It's been too long. Last two chps, here we go. KakashiXIrukaLover, Jay's certainly gonna try. Nah, I can't handle a Randy & Jay equation. At least I promise the next chp won't take nearly two years.. redsandman99, BellaHickenbottom, I'll miss you Edge, jacobluver113, thank you guys. neonaxelgrease, my real life has been.. a ride.. Jay's sometimes very good as a creeper. :P JoMoFan-spot, thank you, for everything. This story brought us together & I will never regret it. Your advice helped me grow as a writer & I will always treasure that. PrincessofPunk8, chp 1, the plot was one I was proud of & will always be. Chp 2, thank you, hun. Dashing Golden Dreams, oldie but a goodie. ;) No sequel, but these are the last two chps. Adam is beautiful & very wantable. Thank you. TheGirlInThePinkScarf, haha, I've lost a lot of sleep on this story myself. Hm, I think that's one of the best votes for Jedam I've heard for this one. Thank you.

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Chapter twenty-six/ 'Room For Doubt'
Rated; M/ L (rape theme, lots of confusion & trying to figure it out)

Adam paced in the hotel room. "I can't get him outta my mind, Randy. I can't let him go. I've tried."

Randy didn't have to ask. He knew who Adam was talking about.

"I still want him. I still love him.. I can't push him from my mind.." The blonde had to get this out.

The words stung. "Adam, I don't.. Matt.."

Adam stopped. "I know what you're going to say, Randy. I know you're going to talk about Matt hurting me and Jeff letting him.. You're going to say they'll hurt me again.."

Randy shifted on the bed as he sat propped up against the head board. "They will."

Adam tugged at his hair. He wanted him to understand where he was coming from. "Physical pain, Randy. I'm hurting now without him. I know you think Jeff is selfish because he wants me and Matt.."

Randy straightened and tried to reach out to the blonde. "You don't think he is, Adam? Baby, you deserve the full love and attention of-"

"Matt loved me, Randy." Adam pulled away and shook his head. "I hurt Matt by being selfish."

Randy sat back and folded his hands over his stomach. "The Hardys are the ones who are selfish, Adam.. they.."

"What do you think you're being, Randy? Keeping me away from Jeff.." Really, it just came out.

Randy gritted his teeth. "So what about me, Adam? Doesn't my opinion count? I love you. I've always loved you, Adam. I want to be with you. If that makes me selfish, then fine, I am."

"But I still love Jeff.. I've tried.."

"So this whole relationship has meant nothing to you?" Randy scooted to the edge of the bed, looking dead at Adam.

"I didn't say that.. I.. All I'm saying is.. Look.." Adam huffed, he couldn't find the words. "I'm truly grateful to you, Randy.. for your love.. support.."

"So this is it? We're over?" Orton shook his head with a dry huff. He wet his lips.

"I never said that. Stop putting words in my mouth." Adam pushed his hair back.

"You still love Jeff.. possibly Matt.."

"I never said I loved Matt." Adam sat down in the chair.

"Bullshit, Addy." Randy scoffed. "You wouldn't defend him like you do if you didn't."

Adam's eyes narrowed. He glared at the brunette.

Randy sighed and came toward him. "C'mon, Adam. I didn't.."

Adam got up and pushed past him, stopping at the door. "Y'know, at one point Matt was my best friend. You don't think it hurt when I lost him? You don't think I felt like shit hearing the things he said to me? I made a mistake. I paid. I called him up crying, apologizing.. I lost them, Randy. It's never stopped hurting."

"Then, baby, you need to get over it." Randy said softly. "You're.."

"Don't you think I've been trying, Randy? This whole relationship with you I've been trying. Shit. You don't know how hard it is for me." His voice almost trembled and tears threatened his eyes.

"Hard for you? What about me?" Randy gestured to himself. "How's it hard for you?"

"Because I'm falling for you." Adam almost shouted.

Randy stopped and swallowed, his face tightening.

"I'm falling for you. I still love Jeff and I'm confused as hell. I understand how Jeff feels. You can have feelings for two people, Randy. I'd love to lie to you and tell you I'm over Jeff, but I'm not. It's driving me insane. It's tearing me apart." Adam took a deep breath. "I don't think I should be with anybody right now."

"Adam.."

"Randy, don't. If you love me.. just don't. This is something I need to figure out on my own. You can't help me." Adam gathered up his stuff.

"I'm supposed to help you, Adam. We're supposed to get through it together." Really, it didn't seem fair.

Adam smiled. "Randy, you've been wonderful. I am grateful. But I just need some time." Adam nodded, leaning to peck Randy on the lips. Randy nodded as well, sighing as he watched the blonde leave.

-xx-

Adam didn't want to break up with Randy and Adam didn't want to let Jeff go deep down, no matter how much he said he did or said he tried. In reality he just didn't want to.

Adam needed his space right now. Time to just get his mind clear and figure out what he truly wanted and he just couldn't do that with Randy in his ear trying to sway his decision. He respected Randy's opinions and adored that Randy cared so deeply for him. But Adam had to decide for himself. Let Jeff go for good and have a happy life with Randy.. or risk Matt's wrath and let Randy go to be with Jeff.

-xx-

Jay found Randy next to the ring in the empty arena. It was a few hours before show and the crew was still setting up.

"Hey, Orton, need to have a word with you." He said as he approached the man known as the Viper.

Randy stretched his shoulders, popping his neck. "What do you want, Reso?"

"I want you to let Adam talk to Matt and Jeff. At least Jeff." The short haired blonde got right to the point.

Randy groaned. "Not you too. Keep out of it, man. You don't know the whole story, it doesn't concern you."

"For one, I do know the story, Randy." Jay wet his lips. "Adam and Amy filled me in on the shit you wouldn't tell me. And two, anything that concerns Adam Joseph Copeland concerns me. You're full of shit if you think otherwise."

Randy almost snorted. "You don't scare me, Jay."

Jay rolled his eyes. "And you don't scare me like you do everyone else, Randy. And neither does Matt. Both of you just talk a lot of shit."

"And just why should I let Adam talk to Matt? If you know the whole story then you know what Matt did to Adam." Randy worked on stretching his arms, feeling the burning tug of muscle.

Jay folded his arms. "Yeah, I'm fully aware of what Matt did."

"Then you of all people should hate Matt Hardy too. Shouldn't trust him in two feet of your best friend." Randy had a point.. but still..

"Oh, I'm furious at Matt. I was.. I wanted to kill him.. but that's not going to solve anything, Randy. Just make it worse. Matt has his demons and his problems and I don't condone for a second what he done to my Adam." Jay stated.

Randy shrugged. "Then why do you think Adam should see him so badly?"

"Because Adam isn't a child, Randy. You can't protect him like one. Adam has to do this for himself to get closure and make his own decision. You're acting no better than Matt by keeping him chained up like you are." Jay had his own points to make.

"I am nothing like Matt." Randy said thickly and to Jay's face. "I wouldn't hurt Adam."

"Maybe not, but you're not helping him by treating him like a child. Adam cares about you, but he's miserable and you can't see that. I know he sometimes acts like he's 16, but Adam's 36. He's a big boy and he's been through worse and he's always made it through it. Overcame and persevered. He will this too, but not with you keeping him on a short leash. Adam trusts you, trust him."

Randy shook his head, leaning against the ring apron. "You don't get it, Jay. I love Adam with all my heart. I don't wanna lose him again.. If he goes back to Jeff and Matt, not only may he get hurt again, but.."

"You'll lose Adam for good and be lonely?" Jay concluded.

Randy nodded. "It doesn't matter anyway about me. I've probably already lost. Adam wants to be alone right now. He called it off."

"I think Adam just needs a little time to breathe right now. He's confused. He doesn't know what he wants and you're not gonna help your chances by trying to force his hand. Be patient." Jay patted the larger man's shoulder.

"I know. I understand. I'd never force him.. even though I.. guess I kinda have.. It's just I don't trust them. They say they love Adam, but how long before they get mad and hurt him again. I'm supposed to protect Adam." The brunette said it almost helplessly.

Jay sighed. "But you can't always, Randy. Neither can I."

-xx-

There was a knock at Adam's hotel door. When Adam opened it he found Randy standing there with flowers, holding them out as he rubbed the back of his neck. Orton's head was bowed and his eyes stared up, this apologetic look on his face.

"Randy.. didn't you hear what I said..?" Adam was confused.

Randy nodded. "Yeah, I did. This is just a peace offering. I think I've been really selfish, Adam. I've been manipulative and greedy and that was wrong."

"But you've been right." Adam replied.

Randy licked his chapped lips. "Doesn't matter if I'm right or wrong. It wasn't right to you. I've been keeping you from finding your closure. I love you, Adam, and I was afraid of losing you."

Adam held onto the edge of the door. "So that stuff about being scared they'd hurt me was a bunch of lies to keep me with you?"

"No. I'm still scared for your safety, but I wasn't just afraid of you getting hurt. I was I'd get hurt again too." Orton looked down at the colorful petals of the flowers. "Adam, I've loved you for years. the things you said to me, they hurt. But I looked past them because I knew you were just afraid. I waited on you, hoping, praying that'd you'd finally one day want and love me as much as I did you.. And I was so eager to finally have that, that I let it overshadow my judgment." He looked back up into green eyes. "I didn't wanna be left out in the cold. I didn't want you going back to him and leaving me. It may have been wrong, or right, I don't care. But I do care about you. I want to see you happy, Adam. Even if that means me being miserable."

Adam reached out and took Randy's free hand, rubbing his thumb across knuckles. "But I do love you, Randy. I never meant to hurt you. You have stood by me and took care of me more than anyone ever has... well, maybe besides Ma or Jay." Adam smiled. "You're one of the greatest guys I have ever known. You see me as a person, not for the things I've done. How could I not love you for that?"

Randy coiled his fingers around Adam's. "Adam, I still have hope for us. I still want to be with you. I still believe we're meant to be together, but.. you need to get your closure."

"But, Randy, I.."

Randy brought his hand up to kiss his fingers. "I've treated you like a child, Adam. But you're not a child. This is something you have to face without me. It's the only way you'll find peace."

"I don't know if I can.." Adam said honestly.

"You will. You're strong." Randy handed the blonde the flowers and kissed his cheek. "I'll be waiting for you."

-xx-

Jeff sat with Jay at the catering table. He had expressed doubt in Adam talking to Matt right now while he was trying to get help. It was obvious from his demeanor.

"Adam talking to Matt? Is it really what you want?" Jay asked. Either way he didn't care as long as Adam was taken care of.

"Doesn't seem to matter what I want. I don't think it ever has." Jeff said lowly.

"I don't think you fully trust Matt talking." Jay sipped his coffee, feeling the hot liquid burn his throat and down to his belly.

"He's my brother." Jeff stated. That was the usual excuse.

Jay held the mug as it sat on the table. "I know. I get that. I understand.. but I think you need to let Matt get the help he needs first and I think you, you, and Adam need to work your shit out separately without Matt. Cuz I can see the doubt in your eyes, Jeff, and I can hear it in your voice every time you speak of it. I know Matt's your brother and you love him, but you don't like what he did to Adam and you don't think he'll change."

Jeff looked up and Jay was ready for typical 'what the fuck do you know? You know nothing about me!', defensive slurs, but Jeff just sighed.

"I sometimes wish Matt would've just left it all alone. Just let me had Adam and stayed out of it. I still wish he'd stayed out of it. I get that he wants to explain shit to Adam.. but I don't see how it'll help. It won't fix what I lost. I lost Adam and I love Matt, but Matt's changed. He's.." Jeff rubbed his tired eyes. "I dunno.. just different. It scares me sometimes.."

-xx-

For the first time in a long time Jeff was alone and more free to think for himself. Even though Matt could be smothering in his over-protective older brother/lover ways, Jeff never really minded having someone look out for him and take care of him. The heart of the matter- and what needed to change- was that Matt liked to speak for Jeff. Matt liked to have too much control and it was suffocating. Maybe if Matt had have just trusted his brother- and heaven forbid- let Jeff make his own decision for once and let Jeff handled Adam, everything would have been alright. They were having fun.. Jeff would have slowly gained Adam's trust.

But Matt had to scare him away. Hell, who wouldn't have been pushed away? Jeff couldn't blame him. Jeff himself hadn't even fooled around with Matt in awhile while the brother's were on the mend. Things had changed. In fact, Jeff was pretty sure the fear of losing Jeff was the reason Matt went to Anger Management in the first place. Matt needed to better himself right now, get certain things under control. Everyone has to grow over time in their own lives. Matt was no exception, no one was.

Mostly Jeff spent his time alone. More time to think and he understood fully why Matt wanted to see and explain to Adam.. but parts of Jeff deep down wasn't sure he wanted him to. Maybe it all depended on how Matt was after he got out of Anger Management and what he gained from the experience. There was absolutely no guarantee Matt would emerge a better person, or shit, even learn squat from it. And if he didn't, then Jeff didn't want Matt talking to Adam just to alienate him more. And Jeff wasn't sure that a Matt/Adam relationship was possible period. That was still severed for good in his eyes.

If it was still in the slightest hope possible for Jeff to fix things and even have a shred of a relationship with Adam, then Matt was going to have to butt the fuck out. If Matt couldn't share Jeff with Adam, then he may just lose him as a lover. And in a similarity, Jeff had to accept that if he was going to have anything to do with Adam, he was going to have to share with Randy, even with as bitter as that made him feel..

Only if Jeff could get Randy and Adam to agree to it.. that was the impossible part..

The next chp is the last chp of this story. I've taken way too long & a lot of shit has happened since I first started, but I decided finally to go thru my notes, piece them together & end it. I had other different ways I could have gone & debated on it so long, but this is what I decided on. Everyone is pretty much confused, hurt & trying to figure it out so they can move on. So much has changed since I started (or hell, since I last updated) & no matter what, it is alright.

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