Why so ambitious, why so dark
"What's taking him so long?" Blondy shouts as his hollow voice echoes through the mist, my heart skips a beat.
"silent! You are getting the two of us in trouble!" I cover his mouth with my hand, trying calm him down, fortunately, he doesn't struggle.
"Blondy, remember, don't shout in the swamp! Don't you dare even do that? Shut your mouth up!"
"sorry…" Blondy answers awkwardly.
"hey! Let's do some cooking! Blondy! You, teach me how to do it! okay?" I suggest.
"cooking? Our camp is on a tree! Rosie!"
"I mean to cook down there, Blondy." I sign.
"are you nuts? There are tons of monsters down there!" Blondy protests.
"you are right, Blondy, but there aren't any monsters so far, only at night, by the way, you got your pickaxe! What to be afraid about?" I suggest kindly.
"I hope so…let's go! Woaaa!" he tries to stand up, but he fells again.
"Blondy, let me help!" I run over and pull my arm around him, but he loses his balance again, and then in the nest moment, I found both of us struggling on the wooden floor.
"oh! Rosie! I'm really sorry!" Blondy exclaims, as he struggles to get up.
Lying on the floor, tears began forming in my eyes, oh Blondy… I can do nothing to forgive myself, for everything I have done to him today, oh no! Freckles, you can't cry! You are tough…
"Blondy, stop saying sorry, I'm the one should have say what you said, I start sobbing, "I keep forgetting the fact that you have your ankle injured, stupid me…" I can't pronounce my words clearly anymore; the sobbing sound cause it to tremble.
"hey, Rosie, you should know something!" Blondy whispers to me.
"wha…what?" I look up to him, feeling like a little sister.
"I'm sorry I let you down."
"why?"
"you know, during all these time, I acted like a coward, while facing a cave, you want me to go forward, and I want to go back, every time, you are the one who give me courage, and I found something: not everything is what it looks like, like the darkest cave, do you know what I started to act bravely when you and me were in the dungeon?"
"no... why?"
"I realized one thing since that night, friends are made to protect each other in any kinds of situation, I saw the braveness from your eyes, and that's the only thing who give me courage…thank you, Rosie, I felt like…I felt like, you are the one let me realized the most important thing in my life, you are making my life better, and that's why I believed that we will never be apart." He said firmly, staring me into my eyes without blinking.
"but…me? how can…"
"come on! Rosie, we got a lot of thing to do Before dark! C'mon, let's cook! Then let's fix this wall, I got a brilliant new idea!"
He took my hand, and pull me up instead, I pull my arm around him to give him a support, then I saw it, a bright, red sunset, right ahead of us.
…
"oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Food!" suddenly, the door of our hut opens, as a hurry shadow bumps in for no reason.
"woaaa! Blacky! Where the hell you went! God bless ya okay!" I shout to him, with full mouth of food.
"Freckles! Close your mouth, err! I'm gonna puke my stomach out!" Blacky snarls, and I close it obediently, keep on my joke telling:
" 'and…and then my mom said: stop Ron stop! You gonna cut someone's nose off! Besides, it's Avada Kedavra, not adava ketavra!' and so my dad said: 'darling, I bet our friends there doesn't have a nose', so my uncle Harry found that magic is useless with the dark lord due to the fact Voldemort doesn't have a nose, as a result of that, he KO Voldemort with a gun…"
"oh shit! My dad didn't kill Voldemort with a gun!"
"come on! Blacky, don't be so realistic! We are telling jokes!"
"I don't see the fun point of it..." he groans.
I roll my eyes, it's impossible to make Blacky laugh without some realistic facts.
"You guys stay here; I'm going to the balcony." I leave my seat.
Outside is windy, I trembles as the wind blow through my hair, but I ignore the wind, I sit down on the balcony, above me, thousands of stars are twinkling.
"it's been a long day, Freckles…" I whisper to myself, trying to redeem all my childhood memory, I can't believe we fight through all of these, as my soul started to sneak back to Hogwarts, my second home, the peaceful, joyful place is no longer a home, the disaster brought more than disaster, it chased away the unity between the four houses…what Kim and Neily are doing now, are they safe? Are they happy…
"Kim, Neily, I will be back…" I mutter, ones again, my eyes are teary, and the wind blows them away, the magical world, why can't it be a utopia, why it has to be kept in a war, in a war which lasts forever… for eternity, why the dark princess has to be so cruel, why so ambitious, why so dark…
Slowly, I burry my face under my lap, I experienced the warmth of friends, as well as the darkness of the other entity, and the two worlds in my heart always comes alternatively and suddenly, is this my life? A life of wondering alone among these two worlds deep inside me? what my life is really for? Why in one sudden, I feel so warm, so brave, and then suddenly, I'm enveloped with dark shadows.
Who I'm really was?