pip. Not because of what happened or what might happen. It was gonna anyways, this shit always bites ya in the ass when ya least expect it." He shrugged. "We all love ya, and we're all in this together. Ya hear me?" He asked gripping her shoulder as she nodded wiping a tear that fell across her cheek.

"Yeah I hear ya." She said lifting her eyes to his with a smirk. He gave a small one back, tugging her body into his with a tight hug. "He's proud of you too Case." She said as he took in a slow breath.

"Yeah I know." He said pulling back, his voice cracking a bit as he stood up wiping a hand over his face. "I'ma get another beer, ya want one?" He asked hiding his face as she smiled a little wider.

"Nah, still full big brother." She said as he nodded before turning into the house. Hayley walked out as he walked in. She furrowed her brow for a moment trying to catch his face as he kept it down.

"Casey, are you alr…"

"Wind, somethin' got in my eye." He grumbled moving into the kitchen. She watched him disappear through the screen door as she kept her confused expression pointing her thumb over her shoulder.

"What was…"

"We were just talkin'." Alex said in a smile as Hayley smiled back sitting next to her friend.

"First time I saw you smile in days." She said nudging her shoulder as Alex sighed sitting back a bit.

"Just took me awhile." She said watching the boys for a moment as they all bowed towards their Sensei. Raphael raised his eyes to meet hers as she gave another meek smile. He returned it walking over to her as Splinter dismissed them. "Hey tough guy."

"Where's mine?" He asked nodding towards her beer as she smirked handing it to him.

"Right here baby." She winked as he arched an eye ridge.

"Uh huh." He said dryly taking a swig.

"Raphael." Chocking back on the sip he swallowed it quickly, clearing his throat and turning towards the elderly rat that made his way towards the steps. Alex took the beer from Raph's hand and placed it between her knees as her and Hayley chuckled lightly. "You did very well in practice this evening. Michelangelo should learn to be more quick with his upper rising blocks." He said looking over his shoulder at the youngest brother as he walked towards the steps on his hands.

"Thank you Sensei." He said clearing his throat once more as Leonardo smirked a little from behind his Master, his arms crossed over his plastron. Splinter nodded with a smile making his way inside the house.

"Real smooth babe." Alex chuckled handing him back his beer as Leonardo shook his head. He put his hand out as Hayley looked at it for a moment raising her eyes to his as he thrust it forward again. Arching a brow she put her hand into his as he pulled her to her feet.

"We're going for a walk." He said to the gather group of his brothers and Alex as they all nodded watching the two walk away.

"What's goin' on with that?" Raph asked as the others just shrugged in response. "What, Fearless and Hails datin'?"

"What's it matter to you? You got a thing for Hayley?" Alex asked crossing her arms as he watched the brunette walk away with his brother for a moment tilting his head as he felt a hard punch on his bicep.

"Hey! I was kiddin'!" He said as she narrowed her eyes on his. He rubbed his arm for a moment as she kept her eyes narrowed with a slight smirked forming on her lips.

"So…" Hayley said after awhile as they kept their hands together, lightly swinging between their bodies walking down a warn path. He smirked for a moment keeping his face straight as she looked over at him. She learned forward a bit to try and catch his expression as he tugged her back beside him. She let out a soft breath of a laugh keeping her face forward.

Her smile slowly faded as she looked out ahead of her as the trees opened to a large lake. The moonlight pooled into the pathway as the large glistening image shown itself on the crystal waters.

"Leo…this is…"

"I used to come here a lot." He said softly as she turned towards him, his hand still wrapped around hers. "I thought about a lot of things, being a good leader for my brothers, new tactics and ways to better myself and my brother's for a mission. Meditated on the good and the bad, but whenever I came her at night, and saw this I could do little about any of those thoughts because they were all suffocated by your face." He said turning towards her as she smiled. "I never realized I missed you so much it hurt until I came here." She took a step towards him, running her free hand slowly up his arm and leaning her chest against his until their lips met. They just laid them against each other's for a moment, their breathing held enjoying the feeling.

He raised his hand to the small of her back as she took another step forward wrapping her hand as far around his bicep as she good, gripping his skin. She opened her mouth on his as he followed the feeling, closing them again on her bottom lip. She smiled this time, opening again as she let the tip of her tongue slip in his mouth, deepening their kiss.

"C'mon." He said, his voice slightly husked from the rush of excitement he got from her lips on his as he pressed his forehead on hers. "I want to show you something else." He said pulling from her body as she giggled softly, from him tugging her body back against his as he walked down near the water.

"This old house holds a lot of good memories." Alex sighed softly as she and Raph sat on the old proud swig. He moved his leg back and forth, his arm draped over her shoulder as her feet were tucked on the seat beside her, her body nestled against his side.

"Yeah it does." He said softly looking up at the night sky.

"Raph, 'bout earlier…"

"I dun wanna talk 'bout that right now." He said as she just nodded.

"I do love ya, ya know." She said after a moment of silence as he sighed.

"I know."

"You ever doubt that again, and I'm gonna castrate you." She said keeping her face towards the skies. "Got me?" He turned towards her as she kept her face forward taking a swig of her beer bottle.

"Yeah, I got ya." He said as she turned towards him.

"Good."

"Hey you two, Casey and I made hot coco, you want some?" April asked as she leaned the top half of her body out of the screen door. Alex smiled at the red head as her and Raph both raised their beers in their hands. April smiled nodding her head. "Ok, suit yourself." She shrugged. "Have you guys seen Leo or Hayley?" She asked looking around the empty yard as both of them shook their heads.

"Nah, not since they went for their walk." Alex said as April nodded.

"Well, Leo's there I'm sure their safe." She smiled before going back inside the house.

Alex smiled snuggling her body closer against Raph's side as he pulled her body tighter, holding her in place with his hand on her arm.

"You're not weak." He said gruffly after a moment of another thick silence. She looked towards him as he looked at her out of the corner of his eye. "And you'ra dumbass for thinkin' so. N' if you ever say that you regret comin' back here to me again, you really will regret it." He said taking another swig as she smirked a little.

"I was just scared." She sighed with a shrug. "I thought once I got 'em alone that would be it. For years I plotted it, that exact moment and I did nothin'. I just stood there and let 'em back up. I didn't even see the fuckin' car." She sighed shaking her head. "I just kept relivin' that fuckin' moment in my head over and over and over again until I just, shut down." She shrugged again. "I didn't wanna talk to ya or Case because I knew exactly what you'd both say. I didn't wanna hear that it wasn't my fault, that I did good. I wasn't ready to believe it because I knew what I had to do and I pussied out. I coulda just…" She sighed again. "But, now I know that it didn't happen. I cannot keep livin' in the past. I learn from it and move on, relivin' in it will just make my heart weak with anger and vengeance."

"At least you learned somethin' in ya trainin'." He smirked swigging his beer.

"Yeah…" She smirked. "Who knew?"

Hayley laid on her back in the cool grass of the field over looking the lake. Leonardo's body laid between her legs, as his hand searched under her shirt and up the curve of her breast.

She moaned softly against his lips as his hips thrust harder against her, as her pants were kicked off right at her feet. His breath hitched in his throat as he held her in his arms, her shoulder blade being held from the moist ground by his forearm, as his hand gripped her thick hair. His other hand holding his body from hers as his fingers dug into the soil.

He held her tighter as he slowly rode off the last thrust into her body, her heavy breathing washing against his neck as he picked his head up and looked down at her. She smiled for a moment as he slid his arms from around her. He pushed himself from her body slowly in a grunt, handing her, her pants as she leaned up and took them with a smile in thanks. Sliding them up her legs she looked out ahead of her as the moon's large reflection waved through the ripples of water.

"You're right." She said softly as he tied on his bandana looking over his shoulder at her. "It is a beautiful view." She said with another smile as he gave one back, leaning over to her and kissing the side of her head. "So we never really agreed on anything." She said as he placed her sweater back around her shoulders, gliding his arms around her to rest on her waist.

"Agreed on what?" He asked resting his chin against her shoulder as his body slowly cooled itself down. She smiled nuzzling her cheek against his as he kissed it.

"On us. Like, is there an 'us'?"

"Do you want…"

"Yes. I've said that a million times." She said rolling her eyes as he smiled and nodded his head.

"Then there is an us." He shrugged slightly. "You're aware of everything and you know the consequences of becoming involved with me."

"I knew that when I was welcomed into the family Leo." She said over her shoulder looking in his eyes as he kissed her lips softly.

"Exactly my point."

"So, there is an us?" She asked again to make sure arching a brow as he kissed her again.

"Do you want me to ask you to be my girlfriend?" He asked sarcastically as she narrowed her eyes for a moment.

"Maybe." She said turning towards him now as he sighed and let his head fall a little.

"Hayley Williams…" He said raising his eyes to hers as she smirked a little. "Will you be my girlfriend?" He asked as she chuckled.

"Do you want to put it on a note and write a little box that says check 'yes' or 'no'?" She asked jokingly as he rolled his eyes getting to his feet. She chuckled again and grabbed his hand pulling him back to her lips. "Yes I will." She said softly as he smiled pressing his lips on hers again.

Raphael pressed Alex's back hard against a wooden pillar of the barn as his hands gripped into the back of her thighs. She moaned softly as it was muffled by his mouth going roughly back on hers. Her hands gripped tightly, her finger tips digging and clawing the muscles in his shoulders as she lifted her weight as much as she could with her upper strength and thighs around his waist.

He pushed himself harder in between her legs as she let out another moan as he moved his lips from her neck back to her lips. It became muffled once more as he bite her bottom lip.

"Quit it." He growled as she breathed heavily, looking down at him as he positioned her in his arms so he could remove her pants.

"Quit what?" She asked in between pants as he just glared up at her.

"The noises, you're so fuckin' loud." He hissed as she glared back shoving his hands off her body. She caught herself before she fell to the ground, her button of her jeans undone as he growled at her putting his body back on hers. Her back slammed against the pillar once again as her hands were forced above her head. He put both wrists in one large hand moving the other slowly down the curve of her body. He kept his dark eyes on her icy blue ones as his thumb caressed her nipple over her shirt. She tried to keep her body from trembling as he moved his hand down to her jeans and tugged them down roughly.

She arched her back, clenching her eyes and biting her lip as his finger slid into her moist center. She bucked her hips against him as a smug smile washed over his face. He put his lips down on her neck as her breathing hitched once more from his finger sliding slowly back and harshly in.

"You'ra asshole." She shuttered as he chuckled darkly biting the skin on her neck as her back arched against him once more.

He removed his hand from her and she instantly missed it, opening her eyes on his and letting out a soft whimper as he moved his body back on hers. She felt him hard against her stomach as her breathing started to quicken, and her body almost hurt with the want that rushed through her body.

Gripping the back of her thighs once more, her body slide back against the pillar as he didn't wait for her to hold onto him as he slid in between her. She gasped as he held her on one arm, clapping a hand over her mouth. He glared at her as her eyes opened against his feeling his hot hand, with a mixture of sweat and herself twisting into her nostrils.

"Shut up." He hissed as she nodded her head. He placed his hand back down on the back of her thigh, holding her against him and the pillar as he moved out slowly, pushing himself hard back in. She clenched her eyes, pressing her lips tightly together as she clapped her own hand to her mouth.

She couldn't help but get more turned on from the fact that they had to be quiet and sneaking. Hayley and Leo should be back any minuet, and Splinter didn't have the layers of bricks to keep him from the noises that escaped her lips. Her body trembled as she bit hard on her wrist trying to stifle the gasps and cries as he thrust his body harder into hers. His grunts and heavy breath made themselves known on neck as her hair stuck to it with sweat. He moved one of his hands from the back of her thigh, pushing his body tighter to hers as he sheathed inside of her to the hilt, keeping himself against her as his large hand gripped her thick skin on her waist, moving up and messaging her breast. He moved his head down kissing the sweet skin on her chest covered in sweat, leaving a red mark and broken blood vessels against her rounded cleavage.

The sounds of her cries were muffled behind her hand as he smirked a little digging his strong hand into her body as his movements became faster and harder. Her finger nails dug into his green skin so hard a drop of crimson rolled down his bicep. She cried out behind her hand as he moved it quickly pressing his lips hard to hers. The back of her head smacking into the pillar, but being ignore as an orgasm rolled through her every limb. He grunted softly against her as she felt a rush of hot hit into her and up her body as the movements slowly diminished.

Their breathing echoed in each other's ears as they heaving chests pressed against each others from their bodies settling down. He let his hand from her thigh loosen slowly as her feet were placed on the ground. She quickly held onto him to hold her in place from her legs shaking from the shock wave still rolling through her body.

"Can you walk?" He asked in between pants as she shook her head, one hand gripping onto his shoulder as the other kept her steady on the pillar. She leaned down slowly on shaky legs pulling her pants back up and buttoning them with shaky hands. He sighed trying to catch his breath and stepped towards her, placing her back up in his arms.

"Can you?" She asked in a chuckle as he rolled his eyes.

"What the fuck do ya call this?" He asked as he walked out of the barn. She held onto his shoulders as she smiled a little kissing the spot on his shoulder were she broke skin.

"I guess this place holds more interesting memories now." She chuckled a little as he smirked for a moment, opening the door to the house and walking inside.