Happy holidays, I hope you're having a good time! :)

Now that I know what I want

Chapter 26

Santana's P.O.V

I was torn apart wanting to be with Quinn and wanting to help my father at the same time. I didn't want to leave either of them, thinking that something would happen if I'm not there. Quinn understood when I told her I can't be at her house all the time. She was calm, hugging me and said that she supports me in every way and that she's there for me. It's all I needed to hear.

I talked to my father all week about rehab. He would just shake his head muttering that that will not help and went to his room. There wasn't alcohol in our house anymore, but sometimes I still saw him sneak in some, which would start another argument. All I wanted was to just slam the doors shut and go to Quinn, but then that fucking feeling of guilt would creep in my chest and I would stop. I don't know what to do. I can't just put him in fucking rehab and he doesn't listen to me. It's like a fucking marathon you can't finish. You reach the middle and then you're at the start again.

Quinn is the only person keeping me sane. She's perfect right now. I am still surprised how crazy she makes me feel, her magical touch waking all the nerves in my body. I try to be better for her. I try to hide my discomfort when she's around Finn. I just don't want anything to happen to her. Boys like him made fun of her when she was younger, and I don't want that to repeat. I don't want him to get close to her and make her life more miserable. It hurts me too, when she says she got slushied or just shrugs when I ask how her day was. I just want her to be happy; that everything for her would be simple and perfect. If only she would let me to break those assholes arms, I would do it in the heartbeat.

I just can believe that I have her. That she's my girlfriend and one day I'm going to put a ring on this girl's finger if she'll let me. "Stop looking at me like that," Quinn muttered, putting her palm on my eyes. I groaned but smiled. I shook my head pulling away making her hand fall down. I grabbed her fingers lifting her hand to my lips. I kissed her knuckles still grinning. "Do you know how beautiful you're," I asked. I scooted even closer to her. The blush painted her face and she ducked hiding her face in my neck. She nuzzled her face and I pulled away leaning and pecking her lips.

"People are staring," Quinn said her eyes running around.

"Do you care about that," I asked. Quinn shook her head and I sighed, feeling relief.

"I just feel weird," Quinn said. I wrapped my arm around her waist kissing the side of her head.

"Are you going to tell me about what were you dreaming," I asked. I woke up with her rubbing her hands on me while she slept. That was totally hot by the way. She blushed again shaking her head. Before she could tell me the school bell rang and I saw a pout gracing my girl's lips.

"I guess you'll tell me later," I said. "Let's go shopping today?" I stood up pulling her with me. She nodded her head and I leaned leaving last kiss, for now, on her lips. I fall even harder every time seeing that grin and how she glows, how her eyes shine. I couldn't help myself. I laid my eyes on her ass as she walked away.

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I'm playing silly games on my phone waiting for the food while Quinn is in the restroom. Momentarily I lift my eyes to look around to see if she's coming back, but this time when I pulled away from my phone I saw this lady, Mrs. Wells. My eyes followed her moving around. There was frown on her face as she hurried around. She obviously needs help. Maybe I can charm my way into getting a job.

I was ready to stand up and walk over to Mrs. Wells. "We should go look for more baby stuff after we eat," Quinn said. I mentally groaned. It's not that I don't want to. It's just hard with Quinn. Even if knowing our little ones gender is way easier, she has to look over the same thing ten times. Quinn is kind of a frugal person. I think she doesn't like that she has to spend my money, but I won't give her wallet back.

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We were standing in Quinn's room just looking at each other. She was so close to me, her hot breath striking against my lower lip. Her hand was on my beating heart and mine on her stomach. My eyes jumped from her eyes to her lips. My gaze slipped lower to her cleavage and I licked my lips. When they came back to her eyes a shiver ran down my body. Her hazel eyes, like sparkling amber, looked through me. The intensity of her eyes made my heart jump into my throat.

I trailed my hands to her side till my fingers danced on her ribcage, then to her lower back. My fingers finally reached the hem of her boxers (those are mine by the way). I slipped my fingers under material. I kneaded the soft flesh, feeling my dick suffocating in my jeans trying to finally escape. I gasped as she slid her hand down. Her nails tracing my stomach until it found my crotch and suddenly her lips found mine. As she rubbed my hardening dick under the cloth I couldn't help myself. I let out an embarrassing loud moan. I grunted as she pulled away. Still dazed I looked at her confused, not knowing what was happening. With an innocent smile, she gently pushed me. I raised my eyebrows but she just continued to push me. My ankles hit her the edge of her bed, and I was forced to sit down.

"What's on your mind," I asked. She just smiled at me. She smiled the softest smile I'd ever seen.

"Remember when you asked what did I dreamed about," she asked, and I quickly nodded my head. She settled on my thigh with her arm wrapped around my shoulder."It was definitely a sex dream," Quinn whispered, her hot breath on my ear sending electric shocks to my lower region. I groaned as my buddy hardened even more."It was you and me..." Quinn breathed out. "More like as me blowing you," she moaned as she nibbled my earlobe and I think I came into my pants."Babe," I moaned as she ducked her head and nibbled my neck. I touched inside her thigh close to her core. On one side I'm delighted that my girl is wearing my clothes, but on the other I hate it because I don't have an easy access which right now is irritating me. I'm debating if I should just tear the clothes off. I froze as she grabbed my hand stopping me, continuing to kiss and touch me. "Did she say no? I didn't hear that." I watched as she licked her lips, my eyes were glued to every little thing she did.

"You go down on me every time so I was thinking, I could, you know, return the favor." She sexily trapped her bottom lip between her teeth.

"You don't have to," I said and immediately wanted to slap the shit out of myself. Dream girl says she can give you a blowjob and you say she doesn't have to. What idiot would say that? Of course, only me.

She chuckled as she grabbed my jaw and smacked our lips together.

"That's not an option, kitten." she said. Supporting with my knees she carefully lowed herself on her knees. I watched amazed as she unzipped my jeans and as I lifted myself she lowered them to the ground. I groaned as she tugged down my boxers finally freeing my hard as a rock dick.

"You really don't have to if you don't want to," I said when she looked up at me with uncertain eyes.

She chuckled starting to pump my dick. "It's not that I don't want to it's that I don't know how," she said faint blush coloring her cheeks and she bit her lip. I'd never seen anything more erotic than her pumping my dick. She was a pro, gently squeezing as she pumped. My body was going crazy. Her being there on her knees, between my legs with her small hand wrapped around my dick and the lust in her eyes totally made this one of the best days of my life.

"Oh gosh," I groaned as she experimentally pressed her pink lips to my tip flicking her wet and soft tongue over the slit. I laid my head to the bed putting my hands on my eyes. I ran my tongue over my teeth, swallowing a lump in my throat. This is fucking awesome. She wrapped her soft lips around my dick. She sucked in the tip, circling her tongue. Quinn took more and more in. Her mouth was so warm. I held my head up watching as she tried to deep throat me. It was beautiful. She gagged a little and pulled away but still kept my dick in her mouth. "Maybe I need a little more practice," She muttered around my dick, and I had to laugh. She bobbed her head and sucked harder. I dug my nails into my palms still trying to support myself and watch her. There were only two things running in my head: don't cum right now and don't fuck her mouth senseless. I couldn't focus I wanted to close my eyes and just enjoy it but something inside me just kept telling to watch it. She swirled her tongue around my dick's head and fondles my balls, so unexpected and hot. She glances up through her long eyelashes (So fucking hot). She brought her hand to the base of my cock and pumped as she sucked, harder and harder. I was going to cum so embarrassingly fast and I didn't even care.

"I'm doing okay," she asked pulling away stopping her motion with her hand I groaned seeing her smile.

"Fucking tease," I muttered and she chuckled. She dragged her tongue back to the base of my dick, and I cursed as she kept watching me. My dick was glistening with her warm saliva. Quinn wrapped her lips around my shaft and her fingertips pressed into me tight. I moaned and Quinn continued to bob her head. She moaned a few times making me almost cum. Quinn dug her fingernails into my thigh. I hissed scrunching my nose at the pain. There's only so much I can take. She bobbed her head a little faster and sucked my head a little harder I came hard right into Quinn's mouth. I panted; still dazed after orgasm she gave me. It was overwhelming seeing her mouth full of my cum. I wanted her so much in that moment.

"Fuck, baby, why did you do that," I asked with wide eyes.

"And where exactly should I spit it," Quinn asks with her mouth full.

I didn't know if she was serious or not. I was too out of it after that monster orgasm, but I answered as best I could. "Bathroom, over the window, a napkin, anywhere," I breathe out. But she does the unexpected and swallows every drop. I love this girl. I collapsed on the bed putting my arms on my eyes. "Jesus Christ, that was amazing." She joins me on the bed and we cuddle as I recover. With no warning, I flip us over and I'm on top. "Now it's your turn," I say, and proceed to make beautiful love to my girl.

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Quinn's P.O.V

I guess people got bored calling me names and slushing me. The only thing that was irritating me right now was Karofsky and Azimio. Students still gave me a second glance but that's it.

Maybe that Santana was with me almost all the time helped .The scowl on her beautiful face and the glare probably scared them.

"I don't like that look," I said to her. She's planning something. Her face looked relaxed but there was something in her eyes. There was fire in them. She will do something. I can feel that.

"Why's that," she asked putting her arm on my shoulders.

"You're going to do something, aren't you," I asked. She just leaned in and pecked my lips. She put her hand on my cheek. It tingled, that kind of good tingle, as she circled her thumb on my skin. "Give me a kiss, beautiful," Santana said.

A radiant smile appears on Santana's lips and her eyes shine like the bright sun in the sky. Of course this makes my insides melt. I love that feeling. I love the way she looks at me. The moment is special and I don't want to ruin it. My heart is telling me that I'm the one that put that look there.

"What are you going to do," I asked being stubborn, putting my hand on her chest pulling away.

"Nothing, jezzus," Santana frowned releasing me and taking a step back. Santana's expression went tense and her eyes remained steady and unblinking on my face. She ran her hand back through her black hair before putting her hands in her pants pockets. She ducks her chin almost into her team jacket collar. Her eyes were locked on some spot on the ground. I just keep standing there looking at her before my eyes darted to the floor. I opened my mouth ready to apologies or maybe something more but I paused when she chuckled.

"Be with Charlie or Rachel today. No walking alone," Santana said. I looked at her confused

After the silence went on a bit too long, I said. "What are you thinking?"

Santana leaned closer, her lips a mere inch from my ear. "Love you, babe," she whispered ignoring my question. She pulled away and covered my mouth with hers in a hungry kiss. I responded immediately feeling people's stares on us but I didn't care. Santana's mouth was warm and I couldn't get enough of it. She pulled away and stayed silent. We just kept looking at each other.

"Can you two stop for a second with being gross?" Rachel killed our moment. Santana chuckled looking at her and grinned. She didn't say a word; just walked away.

Santana's P.O.V

I was looking for Sam to hang out but, he was nowhere to be seen. I found Finn. I still don't like him, but maybe we can be friends for Quinn's sake.

"Finn," I called him. The expression on his face made me laugh. I smirked seeing him try to swallow and his scared eyes darting everywhere. "Relax, idiot, I won't do anything." I rolled my eyes.

He forced a smile.

"So how are you," grimacing as I asked.

"Santana, look you don't need to try and be friends with me or something," Finn said.

"I know," I said licking my lips. "But you're Quinn's friend and I should know you."

"Umm…" He awkwardly looked around. "Okay," he said. "I don't like Azimio," Finn muttered seeing the bulky boy laughing with his friends.

I raised my eyebrows. "Nor do I," I said glaring at that asshole. I breathe in deeply through my nose seeing Azimio holding a cup of slushy. "Orca, wannna play a game?"

"If it's to make Azimio life a living hell like mine, I'm in," Finn said. Maybe I'll like Finn... eventually. He has to be good at doing commands.

"Let's just say the slushy season opens now," I said." Whoever throws more slushy at him wins," I smirked, looking at Finn.

"And what does the winner get," Finn asked smiling lopsided at me.

"I dunno, five bucks?"

"Okay," Finn shrugged and stuck his hand out to me. I rolled my eyes, but put my hand in his and shook it.