A/N: Hello guys! And before you guys start to read this sad chapter I want to say Merry Christmas! I hope you guys have the best Christmas ever even though it's gonna be over soon anyway I send everyone some virtual hugs.

So enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own BTR.

Chapter: 26

Carlos sobbed while hugging his best friend. The best friends he could ever have he would never replace them by anything. He felt like all he was holding in was being set free all his emotions that had always cause him to fill so depress so helpless and worthless.

He sniffled and snuggled his head onto Kendall chest filling the warmness emitting from his body. He hugged his friend tighter.

How could he be so stupid?

His friend would never hate him or leave him alone when he needed them the most they would always be here by his side.

Kendall pulled away and wiped the boy tears but more spilled on the boy cheek and the blond pulled in another bone crushing hug.

"It's going to be okay…" Kendall tried to comfort his friend.

"N-no Kendall…I-It's not…i-it's never going to be." Carlos cried making the boy frown and pulled away.

"Don't say that…don't ever said that." Kendall said looking at the boy in the eye but the boy refuse to look at him in the eye.

"But it's true…" the boy said looking down, James and Logan exchanged glazes and frown. Kendall pulled his hand under the boy chin and made him look at him.

"That's not true know tell me everything from the beginning." The blond said firmly.

"…everything?" Carlos asked hesitant.

"...everything." Carlos rubbed the back of his neck and wiped his tears, he took a deep breath.

This is it.

No more secrets.

"D-do you guys remember when we were thirteen and my mom and I got in that car accident?" Carlos asked looking at his three best friends and watched how his friends nodded hesitantly.

"It was my fault…" Carlos confessed wiping the new tears that had started falling.

"What?" the guys asked in union shocked by their friend confession

"I-I…" Carlos closed his eyes memories flooding back.

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Flashback

3 years ago…

Carlos stared with a frown at his homework, his teacher Mrs. Jackson had left the most difficult math homework he had seen in his entire life. He would get dizzy by just seeing the numbers.

I hate school… Carlos though looking at his homework, he set his homework down and turned on his desk toward his classmate and best friend Logan. He tapped his friend shoulder and the 13-year old look up from his work.

"What's wrong Carlitos?" The boy asked in a whispered not wanting to get in trouble with his angry teacher.

"Would you help me with this? I don't understand it." The confuse boy whispered back, Logan nodded and leaned over his desk and pointed toward a number.

"All you have to do is add-"

RANG!

The boy groaned and stood up he gather his books and put his homework on his backpack.

"Don't worry Carlos I will explain it on the bus" The smart boy said walking with his friend toward the door.

"Carlos."

Carlos turned around when the teacher called him, the little boy told his friend that he can go without him Logan nodded and walked away.

"Yeah Mrs. Jackson?" Carlos stood in front of her desk nervously.

"Carlos you haven't been doing good in your work…and I sorry to tell you that you failing this class." The teacher informed her student with no sympathy.

"What?"

"Yes and I call your mom and we are going to have a meeting so you can wait outside."

Oh no…

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"I can't believe you Carlos!" Silvia Garcia yelled at her son while he turned the corner with her green Honda.

"I'm sorry mom I just don't get it." 13-year-old Carlos said referring at his difficult math subject.

"You could have asked someone!" Carlos flinched and frowned when her mother continue to scream. "Why didn't you ask someone?"

"Y-you are always working…" Carlos said quietly.

"What about Logan his smart sweetie" Her mother said her voice softer than before.

"B-but-"

"No buts young man you better pass your next test or else!" the mom said not paying attention at the road

"MOM WATCHED OUT!" Carlos yelled when he saw a SUV coming toward them but before she could do anything the car hit her side making her car spin out of control.

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Carlos yes slipped open and he groaned when he felt the pain in his head. He looked around when the smelled of gasoline filled his nose, his eyes went wide when the accident flash through his mind again, he quickly took of his sit belt and went to check on his mother.

"…mommy?" Carlos shook her shoulder nut her head just slumped on the broken window. The boy looked closely and saw that her mother had blood on her face. He quickly got out of the car and hissed on pain when he moved his leg. He whimpered and looked around seeing a few people staring at the car and some were calling for an ambulance.

He rushed to her mother side of the car and stared pulling on her door ignoring everything the siren of the ambulance and people who were trying to pull him away.

Scream and cries.

That's all he could hear around him while he tried to open the door. He pulled and pulled but the door didn't open. He didn't give up, the person that have love him all his life was inside, slowly dying. He could see the flames starting up, his body was filling hotter and his heart was beating faster but nothing was stopping him.

"No…no please…please!" He cried pulling the door harder using all his strength tears falling from his eyes. The flames were getting bigger burning the metal and the smell of death making his body shake with sobs. He felt strong arms wrapped around him pulling him way from the car.

"No…please let me go!" He pleaded trying to get away from the man behind him.

"Come on kid I got to get you away from the car." The man said pulling him harder.

"NO MOM!" He sobbed seeing the car unfolding with flames.

He saw how everything happen his 13-year-old heart being broken when he saw how the car was burning with his mommy inside. The firemen stop the flames and Carlos tried to run forward but the man behind him gripped him tighter taking him away toward an ambulance.

But before the door close he saw a body being put on a gurney and then a blanket was pulled over it.

His heart cracked.

His mommy was dead.

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A/N: Sorry for hurting him liked that but I can't help it I love angst.

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