Flashback: If you read "Black, White or Grey" it mention Melinda was unable to have kids. I just wanted to let you all know why.
Note: This is part three of three.
"We're Having A Baby III"
Olivia is getting frustrated because every light they come to is red. They are sitting at the red light and it turns greens. As soon as Olivia hits the gas pedal to go through the intersection a truck comes speeding out of nowhere and slams into them causing the car to flip several times. People nearby comes rushing to their aid to assist them.
"Ma'am" a gentleman said to Melinda, "Can you hear me?" Melinda did not respond. Another gentleman went to assist Olivia who was also unconscious. He opened the door and pulled Olivia out the car, laying her on the sidewalk. "I'm a nurse" a lady said, running up to the scene. The lady went to Olivia's side and examined her the best she could. "She has a pulse" the lady said, "that's good. Did anyone call for an ambulance?" The lady said to the crowd. "Hey over here" one of the gentlemen said, to lady.
The nurse ran to the car. "She's pregnant" the gentleman said.
"Oh no…we've got to get her out of there quick" the nurse said.
"Do you have a knife?" the gentleman asked the nurse, "the seat belt is jammed."
The nursed yelled into the crowd for a knife. A lady ran into the restaurant across the street and came out with a knife. At that time, they could hear the ambulance coming. They cut the seat belt off of Melinda and emergency crews worked on her and Olivia. They rushed both women to St. Michael's Hospital. Melinda was the first one they took out the ambulance and rushed into the emergency room. "What do we have here?" the nurse asked. "Pregnant female, about five or six months along involved in a car accident" the EMT said. "Thanks we'll take over from here" the nurse told him.
Olivia was wheeled into the emergency room and came to about ten minutes later. "Where am I?" she asked the nurse who was attending to her.
"Ma'am, you're at St. Michael's Hospital" the nurse said.
"What am I doing here?"
"You and your friend were involved in an accident" said the nurse.
"Oh no…where's Mel?" Olivia says.
"Is that your friend's name?"
"WHERE IS SHE?" Olivia yells at the nurse.
"Ma'am, calm down."
"CALM DOWN, DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN" Olivia said, as she tries to take the iv out of her arm and get out of bed.
"Help" the nurse yelled. "I need help over here."
Meanwhile the doctors needed to contact Melinda's next of kin but didn't know where to start. The accident frustrated the baby even more and now it's become a life or death situation for the baby and Melinda. They needed to perform an emergency cesarean to give the baby boy any hope of living. "Do we have any personal information on this patient?" the doctor asked the nurse.
"No we don't" the nurse said.
"What about the lady that was brought in with her, is she awake?"
"I'll check" the nurse said as she left the room. The nurse went into the emergency room area and saw Olivia.
"Let me go. I've gotta find Mel" Olivia says crying.
The nurse runs over to Olivia "Miss, what's your friend's name?" the nurse asked Olivia.
"Is she okay?" Melinda says.
"We need to contact her next of kin" the nurse said.
"She's dead" Olivia screamed, "Oh my God…no…no…no" Olivia cried out.
"Calm down ma'am, your friend isn't dead. We need to do an emergency cessarean and we need to get permission from her next of kin. Your friend is still unconscious."
"I'm her next of kin" Olivia says, "I'm her wife, take me to her."
"Mrs.."
"Benson" Olivia responded, "Detective Benson."
"Detective, your wife was injured very badly. We need to take the baby from her in order to give her or the baby a fighting chance" the nurse told Olivia. "I need a wheel chair, please" the nurse told one of the orderlies. Olivia was wheeled to the area where Melinda was lying.
"Doctor, the patient name is Doctor Melinda Benson, this is her wife Detective Benson" the nurse said to the Doctor standing over Melinda.
"This is Doctor Benson, the M.E.?" the doctor said.
"Yes, she's an M.E." Olivia replied.
"The nurse probably filled you in already. Doctor Benson sustained a uterine rupture, we need to conduct an emergency cessarean to save her life and the life of your unborn child. We can try to repair the rupture, if that fails we'd have to do a hysterectomy. The hysterectomy will be the last resort. But we've got to get the baby out first" the doctor told Olivia.
"A hysterectomy" Olivia says, "Is there another way".
"I'm sorry" the doctor said, shaking his head from left to right.
"Will the baby live?" Olivia asked.
"He'll be three months premature so, there's always a chance of survival"
"How big of a chance" Olivia asked.
"I'd say, the baby will have a 50/50 chance of living."
"Okay, just do it" Olivia tells the doctor.
"Detective, I need to know if it comes down to saving Doctor Benson or the baby, which one you want to be saved"
Olivia thought about it for a few seconds. "Detective we need an answer now. Every minute counts" the doctor said.
"I…I don't know" Olivia said. "Mel, wants this baby more than anything in this world."
"So, you want us to save the baby?"
Olivia sat in the wheel chair knowing this decision may affect the rest of her life. "No...no, save Melinda" she says.
"Okay guys, lets get her into surgery" the doctor yelled to the staff. They rolled Melinda into surgery while an orderly pushed Olivia back to her area.
Just then Robert, Marilyn, Gabbie, Fin and Elliot rushes in the emergency room. "We're looking for Detective Benson and Melinda Benson" Fin says. "We heard they were brought in here."
"Yes, they are here" one of the nurses said.
"Are they okay? What about the baby?" Marilyn says.
"Follow me" the nurse said. She took them where Olivia was at.
"Liv, where's Mel?" Marilyn says.
Tears filled Olivia eyes as she told them Melinda was in surgery. Olivia gave them the update on Melinda's status and told them about the decision the doctor asked her to make.
"So, which one did you tell the doctor to save?" Gabbie asked.
"Melinda of course" Olivia says.
"Good" Gabbie says.
"No, it's not good" says Marilyn. "If Mel lives and the baby dies, it's going to eat her up for the rest of her life. You should have told the doctors to save the baby."
"What?" Robert says. "Melinda's our daughter, how could you not want her to live."
Marilyn, Gabbie and Robert begin to argue about Melinda. It got so heated in there until….
"QUIET" Fin yelled, "Everyone needs to calm down. Olivia's her spouse and she made the decision to save Melinda. We should be comforting Olivia instead of arguing."
"You're right Fin" Marilyn says. "Olivia, sweetie, I'm sorry" Marilyn said as she sat next to Melinda and placed her arms around her.
"Liv"
"Yeah, El"
"The driver of the truck was a 16 year old drunk driver. He died at the scene" Elliot tells her.
Olivia sat there with her family and friends awaiting the outcome of the surgery. After three hours the doctor enters the waiting area.
"Detective Benson" he said as he walked over to Olivia. "The surgery went as planned, Doctor Benson should be awake shortly."
"What about the baby?" Olivia asked
"You have a baby boy. He's still touch and go right now. He's in the neonatal intensive care unit" the doctor said.
"He's going to be alright, isn't he?" Gabbie asked.
"Like I told Detective Benson early, he has a 50/50 chance of surviving. We've done all we can, now it's up to the good Lord" the doctor said.
"Can I see him?" Olivia asked the doctor.
"Sure, follow me" he said. Fin wheeled Olivia to the neonatal care. "There he his" the doctor said, pointing to the baby boy. Before you two go in, put these on. Fin wheeled Olivia in the big room where eight babies were.
"Which one is yours again?" Fin asked Olivia.
"I don't know, they all look alike" Olivia replied.
A nurse comes up to Olivia and Fin, "You're here to see the Benson baby?"
"Yes" Olivia said.
"This way" the nurse said as she escorted them to the incubator the baby boy was lying in. Olivia eyes lit up when she saw her son for the first time.
"Fin, he looks exactly like Mel" she said with tears in her eyes.
"Yeah, he does" Fin says.
Olivia placed her arm through the plastics tube and as she felt the touch of her son, tears ran down her face. She stared at her son, watching the rise and fall of his tiny little chest. "He's perfect, just perfect" she tells Fin. "He sure is, Liv" Fin says. All of a sudden the baby flat lines, Olivia looks up at the monitors as the nurse comes rushing over to them. The doctor comes in and they wheel the baby out of the area. Olivia is frantic; she doesn't know what to do. She feels like her whole world has just collapsed. Fin and Olivia goes back into the waiting area and the doctor comes in an hour later.
The doctor sat down next to Olivia, "I'm sorry Detective" the doctor said. "We were unable to save your son. We tried for forty-five minutes but were unable to save him."
Olivia breaks down while Marilyn and Gabbie comforts her.
"Liv" Gabbie says with tears in her eyes. "It's going to be okay, he's in Heaven now."
"I…I…I, don't know how much more of this I can take" Olivia said, sobbing in Marilyn arms. "I promised Mel, he was going to be okay. I…I…I promised her he was going to live. Now he's gone and she can't have any more kids… Oh, GOD what have I done" Olivia says sobbing.
"Hush baby" Marilyn says, brushing Olivia hair back with her hand. "It's going to be okay."
Fin realizes his Godson just died and tears began to trail down his face. He walks over to Elliot, "I can't take this man, I've gotta get some air."
"Come on, I'll walk outside with you" Elliot tells him.
A nurse walks in and informs Olivia that Melinda is awake asking for her. Marilyn wheels Olivia to see Mel.
Melinda could tell something wasn't right by the way Olivia and her mom looked at her.
"Liv, what happened? I woke up and the baby was out of me" Melinda says. "The only thing I remember is, you driving me to the hospital."
"Mel" Olivia says softly. "We were on our way to the hospital and a kid in a truck crashed into us."
"Oh my God" Melinda says, "What about the baby? Where's Augustus?"
"They had to do an emergency cesarean"
"Liv, tell me…where is our baby?" Melinda says as she starts to cry. "Is he alive?
The room goes silent for about thirty seconds. "Liv, answer me" Melinda says, "Where is he?"
Olivia couldn't bring herself to tell Melinda, so Marilyn told her daughter.
"Melinda, the baby's lungs weren't fully developed and they collapsed. He lived about two hours before expiring"
"NO..." Melinda said as she cried.
"Mel, I'm so sorry" Olivia said.
Marilyn left the room so Melinda and Olivia could be alone. Olivia forced herself out the wheel chair and slowly climbed in the bed next to Melinda and held Melinda in her arms.
"Mel, there's something I've got to tell you" Olivia says softly. "The reason you started bleeding was due to the fact you had a ruptured uterine. They tried to repair it but couldn't and had to do a hysterectomy."
"WHAT?"
"Mel, I'm sorry"
"Liv, you let them give me a hysterectomy?"
"Mel, it was the only choice, I could have lost the both of you."
"GET OUT" Melinda yelled.
"What?"
"YOUR HEARD ME, GET THE HELL OUT. HOW COULD YOU, LIV? HOW COULD YOU TAKE MY WOMANHOOD AWAY? I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE" Melinda yelled at her. "GET OUT, NOW"
Olivia gets out the bed and slowly walks out the room. She knows Melinda is hurting and is only lashing out. She slowly walks back to the waiting area in pain; emotionally and physically. Marilyn sees Olivia and asks what happened. Olivia tells Marilyn what Melinda said. Marilyn reassures Olivia everything is going to be okay. She then walks Olivia back to Melinda's room.
"Mel, can we come in?" Marilyn says as she opened the door.
"No" Melinda replies.
"Well, we're coming in anyway" Marilyn says. "Mel, don't be mad at Olivia. While you were unconscious she had tough choices to make. She didn't let them do anything wrong to you. They tried to repair your uterine and couldn't. The hysterectomy was the last resort or you would have died. You're a doctor, you know these things" Marilyn tells her daughter.
"Mom, could you please leave" Melinda says.
Marilyn left the room and Olivia was about to follow her. "Liv, don't go" Melinda said. Olivia turned around and walked over to the bed. "Hold me, please" Melinda asked her wife.
"Sure" Olivia said then got in bed and held her wife.
"Liv"
"Yeah"
"Did you see him before he…" Melinda said as tears ran down her face.
"Yeah, I saw him. He was beautiful, he looked exactly like his mother" Olivia said softly.
"Did you get a chance to hold him?"
"No, he was in the neonatal intensive care unit. I did get chance to hold his hand in mine. He had the perfect little fingers."
"Mel" Olivia said.
"Huh"
"He was the perfect baby."
"Why did God have to take him away? Why does this keep happening to us?" Melinda asked Olivia.
"I don't know honey, I don't know" Olivia said.
"Liv, I'm sorry for yelling at you"
"It's okay Mel, I understand"
"You always do" Melinda says.
"Get some sleep and I'll be right her when you wake up" Olivia tells her wife then kisses her on the forehead.
Melinda drifted off to sleep in Olivia's arms. A few days later Melinda was released from the hospital. Marilyn planned the memorial service for Augustus; she figured it was going to be too much for Olivia and Melinda to handle. After the memorial service the two women went back to a quiet home.
It's after midnight and Olivia awakes to find Melinda's side of the bed empty. She searches the house looking for Melinda and finds her sitting in the baby's room crying. Olivia walks over and consoles her wife.
"Baby, I'm here" Olivia says.
"Liv, I'm a failure" Melinda cried. "I had two pregnancies and both babies died."
"Mel, stop blaming yourself. It's not your fault" Olivia says. "Only God knows why this happened to us. You can't blame yourself for this."
Olivia picks Melinda up and carried her into their bedroom and then lays her in the bed. Olivia gets in the bed next to Melinda, she holds Melinda tightly in her arms.
"Liv, you think we'll be ever be able to live normal lives again?" Melinda asked.
"It will take some time but as long as we've got each other, we'll be able to get through this together."
The two women cried in each other's arms before drifting off to sleep.