Chapter 26

I was met at the Mexican restaurant with my two good friends Carol and Sean. There was lots of hugging and "Oh my God! I missed you!" "You can't leave for 7 months ever again!" "Dang baby, you got hotter." Wonder who said the last one…

Outside a million and one paparazzo's surrounded the building. After seven months of being out of the limelight, everyone wanted to have the first picture. I just put my sunglasses on and casually waved. Yea, I didn't really miss them all that much.

You know what sucks about being famous? Every guy likes you and wants you. Well, not every guy, but a lot of them. And all day, everyday, you have to listen to their nonsense and stupid catcalls. They even tell you what they want to do with you. In New Zealand, I didn't have to deal with this. I could just walk around, and not have to be subjected to their nasty comments. A lot of the boys outside were doing this. Even some of the paparazzi…

Dinner with my friends and my mom was pretty fun. We shared stories about what had happened to us over the last seven months. Sean met a girl and hooked up with twice… my mom was not exactly pleased to hear this. Carol was being made to spend more time with her Aunts youth group.

"She is making me go to winter church camp with them at the end of the year! I like church and all, but I don't want to be stuck with those stupid people for a whole week!" Carol exclaimed and took of a sip of her virgin strawberry daiquiri. We all got the same drink. I'm sure we would have much preferred the non-virgin, but my mom was here and unfortunately there was that fricken drinking law.

I don't understand how Carol and Sean can eat so much and stay so thin. Seriously. They at a HUGE basket of chips, a big bowl of home made guacamole, gigantic burritos, and their own fried chocolate chip ice cream. I bet I gained a pound just looking at the burritos. It's not fair. I wish I had a fast metabolism. Since I started the movie I had begun to work out every day, and now I was in perfect physical condition. There was no way I was going to waste all that hard work in one night at a Mexican restaurant.

"Dang I wish it was my birthday." I sighed while watching Carol and Sean scarf their ice cream.

"Why?" Sean said a mouthful of food.

"Because then you get the Triple layer chocolate cake with white chocolate icing, drizzled with cherry syrup. They only give that if it is your birthday."

"Then just say it's your birthday!"

"I'm kind of famous remember? Everyone knows it's not my birthday."

"Exactly!" Carol put her fork down. "You're Sadie Hawkins! You can get whatever you want."

"It's just cake. Plus it would be unfair to everyone around me who doesn't get that piece of amazingness because it's not their birthday." I shrugged. "I don't need it anyway."

Carol and my mom excused their selves to the bathroom, which left Sean and I.

"Hey want to hang at my place after this?" Sean asked.

"Umm…" I honestly wanted to go home and sleep. The long flight tired me out.

Sean grinned. "Come on. You said I would be the first person you would hang out with."

I leaned back in my chair and sighed. "Fine. Just for a little while, then I'm going home."

"This should be fun." Sean smirked.

"Yea. Sure." I replied with a roll of my eyes.

***

"Don't be out too late." My mom hugged me as I left with Sean. Carol eyed Sean suspiciously. I knew she didn't want me to hang out with him, but I assured her it would be all right.

I left the restaurant with Sean, and of course, the paparazzi followed us all the way to the car. They kept shouting, "Sadie! Great too see you!" "Is this your new boyfriend?" "What's his name?" "Are you and Tom not friends anymore?" "What will Tom think when he sees you hanging out with another guy?" I ignored all and held a straight face until I got into his car. Sean was the opposite. He smiled and waved at all the cameras. I had to jab him in the side with my elbow to keep him from saying anything. I knew whatever Sean said, the media would take completely out of context, and then the rumors would start.

As we pulled up to his house, I quickly noted that there weren't any other cars in the driveway.

"Where are you parents?" I asked when I stepped through the front door of his house. It was big, white and very expensive looking inside.

"They went to the Bahamas on vacation. Be back in like a week or whatever." Sean's parents were doctors and worked at the local hospital. They weren't poor, but they were upper middle class.

"Dang, it's hot in here." I immediately started to fan myself with my hand.

"Yea. Our AC is broken." Sean shrugged. "Repair man is coming tomorrow."

"Got anything to drink?" I was already getting thirsty and I had just arrived. Probably because the house is too warm.

"Yea. Coke cool?" Sean asked and I nodded my head. "Ok. Just sit tight." Sean pointed to the couches. "I'll be right back."

I sat down on one of the comfy white couches and began to think about the next three days. The next three days I had as chill time to get ready for my interviews in Europe. That was one of the reasons why I was going to see Tom very soon. Even though the movie wasn't ready to come out I already had a number of people that wanted to talk to me about it. Well, not only about the film, but me in general. They wanted to get to know the girl that was always with Tom Kaulitz. I of course said yes, because hey, I wanted to see Tom. I also really wanted to go to Europe again.

"Here babe." Sean entered the room and sat down a glass of coke on the coffee table in front of me.

"Thanks." I quickly took a sip. Sean sat down next to me with his own glass. Just as I had sat the glass down, he kissed me.

I threw my head to the side and wiped my mouth. "What the heck?!"

"What do you mean 'what the heck'? We always do this." Sean proceeded to kiss me again, but I pushed him away.

"Sean, I'm not doing this anymore."

"What?" Sean looked confused. "Why not?"

"I don't like you like that." Which was completely the truth.

"But… all the other times…"

"They didn't mean anything to me. You were just basically… my make out buddy…" I trailed off.

"You used me?"

"Don't look so surprised!" I exclaimed. "You knew I liked Tom!"

"You liked Tom?!"

"Shut up. As if it wasn't obvious!"

Sean scooted away from me and then stood up. "Then why would you kiss me?"

"Because! You were just there! I wasn't getting anything from Tom! Besides… you're a good kisser." Wow… I probably sounded like a bitch and one of those stupid guys who sleep around for fun.

"Not cool Sadie." Sean crossed his arms and glared.

I shrugged. "Sorry."

"What about us?"

I raised an eyebrow. "Us?"

"Yes, 'us'! I thought we had something!" Sean shouted.

"We have nothing!" It was my turn to stand up. "We never have, and never will."

"You little bitch…" Sean muttered.

"Yes, I'm a bitch. I know…" I was beginning to get a slight headache and my eyes were starting to hurt.

"Why do you play around with guy's hearts?" Sean's tone saddened.

"It's not like you don't do it to other girls! You're a fricken pimp!" Sean has no right to be mad at me, when he does the exact same thing to other people.

"I actually really liked you Sadie…"

"Stop- stop trying to make me look like the bad guy." I was starting to get dizzy.

"You're not." Sean then smirked. "I am."

"Excuse me?" I grabbed my forehead, thinking that would stop the dizziness. It was getting harder to think clearly.

"Just a few more seconds…" Sean murmured. I suddenly couldn't concentrate on what he was saying. I was just trying to stay standing.

"Good night Sadie." Sean said with an evil chuckle. I instantly collapsed on the floor, nearly missing the coffee table. Sean walked over to me and grabbed my hands. He started to pull me along the floor and towards the stairs. I couldn't yell, scream, kick or anything. It was as if my body was frozen, but my mind was alert to it all. The only thing I could do was let Sean drag me up the stairs.

***

I woke up light headed and shivering. I looked around slowly; the scene made my heart skip a beat. I was laying next to a naked Sean, who was clearly asleep. I looked down at myself and saw that there was blood everywhere. My clothes were ripped and littered all over the room. I just stared at everything, trying to figure out what happened. Was I raped? I thought back to the night before. Nothing. I couldn't remember anything. I looked at Sean, hoping that would jog my memory, but it didn't. Fear started to form in my mind.

I soon became embarrassed, realizing that I was lying on a bed completely naked. All I wanted to do was get away from him. I sat up slowly and my body ached. I had bruises where a bruise shouldn't be, on my thighs and on my wrists and arms. I glanced over at Sean. Still asleep. I got up from the bed and my legs started to tremble from all the pain I was feeling. I was very sore down in the lower region and it hurt to walk. Tears formed in my eyes and I couldn't help but let them fall. I gathered my clothes, slowly putting them and keeping an eye on Sean at the same time. It was hard pulling on my white skinny jeans and trying to avoid the dried blood that splattered my thighs.

I quietly opened the door to his room and left. As soon as I was about a block away from his house, hidden in the trees because it was daytime and I didn't want anyone to see me, I instantly broke down and sobbed. The fear that had started earlier had suddenly grown bigger. I knew what happened, but I just couldn't remember.

My first time was supposed to be full of love and passion and with the man I loved, but I guess I don't get that privilege... I was raped instead.

Well there ya have it. Drama is just starting. Just wait till she's with Tom.

Umm I hope no one is offended or what have you about the subject matter. I spent a great deal of time researching it, and I hope I got it right. I don't like writing scenes that can't happen o r happened the wrong way. I hope everyone is ok with this. If I messed up on it or anything, PLEASE let me know. I hope you know I didn't enjoy writing it or researching it. It made me very sad that people go through this every day. The drug Sean used is Ketamine, AKA 'Special K'. I also spent a long time looking up that drug.

Like I said. I don't want to give false information.