Hey there guys! How's things? I've had some trouble uploading this chapter (stupid fricking computers). Anyway after the EXCESSIVE begging of TotallyAwesome277 and Beffax3 the next chapter is finally here! Don't hate me too much, kay? xxx Love you guys!

Lauren sat in the back of the cab, staring out the window. She knew what she was doing was stupid, and she knew if Brian found out he would completely freak out, but in her eyes, she didn't have much choice. The cab stopped outside of Brian's building. She paid the driver and headed the 6 flights up to his apartment. When she arrived she knocked on the door.

"Coming" Darren's voice came from inside the apartment. Lauren breathed deeply as the door opened. "Hey J- Oh, Lauren….. Uh what are you doing here?"

"I just, didn't want to leave things between us the way they were last night." She said.

Darren didn't say anything so she continued. "I see you've found a place to stay…."

Darren nodded again but still didn't say anything. It was weird, seeing him so quiet.

"So, can I come in?"

He moved out of the way and she walked past him sitting down on the couch in the next room. He followed her and sat beside her.

"Lauren I'm sorry about last night. I just, really wish you felt the same way about me…" He said quietly.

Lauren nodded. "It's okay, Darren. I know."

"I'm really sorry for what I did... I was just worked up…. Brian's always been such a loyal friend and what does that make me?"

"He doesn't blame you. You didn't know about us when you kissed me. He's just stressed out about it. But what you said last night wasn't cool…" Darren looked down at his hands without saying anything. "…and you being here is really awkward for him"

Darren looked up at this. "Where am I supposed to go? Joe offered me a place to stay and I took it. I didn't know Brian lived here too, I've been in LA!" He exclaimed. An awkward silence fell between them before Lauren sighed and moved on.

"You haven't told anyone yet have you?"

"About your…. situation? No. After I cooled down a little I accepted that it wasn't my place to spread it around. I didn't know if anyone else knew so…"

"Thank you." She replied a little relieved. "You and Julia are the only two that know and I'd like it to stay that way until I can get my head cleared."

"What do you mean by that?"

"Well I'm just really confused at the moment Dare and last night didn't really help matters."

"So it did mean something to you? The Kiss."

"No…." she replied but her voice had suddenly gone shaky as an internal argument erupted in her head.

"That didn't sound too convincing" Darren replied, not trying nearly hard enough to hide his obvious smile.

"Why does it matter? I'm with Brian, I love him." She replied, trying to clear her head but too much was going on in there.

"It matters." He said seriously.

"I…. I can barely remember it okay, I was in shock" Lauren looked up into his face as Darren smiled that cute, goofy smile that she was sure could quite literally melt any girl's heart.

Her head was spinning. She couldn't think clearly. She looked into Darren's eyes, big and puppy-like, she wasn't quite sure how long they were staring at each other. He put a hand on her cheek, brushing a strand of hair out of her face. She was lost in his eyes, suddenly unaware of everything else.

"Let me remind you" he said softly as he leant forward and kissed her tenderly on the lips. Everything passed by in a blur. It didn't even register until she felt herself kissing him back. Her mind was screaming. She wanted to pull away, but it was like she no longer had control over her body. The kiss grew in passion as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in closer, but it felt wrong. It didn't feel the same as when she kissed Brian. Sure it was romantic, full of hunger, steam, but when she kissed Brian, she felt loved, protected, special, like she never wanted it to end. Finally, her mind regained control of her body and she pushed him back gasping. Her eyes filled with tears almost instantly as she realized what she'd just done. Darren stared back at her in shock from her sudden act.

"I can't Darren. I can't. I love Brian. I have to go." She said standing up.

"Lauren wait" Darren said going to grab her arm.

Lauren shook her head, batting his hand out of the way. "I have to go."

As she turned however, she saw the person who had been standing in the doorway watching the scene unfold. Julia's face was full of shock, disgust and anger, her eyes tearing up.

"Julia….." Lauren started. Julia shook her head eyeing the two of them dangerously before turning and storming out of the apartment

"Shit" Darren cursed under his breath. "Sorry I forgot she was coming over"

Lauren shook her head crying and ran out of the apartment, grabbing her bag on the way out. She could hear Darren calling after her but it didn't matter. As she burst through the doors of the building, the harsh cold breeze hit her face, stinging her eyes. She called a cab and got in, still crying. She didn't even attempt to look remotely normal as she climbed in. The driver glanced at her awkwardly.

"Where to?" He asked gently.

She gave him her address and continued sobbing quietly to herself. What had she done? It all seemed so surreal to her. She'd never considered herself a cheater, but that's exactly what she'd just done. She'd cheated on Brian. It was just a kiss, but that didn't matter, in her eyes, it was the same thing and she felt like the worst person in the world. She tried to steady her breathing, but she couldn't do it. Her heart felt like it was quickly filling with a thick, sickening liquid. She felt it consume her, as her hands started to shake. She rested them on her stomach, in an attempt to stop them, but as she glanced down and remembered, felt even more guilt engulf her. She was pregnant with Brian's baby, and here she was making out with other guys, while he was at work, trying to earn money for them.

The cab pulled up outside Lauren's building. Despite the fact that she had been staring out the window, she didn't notice that the car had stopped, until the cab driver turned to look at her.

"Miss, we're here…" he said softly to her.

She jumped slightly at his voice, and turned to look at him. "Oh sorry" she sniffed still crying. She didn't care anymore. She didn't care what he thought. She didn't care what anyone thought. She didn't deserve their respect. She was scum; the type of person you wished would just be killed off on those late night TV shows; the ones who didn't deserve the love of the main character; the hero. She opened her purse in search of her wallet.

"Uh, don't worry about it, it's on me" The driver said kindly.

She looked back up at him shocked and confused.

"You have enough on your plate…" He added.

She smiled, just barely at him. "I don't deserve it" She said quietly shaking her head, returning to her wallet and pulled out some money and handed it to the driver. "Thank you anyway."

The Driver smiled and accepted the money. "Whatever it is Miss, just remember that life goes on. It doesn't stop. It doesn't move in reverse. It constantly moves forward. We can't change the past. Living in the past is a waste of the future. I'd hate to see a young girl, like you, trapped in her past."

She sat quietly, in slight amazement at the driver, going over what he had just said. "What if my past, affects my future?" She sniffed after a moment of silence. "What I've done could ruin everything…."

"The past merely sets the course for the future. It is the present that guides it."(A/N an anonymous quote for the purpose of the story…. Yeah moving on)

Lauren didn't say anything. She sat in the back of the cab as she pondered what the man was saying. Subconsciously she placed a hand on her belly and began to stroke it. She couldn't feel anything yet. She wouldn't show for a couple of months, but somehow it reminded her that she wasn't alone.

"And Congratulations" The driver smiled kindly.

She smiled and nodded at him. "Thank you" She opened the door. "Really, thank you."

The cab driver nodded and once she had stepped out and closed the door, merged back in to the flow of traffic and drove away. Lauren watched the car until she couldn't tell it apart from the others. The kindness of that man had shocked her. It was amazing how a total stranger and their perspective on life could have such an effect on her. She sighed and headed inside, beginning the four flight climb to her own apartment. What she really needed right now was her best friend. The problem was, she wasn't sure if she still had one.

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