A/N Sorry for the delay everyone! It's been a rough few weeks for me at work and by the time i've made it home i'm exhausted. I finally had a burst of creativity last night. I hope you all are still interested in what i've got to write! I had a short story idea come to me just now for when I finish this one up! Keep those Reviews coming and if there is something you'd like to see written or in the story line please don't hesitate to tell me your ideas!

As usual NO COPYRIGHT intended. These characters were created and brought to life by the one, the only Kurt Sutter! I'm merely just adding to what he's already created!

Please keep reading! ~A~

The ride to Opie and Donna's new place was smooth. It was a beautiful night, full bright moon. After the stress of the day, I really enjoyed feeling the wind in my hair and Jax's leather under my arms. Instead of watching where we were riding, I leaned my head on Jax's shoulder and enjoyed the feel of the world rushing by and the comfort of just being with Jax. Riding along in the night like this allows my brain to wander. Where would I be if Jax hadn't dropped his apple on my lunch table? In such a short time, I feel as if I've met my soul mate. I know I'm young but Jax fills the pieces of me that were left open and empty. I know without Jax the death of my mom would have left me wasted and wandering. I'm not sure I could have functioned. He's made it possible to still be me in the aftermath of all this tragedy.

All too soon, we pull up at the curb of a small ranch style house; it's painted a bright sunny yellow color . Place looks nice. Not bad for two young kids starting out. Jax and I stay sitting on the bike while Donna and Op meet with the home owner. Money passes hands as does a key and before long the owner drives away. Jax and I climb off the bike and walk up the drive way to follow our best friends into their new digs.

I don't know what I was expecting walking through that front door but it sure as hell wasn't what I saw. It was clean, a little out dated but still clean. The door opens into a pretty decent sized living room. To the left is a little alcove, with a bedroom at the north and the south and in the middle is the full bathroom. To the right is the dining room and kitchen, and on the other side of the kitchen is the master bedroom. While Jax and I are wandering around checking out things, Opie and Donna are standing in the middle of the living room with shit eating grins on their faces. Jax leans in and whispers to me how cool it would be if we had a place. I can only let myself dream, so I nod yes and lean in for a kiss. How cool would it be for Jax and I to be in Opie and Donna's place? I can picture coming home from school and him coming home from work, cooking dinner, making love, hanging out, just being us, two people in love. Then there would be mornings snuggled in bed, with the California sun shining through the window, happiness all around. A perfect world which is why I know it can never happen. Nothing in this world is perfect, ever. Jax breaks my day dream by pulling me over to Opie and Donna and congratulating them on their new place. Opie smiles tells us thank you and turns back to Donna giving her a deep loving kiss. Jax pulls me to the door.

¡°Where are we going, Jax?"

He laughs and asks if I want to stay and watch Opie and Donna get it on, in the middle of the living room. I glance back and he's right, it's definitely time to split. We shout a goodbye and walk out into the bright moonlight night.

¡°Where to, Darling? You wanna go home or should we go to this place I know and look at the stars?"

I tell Jax that looking at the stars sounds awesome. I'm not ready to go home and face my dad. Jax turns the bike around and we head back the way we came. I'm wondering where we are going when he turns into TM. What? We're star gazing at TM? Ok now I'm confused. Jax climbs off the bike and grabs my hand telling me to follow him. He takes me to the back of the building and pulls down this ladder. We climb to the roof that overlooks the whole TM property. This time of night the place is almost deserted. It's quiet.

¡°You like it up here, Tara?"

I'm enjoying the quiet so instead of answering I nod a yes. Jax takes a breath and begins talking.

¡°When I was little, I used to sit up here and think about what it would be like to be down there and be one of the guys. They'd pull in on their motorcycles looking all bad ass and tough with their leather cuts on. My whole life I wanted to be a part of SAMCRO. I smoked my first cigarette up here and then my first joint. My old man and Opie's old man never thought to look up here for us. Shit, Op and I got drunk the first time up here, Opie's drunk ass almost fell over the edge. You're the first person besides Opie and myself who's been up here. Tara, I love you. I never thought that I could feel so strongly about someone, well besides Op. He's like my brother, shit, he is my brother but you're different. It's like we're supposed to be together. It scares me Tara, the way I feel about you. You're all I think about, sometimes I can't get you out of my head and I just have to see you."

With that he lets the sound of his voice fade into the night. I don't know quite what to say so instead I grab his face and place a kiss to his lips, letting my lips linger there for a minute. I pull away and look into the bright blue eyes I've come to depend on and get lost in.

¡°I love you too, Jackson Teller. The past few days, since I found out about you carrying that gun I began to doubt if I could be with you, deal with all this. Tonight, seeing the look on your face when you talk about always wanting to be SAMCRO, it made me realize you are who you are, Jackson. I mean sure you'd be you without SAMCRO but SAMCRO is so much of what you are that without it you'd be someone different. Get what I'm saying?"

Jax chuckles and places a kiss on my forehead.

¡°So what you're saying is you can love an outlaw bad boy biker, like me?

I look at him and smile. I also wonder if I should tell Jax about Donna's plan. If Jax feels like SAMCRO is his blood then I'm sure Opie does too.

¡°I can, babe. I can. Umm, I think I need to tell you something. I'm not sure what you're going to do about it, if anything, but Donna has this plan, she thinks she can get Opie to quit SAMCRO. The idea of Opie doing, well you know doing what you guys do freaks her out."

Jax nods and sits in silence for a minute or so.

¡°I had a feeling something like that was running through her head. Honestly, I had to wonder if it was yours too. Thanks for throwing this out to me but, I think I'll just wait and see where it lands, ya know?"

I tell him I think that's a good idea. I sit there, snuggled up to Jax, with my head on his shoulder and for the moment, life can't get much better. I shut out the world and just enjoy the now and the now is perfect.