Chapter 26 Love is what we need

Lorelai was standing by the door and looking at her crying daughter. She still did not know what had happened, but must have been something serious. Rory did not like these moments of weakness. She was just about to ask when a quiet childish voice stopped her.

'Mommy?' Jake had followed her upstairs and now looked at his mother with crooked face. 'Why are you crying, mommy?'

Rory snapped her head towards that voice and looked at his son. Jake was standing before her and Jess released her from his embrace. She tried to smile and reached out hands towards her son. Jake went to her and sat on her lap, hugging her over her neck. Rory wrapped arms around him and cradled him carefully.

'It's okay honey.' Rory sang and kissed the top of his head. 'Mommy is okay. She just needed to hug you.'

'I can stay here all day!' Jake said in with face in her hair and Rory smiled softly.

'Okay.' She whispered and looked at Jess. He stared at her with concern. 'I'm okay.' Rory nodded at him and he nodded at her back. 'We'll stay here awhile.' She smiled and he understood her.

'Okay.' Jess got off the floor and nodded at Lorelai to follow him. She was speechless for once and Jess would smile if the situations were not that serious. He just wondered how he was going to explain this to her.

They went back downstairs and Jess fell on the sofa. Lorelai sat at the opposite armchair. She frowned and her eyes glared at him.

'What the Hell is wrong with my daughter, Jess?' She snapped finally and he frowned, was not sure if he was the one to tell her.

'I'm not sure.' He lied. This was the easiest thing for him and they both knew it.

'You are lying to me, Jess and I don't like it.' Lorelai frowned too. 'I want the truth and I want it now! I have not seen Rory like this before. Well, I lie little. I saw her like this when you were ill and she thought that you…' Her eyes widened. 'Are you alright Jess? You are not sick again?'

'No.' Jess shook his head. 'I am okay, if you do not count my little heart problem. I hope that would get better soon too.'

'Are you sure?' Lorelai studied his face. 'Yes, you are. You are telling me the truth.' She nodded.

'You can never be sure with me, mom.' Jess tilted his head. 'You can't read me.'

'I can be sure that you want to make my Rory happy.' Lorelai tilted her head too. 'I'm sure that you won't do anything to hurt her. You were though a lot and I think you learned your lesson.'

'I did.' Jess nodded with light frown.

'So that leads us back to the first base.'

'First base?'

'I want to know why my daughter looked like that! Now!' Lorelai snapped.

'You can't speak to me with this voice, Lorelai!' Jess narrowed his eyes. 'I'm not your little kid! You got it?' Jess had clenched his jaw and had clenched his fists close to his body.

'Now I'm Lorelai?' She tilted her head, but tried to keep her voice steady.

'That's right!' Jess snapped.

'It's okay Jess.' They heard Rory and looked at her. She walked into the room and sat close to Jess. 'I'll tell her.'

'Are you sure?' Jess wrapped arm around her shoulders and squeezed her tightly. Rory nodded with pale face.

'She is my mother. She has to know.' Her voice cracked and she placed hand on his thigh.

'Rory…' Lorelai called her and she looked at her. Rory's face was pale and still teary. 'You are scaring me! What happened?'

'I… ' Rory sobbed and tried to control her voice. 'I lost a child.' She burst into tears once again and Jess hugged her tightly, wrapping his other arm around her too.

'Oh my!' Lorelai was shocked. Rory had hid that pretty well. 'When did that happened?'

'When she came back from New York.' Jess tried to explain. Rory was too emotional to do that.

'That's why she was so nervous.' Jess rubbed her back calmingly, trying to soothe her. 'She just tried to protect me from that news.'

'But… but… I didn't have to.' Rory sniffed and lifted her head up. She looked at him with her wet eyes and his heart ached. 'We had to talk.'

'We had to talk and we will from now on.' Jess loosened his embrace around her and she looked at her mother.

'We will try.' Rory sniffed.

'I hope you'll succeed.' Lorelai nodded.

'It was too much and now…' Rory sniffed again, leaning her head on Jess' shoulder. 'When I saw Lane's daughter… My baby had to be on the same… age…' She sobbed.

'Shush.' Jess rubbed her arm. 'Calm down now.'

'I'm such a bad person!' She shook her head. 'I hated her… for having… that baby.'

'You are not a bad person Rory!' Lorelai frowned. 'You are a woman and it's normal to feel like this.'

'I know, but…' Rory shrugged. 'I just can't look at that child!'

'You want to tell Lane about that?' Lorelai asked her carefully. 'Maybe if you talk to her, she won't bring her daughter here.'

'No.' Rory shook her head. 'This is my problem.'

'Our!' Jess interrupted her and Rory looked at him, touching his face.

'This is our problem and we could deal with it.'

'Well call if you need help.' Lorelai tilted her head.

'We will, mom.' Jess nodded and saw her smile.

'Oh, I'm back to 'mom' mode?' She rose up her eyebrows.

'Sorry for you.' Jess gave her a light smirk.

'I can live with that.' Lorelai nodded. 'Where is Jake?'

'I put him to sleep his afternoon nap.' Rory explained and looked up at Jess. 'He took his pills and he is good.'

'Okay. That is good to hear.' Jess nodded. 'I have to take mine after an hour.'

'I know you will.' Rory rubbed his thigh.

'That's how I want to see you both.' They heard Lorelai and saw her smiling. 'To love each other.'

'We do.' Jess kissed Rory's temple and she smiled against him.