!!!!!!!WARNING!!!!!!! This chapter may not be suitable for those under the legal age, or those with a weak stomach. This chapter contains sensitive material that contains sexual acts with a young child. Please refrain from reading or stop reading if you become uncomfortable with the direction it is going.
It will not be an easy road, but it will happen.
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Katie rushed back to the redhead's flat directly after her last course to find that it was empty. Of course it was... Gabrielle had practice to attend before she would be able to come home. 'Home,' she thought to herself. Since when had she started to consider the athlete's place as her home?
The brunette walked around the vacant rooms, more to keep herself moving than for any other reason. She knew the moment she sat down she'd be pulling her phone out and staring at it, willing the redhead to contact her in some way. Katie ended up pulling the electronic device out anyway, to turn the sound on after putting it on vibrate for the day while she was at college. Brown orbs looked down at the screen to see that she had a text waiting there for her. She couldn't contain her excitement as she opened it up. 'I miss you' was all it said. Her lips curled up slightly as she moved letter by letter over the name that had sent her the message. The older twin typed back quickly, 'I can't wait until you're home!'
She didn't expect an answer seeing as the time on her phone indicated that the girl would be well into her practice time by now. Katie sat her phone down on the table and took a seat on the larger couch that faced the large window. She realized she hadn't ever taken the time to look out that particular window. It usually had a tie-dyed sheet over it that let in enough colorful natural light to brighten up the entire room. The sheet was halfway brushed to the side, being held up by a push-pin, which she found a bit odd, but enjoyed the change anyway.
Katie found that her mind began to wander of its own accord. Thoughts of the hard yet soft body belonging to the athlete, of her long red mane, her soft demeanor, and simply everything about her began to filter through her mind. She could feel her face begin to flush at the not so innocent pictures that began playing in her mind. The twin's hand came up to rub at her eyes to try to block the images, or at least slow them down. The brunette knew she had to be in top form when Gabrielle returned, knew she had to be ready for anything, and ready to support the girl at all costs. She didn't want to lose the athlete, and didn't want to be pushed away. She would have to be both strong and soft all at once. Was she up to the challenge? She found herself nodding at the question; she was as ready as she would ever be.
Practice seemed to drag on forever, but once it finally ended, she found herself taking a shower in the locker room instead of heading back to her flat to do so. Gabrielle convinced herself it was because she was just too sweaty and dirty and she wanted to look good for Katie, who was no doubt waiting for her. If she would have really been truthful with herself, however, she would have known that she just needed to try to sort herself for just a little longer before heading back to the den.
She dressed in a pair of dark, baggy jeans and a grey A-shirt and finished it off with a pair of black skater shoes and a black studded belt. It was times like this where she was thankful that she kept a couple of extra outfits in her gym locker. She picked up her bag on her way out, pulling a brush from it and sliding it along her scalp and all the way to the tips of her red locks.
Gabrielle was halfway home before she put the brush away, and at that point, she felt herself walking a little slower. She was no longer distracted and all she could feel was her stomach tightening with the nervous energy that was flowing through her body. Even deep breaths weren't really helping her, but she had tried everything else possible to calm herself down… to keep herself from freaking out completely.
Her hazel eyes were downcast as she opened the door to her flat, scared that they would put everything she was feeling out on display for the older twin. The redhead couldn't help it though, and ended up glancing up to find the warm chocolate eyes she always seemed to fall into. "So beautiful…" she whispered before tearing her gaze away as she felt a flush starting to form on her freckled cheeks.
Katie's soft coffee orbs could only stay locked on with the athlete's for a few moments before she was forced to look away. Tornadoes of nerves were circling around in her gut. She wanted to ask what had happened, wanted to know what she had done wrong, but most of all, she wanted to make sure that Gabrielle was alright. "Gabs…" she started, but ended up stopping when her lisp got caught on the 's'. The older twin took a breath and tilted her head up slightly so she could look at the beautiful features of the girl who made her heart flutter.
The windows to the athlete's soul were looking more green than hazel, and she couldn't help but look up when her name was said so softly. It was almost as if the Fitch girl was caressing it with her lips and tongue. Katie deserved to know why she acted how she did, but how could she simply bring that up? She remembered the promise that she made to the younger twin earlier in the day, and the redhead wasn't one to break promises to anyone. Gabrielle swallowed a lump that had formed in her throat and looked up. "Katie…"
"Gabrielle…" Katie said at the same time, and then stopped when she heard her own name being said by the other girl. Both stopped, waiting for the other to start speaking, and after a few silent moments Katie spoke again, "Sorry, go ahead."
Any courage she had mustered up slipped away with the silence, but she had to get it back. "Katie… I… I mean… when I was… little…" her almost emerald coloured orbs were starting to well up with unshed tears full of memories of pain, anguish, and fear.
Katie's heart clenched as she saw the normally stoic athlete start to unravel right before her very eyes. She moved forward from her spot to envelop the taller girl in a bone crushing embrace before leading her slowly to the larger couch. The twin sat beside Gabrielle and kept her arms around her, pulling her down until the red head of hair was lying in her lap. Katie's fingers began to softly run through the silky red hair, which seemed to calm both girls.
Gabrielle turned on her side so she wouldn't accidentally look up into the Fitch twin's face, that way she could continue to speak (or at least try), without being distracted. The soft hand that ran from her temple down to the tips of her hair sent a tranquil feeling through her, but it was soon back in full hurricane mode when she parted her lips to speak again. Her voice seemed more composed than it was a few moments before, but not like her usual emotionless, deep, vibrating tone. It was softer, and it shook slightly as she let her orbs close. "When I was little I would spend a lot of time at the house of a family friend. The parents had something like 5 children. The youngest was a year younger than me, and then the next was a year older than me. I… I was probably 3 or 4. After those two boys, the next youngest was 14 or 15." Gabrielle hesitated. She had never really gone into this much detail with anyone before, and only maybe 5 people knew of what happened, not including her or the boy.
Katie listened intently, her body tightening uncomfortably. Her fingers continued to run through the red locks, more to keep her hands busy as a partial distraction, than for anything else. Her mind was starting to piece together bits of the puzzle, but she didn't dare come to a final conclusion without hearing it straight from the source. Brown eyes began to water in anticipation over what could possibly be being told to her.
"He… he would bring me into the bathroom w… with him, when I was over." Gabrielle's body began to shake slightly and she clenched her eyes closed as hard as she could to stop the mental picture from crossing her vision. The soothing hand continued moving over her head and down her hair, somehow making it possible to go on. "At… at first it seemed innocent, like… like he was just bringing me in to use the bathroom. But, but things changed." She stopped to suck in a much needed breath as the unwanted hallucinations began to filter in before her tightly shut eyes. "It stopped being innocent." Her voice faltered.
The older twin slipped one arm under the athlete's body and held her as close as was possible in the positions they were in. "I'm right here, love, I'm not going anywhere." Katie wasn't sure if it was the right thing to say, and she was starting to wonder if she really needed to know this particular facet of Gabrielle's past.
The red head nodded and she swallowed. "He began to make me take… my… my panties off, and he would do the same. I know now that he was hard, but I didn't know any better back then. He, he would have me lick it, and… and kiss it, and suck on it… and… and stroke my hand up and down it." Her body started to heave and her breathing was no longer calm. "He would ask me where mine was, and I would spread my legs open and… try to find it… he would… watch me." Gabrielle managed to spit out between heaving intakes of breath.
Katie had heard enough, she got the point, understood what happened. No wonder she had such a need for control, and no wonder she was gay. "Baby…" she cooed into the redhead's ear.
"I still have nightmares, and… and I can't seem to figure out if I'm having flashbacks or if I'm making things worse than what actually happened." Her voice sounded slightly stronger and she turned around to face the brunette and she wrapped her arms around the twin's waist and set her head between her breasts. "They… the visions… they never go away. "
The Fitch girl didn't know what to say. She was stunned. "We can work through it, yeah? Thank you, for… for telling me." Her voice was soft and she was holding onto the redhead so fiercely that she just knew that she was showing her unbridled emotions for this girl. "I love you…" The words were out before she had a chance to reel them back in, but they were hanging in the air now.
Gabrielle could feel the pure sentiment coming from the brunette, and her grip around the twin increased when those three little words slipped from Katie's lips. "I love you too."
The two girls got more comfortable on the couch, simply holding on to one another, no petting, no snogging, not even simple kisses. Nothing was said; nothing more needed to be said. Things were out in the open and each girl was lost in her own thoughts of how it could be properly sorted.
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As I said in the beginning, I know this isn't the nicest chapter... but it will get better/happier... might take a chapter or two, but Gabs needed to get that out in the open for Katie to better understand how she is the way she is!