Now that Tris is recovering, I think it's time to close up. This is the last chapter of Andy's story. There is an epilogue that will be up soon. I hope you all enjoyed her emotional journey and love her as much as I do.
Disclaimer: I don't own the Divergent Trilogy… only Andy
Chapter 26: Forgive and Forget.
The next few days seemed to fly by and be really slow at the same time. I spent most of my time with Uriah because I wanted to be there when he woke up. But I got pulled away a lot between one of my brothers or sisters. Christina dragging me away to take a walk. Caleb and Cara to eat and get the right nutrition for Marilynn. And Bass to spend time with Tris when she was awake. Zeke, Hana and I took turns with Uriah too. Just in case. It's amazing that his heart is beating without help and every step of the way is a wonder to the doctors. Sometimes I get depressed, but my family is there to help me.
"Abnegation really never did anything fun." I state with and half smirk as I sit with my legs crossed on the bed and my hand on Uriah's leg. "What I normally did was study and clean, I guess." Hana shakes her head and sighs.
"That must have been hard. No wonder Stiffs didn't come to Dauntless." She says in response. Her and I have been taking time to talk and get to know each other. Normally she would ask me questions and I would answer. I think that's understandable since I'm carrying her grand- daughter and she doesn't know anything about me. "And you're divergent, what were your scores?" I have a slight hesitation before answering and she gives me a look. "It doesn't matter now. I think you can tell me." I can't help but smile sheepishly.
"I guess so." I laugh a little at myself. "I actually scored Abnegation."
"Then why did you come to Dauntless?" She asks without missing a beat.
"I promised Four that I would join him if he left." I tell her quietly. "It was the only way to convince him to leave." She nods. This is the first time I've mention how bad my childhood was. I hadn't really thought of it since Uriah's EEG came out. My body tenses up.
"Yes, you didn't grow up well." Hana says before glancing at her son's sleeping face. "Four was a strange kid right out of initiation. I didn't understand why my son was friends with him or why he was even in dauntless for the longest time. Then Ezekiel told me of his past and everything seemed to fit." I nodded.
"If I ever see that man again I will kill him." I tell her without much thought. "He has hurt me too much." The hand that isn't on Uriah is now balled up into a fist. "I hate Marcus."
"Hate is a strong word." Hana's voice is quiet, but firm and it seems to shake me.
"What?" I ask a bit confused. "You don't understand what that thing did to me and Four. He should have died a long time ago." Hana looks at me with a blank face that catches me off guard. "He tried rapping me." I tell her firmly. "Do you know how bad that is of a father to do? I can't trust people because of him." I feel tears form in my eyes as I feel like I need to defend myself.
"You trust my son." She points out before I can continue talking. "You love my son, right?" I just look at her. "You need to forgive and forget, for your sake. Let him deal with his crap and forget about him."
"How can I forget what he did to me? To my brother and mom?" I ask her a little hurt and shocked. "How can you expect me to forgive him?! He doesn't deserve it."
"No, he doesn't. But you do." Again her words are quiet, but they struck me. "You have been hurt and affected by it for way too long. If you're going to be with my son and have my grandchild, then you need to be able to let go and focus on them." I blink a few times at her words. "You need some help, but you're not going to heal if you hold a grudge. Bitterness is an ugly thing to hold onto."
"But he hurt me…" I start off and her look stops me.
"It doesn't just affect you emotionally, but physically. That's part of the reason you don't feel like eating." She says and I just look at her. "It will affect your immune system and organs along as other stuff." How does she know all of this? Was she a transfer from Erudite? "Pay attention, Aundrea." She snaps and I just widen my eyes. "It doesn't just hurt you. First of all, my grandchild is being hurt by it. Then my son. He worries about you and that affects him. I'm not even going to let you hurt my family, little one." Her voice seems a bit threatening and I never imagined her to be like this, at all. "You are my daughter now and that's why I'm telling you to forgive the bastard for yourself and my son." I don't know how to respond. First of all, Hana is frightening me. I doubt she's ever rose her voice above a half whisper since I've meet her. Now she's telling me to knock it off or she's going to get worse. I don't think I ever want to be on her bad side. She is dauntless after all, so I know she can mess me up.
"Yes mama." I half whisper still shocked. Then she smiles.
"Good, girl." She pats my knee. "Don't be too shocked. I used your abnegation against you."I blink a few times as I still process. "You scored Abnegation after all."
"What?" She starts laughing now. She's not really mad?
"Don't worry, sweetheart. I'm just know how to get a point across." I shake my head and just look at her.
"How and why do you know all of that?" I ask.
"I scored Erudite as well, Hun." She says as if it's not a big deal. "Uriah isn't the first Divergent in the family." What?
"Okay…" I can't figure out anything else to say now.
"And I figure you are Dauntless and Abnegation." I nod slowly. "Uriah is Amity and Dauntless, the only reason he has books in his room is because he wanted to see what I was reading." I just blink a few times. "That's why he worries about you too much." She glances at him with a soft face.
"Yes he does." I tell her.
"And you need to not worry him too much. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you. Talking helps and it will help him if you do." I nod. She is part Erudite and knows how to manipulate well.
"I promise." I half whisper. "I'll get some help…" my eyes drift over to Uriah's closed eyes. "And forgive my father; for Uriah, Marilynn's and my sake."
"Good. I expect nothing less." She says with a curt nod. For the next few minutes we are silent, just looking at the boy we both love. There is still a pain and dark thoughts that he's not going to wake up, but I'm doing my best to push it down. I don't want to live without him. My eyes dance over his resting face and down towards his hand his mother is holding and I take in a deep breath. Please just open your eyes Uriah, I need to see your eyes again. I move my gaze to his other hand and just look at the limp hand. Without intending to, I take it and hold it tight. So much emotions are welling up inside of me right now I just don't know what to do with myself. For some reason I feel tears form in my eyes and I shut them to prevent the tears from falling."Did you feel that?" I hear Hana ask a bit startled. "Uriah, baby?" that's when I feel the hand I'm holding tighten for a second. So I open my eyes and stare at the hand. His hand just moved. "Oh my." Hana says as I stare at the hand.
"Hi, momma." I freeze completely. "What are you doing here?" The voice is rough as if it hasn't been used for ages. A wave of fear runs over me and I'm too afraid to look up and see that I'm just imagining things again.
"You think I would leave my youngest son by himself?" She asks him quietly and I hear a little laugh come from him and then a cough. That's his laugh. I force my eyes from his hands and stare at his face in disbelief. His face is relaxed and his eyes are half open. But his lips are smiling just as bright as ever.
"I guess not." He says as I see his mother is starting to cry.
"Uriah?" I ask quietly when my voice returns. I'm sure everyone can hear how shaky it is. I watch as his tired brown eyes look over to me and his smile twitches for a moment.
"Hey." He says in his scratchy voice and I can't help but cry now. "Wait, don't cry. Why are you two crying?" He asks with a little bit concern.
"You're awake, honey. We're just happy." Hana says in her normal quiet voice as she caresses his face. I'm still unable to move from my spot. We're either both imagining this or he's really awake.
"Of course I'm awake." He says with a laugh. "Now where am I?"
"In the hospital wing of the Bureau." Hana tells him. I'm too shocked to speak. "There was an explosion and you covered Aundrea and got most of it." Uriah's face turns to confusion for a moment.
"That explains why I'm sore." He says with a sigh. The doctors did say he might not remember the explosion, but something seems off right now. "How long have I been out?"
"Little over two weeks. Your brother and I just got here." Hana replies. Uriah hasn't looked back at me yet. What does that mean? "She hasn't left your side." Uriah takes the moment to glance at me before looking at his mother again.
"Zeke's here?" He asks. "Where is he?"
"Probably sleeping." She says. "We've been taking turns with you." Does he not remember me? He did get hit really hard. What if Uriah doesn't remember me?! I swallow hard.
"Sounds like him." Uriah smiles a little bit. Oh God, he's forgotten me. I didn't think of this.
"Uriah…" I say his name again a little panicky. Now both of them look at me. No one says a word for what feels like hours.
"Yes…um…You're Aundrea, right?" he asks after a bit and I just can't help but cry and collapse into the bed. He doesn't remember me! "Oh…" I barely hear him reply. I feel a large hand that I know all too well rest on my back, but I don't move. Uriah has forgotten me. How can he forget me? I'm his girlfriend. I'm carrying his child! We love each other…. Wait….didn't I do this to him…I forgot him too…Slowly I sit up and look at his confused face again as I wipe my face."Ah…"
"Yes, I'm Aundrea Eaton. Four's little sister." I hold my hand out for him to shake. My hand is shaking a little bit, but I hold it together as he shakes my hand.
"I think you already know who I am." He says with a laugh. He's trying to lighten the mood. Just like him. I smile in spite myself.
"Yes, you're Uriah Pedrad. Zeke's little brother." I tell him quietly.
"Don't tell me you know my brother." I nod with a half smile. "I'm sorry." He jokes and I can't help but laugh a little bit.
"He's not that bad." I joke back. "Your brother is more annoying than anything." I tell him with a sigh.
"I guess, now. How do we know each other?" He asks me straight up. My breath hitches and I just stare at him for a moment before pressing my lips together.
"We met during our initiation. The capture the flag night, we were on the same team." Uriah thinks for a moment and nods.
"Okay." He says and I try to hold myself together. He was so kind to me when he first found out…
"You helped me out during initiation. Especially during stage two. So thank you." I breathe out.
"You're welcome." He says with a rough laugh. I look into his eyes again and I feel like I'm going to break. This must be how he felt when he found out that I forgot him. This is heart breaking. Then we both hear a cough come from Hana and we look.
"I'll go inform the doctor and the other's that you're awake." She says as she stands up from her seat. I press my lips together as I watch her leave the room and Uriah tell her good bye. The lip ring presses tight to my upper lip and I remember getting it for him and I just about break. Between the emotions and the hormones, the moment the door closes I just react. I turn back to him and kiss him as hard as I can. I couldn't handle it anymore. I needed my Uriah now. As I kiss him, it takes him a moment to even process what's going on. Please don't reject me. Please don't…. Slowly I feel his hands rest on my sides and him returning the kiss. That's when I feel my heart melt. Even though he doesn't remember me, he's kissing me. After a moment, we part and just stare at each other. I can see his brown eyes swimming with so much emotion right now, then he laughs. Wait, what?! He pecks me on the cheek and wipes my tears away.
"I love you too, Andy." He says with a bright smile and I just stare at him. Wait… He just said Andy…. "Andy?" Uriah says my name again after a minute for just staring. He tricked me. I sit up and smack him as hard as I can in the face.
"Damn it, Uriah!" I shout. "You scared me. I really thought you forgot me." I start to cry again and I rest my head on his chest. "You're an ass hole. You know that?!" I sob into his chest as he just holds me tight.
"Sorry." Uriah laughs a little bit because he knows I can't stay mad at him for long. The ass hole. Must get it from his brother… "But I'm here now. Like I promised." He whispers to me and we just stay there until I'm done with this wave of emotion. When I'm finished, he pulls me next to him and lets me lay on his chest just looking up at him. "So, now that you're better…"
"I'm still pissed with you." I cut him off and Uriah just smiles.
"I know." He says before going on. "Can you tell me what happened? I can only remember bits and pieces from when I was out."
"Nita and the GDs, including Four, were trying to attack and take something from the weapons lab and someone failed to get us before we walked right over to the fountain where they set off an explosion." I briefly explain as I stare at him. When I'm done I give him time to think it over.
"I barely remember that. Weren't we talking about the baby?" He asks without much thought. After he said the word his eyes went big and make me sit up and pull up my shirt.
"She's fine, Uriah." I can't help but laugh as he examines my stomach. "I only got hit in the head and some burns. You're the one you should be worried about." I try to tell him as he gently touches my belly. His fingers send shock waves through my body and I can't help but smile. "We're fine, Really."
"Good." He says with a sigh of relief. "Sometimes I worried that the baby was hurt and that's why you were crying on me." I narrow my eyes in disbelief as he leans over, with some pain, and kisses my belly.
"You remember that?" I ask quickly and he nods before looking up at me.
"I woke up sometimes, but I couldn't move or something. It was weird. Like I was awake, but sometimes I couldn't see or hear." He says as he pulls my shirt down and lies down again. "You were always there, sitting right on top of me. Or yelling at a doctor." He smirks a little bit. "That was always funny." I can't help but blush.
"It wasn't meant to be funny." I state defiantly and he just holds me.
"You're always funny, Andy." That's when the door opens and Zeke comes running inside.
"Holy shit man!" Zeke exclaims as he runs in. "You're actually awake!"
So, I ended the story like that. I hope you liked Andy's story. The last chapter, the epilogue will be up as soon as tomorrow and Andy's story will be over with. It kind of feels like Aundrea is leaving, like I'm a parent or something. lol