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Mitchie's POV

"Just saying sorry isn't enough this time." I said just above a whisper. "Oh and here. Take this. It doesn't mean anything to me anymore." I add while taking the engagement ring off my finger. Then I drop it into Alex's hand. I don't have anything else to say to her. I just need to get out of here as fast as I can. So thats exactly what I do.

"You don't think I was too harsh, do you?" I ask Shane after telling him what happened last night when I ran into Alex.

"Not at all. She doesn't deserve any pity from you. She walked out on you with no explanation at all and ignored you for five months. Remember?" Shane's such a great friend. I feel like I can tell him anything. He also gives me great advice.

"Yeah. I know. I should hate her for all the pain she's put me through, but I just can't find it in myself to hate her. Does that sound weird?"

"No. She was your first love. It makes sense that you still care about her, but you should move on. Find someone who will treat you right."

"She does, I mean she did treat me right. As hard as it is to believe, Alex is an amazing girlfriend."

"Obviously not." He mutters to himself, but I catch it.

"What are you saying?"

"Mitchie, face it. She's just a player. You don't think she actually loves you, do you?"

"Yeah I do. And I'm getting sick of you and everyone else telling me that all she's interesting in is sex. Maybe if you stopped judging her on her past and actually got to know her, you'd realize that she's a really good person."

"I'd rather not. If you ask me she's just a bitch who will tell a girl anything she wants to hear just to get in her pants. And you were stupid enough to fall for her act. "

"And like Alex always told me, you're an asshole."

"Really? I'm the asshole? Alex must of brainwashed you because last time I checked she's the one who left you. I've been on your side the whole time trying to make you feel better, but you still want to be with her? Fine, take her back. She'll only end up hurting you again."

"First of all, I never said I was taking her back. And second, fuck you. You're a jerk. Oh and let me guess, you thought that I'd want to be with you now since me and Alex broke up?"

"No...I...I...I just thought that...you know, you'd give me a chance." I can't believe this. Alex was right all along.

"News flash Shane. I'm gay. You know, as in I like girls."

"No. You like Alex. You've never even dated any other girls. So how do you know you're gay for sure."

"Trust me. I'm definitely gay." I smile as I think of all the times me and Alex made love.

"I don't think you are. Just give me a chance. One date. I swear if..." Boys are so stupid sometimes. They think they can turn a lesbian straight.

"Save it. I don't want to date any boys and I sure as hell never want to go out with a jerk like you."

"Whatever. I'm done wasting my time on you. I hope you're happy with Alex. But when she gets bored with you and dumps you again, don't come crying to me."

"I don't even know if I'll get back together with Alex. But I do know that I will never be your friend again." I don't even know how I put up with him for this long. How did I never notice what a prick he is?

"Who cares. All I wanted was to fuck you anyways." I felt heated when a huge grin appeared on his face.

"And you say Alex's only interested in sex. You're the fucking pig." I hissed. "Oh and by the way, I'd never, in a million years, have sex with you."

"You don't know what you're missing." He says with a stupid smirk on his face. It's official, I really hate him now.

"Yeah I do. A small dick." Ha! That wiped the stupid smirk off his face.

"No, more like huge." Wow what a great comeback, not. He sounds like a little boy.

"That's great for you. Now you and your 'huge' penis can go have fun by yourself because I never want to see your goofy looking face again." I storm to the door, but before leaving I add, "And FYI Alex got to do something you will never be able to do. You know what that is? Make love to me. You know, both of us naked. Her hands all over my body..."

"You can leave now." He looks really pissed and uncomfortable. Good. Time to piss him off even more.

"And one more thing. She's amazing in bed. Unlike you. You know why? Because you're a virgin." Then with a satisfied smirk, I left Shane's house.

"Mom, I'm bored." I complained for about the millionth time. It's Saturday, but what am I doing? Sitting home alone like a loser. I've been watching reality shows all day. How cool am I?

"Why don't you hang out with Shane." She suggested. Just hearing his name pisses me off.

"We're not friends anymore."

"Why? What happened?" Would it be inappropriate to say 'he's a fucking self centered ass hole who was only friends with me because he wanted to turn me straight by fucking me' to your mother? Yeah, I think you're right.

"I don't want to talk about it. Lets just say he's a jerk." I say trying to sum it up as nicely as I can.

"I was wondering why I haven't seen him around this week. How about you see what Harper is up to." I do miss hanging out with Harper, but she does live with Alex, so that is totally out of the question.

"I would, but then I might run into Alex again and I don't think I can handle that."

"Maybe you should talk to her." Is this coming from the same women who once told Alex that if she broke my heart, she'd kill her? Why does it sound like she's on Alex's side now? She should hate her, not want me to forgive her.

"Why would I want to talk to her. She hasn't made any effort to talk to me in the past five months." I say bitterly.

"Yeah, well I'm getting tired of seeing you mope around all the time. And Theresa tells me Alex is the same way."

"Wait, she is?"

"Yes. She said that Alex barely leaves her room. Most of the time she lays in her bed and cries." Alex cries? Alex never cries. Maybe she does love me still.

"Really? I figured she'd already be dating."

"Nope, she's completely heartbroken."

"Why would she be heartbroken? She's the one who dumped me."

"Mitchie, everyone makes mistakes. It's obvious that she regrets what she did to you. I'm not saying that what she did is easily forgivable, but that girl is crazy about you and you're happiest when you're with her. Just go talk to her and hear her out."

"Fine I'll go, but just know that I hate you for making me do this."

"You'll get over it when you two are back together and sucking each others faces off again."

"Really mom? Sucking each others faces off? How mature. Aren't you supposed to be the one who hates her because she broke your little girl's heart?"

"Oh trust me. I'm going to have a little talk with her about that. But for now, go get her back."

"I'm just going to talk to her, that's it. If she doesn't give me a good enough explanation for dumping me than I'm leaving and never talking to her again."

"Alright. But I'm hoping things work out because honestly, I'm sick of seeing you all depressed."

"Ha ha very funny. I'm going to take a shower. Then I'm leaving." I say sarcastically while heading up the stairs.

After I took a shower and got dressed. I headed over to Alex's house. As I stood there waiting for someone to open the door a realization popped in my head. Why am I even here? I don't want to talk to Alex. After all, she's the one who left me. I should just leave before someone opens the...nope too late. Standing in front of me is no other than Alex.

"Mitchie? What are you doing here?" I can tell that she was not expecting to see me.

"I think we need to talk." I might of said a little too awkwardly.

"Why? You made it pretty clear that you don't want anything to do with me anymore. But I don't blame you. I'm a piece of shit. "

"You're being too hard on yourself. And that's I'm here."

"To tell me I'm a piece of shit?" She's so cute when she's completely clueless. Shit, Mitchie you can't think like that anymore.

"No. I'm here to hear you out."

"What do you mean?"

"Last week, I wasn't expecting you to be there. And when I saw you, all the emotions I've been feeling for the past five months all hit me at once. I just blew up at you and I'm sorry. So here I am. I want to know why you left me. I want you to explain everything to me."

"Um, ok. Come it." She led me into the living room and we both took a seat on the couch. I'm guessing she's home alone because I don't see anyone else. It's pretty quiet before Alex finally speaks.

"That day I wasn't thinking clearly. Yeah I was jealous, but thats not the whole reason I broke up with you."

"Then why?"

"I was scared."

"Scared of what? That I was going to leave you for Shane? Because trust me that would never happen. I was so in love with you."

"Was? You don't love me anymore?"

"How am I supposed to love you when you gave up on us just because you got jealous."

"I didn't give up on us. Yeah I was a little jealous, but that's not why I broke up with you."

"You have a better excuse for breaking my heart and ignoring me for five months. Yay, I can't wait to hear it." Shit there I go being harsh again.

"It's not an excuse. It's not that I was afraid I would lose you to Shane. I started to think that I wasn't good enough for you. I figured that you could find someone who wasn't such a fuck up. I realized that I hurt you too many times. I get jealous too easily then I say stupid things purposely just to hurt you. I'm a horrible girlfriend."

"Are you serious?" There was no response. She kept her head lowered and she nodded her head.

"Alex look at me." I ordered. She lifted her head and our eyes met.

"You are not a fuck up and you're definitely not a horrible girlfriend. I mean sure you fucked up, but trust me when I tell you that I could never find someone who I love as much as you. Yeah you have a past thats not so good, but I know that you regret it. So believe me when I tell you that you are a good person and you may not be perfect, but that's ok. I love you anyways."

She was quiet and avoided my eyes again by putting her head down. So I continued speaking. "And as for the whole horrible girlfriend thing, that's complete bull. Would a horrible girlfriend take me on an incredible first date? Would a horrible girlfriend do what ever it takes to make sure I'm 100 percent ready to have sex? Would a horrible girlfriend treat me like a princess and make me feel special everyday? Would a horrible girlfriend say the sweetest and most romantic things to me? And most importantly, would a horrible girlfriend make me feel as happy as you do? I don't think so. If you ask me, you are the most amazing girlfriend anyone could ever have." The silence was broken by the sound of sniffling. As Alex looks back into my eyes, I see the falling tears.

"Mitchie I can never apologize enough for breaking your heart. That's the last thing I ever wanted to do. I hate myself for what I said that day. Like I told you last night, I still love you. I know I don't deserve it but I'm begging you. Please can you give me another chance?"

"Alex it's not that simple. We were engaged to get married. And you do realize that marriage is one of the hugest commitments you can make. So if you broke up with me just because of your insecurities, how do I know that when we're actually married you won't leave me again just because you get jealous or feel like you don't deserve me?"

"Because I know now that I need you in my life. All I did these past five months is think about you. I wanted to talk to you, but I was too afraid to face you. I couldn't handle seeing how bad I hurt you. It killed me to even think that I broke your heart. But I swear that this time it will be different. I won't take you for granted anymore. And as much as I hate it, I guess I'll just have to accept the fact that you and Shane are friends."

"You don't have to worry about that anymore. Turns out you were right about him. He does like me and he tried to convince me into going out with him."

"What'd you say?"

"I told him that I'm gay and in love with someone already."

"And who would that be?"

"You might know her. She's your height, same hair, same eyes. She might try a little too hard to act bad ass and comes off as a douche at times, but she's really sweet underneath it all. And even though she completely screwed up, I'm willing to give her another chance because I love her so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with her."

"Really?" A huge smile appeared on her face and her eyes lite up. She must be really shocked that I'm giving her another chance. I nodded and pulled her into a hug. We held each other tightly and she rested her head on my shoulder. After her sniffles subsided we broke apart. I used my thumbs to wipe away the rest of her tears. She smiles and I find myself smiling back while gazing into her eyes. I snap out of it when I realize that she's leaning in.

"Alex I don't think kissing me is such and good idea. I'm not ready to jump back into a relationship right away. After all you really hurt me. I need to know that things will be different this time."

"I understand. So what you're saying is we have to start over?"

"Yeah, sort of. Lets just take things slow and see what happens from there."

"So basically you're saying I have to win you over again."

"I guess you could say that. But remember, as of right now we're just friends."

"Ugh, I hate that phrase." She whines with a sigh.

"Well, if you work hard enough to win me back over then I will consider making you my girlfriend again." I teased.

"So...What are you doing tonight?" She asks with a flirtatious tone.

"I think it's a little too soon to begin the flirting."

"You're right. Lets just hang out, as friends." She adds very hesitantly.

"That sounds great." Call me crazy for forgiving her so soon, but it's not like she cheated on me or anything. Sure she made the wrong decision by walking away just because she felt insecure, but not having her in my life was miserable. I just hope she means it when she says she'll change because it just hit me that I need her in my life.

Sorry I didn't update sooner. I struggled to make this chapter perfect and after a ton of revisions I think I finally got it right. Please review and let me know what you think.

P.S. Happy Father's Day!