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With this chapter, I should warn you it can go dark but depression is a hard thing to get rid off. Please tell me what you think of it, and enjoy the chapter. Also I should warn you that is coming to an end soon to this story, only a few chapter left, if I figure out how to end it. Just please bare with me and any changes to the story line.
Danielle stood at the rail, looking out to the sea. It seemed she had been standing there for a few minutes, drowning in her thoughts; thinking of all what happened. She had truly missed the ocean, she felt safer upon the waters though people would differ, upon her view. Yet this time she still felt trapped, insider her own cell, invisible black iron bars surrounded her; a thing she couldn't escape unless she fought for her freedom but that meant two thing; either die or kill Beckett. She could not die, though she had thought about it many times before but now having Ragetti, Charlie, Lizzie and Jack around she knew she had to stay alive for them and prove Norrington wrong. The latter opposition was going to be hard, Danielle knew that, as Beckett had his men around all the time, he had law on his side too, and he was...stronger than her; a thing she hated to admit.
"Danni?" She heard someone call.
She turned her head and her eyes landed on Ragetti. She smiled; covering up her thoughts and worry. She turned her head to stare back at the sea and her smile dropped. She looked down as she felt someone's arms wrap around hers, she noticed it was Ragetti's and she leaned back; resting her head on his chest, while he rested his on her shoulder. She felt safe in his arms, she hoped he knew that. She felt the worry vanish, she hoped he felt that. She loved him truly, but sometimes she felt like she didn't deserve him, she was grateful that he stayed by her and loved her.
"Want to tell me that is troubling you?" Ragetti asked.
"What told you I was worried?"
"Danni, how long I've I know you? Working with you for years and becoming lovers, I can tell when you are worried; you grow quiet drowning in your deepening thoughts and you avoid people; talk." Ragetti replied.
"Oh...I guess you do know me well." Danielle said, she forgot how easy she was to read to him. "You know me well and I feel like I don't know a lot about myself or even you."
"That is no true." Ragetti stated. "To start with you know I was still the same Ragetti though I was a pirate and had a curse, yet you didn't care as you still loved me and saw me as me. Before that, back when we were in the force, you stuck by me, fought in my corner because you saw something inside me that I didn't see. You saw my strength, what I believe in and what I love. No one understood that, and was confused why you defended me in every argument you had with Heartfield." He turned his gaze and stared at Danielle, seeing her confused look. "I heard what Heartfield said about me Danni, he and the force had no hope on me, as they all fought I was useless, except you; you believed in me Danni. You saw something that no one saw. That makes you special Danni, and you do know yourself, it has just been hard for you, with everything you've been through- the challenges that have been put on your path but all had made you stronger."
"No they haven't, they..."
Danielle was cut off as Ragetti turned her around so she was facing him, he left one arm wrapped around her body, but the other he raised up his hand and lifted her chin. "You've always doubted yourself Danni, but you are the strongest person I know. If anyone was in your into your shoes, they wouldn't be like you. You have a brain and a heart; you see justice and human rights. You see those in power in the wrong and commoners as brave."
Danielle stared at Ragetti and lowered her eyes. Hearing him say all those nice things about her made her heart beat faster, she was seen different in his eyes; she was a somebody, to her she used to be a somebody and to Grange and the other haters was a nobody.
"Please tell me what is worrying you." Ragetti pleaded worriedly.
"Why not?" She heard Jack ask, making her turn her attention on to him and saw he was sitting close to Elizabeth on the stairs. "Admit it...we are so much alike, you and I. I and you."
"Except for a, oh, a sense of decency and honour, a moral centre and personal hygiene. " Elizabeth argued.
"Trifles. You will come over to my side, in time, I know."
Hearing Jack speak like that, made Danielle feel sick. She couldn't let Elizabeth be persuaded by Jack, she was meant to be Will and not with Jack. Danielle loved Jack as a friend, he had slept with many whores like many men but Lizzie was different, she was in love and she had those things she had listed.
Turning her attention back on Ragetti, she saw he was still waiting for her to tell him what was worrying her. "I love you Ragetti, can't you just take that? I am fine." She lowered his hand and escaped from his hold. She walked a few paces but then Ragetti wrapped his hand around her arm; making her stop walking. She lowered her eyes and stared at his hand, she knew he wouldn't hurt her but it hated being held like that as it reminded her of the monster.
"I can't Danni, knowing something is troubling you." Ragetti stated.
"I'll tell you if you let go of my arm." Danielle said, looking up and seeing doubt in his eyes, she added: "Please, he did that to me to stop me from walking away." Quickly Ragetti let go and Danielle rubbed her arm. "The thing that is worrying me is that the two choices I have in my life. I should have seen this coming but I thought I was safe hiding. To set myself free I either die myself or kill the monster. I didn't want to tell you this because I hate hurting you Ragetti; I've done that too many times in the past. As I am being truthful I've thought of killing myself many times back at Port Royal, I've grown into this monster that has been eating away at me without my realisation. Darkness filled me and felt numb. People see me as this strong person but I am not, I even thought I was and pretended to be but I guess I am just a weakling; nothing special Ragetti. As I was weak, the monster took his opportunity, I even told him how I felt! I know I shouldn't but...that is what this thing does to you Ragetti. It makes you do things that you know that is wrong but you can't control it. I'm sorry I am not the person you used to know before, you are better without me Ragetti, trust me. If I had choice I would leave myself to. No one deserves to be dragged in the black hole I am living in."
Tears she felt rolling down her cheeks, all the pain, the heartache and the broken hope was released, and her body shook as she had kept all of it in for so long! She held onto Ragetti as he embraced her, she buried her head into his chest; her cry was muffled in the darkness. She didn't know how bad it was to live the darkness until she heard her own words echo in her mind.
"I promise you this Danni, we will get through this together. We will kill the monster and I'll help you through everything." Ragetti stated, while holding her tighter. "You are no monster, you are far from it. You've helped so many people, you've fought your enemies and your past. I'll you the truth, when I was younger, I thought life was better without me but my friends helped me become the person I am today, the person you love. You see Danni, you are not alone and you'll never be. I be lost without you, and I know the others would be too; you make us strong- you are our glue."
"I'm sorry Ragetti." Danielle whispered.
"You have nothing to be sorry about; I just wish you could see what I can see. Life is one confusing thing but it can be amazing, we just have to figure out how to pass the bad things and leave them behind and carry on forward with a light load."
Danielle leaned back and raised her head; staring back at Ragetti's eyes. She was just thankful that he was understanding and still loved her. She leaned her face in and kissed him on the lips, and felt the love they had in the kiss.
"Land, ho!" They heard Gibbs call.
Ragetti let go of Danielle but stayed stood in front of her. They both turned their heads and saw a island nearby. Danielle licked her lips nervously; she hoped Jack knew what he was doing. Thinking of Jack, she torn her head away and stared at the captain who stood close to Elizabeth.
She walked over as Elizabeth walked away. She watched as Jack smiled hiding his worry, Danielle noticed but she didn't know what he was worried about. "Don't pretend everything is alright Jack, it doesn't work, trust me. You even said to me hiding is never the answer though it seems to be the easy way out. Just stay away from lizzie, she is in love with Will and that is how it is going to be. I'm sorry Jack but I don't want broken hearts, it is hard to deal with." Danielle said. "The Guv would hate to know his own daughter fell in love with Captain Jack Sparrow." She joked.
Walking away from Jack, Charlie ran up to Danielle making her stop. She knelt down to be the same size as him. She smiled and saw adventure in his eyes.
"Are we going to find treasure, Danni?" He asked.
"The boy is becoming a pirate already!" Jack exclaimed while walking past them to the ready rowing boat.
Danielle looked up to Jack and rolled her eyes. Quickly she looked back at Charlie. "I don't think so Charlie, this island gives me the chills. I fear it holds secretes and dangers, that is why I want you to stay on the ship." Seeing Charlie was going to protest Danielle quickly added: "Please Charlie, it is safer here then on that island. I promise I come back." With that she gave the boy a massive hug and planted a kiss on his forehead. Before climbing over the rail, to climb down the ladder to the rowing boat, she turned to Gibbs who stood nearby. "Look after Charlie, while I am gone, please." Watching the old man nod she smiled and climbed the ladder.