Visitations

I heard him talking. I love that soft sweet voice.

My mind was starting to clear up. Between the dreams and my previous attempts to wake up, I couldn't tell what was real.

At times I thought that it was Hikaru sitting next to me, other times it was Kaoru. There were other voices too, my other boys by the sounds of it. And a beautiful female voice singing to me, calling to me.

But when I finally came to, only Kaoru was there. He was talking to himself.

Or was he talking to me?

I looked at him sitting there in the chair beside me. He looked tired. Like he had very little sleep. How long was I out?

And where was Hika?

I tried to speak but nothing came out. I tried again "Ka..Kaoru."

He jumped up, shocked by my voice. I watched him scramble to my side and he took my hand.

"Haruhi!" He breathed my name. Like he was unable to believe I was awake. His face was so sad, but so happy. I wish he wouldn't cry.

"You've been here... all the time?" I asked. It was so hard to talk and I am sure it sounded terrible. The last thing I wanted to do was make him worry about me. I smiled at him as a silent reassurance that I was alright.

He smiled at me with tears in his eyes. His voice was breaking up when he said "As much as I could be. Oh, Haruhi, You're back."

I wanted to move my right arm to run my fingers through his hair but I couldn't. All I felt was a searing pain. I hissed and his head snapped up. He got to his feet and said "Don't move. Let me call the nurse. She should refill your meds."

I looked at him then to the IV next to me. Hmmm... no wonder I slept so well.

"Kao, how long was I out?"

He faced me after he pushed the button behind my headboard. The tear stained grinning boy came down to look into my face. "Honestly. I lost track of time."

"Hikaru?" I asked, testing the waters. I needed to know.

Kaoru shook his head. "He... he didn't come."

He didn't? But I could have sworn I saw him. It must have been a dream.

I was suddenly sad. Hikaru had said so many wonderfully sweet things in those dreams. Things about missing me and wanting our trio back together. I thought that there was a slight chance the real Hikaru was here beside me at least once or twice.

But Kaoru's head shake made me want to go back to sleep. I want those dreams. I sighed.

The nurse came in just then. She was looking thrilled to see me awake.

"Ms. Fujioka. This is wonderful. And look who is still here. Mr. Hitachiin when do you ever find the time to rest?" Kaoru frowned at her. She just giggled.

Once she got the pain killer into my IV, she left us alone. Only after promising to inform Kyoya that I was awake.

"What happened?" I asked him

"What do you mean what happened?" He looked worried.

"I mean what happened to me. What did I do to end up here?" I asked. All I remember was the amazing day I spent with Kaoru and having a disagreement with Ayanokouji but after that... there was nothing.

Why was I in so much pain? Did I get hit by a car?

"Haruhi, you don't remember?" He looked more concerned than before.

"I remember the gala. I remember... us?" I tried to smile but that hurt so I stopped.

I thought that mentioning our intimate moment would make him smile again or at least make a joke... but it didn't work out that way. He started to change from happy relief to anger. I saw it in his eyes.

"You gotta be fucking kidding?" He cried out coming to kneel beside me. "You fell down the goddam stairs.. no ...you were pushed down those stairs by that whore from the Circle!"

"Ayano...kouji...? She pushed me down the stairs?" I just couldn't believe that. Why would she do something like that? What did I do to make her want to push me?

"Yes, She tried to kill you." He looked down, breaking our eye contact.

"Kaoru" I hesitated before touching his arm. "What's wrong?"

He was trying to control the shaking by squeezing his hands into fists, the fabric of the bedding bunching under his grip.

Kaoru was never one for temper tantrums like his bother and I could see that he was fighting this. But he lost, he stood up walking away from me in a huff, then he spun on the spot facing me.

There were tears in his eyes as he looked down on me. He looked from my bandages to my broken arm and down to my ankles. The cast I wore must have made it worse since he shifted his gaze away from my leg and back to me.

"I can't take this anymore Haruhi. I've always supported your choices and I will always be supportive of what ever life you lead. But.. but… I can't handle this."

I shifted myself to sit up but only caused more pain to shoot through my body. I tried to ignore it. "Hey, don't think this is your fault."

"God Dammit Haru. Threatening calls, treacherous bitches and from what Kyoya told me you were stranded in the woods for hours!? Please you need to quit this life. Marry me.. marry Hikaru. I don't care. Just take our name and you will never have to work again. I swear it. We will take care of you. Just… just…"

He broke off and dropped to his knees beside my bed. His head was at the edge and I knew he was crying.

"We can't loose you." He whispered. "I can't loose you."

"Kaoru.." I said using the only hand I could move to brush my fingers in his hair. "Kaoru, look at me."

He looked up reluctantly. I smiled at him. "You will never loose me. I'm sorry I worried you. I'm sorry that I wasn't safe. I promise to take better care."

"You can't know that. This job... it's..."

"It's was I do. Not who I am. Kao, I like being around them. Just as much as I like being with you and Hika." I tried to sooth him. His nerves looked like they were calming down.

He gave me a tender look, and I put my hand under his chin. "Kiss me Kaoru." I whispered. "You said you wanted to when I became conscious again, didn't you?"

He blinked.

"Just because I was asleep, it didn't mean I couldn't hear you. You said you couldn't wait till I woke up so you could kiss me again."

Without a second to spare he lifted himself up and placed his hands on either side of my head. He leaned down and kissed me softly.

It was about four in the afternoon and in all honesty, I was fucking tired. True, I had been sleeping for nearly a week but I found that being awake and dealing with the men I call lovers can be exhausting. Especially Tamaki.

I looked around the room, at the five men by my side. Kaoru, ever present was organizing my release with the nurse and doctor in the corner of the room. Kyoya was beside him. The silent Takashi was nearby leaning against a wall.

Tamaki was at my right because Honey was at my left. The overly affectionate man was continuously brushing the hair off my forehead and pressing kisses all over my face.

"Tamaki" I said groggily as he place a kiss on the tip of my nose. "Please, save it for the bedroom." I joked.

Honey giggled at Tamaki's shocked expression.

"I was only being affectionate with my favorite girl." He whined softly.

"Thanks, really... but I just want to rest a bit more." I winced a little when I felt a pain in my right side. Tamaki jumped back thinking he might have hurt me.

"Sorry sorry sorry." He said quickly. I smiled at him, laughing a little at his reaction. It seemed to calm him down a bit.

Honey had my left hand in his, he gently tightened his grip to get my attention.

"Haru-chan" he said softly. "You have to promise to call me if you need someone to help you out. 'kay? I wanna take care of you. Takashi too." He looked to Takashi and he nodded in reply to Honey's comment.

"Thanks guys." I replied. Then I yawned again.

"You should get some rest" Kyoya said coming up behind Tamaki. "You have one more night before the doctor thinks he should be able to let you go home. Then you shall be set up with Kaoru for a couple nights before we can allow you to go back to your house. The contractors are will be there shortly."

"What?" I asked a little dazed. "Why will there be contractors at my house?" I stared at him, giving him a pitiful attempt at a glare. My face was still sore in various places and facial expressions were difficult.

"You didn't think we would let you go back without making adjustments, what with your current limitations." He looked straight into my eyes and shared a smirk with me.

"I should have figured." I said.

"You will also have someone with you at all times until you are fully healed." Kyoya continued.

"No." I tried to sit up and felt a sharp sting in my ribs. I yelled out a little and hissed. Tamaki and Honey both jumped up to support my back and helping me back down onto my bed.

"I think you just proved my point. So yes, I will have someone with you at all times. Haruhi, your schedule is officially in my hands until you are healed."

Karou spoke up. "Wait. No, let me handle that, please. I know Haru better than anyone here and..." He looked at me, "I'm gonna be taking time off work to stay with her."

"You want to plan her visitations?" Kyoya asked him skeptically. "Do you think you will be able to tolerate it? Seeing how you are still in love with her?"

The rest of the boys looked at Kaoru then at me. I am sure they all were aware of our past history but I wasn't sure if they knew about our current standings.

Kaoru nodded. "Haru knows how I feel but I'd do anything for her." He and I locked eyes and smiled at each other.

"Thanks, Kao." I said softly.

"Any time, tanuki." He practically whispered back.

"Well in any case, Kaoru, you can take care of that. As for us" he glanced to the other men. "We must be leaving. You have company coming and it would be best if we were not around."

"Huh?" I asked, "Who?"

Kaoru chuckled. I frowned.

No one answered my question but seeing as Kao wasn't in a bad mood, I knew it couldn't be his brother.

"Everything will be fine my sweet princess." Tamaki whispered in my ear.

Honey left my side and placed a hand on Kaoru's arm, patting it slightly. "You are a good guy, Kaoru. I am glad she always has you to count on." He smiled at Kao and nodded to Takashi.

One last kiss on my lips and Tamaki stepped away from me. As he left the room he slapped a pat on Kyoya's back and the two of them departed. Honey and Takashi following behind.

The doc had left with them and Kao and I were left alone in silence. I yawned again, then winced at the strain on my face.

Kaoru was back at my side. "I guess these guys really do care about you."

My head nodded slowly in agreement with him. I admit it was strange that these high class men would find me worth their affection. I was, after all, a paid employee. Not their childhood friend. Not their true girlfriend nor am I a family relation.

They treat me like I am precious, like they loved me. During my time with them, I don't think of it because we are usually fulfilling the finer points of my profession. What was happening now had nothing to do with what they wanted from me.

"Did they say anything about it to you? I mean why they are acting this way to me?" I asked, curious now as to their motives.

Kao chuckled. "I honestly don't think there is a motivation. I think they really do like you."

"I guess." I sighed. "Are you ok with it?"

Biting my lip I waited for an answer. Kaoru picked up my hand and was using his free one to trace invisible designs on my fingers and palm. He lifted it up, closing my fingers into a fist while cupping my hand with both of his. He place a kiss on my knuckles and held it there.

"Haru," He mumbled my name, "I am just so glad you are awake."

"That wasn't an answer." I remarked, sensing his hesitation.

"I know it wasn't. I just don't know how I feel about it." He snipped at me. I let that slide. His emotions are running high today and it's best not to push it.

A few moments passed before he checked his phone after a notification sounded. I didn't bother asking who it was since I felt another yawn start. Dreading the pain I knew was coming I tried to let it out carefully. No success, it still hurt.

Kaoru's softer demeanor returned and he smiled at me. "Don't go to sleep just yet." He said.

"Why not?" I challenged.

"Because the parents are here." He smirked at me when he was my eyes get really big.

"Oh no." I glanced around the room. Looking for... anything to shield me from what I knew was coming. Kaoru started laughing.

"Relax Haru." He said between fits of laughter.

But just as I was gonna snap a retort I heard. "Haaaaaaaaarruuuuuuuuuhiiiiiiiiiiii!"

My dad ran into the room then stopped dead in his tracks when he got a good look at me. I could see him resisting the urge to throw himself on me. It was obvious even to my dad that I couldn't be touched right now and the natural reaction of his was thwarted, if only for a moment.

"Oh dear!" Yuzuah walked in and placed her hand on her mouth when she saw me. Behind her was her husband. I would groan right about now but it hurts too much.

"Hey dad," I said to my father when he came up beside me and placed a red lipstick kiss on my cheek.

"Oh... oopps. Sorry honey." he said when he saw the red mark left behind. "Let me..."

"No dad." I said and he stopped.

Kaoru spoke up. "Her face still hurts." He stood and went to the sink in the hospital room and wet a paper towel before coming back to me. Carefully he wiped the lipstick off my cheek.

"Haruhi, baby. Tell daddy what happened." He said.

"Yes, please. Kaoru wouldn't tell us." Yuzuah said. Kao's father ,in the corner by the window, just nodded his head.

"He didn't?" I looked at him and he shrugged.

I thought about it for a bit. Then said, "I was at a work party and a rival and I had a disagreement. Somehow... I ended up here."

"The stairs, Haruhi." Kaoru said exasperated. Probably at my lack of detail. "She pushed you."

"Oh god." She said before coming to my left side. "Do you need anything? Anything at all? We are here for you dear. You know that."

She and my father shared a glance and nodded.

I smiled at the camaraderie between those two. And yes, Yuzuah knows my father is an escort. She kinda finds it funny. Hmm... she probably wouldn't think it was so funny if she knew the girl her sons are in love with followed that same path.

"I'll be fine" I said to them.

Mr. Hitachiin came up to me and placed a hand on his wife's shoulder. "You look exhausted."

I nodded and attempted to lift my left shoulder in a shrug. Not my smartest move.

"Easy baby" My dad said, no longer using his twittering female tone.

"Kaoru," Mr. Hitachiin said to his son. "Where's your brother?"

I looked at Kao, then to each of the parents. Yuzuah looked at the nervous expression on my face and to the angry look Kaoru was giving.

"Don't tell me you boys are fighting again." She placed her hand on her forehead. "Haruhi, I don't understand where you found the patience for my sons but you..."

"He's not coming." Kaoru snapped.

I frowned and looked down but my father asked. "Why? What happened?"

My mouth went dry at that moment. How do I tell them what happened between us? Would their mother forgive me? Would their father?

Is this going to be another mistake that I am going to undoubtably make?

I swallowed the lump that was developing in my throat and spoke up, "Hikaru wants nothing to do with me."

My dad was first surprised by those words but that looked changed to fury when he saw a tear fall from my eye. I admit. This still kinda hurts. To think about Hika and know that he would refuse to see me even after all of this.

I am starting to miss my dreams.

Yuzuah gently brushed her fingers through my bangs. "Honey, Hikaru loves you. He could never hate you."

"He's probably just throwing another tantrum." Their father said.

My eyes couldn't hold back the tears anymore. They just started falling. I love the Hitachiin's. I love how much optimism they have and how much faith they have in mine and the boys relationship. They are just so good to me.

"Did he..." Dad started, being as hesitant as possible. "Did he find out?"

"Find out what?" Yuzuah asked.

I sighed. "He saw me with another man."

There was silence around the room. My dad knew what I meant so he was feeling the full blow of my revelation. The other two were just staring at me, confused. I am sure they knew about their sons liaisons, but I know they thought I was only ever involved with the twins.

Trust me, when that issue was brought up, years ago, it wasn't any easier to talk about.

"I don't understand. You two weren't exclusive... That shouldn't be..."

"Drop it, mom. He didn't show up when I called him. He didn't even call me back. I told Hikaru to not bother showing up here. And I expected him to ignore my threats and still come see her, but he hasn't. Ok. I have been with her all day long. Everyday. He hasn't shown his face, not once. There are no records of him even coming into the hospital." Kaoru was yelling and his eyes were watering.

"Kao." I said. "It's ok. We don't have to talk about it anymore. 'Kay?"

He looked at me, biting his lip to keep from bursting out in frustration yet again.

Mr. Hitachiin grabbed ahold of his wife's shoulder. "Honey, look at the girl. She's tired, she needs to rest."

I gave him a thankful smile. Yuzuah nodded and kissed my forehead and my dad kissed my cheek again. Both of them leaving lipstick on me. I sighed and Kao smiled at the sight.

"Haruhi," My dad whispered. "He's gonna come around. Trust me. No one can stay mad at you forever. Besides, he is gonna have to get used to the idea, my little courtesan."

I rolled my eyes at him and watched as all the parents walked out the door. Each wishing me good bye's. Kaoru's mom and my dad each blowing kisses at us. Sheesh.

A moment of silence past.

"Did you really tell him to stay away?" I asked as I felt my chest constrict.

Kao only nodded but said nothing else when the nurse reappeared with tray. There was a syringe that she promptly picked up when she stood at my bedside. Tapping it to get the air bubbles out she gave me an encouraging smile.

"All done visiting?" She chirped.

Kaoru answered her. "Yeah. I think that's it."

He took another paper towel from the sink area again, wet it, and made his way back to me so he could wipe away the wonderful lipstick marks.

"Ok. Are you ready for another long night of rest, Ms. Fujioka?" she didn't wait for my response before she stuck the needle into my I.V.

I blinked up at her while Kao wiped across my forehead., "What was that?" I asked.

She giggled at me and my current predicament. "It's gonna make sure you sleep without pain."

I rolled my eyes at the cheeriness in her voice and couldn't help but think that this whole situation was just too much. I didn't get too much time to dwell on it because as soon as she left the room Kaoru took my good hand in his.

"I will wait till you fall asleep before I go home."

"Kaoru."

"Yes, Haru"

"Go home and get some sleep." I grumbled.

He smiled. The gleam in his golden eyes returning, "Ummm... Nope." Then he kissed my cheek.

No sooner had he done that, did I yawn. I was really tired. More so now then before the parents got here. And,to be honest. I was looking forward to sleeping. I wanted my dreams right now. Reality kinda sucked at the moment.

Hikaru- Later that night

Fuck it. I am going to see her.

Kaoru came home not long ago and I took that moment to grab my jacket and take off. I don't care that he is pissed off at me. I don't care that Haru isn't awake to even know I am there. So what if I was "banned" from seeing her.

When has that ever stopped me.

As soon as I got to the hospital I walked right past the reception lady, who no longer asked questions. I ignored the perky little nurse and made my way to Haru's side.

I flinched again when I looked at her face. It wasn't as badly bruised now. The splotches were fading and I could see her beautiful skin returning to it's normal color. I don't know why she seemed so pale before.

"Haruhi." I said her name softly. "I'm... I'm here. It's... Hika" I sighed. " Geeze, I'm sorry, this sound so stupid. But... you know me."

I sat down on the chair beside her and brushed the tip of my fingers along her arm idly. The skin there wasn't so bad anymore.

She's so delicate, it's hard to believe she survived that fall.

"Haru. I know you aren't gonna hear this. Cuz well... I have been saying it every night now but, I'm sorry you know. I wish I could have been here when you woke up. I admit... I'm a coward."

"There is no arguing that point." A voice said behind me.

When I turned I found myself staring at two men. A blond dumb ass and a dark haired jackass. Both of them had glares directed at me. Suoh was balling his fists and slightly trembling, he probably wanted to kick my ass but I wasn't worried. I could take him.

Ootori spoke next. "I was under the impression you were banned from visiting Haruhi."

"What's it to you!?" I snapped. They had no idea what they were talking about. Haruhi and I are... well Haruhi and I. She is mine. Mine and Kaoru's. They... Ghaaaaaaa.

I stood up and gave them both a glare. I was so angry with them still. I could forgive Haru for everything but I didn't have to like it. I didn't have to like them.

"It's everything to us." Suoh said. "Your brother wants to protect her from you and your bad attitude. He put the order in to keep you away."

I stepped closer to Haruhi, in a stupid attempt to shield her sleeping body from them. "Whatever. Haru is the only one who can tell me she doesn't want to see me. Kaoru has nothing to do with this."

"Am I mistaken or weren't you the one who abandoned her?" Ootori asked.

"Never." I snapped again. There was a pause as I thought for a moment. "Okay so I was mad and I avoided her but... I was just worried about her being with you bastards."

"Don't even start that." Suoh said.

I growled in my throat. "Who do you think you are? You guys are just using her. I love her. I have always loved her. I would never use her like you assholes have. I won't hurt her like that."

There was an incredulous chuckle from that blond idiot. "Not a single one of us has hurt her more than you already have."

I opened my mouth to snap back but the sound failed me. I glanced down to Haruhi, then back at them.

I... I hurt her. I was avoiding her and she... she was only trying to protect me when she kept me in the dark. She did what I asked, when I told her not to tell me. She was being her as always and I was myself... as always.

Fuck me.

I balled up my fists again and tore my eyes away from them. Those asses had a point. How was I going to make up for everything. She won't even hear my apologies right now. She won't even remember this.

I need to swallow my pride and get over it. It's... just so hard.

"Will she forgive me?" I didn't mean for that to come out of my mouth. It was just a thought, and I didn't expect and answer. However... I got one.

"If you want to do something for her then come with me." Ootori said. "Tamaki, stay with Haruhi until Kaoru gets here."

I frowned at them but turned away to give Haru one last kiss on the lips. "I will make it up to you." I whispered in her ear then kissed the lobe gently. I am still afraid of causing her anymore pain, even though I know she won't feel it due to the massive amount of pain killers she is taking.

There was a hand on my shoulder, then a pat. "From what she told me about you boys. You mean everything to her." Suoh said. "She will forgive you."

I nodded. She means everything to me too. I blinked away a tear and looked at the guy. He smiled at me and laughed a little.

Maybe this Tamaki guy wasn't so bad. It annoyed me a little when he bent down to kiss her head but... I wasn't angry this time.

Shoving my hands into my pocket. I turned away and followed Ootori out of the room.

Haruhi – The next morning.

I saw blond hair when I opened my eyes. Tamaki was beaming down on me. "Morning beautiful."

I yawned and smiled. My face didn't feel so stiff now. I must be getting better.

Tamaki didn't give me a chance to respond because he kissed my lips. I responded in turn and felt a surprising laugh come up from inside.

It felt odd to be honest. I was in a hospital and yet, I was still on the job. Always on the job with these men.

He pulled away, his smiled fading when he noticed my laughing. "What?"

"It's nothing." I said through soft chuckles of bubbling humor. "Good Morning, Tamaki."

His face returned to normal as his smile came back. He was such a beautiful man. I looked behind his head and out the window.

It was a beautiful day. I can't wait to go home and get better. I need to get up and move. I need to talk with my surprisingly big family... including Hika. I need to whack Kao on the back of the head for banning his brother from my side and I need to kiss each and every one of the boys who stood by me.