Vampire Academy: Deadly Intrigue and Deadly Love
Chapter 26 of my Vampire Academy story, enjoy.
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Disclaimer: Vampire Academy belongs to Richelle Mead.
Chapter 26
ROSE POV
I groaned in pain, my muscles were screaming. But this was the price I had to pay; it was now a week since I had spoken to Dimitri for help. Things were slowly improving; Dimitri had somehow managed to convince Kirova to give me one last chance. I was taking this chance for all it was worth. Working hard, I had even had to refuse to go to a party with Adrian, much to his surprise.
I had to be honest, despite how I felt; things didn't seem right between Adrian and me anymore. I was, to be honest, somehow repulsed by the thought of alcohol now. I had suffered from it, but truthfully, seeing Adrian, it hurt.
'Yet he, he doesn't try, it's like he's…he's just, not even attempting to fight it, to get better.' I thought to myself.
It was sad; I wished there was something I could do about it. I winced as I tried to move; I had just finished another extra training session. I was taking part in these even more now, trying desperately to catch up and get back to top physical fitness and get back to my former skill level. Dimitri nodded as we finished.
"Good, that's better Rose. You still have a lot of work to do, but you're getting there." He said calmly.
I nodded, catching my breath. "Great."
Dimitri told me I could go now. I slowly, carefully left the gym and got changed out of my gym uniform, a pair of black shorts; a red T-shirt; black socks and black sneakers. Back in my regular uniform I left the training area.
As I walked through the school, I was aware of the other students all looking at me, whispering. I ignored them; I knew I had brought this on myself after all. I saw Lissa and Jill, along with Eddie.
'I can't go over to them, not after what happened, not until I fix things properly.' I thought sadly, biting my lip. 'I wonder, is this how Christian feels; only able to watch things?'
Sighing I turned and continued walking. I soon saw Christian too; but didn't approach him. I wouldn't know what to say. I continued to ponder my problems, I had to do something, I couldn't just leave Adrian the way he was. The hard part was I knew that, like me, he needed to want to help himself. If he couldn't admit that, or do that, then there was no helping him.
Worse than that, I wasn't sure if we could continue our relationship. Especially not if he continued with this 'victim' idea he had of himself.
I groaned. 'Why does this have to be so hard; he's even more stubborn than me, if that's possible.'
Shaking my head I continued walking, wondering to myself about Adrian. I wondered if it would be possible, if I could help him change, we could try and go through it all together.
Deciding to at least try; I soon found Adrian in the courtyard of the Academy. I quickly approached him; he looked up and sighed.
"There you are, I've been getting worried Rose." He said.
I nodded. "I know sorry, but I…I can't keep doing this Adrian."
He tensed. "Doing what?"
"The drinking and the partying, it's ruining me. I can't keep doing this if I'm going to remain a Guardian." I told him firmly.
"So what?" He said, his eyes narrowing. "Are you saying you don't want to join me for parties and that anymore?"
I nodded slowly. "Yes, that's kinda it, I can't risk it, sorry. But there's no need for any arguments."
Adrian sighed; but nodded. "Fine, so what do you expect from me? I mean, look at me, the parties are what keeps things good after all. I could try and spend more time with you. But then…"
"Adrian; I'm trying to stop drinking; become clean. I want you to try and do the same." I told him softly. "I know it'll be hard, I know why you do it, but, you don't need to worry, it is possible to cope with Spirit without drinking, look at Lissa."
Adrian sighed sadly. "I'm sorry Rose; that just doesn't; it doesn't work like that."
I bit my lip. "You mean…"
"I can try Rose, but I'll just make myself even more of a victim."
I sighed, it was as I feared.
Finally I turned away.
"Adrian, why must it be this way. I cannot risk things, you know that." I said sadly.
Adrian stood up. "Wait a minute Rose; what is this about; tell me that, why would you do this?"
"You said you were a victim. That's why… that's why ultimately, you and I aren't matched for each other." I told him softly. "In spite of everything that's happened, I've never thought of myself that way. Being a victim means being powerless. That you won't take action."
Adrian stared at me in disbelief. "Rose…"
I sighed and explained. "Always… always I've done something to fight for myself… for others. No matter what."
"I see…" Adrian said softly. "Well, I guess that's it then, we're done."
I nodded sadly and he sighed. "Alright then, Rose, I guess this is goodbye, I have no reason to stay here now."
I bit my lip and shook my head. "I'm sorry…"
He just nodded and then turned and walked away. I let out a slow shuddering breath, despite everything; it was harder than I thought it would be.
"Roza."
I turned quickly, there was Dimitri standing there; he looked at me, sympathetically.
"It was hard Rose, but truthfully, in the end, I'm afraid it was for the best."
I nodded sadly. "I know."
We both turned and made our way back indoors.
End of chapter, hope you enjoyed it, read and review please. As for Rose's little speech to Adrian, I had to try and work in that quote from the books somewhere.